the distance is killing me
produced by @jolst & @prodmichael
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lyrics:
i can feel it in my core its rotting down to my bones
every time i see u i'm reminded of home

cuz my home is you
the distance is killing me
in this solitude
i’ve never felt less free
cuz i'm shaking, i'm shaking, i'm finally shaking off the shackles
but i'm breaking, i'm breaking down in front of everyone
i can't take it, can't take it here love i feel so alone
i can fake it, i’ll fake it but baby you are my home

in the hoboken streetlights
i think i know what it feels like
longing for a love that you can’t have

but i’m just glad that i’m waking up in the morning
life’s always been frozen i’m just too good at ignoring
i lay for hours just wishing i could see you
i’d drive for eighty minutes if i could baby i need you
time is precious but i’d spend it all to watch us grow older
i don’t doubt it i’ll just wait until my bed isn't colder
something tells me that i'm not doin bad
i just need to hold on for a minute

i can feel it, fe-fe-feel it in my, down to my bones (down to my bones)
every time i see u, see u, -minded of home

cuz my home is you
the distance is killing me
in this solitude
i’ve never felt less free
cuz i'm shaking, i'm shaking, i'm finally shaking off the shackles
(i'm shaking, i'm shaking)
but i'm breaking, i'm breaking down in front of everyone
(i'm breaking, i'm breaking)
i can't take it, can't take it here love i feel so alone
(can't take it, can't take it)
i can fake it, i’ll fake it but baby you are my home
(i'll fake it, i'll fake it)

eightyminutes [jolst x michaelwarren]

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https://music.anxietyattacksmusic.com/worried-about-nothing

can we just pretend
that we planned everything the way it was
it wasn’t built in a day, but
more than anyone, you should know by now
that giving up hope takes time

can we just hang out? i don’t wanna talk right now
stare at myself
in the window
where’d the time go
used to see myself in you
But now i’d sell my soul for anything
that makes me feel like home isn’t so far away

can we just pretend
can we just pretend
can we just

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Can We Just Pretend

prod. https://soundcloud.com/sorrow_bringer
lyrics

i look up in the sky n i see red lights
i see my alter ego posted on their websites
developing a stronger ego n she like it
we got home ripped her right out of them lace tights
keep their eyes on my pocket like a bandit
quick to disappear n reappear like magic
i kno they kno who notahero is but they dont kno nick

n u dont kno a thing ab me do u
im not looking in ur eyes baby i can see thru u
whats a demon in disguise when u show it the truth
all my problems get defied when i enter the booth
n if i had to live my whole life as a recluse
id ask for u n Gods forgiveness while im tying the noose
i dream about the day i wake up see my face on the news
im daydreaming bout u baby love the way u seduce
its a long way down so i guess ill hold my breath
i got fighter pilots n generals calling orders in my head
n even tho the knifes taken out
im still taking damage from the arrow head
i think i need a break from swimming in the deep
take a walk in the shallow end

idk

i look up in the sky n i see red lights
i see my alter ego posted on their websites
developing a stronger ego n she like it
we got home ripped her right out of them lace tights
keep their eyes on my pocket like a bandit
quick to disappear n reappear like magic
i kno they kno who notahero is but they dont kno nick

raindrops pouring out
baby can u hear me out
i like to listen to the sounds of the street when the sun goes down
i listen to the sounds of their feet when they play it loud
felt the smile creeping up baby cuz im drunk rn
i cant even lie i feel better when i cant see
cuz all my thoughts seem to stand still when im dizzy
take a ride with me we can sip plenty
all these headlights r blending in with the city

arrow head [prod. sorrowbringer]

lyrics 

[maesk]
people like to talk
all that fake love
hopping out the car 
i only wanna see my day 1s

seeing new stuff 
theres no such thing as same fun
i swear no one rlly give a flying fuck

remeniscing bout the present
like its a star
the world is in my palm but i cant throw it farr

cant move
its like my body made of tar
its no use
im jus a puppet w a heart

they try spite me
but i won’t change for anyone

mayb im th one that u should keep ur heart w
or mayb im th one that need another heart stitch

cant move
its like my body made of tar
its no use
im jus a puppet w a heart

[shizukesa]
let me in
I prefer the words when they was cutting thru the skin
just tell me how to live
perforate my brain till my body lookin swiss
cuz i could never win
all I need is you

if you try to tell my vision lately youll be seeing blue
sippin baby I be sipping daily in my fuckin room
if she say she love me when she fuck know I feel it too

puppet w/a heart

puppet w/a heart ft shizukesa (flesh x taurs x rich James)

based this off of a creative writing project i been doin for school lol
+ @jolst
enjoy <3

lyrics:
i couldn’t wait another damn day
chains on my neck
and a heart in my vest
know i couldn’t, was a second too late
thought i was inept
wasn’t ever catching breath
whats a god to a man two faced
if it isn’t all thats left
could you find me before death
i’ve been down and i’ve been too baked
the problem isn’t next
is it pride to resurrect?

i’ve been thinking bout the both of us
is it hard to admit that its right for the both of us?
can a chance be a wish, if its right
for the bulk of us
i wish we weren’t breathing
take me down to hell
i’ve seen a demon
get me back to earth
i feel anemic
down and on my knees
while you were speaking

barking orders up my neck
just send me another check
once was written, laid to rest
i’ll be damned if i’m up next
but only on the cold nights, when the time’s slow
if im alright, its a bit old
i could draw up, all the plans i’ve got
but a funeral is more likely than not

i couldn’t wait another damn day
chains on my neck
and a heart in my vest
know i couldn’t, was a second too late
thought i was inept
wasn’t ever catching breath
whats a god to a man two faced
if it isn’t all thats left
could you find me before death
i’ve been down and i’ve been too baked
the problem isn’t next
is it pride to resurrect?
i’ve been thinking bout the-

project mercury [jolst]

prod neverforever

lyrics:
you liked my post from your art account
i think its been some years since we've spoken now
im too scared to reach out
ill probably just embarrass myself

it seems like you're doing well
you really should be proud of yourself

so give it your hardest
and give it hell
i know you can do it
my poor angel that fell

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my angel

WEB:
lately you don't hit my phone (aye)
you say i'm doing the most
i reply to your stories im sending you messages
baby you're just going ghost
you dont reply to my dms i go on ig and i see you be liking my posts
shit dont make sense hit me up in my dms
baby we could be friends at least
i don't know why you wont message me
lowkey i miss when you said you would marry me
lately it feels like you're trying to bury me
why do you hate me that shit's kinda scaring me
loud pack it rip me apart
im blowing clouds from the back of the car
spit lyrics in mics till they know who we are
bitch i'm reading the chats from when i got back
you spamming my phone
i can never relax
we left the function cause you couldn't act
i say one wrong thing and you overreact

Sensei:
Yeah my eyes glisten red, drugs in my soul
I got cracks on top my phone, I just needa go home
And all I see are checks and beer cans on my table 
Fuck im unstable, as I try to bellow on through 

Don’t fuck around 
I’m ripping bowl after bowl out my window listening to outside sounds 
Baby 
Felt the sting when I hit you yea my hand was sore
I was passed out on the couch but you had wanted more

Not us anymore,
You feed on top my flesh and rip me apart you carnivore
I’ve already felt this pain more than once before
I shove my can down my throat as I walk out the door

Cap.Kyle x ilyjade! - mana & monsters (p. Blunkq & fxckyeahako)

halfaheart!