outofbody

74T3 JUN3 M00D

new josh type

produced by heylog

lyrics:
pacing around the floor making circles that could go miles
tears are running down my face they're stacking up in piles
threw us in recycle, unrecognizable files
all our data's lost, babe it's been a while
cause we
don't need
us
remember when we met i was too scared to even look at u
these knots that are in my stomach ain't normal they're all bc of u
and i can't help but stutter the first time i ever talked to you
and i knew u were special, really thought we'd have a future
but we
don't need
us

i stg
this can't be real
2 years gone
nothing to feel
it went so fast
thought it would last
but i was too, arrogant with that

staying the night at your home
feels good waking up, knowing ur close
don't know why or how i go
with you, was never alone
i'm poppin all my cells
where are you now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay right here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that i've always feared
that i fear

CAPABLE OF LOSING EVERYTHING
I GOT NO FRIENDS
ONLY PEOPLE THROUGH A PHONE SCREEN
I'M ALONE LESS
WHEN YOU CALLED I WAS HOPING
YOU WERE COMING HOME
1 YEAR DONE NOW 3
LEFT TO GO
POURING OUT MY HEART TO RANDOM EYES
BET THEY KNOW ME
BETTER THAN YOU EVER DID
COME AND SHOW ME
SHE'S TOO BUSY THROWING UP
ALL THE ALCOHOL
WHILE I'M SITTING IN MY LIVING ROOM
CUDDLING WITH MY DOG
bored out of my mind, riff guitar i love to escape
cut off everyone, i keep swimming in my mistakes
staring at the ceiling
bet it has more feelings
than i ever will i come to realize i'm deceiving

spotify

i don't even know where to begin with this. 

firstly, huge huge huge thank you to ray toro not only for being a part of this remix, but for just overall being a great & genuine dude. i had the pleasure of meeting him back in 2019 after the gnash tour & he was nothing but kind. i've also been a massive my chemical romance fan for 15+ years & cannot begin to tell you how much their music has done for me over that span of time not only mentally/emotionally, but it truly helped me discover myself & my own tastes in other music, art, etc. as well.

secondly, thank you guys for sticking with me & music. regardless of when & where you found me, i am forever grateful that you enjoy what i create & that will never change. i never imagined coming this far let alone connecting with so many of you through our similar views/troubles/etc. i know i say it a lot, but to have a platform where i'm able to be myself, showcase that through my work & have people relate in so many different ways is an absolute fucking blessing. i would never trade this for the world & will always continue to venture into various creative endeavors inside & outside of music & express myself through each & every one of em.

i'm starting to ramble, so i'm gonna leave it at that, but seriously, thank you guys so much. i promise y'all this is just the beginning. you have no clue how much you've changed my life & hopefully we all can continue to inspire & look out for each other.

with love,
guardin <3

i think you're really cool (ray toro remix)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
ok i been right here since the beginning
look into the mirror and i hate what i see
back away n just shake it off
i never even knew i could look this rough
so i'm glad we're done and i'm glad we broke up
if u saw me u might just throw up
hate myself, show it through a cut
new faces, have to adjust
so i'm glad we're done and i'm glad we broke up
if u saw me u might just throw up
hate myself, show it through a cut
new faces, have to adjust

well i heard what u said right behind me
making rumors up bro why u lying
so tired of being under the bus
always cautious about who i trust
so i don't need anyone, only need me
cus in the end that's the most important thing to me
i never noticed when we talk
both your lips are coated with gloss
so i'm glad we're done and i'm glad we broke up
if u saw me u might just throw up
hate myself, show it through a cut
new faces, have to adjust
and i hate the way you look at me
your face expressions fib to me
and i sent you a text but it never received
and u sent me a snap but it says pending
and i cant believe we're separate paths
i hope ur happy and i hope ur glad
so finally i can catch a breath
without your hands around my neck

i'm glad we broke up

lyrics


(verse 1)
i met her downtown in the slums of austin
once we were sober she said “i’m from boston”
i told her i couldn’t give mass-a-two shits
luckily she likes guys that treat her like shit

help me
everyone calls me mickey
just wanna be ur darling
cause fame is fucking empty
u warned me

so listen
i know ur probably with him
& maybe for good reason
but u don’t fucking need him
i warned u


(prehook)
i tried my best to hide it
but now i’m done denying


(hook)
u were, perfect
& im so sorry
i’m such, a dick
but u still love me

i still, regret
letting u leave me
don’t u, forget
u used to need me


(verse 2)
should probably take my own advice now
& move on with my life now
& stop singing about how
u left me

maybe stop getting ur advice from
the guy u get ur high from
if u want my advice, run
real, quickly


how can
i love someone that
can’t stand
the thought of loving 
me back
why do i think i 
need that?
i know uuuu

hate me
but one day babe, you’ll 
thank me
for teaching u how 
to leave 
a piece of shit just 
like me
i warned u


(prehook)
i tried my best to hide it
but now i’m done denying


(hook)
u were, perfect
& im so sorry
i’m such, a dick
but u still love me

i still, regret
letting u leave me
don’t u, forget
u used to need me


(bridge)
yeah, i remember when u said
how u wished that i was dead
so i tried to kill myself
swallowed way too many pills

& god, the tummy ache was shit
but not enough to kill the kid
sometimes i wish i didn’t live
but i’m so fucking glad i did

i remember what u said
u were wishing i was dead
now ur wishing me the best
cause my songs stuck in ur head

i cant believe the things i did
for some narcissistic bitch
i’m so glad i still exist
just so i can rub it in


(hook)
u were, perfect
& im so sorry
i’m such, a dick
but u still love me

i still, regret
letting u leave me
don’t u, forget
u used to need me


THE END

Mickey Darling - you were perfect & i'm sorry

what she’s like (ft. Clunis, Tanner Hoyt, zach kursman)

Prod. (DutchRevz) 
Mixed and mastered by Btrue 

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Rip X,
Loved your music, ill see you up there some day.

Yung Bratz

its getting really bad again

day shift

thin my blood 
blur my vision
i succumb
im your victim
make me numb
time is ticking
what you want
my convictions fill me up
push my limit ill become
your tradition
love or lust?
whats the difference?
bones to dust 
body stiffens 
not enough
self afflictions
fisticuff
but i dont listen
listen hon
just a minute,
if youre done then i wont miss it
take my lips
i cut my lips
because you fucking feel like heaven
ive said my prayers
paid for my sins
done my confessions 
wont be on my hands and knees
but i can show you what it means
to turn a lover
from a fiend
and live a life like its a dream
brittle bones
hold me close
take my from this catacomb 
show me that im not alone
and make this place feel like a home
and in return ill say i love you
in a language weve forgotten 
is it possible weve met before
and this was all a promise?
so i come to you a sinner
tell me baby am i worth it
worth the saving
if you wont stay then at least 
intoxicate me

intoxicate me

more!

more than always

the liquor said i love you i guess soco makes me social
i wake up in your absynthe
but henny makes me hopeful
put my crown on to drown the things i dont know
by 3 im feeling free but by 4 im feeling loko
blow your head off before you even load your gun
trust issues i aint dumb 
i dont wanna feel this numb
so if you hurt me imma sin
im at the mercy of your whim
to the others that i missed,
they can color me remiss 
because im searching for a start
too scared of the end
fuck me in the morning leave me by the evening and
love me like you always said you couldnt
fuck me up
chase my insecurities
and kill what you cant touch
salvage your reflection 
forget me in your dust
and in the end ill let it go 


dont you think that this is fine?

drunk in december

pay me monies

all falls down

reanimated might guy could take on anyone in the entire naruto universe because he could open the eighth gate without dying and without running out of chakra change my mind

MIGHT GUY!

lyrics ~

sui~

feel so so far away
from consciousness
in this bed
try to
list off wanted things
but the storys cut short
the end
the trouble of thinking
has proved to be too much
theres no more dreams to crush

head filled up
with a heart half empty
senses come undone
do you believe in yourself?
that thought was always so foreign
who knows?

sting of honesty from the whiplash
sat back watching from a distance
out of body this experience is
nothing as expected

grasping for a breath of fresh air
but the smog is getting stale
cause the less there was to know
the happier i was

taken back
looking at
everything there
is to offer
not much to stand on
like whats the point
when nothings pure at all
sitting here waiting
for you to come make me
something i say im not

demi ~

out of body & out of my mind
i wish somebody would say ill b fine
wouldnt care if its a lie
ye i know i made it so far
im still weak n ive tired so hard
to fight off all the feelings that ive
carried in my heart

overthinking bout
my past mistakes
i wanna fade away
into a void of nothingness
war of habit
i wont give control
i still break down
from time 2 time
but i got no more
tears 2 cry

both~

taken back
looking at
everything there
is to offer
not much to stand on
like whats the point
when nothings pure at all
sitting here waiting
for you to come make me
something i say im not

its getting really bad again

Hashu