Baby It's Cold Outside

Pink Nights

written, recorded, and produced by me in my dorm
mastered by james ivy in HIS dorm

yeah you know i can’t sit still
my mind is always running off somewhere i shouldn’t be prying
feels like i’m working so hard to find that runner that still wants me to keep trying

if i cross this street, that taxicab won’t stop for me
if i cross this street, that taxicab won’t stop for me

i want to hold you all night girl
come on and dim your phone light girl
promise i’ll never get tired again
you know you look so fire

never getting enough sleep
you said i should wash the bloodstains off my bedsheets
feel like i’m trying so hard to please
but i'm skating the wrong way, slipping on these wet streets

smoking in the shower
the laughing hour is fleeting down the drain
stumbling now in the rain, see 
the NYPD’s never gonna take me

i want to hold you all night girl
come on and dim your phone light girl
promise i’ll never get tired again
you know you look so fire

NYPD

cold hands 
slow dancing on the surface of my skin
trying to figure out where to begin
are you looking for a home or just the way out?

and you said
that you don't want another girl instead
that maybe things were getting to your head
that it's just an intermission
not the end

but baby it's too hard
to try to find your love in broken parts
hold my breath and try to let it out
but i couldn't cry couldn't feel it
cry couldn't feel it

and you
took too long and now the curtain's drawn
empty seats and everyone is gone
and nobody is watching you

and i'm glad
that you don't want another girl instead
but it's finally all starting to make sense
it's not the intermission
it's the end

don't tell me you love me
don't tell me you want me back
it's too late to come back to me

don't tell me you love me
don't tell me you want me back
it's too late to come back to me

written, recorded + produced by bianca ocampo
2018

intermission (demo)

catch. (4/5)

It’s gotta be flattering at least, right?
You know you pull the whole soiree
I caught myself staring at your mouth again
Your friends just laugh the night away
I feel myself lose control
I’m spilling drinks onto my guts
I step back, you’re walking home
You didn’t dream about me
I wish I could say the same
But I spent all morning playing catch with your name

(Swing for the fence but I missed the old me,
Crash my car on Bloomdale street
Raging away all the Rushmore weeks
Down for the count, now I’m crushing on me, yeah)

I spent all morning playing catch with your name

1000 Backyard Pools - EP

STREAM

catch.

this shit so rough idk what to do with it 

made it months ago, made my head hurt

don't feel like this anymore and haven't touched it since lol

feels like such a dear diary

lyrics:

just take your shoes off 

cause you’re running through my mind

and i can’t help myself 

i think of you all the time 

and am i wasting my life 

chasing a girl 

who i’ll lose in time 

says she loves me now

hope she’s love me then

i ain’t felt this way 

since 2010 

barely remember back then 

used to see my dad and my mum back then

used to cry over shit i didn’t have back then 

like a group of fucking friends 

but i have you now 

and why would i wanna lose that

the reason i get out of bed 

when i hate everything except you 

yeah you light up my mood 

but just take off your shoes for me 

*undefinable screeching*

dear diary 018: nobody ever talks about twenty ten.

my funny valentine

old demo from september 2018

(october 30, 3034
tomorrow is my 1035th birthday
talk about a midlife crisis, huh?
i don’t know how i ended up here
but my name is harry teardrop
and i come from planet earth)

last i can remember, it’s a new york city september
another sleepless night, rolling on my side
tossing and turning, itch the skin that’s burning
in the morning i’ll rise and shower
in the mirror, i’ll see the power
of my stupid fucking fingernails drawing blood from my neck again
another reminder of this fleeting life...
i need to take better care of the days i wear!
wouldn’t want to worry mom and dad more than they probably already are
in the corner of my restless eyes i see the stars
and at least find comfort that they’re looking at the same ones
i miss them more than you could ever know
i miss the way plants used to grow,
basking in that summer sun
i miss its golden light when the time is right
6pm i’ll walk with you back to the dorms in winterstorms
i guess home is where the heart is but perhaps the saddest part is
i can’t quite seem to place where either are anymore
i come from inside out shirts and sunflower seeds
mismatched socks and soccer knees
i come from lucy’s at 3am stumbling home with my friends
i can’t help but wonder if i’m already long forgotten in their young, impressionable minds
you’d think i’d be much smarter given the circumstance
but i’m still awful at piano, haven’t learned to dance either
it’s hard to dance with yourself but i’ve gotten pretty good at playing with time
contemplating this funny life of mine.
starbound, i was always striving to be starbound
now i try to bite my tongue, but i can’t take back my words
i guess this is a lesson from the universe
next time i’ll be more careful what i wish for i promise
i miss spring afternoons in between classes,
open-windowed swaying to days by the drums
with the love of my life as far as i knew
didn’t mean to make you blue
still haven’t given up on coming home
counting down the nights in this astrodome.

i can’t make you wait for me
so don’t stop for me
this time i mean it
i know i can’t make you wait for me
life won’t stop for me
think i can feel it
feel it in my bones
i feel it crawling through my veins

A Lesson From The Universe

this is my cover of cayendo by frank ocean

CAYENDO (cover)

this is a reference for when I play it live :)

the most bullshit cover of teenage dirtbag

don’t look back
wasting nights over half of a drag 
in my hometown 
is this where i belong now
all these other kids with nothing to do 
so much to say with nothing to lose
kinda like that 
the best part of the weeks such a nightmare 
hope everything burns downs
pray that i can pick my cards 
hope this shitty town is ours

A Lesson From The Universe

Harry Teardrop