heaven sent (+:; rxms)

blackout

produced by @kingtheta and @livingpuffy

featuring the amazing @carlby

lyrics:
(verse)
well i been thinking bout the ol days 
the ones not covered in these flames 
and i’ve thinkin bout it all day
tryin not to call you again, what you might say
i’ve got a sinking feeling 
don’t like this energy 
what happened to the meaning 
are you a memory? 

(hook)
you’re living in my head 
oh can we start this again?
if i reach for the past
is there something to mend? 
im always falling off track 
you’re always part of the trend 

(carlby)
you're always part of the trend 
your songs still stuck in my head 
hate to admit it but you still know me best 
was it something i did?
was it something I said?
these days you're just out of reach
so I reach for the past
I got a sinking feeling 
we're lacking chemistry 
what happened to the meaning 
do you remember me?

(bridge/last hook)
can we start this again?
should we start this again? 
but should we start this again?

oh can we start this again.

reach for the past (feat. Carlby) [prod. living puff x king theta]

wonder when the day comes
produced by @jolst
mixed by nine to 5

lyrics:
I cant seem to get this right now
But I can say that I’ll try now

I be up inside my head I'm feeling crazy
Look up at the night sky got me feeling dazy
Count up all the stars up above I'm getting spacey
Wonder when the day comes that you gon’ replace me

Wonder when the day comes
I can’t do this on my own now
I can’t do this on my own how, oh

Been this way too long
Think I'm losing all my hope now
Can’t climb out this hole
I'm ignoring all the ropes now

Don’t wanna be be saved i wanna climb the mountain
I don’t need no help
There's no one I can count on
Don’t wanna stay back
No I've been waiting too long
I'm not right but i know I'm not wrong

I'm making new chapters every page now
I'm just tryna live for day to day now
I don’t want nobody telling me how
But the voices in my head are speaking real loud

I be up inside my head I'm feeling crazy
Look up at the night sky got me feeling dazy
Count up all the stars up above I'm getting spacey
Wonder when the day comes that you gon’ replace me

Wonder when the day comes
I can’t do this on my own now
I can’t do this on my own how, oh

Been this way too long
Think I'm losing all my hope now
Can’t climb out this hole
I'm ignoring all the ropes now

I can’t seem to get this right now
But I can tell you that I’ll try now

I can’t seem to get this right now
But I can tell you that I’ll try now

nine to 5 - wonder when the day comes (prod. jolst)

@yoimn3ver
@northshoremusic
@caspywaspy
@emptychest
@kuriositylol

(teddyboi)

demons after me I'm in a crisis all white gucci suit, yeah

I've been feeling righteous can't breathe, feel like I got bronchitis

I ruin everything that i touch like my name is Midas

yeah spread, spread like a virus, yeah demons chasing after me it's a crisis,

yeah, all white gucci suit,

I feel righteous tired of fist fightin demons, think I'm bout to shoot them

wanna know the truth?

baby I'm a little ruthless ill stab you in the back make you feel like Julius

(TNS)

Holding onto everything

Words in my head

Can’t catch a break

Slow it down and speed it up

Places to go don’t give a damn

Worry about myself and don’t give in

bullet in my brain just to feel the pain

Worry about the things I can’t control

I’m gonna fill my body with bullet holes tonight

(casperrr)

3am throwing up all the shit I ate

now I'm on the bathroom and my body ache

I think I smoked more than I could take

I don't fuck with anyone, everybody's fake

trade me, replace me I know u fucking hate me

the way u try to make me feel the way u try to break me

go away and leave u make me feel sick with all the shit u say with all the things u do

(emptychest)

im fine till i cope

try to breath air but i choke

pretty purple lights glow inside my room tonight im always hot like cryoscope

wrote a note in envelope sent it out to the seas

on a boat and hope it makes it there yet

i live there nothing could ever be fine but i wont ever care im wishing for the best

and im staring life right in the eyes saying, "test me." saying "test me."

(kuriosity)

should’ve known that she was a hoe

said i blow me a k

gotta get me some more gotta louie bet on the floor said i walk in the room

and her belt on the floor im too busy stackin my dough

i cant worry bout u i cant stress onna hoe

i feel like ive been here before feel like i’ve been here before

and ive been searchin through my own past tryna figure out who the fuck i am

and i’ve been getting in my own bag

i cant focus on u gotta focus on bands

good deeds cant cover up my bads

i did what i did i am who i am

the shit u said hurt so bad but u wouldn’t get it u wont understand

Crisis w/ casperrr, teddyboi, The North Shore, kuriosity & emptychest [+ sogimura]

clear my head (prod. alexanderbierk x iof)

\\\\heres a new self prod, expect much new stuff

LYRICS
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so im picking you back off your toes
its a long time, that we've been alone
my strategy, would always fail
and every time, i would watch you prevail

and i never know where to go
I'm 6 feet deep, all alone in the snow
that's how dreams would always fair
its time to leave, before i fail

*before it takes me whole!
please just take me home
i cannot take anymore, anymore, anymore, anymore, anymore!*

but please
listen to me!
the cottage, breeze
is not what it seems

its holding up, up against the wall
its telling me stories, i wish that would go, just go from my brain
and keeps on asking me to stay
and what should i do, i might go insane

and i never, ever realized, the pain

you keep on pushing pushing, pushing me away

cottage breeze

mix.@Ztope
shout out @cyzun <3



prod.sorrow bringer

lyrics

swno-

All his friends tend to leave so He turn to a ghost
Pail skin pain deep in his
Soul heart broke and he’s rotting 
Like mold washed up on the 
Coast body cold yeah he’s been 
dead But he’s wishing for more
Body ache and he’s lossing this 
War yeah he’s hiding all his
pain in the inside yeah he
Left all the pain by his 
Bedside
by is bedside yuh everyone in 
his life turned a blind eye


Cyzun-

I’ve been through a lot 
Yeah you wouldn’t know
Take another shot 
Hide the pain it won’t show 
It will not stop 
So I lay on the road 
I don’t wanna talk 
So I’m muting my phone
I should go now
Isolate in my room I don’t go out
Soul empty as hell like a ghost town 
Staying up hella late like a night owl
All these thoughts running throughout my head
I don’t have no friends cause they leave in the end
Hate my brain wanna fill it with lead
Leave me alone cause I’m already dead

daunted w/ cyzun (sorrow bringer)

head full of regret w/ roach spliff (prod. saz) [2019]

“The Old Code” is a song about the invisible scripts that shape our reactions long before we understand them.
It’s about the rules we learned in childhood, the patterns we copied to survive, and the emotional reflexes that stayed with us long after they stopped serving us.
In this track, the narrator realizes that his body still follows an outdated program — a set of internal commands like stay quiet, endure, swallow it down, be strong, say nothing.
They once protected him.
Now they confine him.

The song unfolds like an internal dialogue:
Why do old emotions still flare up?
Why does the body react before the mind?
And why do behaviors from the past continue to run, even when life has changed?

The chorus hits with the core truth:
the old code is still active, still burning, but it no longer belongs to the man he is today.
Instead of blaming himself, he chooses honesty:
to see the code clearly, to recognize its patterns, to admit that it no longer fits.

The final conclusion is not resolution — it’s awakening.
A conscious decision to stop running on an inherited program and begin writing something new, even without knowing the next line yet.

“The Old Code” is a raw, modern rock confession about the courage it takes
to outgrow your own past.

The Old Code

самая грустная (prod. yngyuuuchi)

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clear my head (prod. alexanderbierk x iof)

hazenova