crazy how accurate these lyrics are to me. love u 

HOW I FEEL EVERYDAY FOR YEARS

𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐲𝐬𝐨𝐧<3

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
cant even snap back 2 this snapchat
got 80 ounce in this backpack
making lame shit on this old mac
while my friends out in their pontiac
how are you so contagious
holding back on my anguish
'cardi rocks when im anxious
blood n mud on these pages
she dont talk but her eyes flirt
louis v n that black skirt
pulling up in that chrysler
bloody shirt n my chest hurts

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊. 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

ep w/ bry soon also~ if you've read this far then thank you all sm for all of the support this past year, and just in general if you listen to any of my stuff. it genuinely means the whole world. ily all sm<3

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Fix My Tone (prodbyraul)

https://open.spotify.com/artist/6NFHn7VH6jgV2nVWqW2bsa?si=4GL1fS_8Q7iRYjWf_FlXBw

https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s
https://soundcloud.com/yung-jza-shawty

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6bt08gOCHM

lyrics: 

poppy tears: 

everything is a lie and nothing here is true 
how I feel inside and what meant to you
when I broke my spine I lay inside my room 
tried to take my life before a flower could bloom

where you go when I fell into your heart 
in a galaxy alone I found your star 
she said are you with it, I said if you are 
she be going for my neck like a vampire x 2

my dark red blood drips on your skin 
my heart holds love just deep within x 2

9TAILS:

one side of my pillows always cold 
cant sleep and i thought you should know
summer heat seeps in through the windows
2 o clock and youre still not home 

2 o clock and im still 
heard the ring but i cant find the phone
summer heat seeps in through the windows
3 o clock and youre still not home

4 o clock and im in my zone
fuck out my room can you please not touch me
she said she wanna know how to feel empty
if thats the case then just watch me

they always want me to meet their friends
why would i do that if i dont have any of them
i abandoned everyone i dont wanna start again
im still learning bout myself so i wont let no body in

pour it up
roll it up
smoke it up
drank

fade away
looking like
my eyes
sank

feeling worse
than i look
think i might
faint

feel myself
coming down
roll some more
stank

what you mean you cant see me anymore
slow it down tell me what you yelling for
say to quit i think i might just roll some more
3 grams to a zig couldnt pack more

❄︎ ✰ ❄︎ ✰ ❄︎

where you go w/ 9TAILS (prod. YungJZA)[visuals in description]

produced by @ihateshinigami
engineered by heartbreak jake and shinigami
written and performed by macho randy and shinigami

I'm so sorry for what I did last night at that party with her :(

SHINIGAMI & MACHO RANDY "IDK why I'm like this"

Every single night
I'm up thinking bout my life
What causes all the pain I feel inside?
Can't ever escape
Constant battles in my mind
Don't feel human
Half the time
Walking all alone
Get along with no one else
I don't even like my fucking self
Look up at the sky
Asking where the fuck am I?
Whats the point to even try?

Am I really from here?
In this galaxy
Every time I look for love
It's a catastrophe
I know I could never be
What they asked of me
I still wanna help myself
Discover inner peace

Depression brings me underneath
I go invisible
I don't talk to anyone
I know it's pitiful
Some days I feel so miserable
I wish I wasn't here
Anxiety is killing me
It's time to disappear

Running out of time
Lately feel I'm running out of time
Running from the demons in my mind
I can't get away
Speeding
Like I'm driving in a race
One day hope I'm driving
In a wraith

Running out of time
Lately feel I'm running out of time
Running from the demons in my mind
I can't get away
Speeding
Like I'm driving in a race
One day hope I'm driving
In a wraith
Don't care what they say
Lately feel like everyone is fake
Lately they been lying to my face
That is not okay
You don't understand the pain you cause
Used to see the light
Now I am lost
I am lost
I am lost

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inner peace (prod. xtravulous)

prod. Anxiety Attacks! x cFee! x Bruce Leen
guitar/mix/master: Anxiety Attacks!
IG: www.instagram.com/ANXIETYxATTACKS/
Twitter: twitter.com/ANXIETYxATTACKS

LYRICS:
I'm sorry for the things I said
I'm sorry bout the shit I did
I lose my mind just tryna sleep at night
So take my hand or take my life
Baby I'm the Heart & you're the Knife
I've been out of reach & out of sight
but if there's one thing keeping me alive,
thinking maybe one day you'll be mine
So take my hand or take my life
Baby I'm the Heart & you're the Knife
I've been out of reach & out of sight
but if there's one thing keeping me alive...

it's alright, it's alright, it's alright, yeah
it's only right I spend some time by your side, yeah
you're feeling helpless & you're in denial
I'm feeling selfish when I'm suicidal
you're feeling helpless & you're in denial
I'm feeling selfish when I'm suicidal
you know I'll be there if you need me, 
I'll be here as long as I'm breathing
heaven down to hell when you're leaving, 
holding onto hope, & I'm thinking ya...

I'm sorry for the things I said
I'm sorry bout the shit I did
I lose my mind just tryna sleep at night
So take my hand or take my life
Baby I'm the Heart & you're the Knife
I've been out of reach & out of sight
but if there's one thing keeping me alive,
thinking maybe one day you'll be mine
So take my hand or take my life
Baby I'm the Heart & you're the Knife
I've been out of reach & out of sight
but if there's one thing keeping me alive...

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The Heart & The Knife

i'll be ok this time

I don’t wanna talk talk talk
I’ve been getting bands on my own
I’ve been on the road all day long
I don’t wanna do this no more

I don’t wanna talk talk talk
I’ve been getting bands on my own
I look at the mud like my home
I don’t wanna do that no more

I been dippin in and out
This bag like all day
Surprised I didn’t OD
I know that’s fucked up
Sometimes wish that it was me
And that he woke up
To be honest I’m just
tryina keep my chin up
Otherwise the waves will cast another fossil
Otherwise I’ll end how I never want to
Feel the pressure getting stronger
But I have to
I’ve been going thru it all
Because I have to

Because I have to
Because I have to
I’ve been going thru it all 
Because I have to

I’ve been getting bands on my own
I’ve been on the road all day long
I don’t wanna do this no more

I don’t wanna talk talk talk
I’ve been getting bands on my own
I look at the mud like my home
I don’t wanna do that no more

Because I have to
Because I have to
I’ve been going thru it all
Because I have to

93FEETOFSMOKE - thru it all (prod. Reaper)

i try
to keep the things that i feel hidden inside
it looks like everythings alright from the outside looking in
outside looking in

i cried
when i walked away from you it didnt feel right
now im back inside the place where time just flies by
watching shooting stars explode into the night sky

maybe everything will be fine if i jus stay here for the night
where did all the time go
used to spend my days in ur bed like it was my room
now im wide awake and i have nowhere else to hide to

walking between all the street lights
babygirl u kno its my time
one wrong turn and its all over
ill never forget this octobers

wrist slit from the diamond cuts
bitch im drained as fuck
i could never give a fuck
i feel like im bladee
red lights in the distance
i been off them sad blunts
never passed a piss test

shooting stars! [prod. jay vee]

LAST DAY OF HIGHSCHOOL :)

(prod. @nejdos)

you just keep wasting all my time
and we don't talk but i can't get you outta my mind
my heart my world revolves around you
it's ok if i were you i would hate me too

thinking with my heart throw it out on the table
so everyone can see yah i know im unstable
tip toe
4 steps to the window
free falling
four stories down
grab my halo
and pull me out the ground
just so i can say hey mom
get me outta here i wanna leave
i can't stay long
cake walk
never said it was easy
and shit talk me you'll see my name on your tv

you can spend a pretty penny on a hoe round here
and fuck with me best bet you'll get a song next week
and i hate you i guess that you still hate me
and you can throw me in the gutter with the trash bitch i still catch heat
and you fuck with me
and ima make it to the top on my own two feet
and i don't need you 
give me one more year
and you'll be eating out my hand 
feed the streets bitch i'll feed you

thinking with my heart throw it out on the table
so everyone can see yah i know im unstable
tip toe
4 steps to the window
free falling
four stories down
grab my halo
and pull me out the ground
just so i can say hey mom
get me outta here i wanna leave
i can't stay long
cakewalk
never said it was easy
and shit talk me you'll see my name on your tv

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My World (prod. nejdos)

huge thanks to these two ♥ @prodbybrody & @sinxi 
Mix and master by @sinxi and @venaz7


hope you guys like it ♥


lyrics: 
i don't even know why you still care
i know i fucked up and i can't make it right
everything just fades
nothing stays the same
and i'm not sure we can back this time

you hurt me so bad i can't help this
you took it too far
now were too far gone
it's been so hard
sorry that we fell apart
will this stay forever

i know these months been so hard i can't


I just saw your fuckin face in my dreams again 
Loss of appetite cos I don’t feel the fuckin same 
Rollin through my memories depicting where I tried to make 
Sense of what was happening instead of saying hey wait 
You can’t be the one that got away I
Love you just the same I won’t fake it 
Tell me why you care why’d you say that? 
Loss of words I can’t forget the feelings that I felt in the moment


can't go away
and go don't go away
yeah i need you to stay

stuck

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stuck feat. Sinxi (prod. brody)

@hammy

lyrics:

know she see me scoring 
4 in the morning
i should be asleep, it don’t look like i’m ignoring
candles at my feet
counting bands like i’m hoarding 
i can’t get attached to results and rewardings
sometimes i feel broken 
that’s why i been saving up my potions 
and i’m always gonna change i’m in motion 
i can’t keep the light i’m not good with my devotion 
got divided i’m the quotient 

always in the forest or the park 
Juliet we’re apart
when i’m 3d i play my part 
on the tree in the stars 

rolling up this flower 
i got magic powers 
u can wear my rings now 
everything is ours 
meeting with the fairies 
feel like close encounters 
silver left a burn on my wrist
smokin sour 
reborn in an hour 

hammy:
always smoking loud
dont wanna hear u now
after hours at the park im just walking round
off a heavy dose
im such a lonely ghost
deep inside the ground is where i wanna go
underneath the dirt and inside the flames
nothing of me left only ash remains
i got frozen blood running thru my veins
Vivienne charms on my silver chain

always in the forest or the park 
Juliet we’re apart
when i’m 3d i play my part 
on the tree in the stars

motion w/ hamilton

Going insane
Imma fiend
I can't fucking stop it
Always staring at my screen
I wanna drop it down

When i think about it all
I wanna end it
Always messy in my head
I'm feeling manic now

Always lonely and confused
I don't what the fuck to do
All my friends keep falling through
But now I know that's nothing new

Bitch I made it by myself
I don't need your fucking help
I'd be better off in hell
Always hiding my shell
Wishing I was someone else
Oh well oh well
I'm just playing with the cards
That I was dealt

Always gamble with my life
This game is do or die
So I roll the fucking dice
And you can't live it twice
So I'm up like every night
I wanna feel alive
But I know I'm not alright
I know I'm not alright

Going insane
Imma fiend
I can't fucking stop it
Always staring at my screen
I wanna drop it down

When I think about it all
I wanna end it
Always messy in my head
I'm feeling manic now

Always lonely and confused
I don't what the fuck to do
All my friends keep falling through
But now I know that's nothing new

when i think about it all (prod. malloy)

Walking with my head down
And my hopes up
Always tired
Of feeling so stuck
Imma no one
And I know it
I got way to many flaws
I can't hide it

Walking with my head down
And my hopes up
Always tired
Of feeling so stuck
Imma no one
And I know it
I got way to many flaws
I can't hide it

I got way to many problems
I can't deal with them at once
Voices in my head
Always say I'm not enough
Roll another spliff
And you know I spark it up
It's hard for me to trust
When you cover me in cuts
Acting like you gave a fuck
But deep down inside
I know you hate my guts
And everything about me
All you do is doubt me
Imma make you sorry

Always stressin
Always second guessing
Lost inside my life
I got no direction
So imma do these drugs
Till I'm seeing heaven
Waking up in hell
I don't know what happened
Demons at my door
And they always knocking
When I try to sleep
They tell me I'm nothing
And it's driving me crazy
I feel like everybody hate me

Walking with my head down
And my hopes up
Always tired
Of feeling so stuck
Imma no one
And I know it
I got way to many flaws
I can't hide it

Walking with my head down
And my hopes up
Always tired
Of feeling so stuck
Imma no one
And I know it
I got way to many flaws
I can't hide it

I got way to many problems
I can't deal with them at once
Voices in my head
Always say I'm not enough
Roll another spliff
And you know I spark it up
It's hard for me to trust
When you cover me in cuts

Acting like you gave a fuck
But deep down inside
I know you hate my guts
And everything about me
All you do is doubt me
Imma make you sorry

cuts (prod. jody)

I'm dying to tell you
How I feel about you
I can't sleep
I can't eat
I want you
To want me
I feel cold
And lonely
Got scars on my body
Blood stains up on my sleeves
Silver on my white teeth

I'm dying to tell you
How I feel about you
I can't sleep
I can't eat
I want you
To want me
I feel cold
And lonely
Got scars on my body
Blood stains up on my sleeves
Silver on my white teeth  

Silvertab jeans
With the Vivienne's on me
No sleep
I'm a strung out zombie
Can't count the grams I'm burning
5am in the morning
Pull up on the beat I burned it
Talk bad bout me
I heard it
But when I come around
It's quiet
When I come around
It's silent

Paranoid shy and anxious
I don't want no new friendships
All they do is make me nervous
Staying lowkey and cautious
A lot of people out here toxic
They never got your best interest
But I already know how it is
I've been on my own since a kid

I've been alone
For so long
Don't know the place I belong
Just floating round like a ghost
I can't let anyone close
I'm crying on my cracked screen
Wishing you would hear me
Wish I could rest in peace
Lay me down underneath

I'm dying to tell you
How I feel about you
I can't sleep
I can't eat
I want you
To want me
I feel cold
And lonely
Got scars on my body
Blood stains up on my sleeves
Silver on my white teeth 

I'm dying to tell you
How I feel about you
I can't sleep
I can't eat
I want you
To want me
I feel cold
And lonely
Got scars on my body
Blood stains up on my sleeves
Silver on my white teeth 

Silvertab jeans
With the Vivienne's on me
No sleep
I'm a strung out zombie
Can't count the grams I'm burning
5am in the morning
Pull up on the beat I burned it
Talk bad bout me
I heard it
But when I come around
It's quiet
When I come around
It's silent

inner peace (prod. xtravulous)

hamltn

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