Last 4ever 🖤

all alone in my room
i'm feeling down again
i don't know what to say
it's getting bad again
all i know is i need to try my best
to get out of this hole i put myself in
she's my everything
she's all i've ever wanted
when i am with her
i feel like i'm important
i feel alive when i'm in her arms
she makes me want to live
how did we get this far
without me ruining it all
i'm scared that i'll ruin it all
but i swear i try my best
but i'm always such a mess
yea
i wish that i could love myself as much i love you
you're my everything
you're everything i need
and you're everything i want
when i'm down i tend to hide
but i'm tryna change
i wish i didnt hate myself
somedays i feel like i should just kill myself
but then i think of you and it all feels worth it
but right now i feel worthless
i feel so worthless
you make it worth it
just hold me
tell me that i'll be okay

it's getting bad again

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it's getting bad again (prod. lil biscuit)

lyrics: 

(steadysuffer)

ya my baby came thru in my sweater
i was in the back countin cheddar 
tryna figure out if we're together
n i pull up in a porsche now
suicide doors but my neck cost more now
i bet u wish u never left me
see me on the big screen 
jumpin out of buildings
everybody tryna call me 
catch me on stage w/ my gang ya thas all me

(baby noah)

shout out to my gang ya it's all me
when I was on stage i know u saw me
shout out to my lover
matter fact shout out steadysuffer 
ya I just hang myself from the ceiling
ion even think that i have feelings 
n i know that he doesn't do it better
n when it gets colder u can wear my sweater
ya ah

(steadysuffer)

ya I feel like Bruce Wayne 
everybody's takin pictures 
like i'm 2chainz in a castle
well baby I'm bashful 
baby i didn't mean to be an asshole
everyone knows about
how it really went down
in the back of the house
in the back of the house

ya my baby came thru in my sweater
i was in the back countin cheddar 
tryna figure out if we're together
n i pull up in a porsche now
suicide doors but my neck cost more now
i bet u wish u never left me
see me on the big screen 
jumpin out of buildings
everybody tryna call me 
catch me on stage w/ my gang ya thas all me

my sweater ft. Baby Noah (prod. RODGER ★☆)

teach me how to lose [prod martensite & solorun]

watch it all fall down (prod. yunnygoldz)

just something laying around

no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
just a little bit closer to the vein
that'll be okay
no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
a little bit closer to the vein
i'll be okay

no i'm not fine
don't tell me that it's better this way
i miss your hair, when it falls on my face
you're the right one, shoulda let you in though
i'm in a cycle, flowin like the wind blow
but you missed it now you're all up in my business
hit the right lane now you switched up doin cocaine hung over
she still rockin chokers but my shawty rockin boulders 
ya you don't know her

no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
a little bit closer to the vein
i'll be okay
no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
just a little bit closer to the vein
that'll be okay

now i got a gun to my head
i don't really give a fuck 
cause i feel so cold
i got time on my hands 
no blood on my knife
but i feel so cold
and i came thru in a fast pace 
all eyes in the hallway
with a past tense demon 
i feel his teeth sink into my veins
but i feel like i'm a nothing
suffer the name, so stuffy
tell me i'm facing something

my baby so goth got lipstick on my blunt
and now she left me i'm like wtf
i'm so toxic, you could catch me at the mall in hot topic

no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
just a little bit closer to the vein
that'll be okay
no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
a little bit closer to the vein
i'll be okay

don't enter pt. 2 (prod. pretty boy ron)

lyrics: 
we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

left my tears on the nightstand
eyes wide open
sirens in the distance
digital world left me
feeling fuckin distant
i came back feeling like im nonexistent

feel like my mind is changing
fading away from the high i was chasing
looking at the problems im evading
think ill die inside this room instead of forever decaying

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

why is it so hard to kick these habits
why am i melodramatic
better off left in the past tense
ill make like a ghoul and vanish x2

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

colling ave [prod 4evr + tax purposes]

ft. @steadysuffer & @violeteyezmusic

prod. @mothfries

lyrics:

1080p dreams:

I still feel your blade from getting stabbed in the back
every day sets the stage for a panic attack
I wake up in the morning, don't know how to react
so my mind slowly builds to a panic attack
it just hit me one time
collapsing to the floor and it isn't even lunch time
I woke up this morning, didn't know how to react
my whole life's like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
no more serenity, I'll never end up getting it back

banging my head against the wall
I just don't wanna feel anything at all
I'm getting ready for the fall 
spiking my own drinks with the methyl alcohol
always burdened by my actions
can't stop dwelling on all my past awkward social interactions
convince myself they never happened
memories I try to just pretend that I imagined
this throbbing vein in my temple is making me tremble
it's painful and stressful
I'm up late trying to wrestle with voices
my shoulders have an angel and devil
he's so good at persuasion
but my angel's trying to save me from this hyperventilation 
she gave me a paper bag for respiration
he handed me a plastic one that I could suffocate in

steadysuffer:

ya you told me i was nothing like they said
you told me I was better off dead
now i gotta pull up to the function all red
pull the trigger now i'm dead
(ya ah)

she don't wanna talk no more
pedal to the metal & the suicide doors
got a coper on my ass so i kick it in sport
no breaks just gas cause life is short

i'm sippin lean all day
and my sprite bottle lookin like a goddamn grape
get the fuck up out my way 
don't tell me we're the same
i'm in another state with my shawty on facetime

ya I ain't been on a date in a long time
if I fuck up i'll accuse her
you must think i'm a loser 
if i can't keep a conversation 
i'm sorry

violeteyez:

Where are you? And I'm so sorry
I was too depressed to go to your grad party
And now I watch your new boyfriend 
pick you up on the back of his brand new Harley
Well, Barbie girl, do you miss me?
He's got a chopper and I got a 6 speed
So what is it this week? Who are you kissing?
Am I insane, or could this time be different?

And I know you'll cover it up like you do
You left your morals with your clothes: in my bedroom
And I promise that I didn't take all this-
lightly, though you tried to slip it by me
I just need some time, so sit tight, please
emotions give me anxiety

1080p dreams:

I still feel your blade from getting stabbed in the back
every day sets the stage for a panic attack
I wake up in the morning, don't know how to react
so my mind slowly builds to a panic attack
it just hit me two times
I'm in the ER and it's only half past noontime
I woke up this morning, didn't know how to react
my whole life's like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
no more serenity, I'll never end up getting it back

Stream on Spotify

panic attack ft. steadysuffer & violeteyez (prod. mothfries)

prod. @spacedtime

love dies fast
then your heartbreak steers you
got your burnt down house
in my rear view
stuck thinking of the shit
that I went through
just to realize
that I didn't need you

I never did
I was just foolish
looking back
how could I be so clueless
we all die in the end
know it's useless
wake up every morning
why do I do this

love dies fast
then your heartbreak steers you
got your burnt down house
in my rear view
stuck thinking of the shit
that I went through
just to realize
that I didn't need you

call your name in the flames
wanna hear you
reach out for my hand
I won't help you
I'll just drag you down
to my hell too
once you're like me
nobody can save you

once you're like me
nobody can save you
once you're like me
everyone will hate you
might wanna fucking take some drugs to numb the pain too
become an addict
with some habit's that will hurt you
in the night
memories will haunt you
their's no telling to the damage that they might do

ain't no telling to the damage that they might do
how you think I got these issues

love dies fast
then your heartbreak steers you
got your burnt down house
in my rear view
stuck thinking of the shit
that I went through
just to realize
that I didn't need you

I never did
I was just foolish
looking back
how could I be clueless
we all die in the end
know it's useless
wake up every morning
why do I do this

why do I do this
torture my own brain

why do I do this
drive myself insane

pile up the stress
I can't take it I'm a mess
try my best
just to end up feeling
permanently depressed

ever since I lost my soul
nothing been the same
the weather's getting colder
and I hope it doesn't change
I hope that it rain's
the whole entire day
so I can stay inside
and never see another face

never see another face

I already know my fate
I'm not meant for living long
Imma burn through life
till I'm fucking gone
this shit is boring
feel like moving on

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love dies fast (prod. spacedtime)

prod. @spacedtime

when I think about the past 
that shit just stress me 
depress me
make my wrist messy
why is it so hard to be happy
I just wanna be with you baby

I just wanna ball with you baby
glo up in the mall
with me maybe?

and I would spend it all for you
yeah I know you know it's true
like my jeans
yeah they be religion 
pockets full of grams
I keep on sinning
all this pain
it's fucking never ending
I've been going through it
need a minute
laying in my bed 
I know I'm not shit
think about my life 
I wanna off it
all these fake friends
acting toxic
blowing up my phone
can you stop it?

just stop it 

and I would give my all for you
just to stop this heart abuse

when I think about the past 
that shit just stress me 
depress me
make my wrist messy
why is it so hard to be happy
I just wanna be with you baby

meet me in hell 
I'll be waiting
please be here soon
cause I'm decaying
look you in the eyes
I start breaking
bitch you ain't the same 
you keep changing 
why you say you love me?
know you faking
this the type of shit
that keep me isolating
myself from everyone
I miss the days when I was young

I keep folding 
under pressure 
I keep fighting
just to feel worse
not getting better 
I hope the drugs work
they never do they just leave me 
and my soul hurt

when I think about the past 
that shit just stress me 
depress me
make my wrist messy
why is it so hard to be happy
I just wanna be with you baby

messy (prod. spacedtime)

why did this get botted :(

(prod. @deadspyro)
(feat. @polar333)

take my heart and toss it in the creekside
i don't want that shit no more that's my weak side

follow polar

Creekside (ft. polar) [prod. dead spyro]

prod. @prodjody

another night spent alone
sometimes I wish you could know
how much you fuck with my head
I'm constantly on the edge

I'm smoking
drinking coffee
scars on me 
like a zombie
for you baby I'm crazy
dive headfirst 
now I'm too deep

I can't breathe
sinking deeper 
things are different 
we're older
the world is on our shoulders
I feel it growing colder

crush my dreams 
watch them shatter
none of this even matters
wanna die when I think about her
wish I could know what's after

I'm a ghost 
yeah I feel like casper
when your near me 
my heart beats faster 
and when I see you my mind starts racing
I've been working 
now life's changing

no sleep 
my body's aching
I'm no good at conversation 
need you like medication
cause every night I'm contemplating

another night spent alone
sometimes I wish you could know
how much you fuck with my head
I'm constantly on the edge

I'm smoking
drinking coffee
scars on me 
like a zombie
for you baby I'm crazy
dive headfirst 
now I'm too deep

zombie (prod. jody)

Cold Play (prod. Jakkyboi)

Hope you enjoy! Been wanting to drop this for a while now and figured now was the perfect time.

Lyrics:
[Foreign Forest]
Missed out on all the times
When I said no when they invite me out
Don't want to be denied
I would try but I'm too filled with doubt
Help me out
I'm trying to leave this world behind
Hurry before I destroy myself
Need to know if maybe one day I'll be fine
If I could get your help

[Jacob Sherwood]
No this won't last for ever
But you know that by now
It was just last November
And now the sun is out
But I don't see the light
Just the walls inside my mind
All we've ever had was time
Now the world we've stole is dying
No this won't last for ever
The same people killing the same ones that sayin the cash is better
But baby go stack your cheddar
The debt it will crash the setup
And stay on your toes cause they're all in control
Please don't ever let up

[Jacob Sherwood & Foreign Forest]
Ahh
I wish this would last forever
Ahh
But I know this won't last forever

[Foreign Forest]
Missed out on all the times
When I said no when they invite me out
Don't want to be denied
I would try but I'm too filled with doubt
Help me out
I'm trying to leave this world behind
Hurry before I destroy myself
Need to know if maybe one day I'll be fine
If I could get your help

Nothing Lasts Forever (feat. Jacob Sherwood)

nothing lasts forever ft. jacob sherwood

"So much bullshit" is the second single from the upcoming sad chill mixtape "The Anomaly". The tape will include various artists from the sad chill family and it is coming out on Oct 11 on all platforms (Youtube, Spotify, SoundCloud, iTunes). Every single will come with its own "Chapter", a story that gives further meaning to the concept of the project!! Hope you enjoy. More singles coming soon!

hammy - so much bullshit (prod. woodpecker)

i love u n i miss u [prod. jay vee]

prod/mix - fats'e

THX 4  20k FOLLOWERS ON HERE <3

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messy (prod. spacedtime)

hamilton (@hqmilt0n)

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