recorded in 1 take in a closet
when i was 13 i was in a guitar center trying out thinlines all day bc they were my fave guitar and the ja-90 came out and i really wanted it. i got something similar (and nicer) 8 years later and i named him benjamin. 

benjamin
dont let me forget that summer
benjamin
remind me that i can do better
benjamin
i have never been so glad to be afraid

benjamin
impulse just becomes decision way to quick for me to even know my limit
i've been staring at the signs but i could never read them
you're a language i could never comprehend
did you even think that i could ever have it in me
just to pack 2 bags and fly out to a monster city
every passing minute makes me feel more tiny and more glad to be alive
or just glad to be alive

there's a high from being miserable and jaded
finding sounding boards for all of your frustrations
you confirm your biggest fears to the most pragmatic ears
and them pretend that it could somehow make you safe
but when i am around you i am nervous screaming silently while scanning every detail of your face
all this fear that i will never really feel this way again
lights the fire that burns me into being brave

you're my fleeting summer fuck up
i'm your tropical mistake
i have never been more glad to be afraid

benjamin

Convenor, The Polaris Project
Galit sa Agency FB

I'm still here. 
I'll be alive next year.

side-project

half-lit was made in an attempt to channel my post-midnight loneliness into something else ––– and it is something else altogether: a way to reach other people. a way to revel in collective sadness. suddenly i'm not as lonely. - b

http://soundcloud.com/bpvalenzuela
