embers w/ getbetter (pekarot)

based this off of a creative writing project i been doin for school lol
+ @jolst
enjoy <3

lyrics:
i couldn’t wait another damn day
chains on my neck
and a heart in my vest
know i couldn’t, was a second too late
thought i was inept
wasn’t ever catching breath
whats a god to a man two faced
if it isn’t all thats left
could you find me before death
i’ve been down and i’ve been too baked
the problem isn’t next
is it pride to resurrect?

i’ve been thinking bout the both of us
is it hard to admit that its right for the both of us?
can a chance be a wish, if its right
for the bulk of us
i wish we weren’t breathing
take me down to hell
i’ve seen a demon
get me back to earth
i feel anemic
down and on my knees
while you were speaking

barking orders up my neck
just send me another check
once was written, laid to rest
i’ll be damned if i’m up next
but only on the cold nights, when the time’s slow
if im alright, its a bit old
i could draw up, all the plans i’ve got
but a funeral is more likely than not

i couldn’t wait another damn day
chains on my neck
and a heart in my vest
know i couldn’t, was a second too late
thought i was inept
wasn’t ever catching breath
whats a god to a man two faced
if it isn’t all thats left
could you find me before death
i’ve been down and i’ve been too baked
the problem isn’t next
is it pride to resurrect?
i’ve been thinking bout the-

project mercury [jolst]

prod. tommy

yeh no one smoke the shit that i do i stg
u been in the line waiting on yo god
i own the whole club and nah u cant get in naw
i thot u was a W turns out u just a bitch brah
of course i dont mind smokin on some indo
if u gotta bounce dip out of the window
ill turn that shit up cause ion wanna hear u
fuck havin friends and fuck whats in the rearview.
fuck everybody fuck everybody im on drugs
fuck everybody fuck everybody yeah so what
i guess its true but idgas anyway
i try my best to be who i think i am like everyday 
turns out im just a heavyweight
i got the tolerance of a horse
call me petty first yh
i would luv to sip that drank
i would luv to make u think
turns out life is really easy to manipulate and please me yehhh;)
ive been out on da town!
if u wanna fuck around come find out, yh
i love every second, i love every second, ion need no weapon i got em ready!
HA HA! look at u, usin em, all them attachments
HELL NAH! dont, waste my time on ass scratching

(hook)

BITCH!
ive been up since i was online playing roblox getting no luck
YES I CAN :) 
write whateva i want so fuck u!
and if you dont wanna help yoself then i dont know u!
shut the fuck up... ._.
</3 i dont really know why they thought i would be sober </3
i dont want a lambo, i just want a white rover
when you see me on the billboard you'll know that i mattered.
OMG i love her! but im so damn bad at this ;/
OMG i W her! how did i even manage this ?
i would love to smoke that gas, and i would love to smoke that pack ^-^
but most people are jus some rats, and i dont know how 2 attack..
EVERYBODY GOT SOME PROBLEMS OF THEY OWN
AND THEY'LL NEVER TALK ABOUT IT UNLESS THEY HOME
AND THEY ARE ALWAYS FUCKING PUSSY IN THEIR DOME
I WOULD LOVE TO SEE YOU TRY ME I WILL SEND YO ASS HOME.

how to attack

(2x)
coffee and weed keep me up every day 
i took pill, so i am numb and i could say that i’m ok 
drink away all of my sorrows, cause i love the way it taste 
one day that’ll be the death of me in my grave i will lay 

1 v 1 my johnson, you know she just gon swallow it
lbx my shawty really gotta buncha battle tech
yu-gi-oh i’m showing off that i got the master deck 
some of these emos was talking had to keep ‘em in check 
aye, smokin on straight gas i can drive a whip with it 
aye, y’all moves look reflected, like a wobbuffet 
aye, copycat y’all really look like boba fett 
hey, my flow just too crazy like a maniac 

coffee and weed keep me up every day 
i took pill, so i am numb and i could say that i’m ok 
drink away all of my sorrows, cause i love the way it taste 
one day that’ll be the death of me in my grave i will lay

COFFEE N WEED (forgetaboutme)

Lyrics🎱

Broken down inside 
With a smile on my face 
Perfection in facades 
And only family knows it's fake 
Today I woke up and cried 
What a way to start my day 
By now I won't reply 
You can watch me fade away 
I can feel the tension rise 
Watch the smile. Wipe off my face 
Feeling stressed and sick at night 
Wasting time and sleeping late 
Reminiscing pillow fights 
And the way she'd say my name 
Could explain but I won't try 
I just always felt so safe

I'm better now 
At least I tell myself 
I settled down 
Oh, at least that's what I say to myself

I cry when alone
But I hate a convention
I stick to my bong
Jus to keep out the tension
I fuck up my gut
But I'm teaching a lesson
I'm throwing up blood
Then I'm asking for blessings
fuck up of son
but I'm proud and I wear it
i hate who I am
and I struggle to bear it
My momma's my world
Buy her diamonds by karrots
despite what you heard
should have quit while you could of
show her disrespect
then you're meeting the bullet
Despite if I do too,
then at least I could do it
I've been on my come up
this dream I can't lose it

I been reading a lot
And watch it reflect
I been staying calm
steady taking my meds
another day, a new song
to your ears I infect
my lyrics go deep
some shit you can't dissect
I lost half my face
From like 2 wrecks
I'm pissed off tonight
couldn't you guess 
I keep marijuana
In my nightstand 
I won't kiss her
Till' I know it feels right
she won't let me leave
But it's alright
I don't feel at home
Until it hit night
weed and cheap cologne
I bet I smell nice

safe (branwen)

[+ prodvelvet + saintttbeats]

Tryna live with the silence 
You’re holding me hostage tonight 

Break free, I’m feeling angry 

Tryna deal with the options
Hogtied deep fuckin’ up my apartment 

When it said and done hope you know I ain’t lost it 

Wait for someone to help 
I’m buried deep in the ground 
Nailed to the coffin doom 

Your dreams are lost in the luminescent 
Fires and doom 

Of how to live with the rules

Teeth (interlude)

WEB:
lately you don't hit my phone (aye)
you say i'm doing the most
i reply to your stories im sending you messages
baby you're just going ghost
you dont reply to my dms i go on ig and i see you be liking my posts
shit dont make sense hit me up in my dms
baby we could be friends at least
i don't know why you wont message me
lowkey i miss when you said you would marry me
lately it feels like you're trying to bury me
why do you hate me that shit's kinda scaring me
loud pack it rip me apart
im blowing clouds from the back of the car
spit lyrics in mics till they know who we are
bitch i'm reading the chats from when i got back
you spamming my phone
i can never relax
we left the function cause you couldn't act
i say one wrong thing and you overreact

Sensei:
Yeah my eyes glisten red, drugs in my soul
I got cracks on top my phone, I just needa go home
And all I see are checks and beer cans on my table 
Fuck im unstable, as I try to bellow on through 

Don’t fuck around 
I’m ripping bowl after bowl out my window listening to outside sounds 
Baby 
Felt the sting when I hit you yea my hand was sore
I was passed out on the couch but you had wanted more

Not us anymore,
You feed on top my flesh and rip me apart you carnivore
I’ve already felt this pain more than once before
I shove my can down my throat as I walk out the door

Web & Sensei - ive already felt this pain more than once before (prod yonah)

prod plunkq & fxckyeahako
performed by @capkyle & @ilyjadee

Cap.Kyle x ilyjade! - mana & monsters (p. Blunkq & fxckyeahako)

@pleasefindhelp
(prod. fiftyzeros & mollyred)

outro

exitallure - right here (twohvns)

Last post imma make for a while, gotta lock in for Uni. Shoutout my brotha Slzee (currently doesnt have a soundcloud page but will soon)

Cap.Kyle x ilyjade! - mana & monsters (p. Blunkq & fxckyeahako)

halfaheart!