"i have all the problems i need right here !"

(featuring @bhproducer & @singin-in-the-rain)

written and produced by self discovery, bh & stormkloud
mixed and mastered by self discovery

// lyrics

[bh]
i'm feeling like i'm spinning right back uh
i'm sorry if i'm losing my track but
i'm escaping all these places
i am mentally trapped in my head and it's killing me
everybody knows where i'm at uh
oversharing, that's my bad
i hope that i don't fall behind the race
i'm going at my pace i'm going at my pace

there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home

[self discovery]
put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

[stormkloud]
how do i fix myself and
how do i call for help
i'm scared
all familiar but i feel it
i know this has to quit
so how do i pump the brakes
yeah we could just sit and wait
right here
so i wonder if there's time for me
to stop and realize
it's not really something i can change
and i'm sick of wasting all my range
when new places get old
and old faces i told
to watch out for greatness
oh, how bold !
i think i'm better off
sticking to what i know

[self discovery]
there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home
but i'm scared i'll be the last one left
to share my story
i'll bite my tongue
it's for the lore
should i be wary
of whom i've shared my side
prepared to be the last one left
in purgatory
i'll hold my tongue
it's for my story
it's fair to say that
guilt has been my guide !

put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

spawnpoint ! (feat. bh & StormKloud)

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I started writing this song in the spring of ’22. This time was spent listening to the music of Yuki Kaneko and Manuella Blackburn while immersing myself in the flowering local grasslands. I was struck by the delicate, secluded intimacy of Yuki’s album “rut”, the jaw-dropping detail of Manuella’s “Formes audibles”, and how this music accentuated the surrounding landscape. I tried to capture this feeling and the sense of renewal it inspired while honoring these wonderful artists.

https://alexanderpanos.com

art in collaboration with Zachary Schwadel
instagram.com/zschwadel/

includes a sample of the title track from "rut" (and/OAR, 2008) by Yuki Kaneko
instagram.com/yuki_kaneko_bd/
https://www.and-oar.org/moar_2.html
many thanks to Yuki for generously allowing its inclusion!

aperture, for meadow

with @superrobekitty

I gotta confess
I really thought I couldn't fail again
Run the cycle till it breaks, yeah
All these feelings start to coalesce
It's just all the same

I feel so gone
I can’t be here
I don’t want to
Leave me so high
Nothing's left to lose

I keep wasting love
I'm insatiable
No one, no one could ever
Keep me from the wall
It could break the fall
Talk me down

Nobody
Knows why
Look around like you think
You're gonna see the signs
Keep me from the wall
It could break the fall
Talk me down

I feel like a ghost
While all of my thoughts
Are floating all around me
I couldn’t keep it (keep it)
I couldn’t care to try

So point to the sky
And call it real loud
And I will try to make it right
I will try
Just one more time

I feel so gone
I can’t be here
I don’t want to
Leave me so high
Nothing's left to lo-

I keep wasting love
I'm insatiable
No one, no one could ever
Keep me from the wall
It could break the fall
Talk me down

Nobody
Knows why
Look around like you think
You're gonna see the signs
Keep me from the wall
It could break the fall
Talk me down

Talk me down
Talk me down
Talk me down
Talk me down

shutter

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breakthefall (with Suroki)

All music from 2021 / very early 2022
Who knows if any will be done

0:00 
       @user_n33t & Viznode - ID 1

2:09
       ID - ID (Viznode Remix)

2:28
       Viznode - sketch made up of a bunch of other IDs

3:38
       Viznode - 8.1.1

4:02
       ZUN - Sakura, Sakura ~ Japanize Dream (@officialcodly, Viznode & @project_zy Remix) [Viznode's Reversed Outro Edit]
              Released Version: https://soundcloud.com/officialcodly/yuyuko

4:31
       @user_n33t & Viznode - ID 2

5:34
       Viznode - 11.10.1

6:22
       Viznode - 6.26.1.2
       + Viznode - 1.14.1
       + @kitefield & Viznode - ID

6:46
       @user_n33t & Viznode - ID 3

7:14
       Viznode - 11.24.1.3

7:26
       Viznode - 7.5.1.3

7:31
       @Nelyom & Viznode - ID

7:42
       Viznode - 3.20.1

8:02
       @dystopian-tanuki - A song for the empty world (Viznode Orchestration)
              Original: https://soundcloud.com/dystopian-tanuki/a-song-for-the-empty-world

Is There Really No Happiness? but it's just my voice

made in 24 hours as part of FORM's "All Nighter 9" event!

@aaronkusnier

@adamdaylight

@echoriftmusic
https://open.spotify.com/artist/149ZQHCdlozrsXWNZ7uc6O?si=fDWIDGzBSSGl0M7qGKhNYA

@felimos
https://twitter.com/felimosmusic
https://instagram.com/felimosmusic

idol envy!
https://twitter.com/idol_envy

@snow_chant
https://twitter.com/snowchant
------------------

There's a fellow in the rearview
Causing traffic on the paper road
All the origami birds were flying
And I don't think I'll start the motors just yet

I know, I know
I know, I know

Reflections in the rearview
I fell out with all the blue
I still don't quite understand
Keeping focus (I still don't quite understand)
I can't help but reminisce

What more can I prove?

I know, I know
I know, I know

aararo, adam daylight, Echorift, Felimos, idol envy!, Snow Chant - Ongoing Traffic (AN9)

"I hope you have the courage to know when to end things. And I hope you have the courage to see endings as beautiful, transformative stepping stones. I hope you have the courage to let love, and opportunity move through you like rain. To not grip, or seek to change it, to not ask people or circumstances to be more than they can be for you. I hope you have the courage to see endings as the cornerstones of the chapters that changed you, without needing them to be a part of the rest of your story. And when that is done, I hope you have the courage to give yourself closure. To be your own home."

originally written in under 12 hours during FORM's event All Nighter 9

bandcamp

Be your own home

made in 24 hours for FORM's 'All Nighter 9'

~frogstand~

xia
https://soundcloud.com/xiapng
https://x.com/xiapng
https://open.spotify.com/artist/5eMvam2MEQDkCYFkB8Jmz0
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/xia/1533059454

j~
https://soundcloud.com/0x2_j
https://www.youtube.com/@0x2_j
https://x.com/0x2_j

kanalia
https://soundcloud.com/kanalia_s
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmgqVkG7vJHXnr4Q8PfDsQg
https://open.spotify.com/artist/2DsUKPSmFkrl2nutCtHKND
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/kanalia/1692800322

kaguraa
https://soundcloud.com/kaguraarden
https://x.com/kaguraarden
https://open.spotify.com/artist/6BuzhiPa4KuMa4d2ukrjf8

aquoferne
https://x.com/aquoferne
https://www.youtube.com/@aquoferne
https://open.spotify.com/artist/5PF48i4WX2w7Vs7JEsZbCO
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/aquoferne/1624819548

BoffleFloffle
https://soundcloud.com/bofflefloffle_music
https://x.com/boffle_floffle
https://open.spotify.com/artist/5sLjzITlIXlenwVWL9r24g
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/bofflefloffle/1566234862

glasse
https://soundcloud.com/glassemusic
https://x.com/glassemusic
https://open.spotify.com/artist/6cM76AtiSEkTGnO2KwtlUQ
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/glasse/1529175033

Patterns
https://x.com/PrettyPatterns_
https://www.youtube.com/@PrettyPatterns
https://open.spotify.com/artist/4qwvSfN4vvXmOfepMFSCeX
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/pretty-patterns/1484834805

Riemann
https://soundcloud.com/riemannriemann
https://x.com/riemannmusic
https://open.spotify.com/artist/2rdSLSPhVP2N3wfSD2tFGJ
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/riemann/1703091029

Coffee Run
https://soundcloud.com/itscoffeerun
https://www.youtube.com/@itscoffeerun
https://open.spotify.com/artist/3I96p37wLbMyz97IqpsG19
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/coffee-run/1504269542

-- 

lyrics

Won’t ever let go
Don’t go in alone

Looking from afar
Wishing to be near
Close so I could hear 
Your heart beat

Skies of glass and metal
Bolted to my chest
Constricting me to pieces

And I can’t breathe
All this asphalt
You set fire to my heart
Now it’s ash, fall

All this love just to lose it all
Now I’m walking down this road just to hear your call

If you were here (I’d do the talking)
Would it make a difference (‘Cause I’m so in love with you)
The voices seem so endless (‘Cause I’m so in love)
I’m stranded here (Far away)
Frozen in this winter
Hoping for your fire

Running out of time
Wishing I could find you again
Amidst the ice

Laying down my life 
Just to see a sign that you’re still here
Revive my light
 
Spiraling again
Scaling down this mountain  
It cradles my descent

The drifting sea of pine
Holding clouds of snow
Evergreen, immortal 
I’ll never let you go
I’ll never let you go

Don’t ever let go
Don’t leave me alone

Running out of time
Wishing I could find you again
Amidst the ice

Laying down my life 
Just to see a sign that you’re still here
Revive my light

There you are at last 
Shimmering through the glass
Here am I, again
Embraced by all that ends 

The drifting sea of pine
Holding clouds of snow
Evergreen, immortal 
I’ll never let you--

frogstand presents 'Evergreen Sea'

We didn't make it to ANV9 this year, but heyy, at least we can make our first debut!

-akebi!
gaze
https://soundcloud.com/heisgaze
https://x.com/heisgazee

Makenai
https://soundcloud.com/mknai
https://x.com/mkenaiii
https://www.instagram.com/mkenaii/

morethanahalf
https://soundcloud.com/morethanahalf
https://x.com/morethanahalfff
https://www.instagram.com/morethanahalfmusic/

kia.
https://soundcloud.com/kiakiaakiaaa
https://x.com/kiakiaakiaaaa
https://www.instagram.com/kiakiaakiaaaa/

aeon
https://soundcloud.com/aeonys
https://x.com/notaeonys
https://www.instagram.com/aeon.ys/

karunochi
https://soundcloud.com/karunochi
https://x.com/karunochi

SoRumi
https://soundcloud.com/sorumi1
https://x.com/SoRumi169
https://www.instagram.com/sorumi.1/

(lyric)
My reflection's waiting to decay 
And all your memories will fade again 
Home, you'll find me there I'm far away 
A momentary reason to care 
And I wish to never feel again 
Those boring sleepless nights 
Oh, surely you can bring me down 
Or laugh with me 'til night

If I could find my way back home again 
And maybe I'd be living today
If it wasn't for you
I'll be trapped in the dark 
In those boring sleepless nights 
Now I started to feel love again 
It's a spark of fading light

vocals by karunochi
mastering by Makenai

Memento mori.【ANV9】

https://fanlink.tv/ifyourewithme

originally made for FORM's 'All Nighter 9'


miocene memorial garden
@cash-official @acloudyskye @viznode @suji_scared @ejtheloser @shameless_wav @jhlofficixl @gethosyne

visuals by @gethosyne, @suji_scared @viznode & https://x.com/_exaflares

IF YOU'RE WITH ME

19 (he/him)
⊏/⊐

https://ffm.bio/halftrue

breakthefall (with Suroki)

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