I'd rather die alone than try to replace you

sleep #2

Emo-rap_ I heard in May 2024

lyrics :3
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shattered:
im alone 
in a house
that feels like it’s crumbling
and you came along
and ripped out the foundation 
making me change
the whole course of narration 
fucking my progress up
with temptations
(x2)

cuts:
i don’t wanna waste my life 
if its not with you
i tried to make things right
but what can you do
i keep thinking of the things 
that we could be
and i can’t think of anything 
but you and me
i don’t wanna waste my life
i wish you knew
all the shit that’s in my mind
what can you do 
i keep thinking that youre mine
but she had you
i thought holding on would help
now i hate you

both:
im alone 
in a house
that feels like it’s crumbling
and you came along
and ripped out the foundation 
making me change
the whole course of narration 
fucking my progress up
with temptations
(x2)

thank you for not being around (ft. cuts) (prod siemspark x chrismarek)

prod. by LEVI
presented by static.

lyrics:

please whisper me to sleep
just don't let me go
just don't let me go (2x)

i can't believe that
you don't wanna see me
i hope that you know that i care
cause i have these demons
they're talking to me
and they tell me i'm better of dead
loving you kills me
it hurts, i feel blinded
i can't get you out of my head
i wish that you told me
why you always leaving me here all alone
i feel dead inside

can we go home now?
can we please go home now?
can we please just slow down?
can we please just slow down?
(slow down)

cause i did everything for you
and you did nothing for me
no you did nothing for me
but i did everything for you

i fell in love with the thought of you
and i tell you lies but you know the truth
i get so frustrated
i hope you know
in the coldest night
can you hold me close
you were my only one
now i fall apart
in your eyes i see
all the shining stars
and the storm will go
and we will be okay
and i wish you could stay
but its way too late

i can't believe that
you don't wanna see me
i hope that you know that i care
cause i have these demons
they're talking to me
and they tell me im better of dead
loving you kills me
it hurts , i feel blinded
i can't get you out of my head
i wish that you told me
why you always leaving me here all alone
i feel dead inside

can we go home now?
can we please go home now?
can we please just slow down?
can we please just slow down?
(slow down)

cause i did everything for you
and you did nothing for me
no you did nothing for me
but i did everything for you

whisper me to sleep

How I Taste

Switch Up

This one is extremely personal for me. Enjoy.

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that’s about all (prod. Fantom)

Mo0dy B!tch

this is probably my favorite song I've ever made, and it means a lot to me.

if you've made it here, please like & repost as it helps other people who might relate to my music find it

ty to all who listen <3
prod. michael harrison

**lyrics**
I miss when
We would talk
And we'd sit on that curb till it
Got too dark
For us
My hand in yours, I still feel numb
Why'd you say those words to me?
When everything was better off unsaid

I cant take this breath
If it means i could still be alive

I dont really wanna die I just want a warm embrace
Looking at ya' from the sky but i cant see your face
Babe It's just another ride, you know Ima be okay
But man i hope they hear my cry when i finally break
(x2)

If I turned around, would you call your friend?
I hate who I was but I'm better again
I cant stand the silence, you're my medicine
It's starting to rain, would you just take my hand
(x2)

I miss when
We would talk
And we'd sit on that curb till it
Got too dark
For us
My hand in yours, I still feel numb
Why'd you say those words to me?
When everything was better off unsaid

I cant take this breath
If it means i could still be alive

limerence (michael harrison)

came a long way, thank u all for being here <3

lyrics

whats wrong baby
well you dont seem to love my lies
well i’d love to 
i'd love to just take your side

blind spot, she hit the blind spot
coulnt, couldnt dodge couldnt watch out
i been covering my room in sage
remiscing all these days

when you’d make my heart stop baby
now just heavy heart drops
its ok, its ok baby

drugs learn ya lessons
but they aren’t always tied to things that aren’t right
yeah we like to live, always friction
but im not tryna burn the forest every night

if she dont see the love, we wont be friends
baby, taking off the top like this is the end
but thats just not the point yeah thats just the thing
maybe its the sum, maybe its the sun 
maybe we just run

can you see the doves can you see them flying away
i’ve seen past this dark i’m not tryna hide away
not today, im just tryna find a way
but i hope u 
i hope u can too

i really want you but i cant say the same
i care about u but its not the fucking same
baby i know its been lonely at night
baby i know its lonely at night

thru my eyes

open up ur eyes girl
we cant stay the same our whole life
but i don't wanna lie girl
i can't always be by your side

wish upon forever 
forevers to vast
i cant look at life the same after all my past
i mean we could live forever 
but it probably won't last
use too much
use too much logic ima pass

plenty signs 
do i really need to give u a timeline
i'm heading out to sea 
coz i've been rejected and dissected 
but i don't mind, i don't mind
ima find a way

jetlag 
i got a jet lagged mind 
its just another setback 
could u just see thru my eyes 
just sometimes

thru my eyes

thru my eyes (ivn)

www.anxietyattacksmusic.com
prod/mix/master: Anxiety Attacks!

i don't wanna control myself
just wanna take, take, take the things that make me feel good
i don't wanna take care of myself
just wanna bang, bang, bang my head against the wall
i just need to distract myself from all the bullshit 
don't wanna rely on anybody else
so i've been turning to substances,
i know it's not the best, but it's better than nothing at all
there's nothing better than wasting my time,
but now i'm over all the waiting in line along with everybody else
i just wanna get away, away

i think that i'm done with this whole place
i don't really care about anything
trying to fit in just got me feeling like shit
i don't understand how it happened like this
i don't really know what i'm here for
but i don't really care about it anymore
i'm kinda sick of trying now cuz nothing makes sense
i don't understand why i'm feeling like...

been tryna let it go, but i'm clenching my fists
cuz ain't no way i'm going down without a fight
keep bending till i grow, i ain't throwing no fits
cuz don't nobody care what you're feeling like
i'm counting on myself, not on anybody else
i don't really know why, it's not like i don't need the help
it's starting to feel like this is just a waste of time
fuck it 1, 2, 3, 4

i think that i'm done with this whole place
i don't really care about anything
trying to fit in just got me feeling like shit
i don't understand how it happened like this
i don't really know what i'm here for
but i don't really care about it anymore
i'm kinda sick of trying now cuz nothing makes sense
i don't understand why i'm feeling like...

Spotify <3

Self Control

lil bit of a harder one, hope u enjoy :)

prod: softscars
mastered: tnvr

LYRICS: 

Are we all the same?
Are we all insane?
Watch me fall and feel no pain
Hear you call, don’t hear my name

Don’t hear you calling out to me
Don’t hear your voice, don’t hear you scream
What’s the point in anything?
What’s the point in anything?
I don’t see the point of talking to you right now
I don’t see a point of even hearing you out
You could make a change but we ain’t on the same page
You could change your face but baby, I don’t care what you say
Can’t stop this game
Can’t end my rage
Can’t break these chains
Can’t shake the shame
You could pull me apart and pick at my brain
Just to find out that we are all insane

Are we all the same?
Are we all insane?
Watch me fall and feel no pain
Hear you call, don’t hear my name

we are all insane

prod. blank
lyrics: aren't we all a little terrified?
judging through a blinded eye
i seen what you saw but it wont suffice
it was in my head
but i seen your rose on the cliff edge
gravity would be proud
gravity would be proud
as it locks me in
and pulls me down
my decision was all mine
talk me out? you know im fine
this is what i wanted
this is where the plot ends
bury my bones all thats left
found my home here in the sand.

rose.mp3

Production: me :)
Vocals: @lilxlotus
art: https://twitter.com/lexijohnstonx
Lyrics

I don't think that i'll be fine and I can't do this
It's a struggle every night just to get through it

Look me straight in the eye, am I just wasting my time?
You had me waiting for hours and promised this wasn't good bye
And i'm not feeling alright, but you swear i'll be fine
It makes me sick to my stomach, I can't get you out of my mind
I cant get you out of my mind
My mind
My mind
It makes me sick to my stomach, I cant get you out of my mind

Look me straight in the eye (I don't think that i'll be fine and I cant do this), am I just wasting my time?
You had me waiting for hours (Its a struggle every night just to get through it) and promised this wasn't good bye
And i'm not feeling alright (I don't think that i'll be fine and I cant do this), but you swear i'll be fine
It makes me sick to my stomach (Its a struggle every night just to get through it) I cant get you out of mind
I cant get you out of mind

(look me straight in the eye, am I just wasting my time?)
My mind
(You had me waiting for hours and promised this wasn't good bye)
My mind, makes me sick to my stomach I cant get you out of my mind

And i'm not feeling alright, but you swear i'll be fine
It makes me sick to my stomach, I cant get you out of my mind
I cant get you out of my mind
My mind
My mind
My mind
It makes me sick to my stomach, I cant get you out of my mind

Out Of My Mind (ft. Lil Lotus)

https://soundcloud.com/gothurted
https://soundcloud.com/nicoteenninyo

Lyrics:
[gothurted]
And if I would disappear right now nobody will notice that
I don't care about why but how did I fall for you so bad
Put my hand on your chest let me grab your heart
Take all of your stuff and leave with me shawty let's depart
together

[nicoteen ninyo]
If I would disappear right now, would u come and find me
Or was I just the weight on ur back, holding down ur wings?
Shawty put ur flame up to my face
Let me feel the warmth of ur cold embrace
Let our hearts race
Forever

gothurted - if i would disappear (ft. nicoteen ninyo)

saturday night

Verse 1
Does heaven have wifi
I'm trying to call
Wanna come see you
But gates are 2 tall
Your hug was a drug
Now I know the withdraw
These pictures don't help
They’re just eating me raw
Are you an angel? 
Do you have cable? 
I wanna connect 
But I guess you’re not able
I wish you were
But the illness was fatal
A hole in my heart
Now it look like a bagel
I graduated but you didn’t see
And I’ll never know
It’s not a mystery 
I’m imaginating all our history
And hoping you will know all
That you meant to me, yeah
I miss your faces
I miss days when 
We would hang out 
But death had to take it
My heart has been aching
I see it all breaking
I hope you’ll come back
But I know you won't make it

Verse 2
This is hard for me
Honestly 
Got a missing part
Where my heart should be
I didn’t love you enough 
cuz I was too young
I didn’t take in all the art to see, yeah
Tell me now
What do you do?
Are you in heaven?
Is everything new?
I’m reading my Bible
And learning the truth
Hoping that I can come 
Be with you too 
Do you pray for me?
can you stay with me?
Are they games up there?
Will play with me? 
Maybe I wont ever 
Get to see you again
But if we’re friends
Will you wait for me? 
Do you talk to the angels at all?
Does God have a phone?
Does He ever call? 
I hear Him sometimes
A voice through my wall
Please know that I love you
And don’t ever fall

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can't wait ft. powfu (prod. movye)

☦︎ Christ saves ☦︎
i'm on a new arc

limerence (michael harrison)

hartwright.