##2023 Prod by mardee

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[Lyrics]

I’m scared to dream that nothing’s what it seems
They’re all just lies in your eyes
	
Im scared to show if things aren’t gonna go
Nothing lasts forever I know

But everyday the smiles giving me
Go up to the moon and i believe
Anywhere with you is where I really wanna be

Im going down on my own and please don’t follow me now
But we’ll find each other somehow

But you’re here by my side
Under those stars at night I pray to you

Rosy summer nights
Looking into your eyes and think it thru

Is it fate is it love
Nothing lasts forever



Now i know whats right
Whenever youre in sight
All your stars light up my sky

Got nothing to lose
Ive been used and bruised
Hold me whenever I cry

But everyday the smiles giving me
Go up to the moon and i believe
Anywhere with you if where I really wanna be

Im going down on my own and please don’t follow me now
But we’ll find each other somehow

But you’re here by my side
Under those stars at night I pray to you

Rosy summer nights
Looking into your eyes and think it thru

Is it fate is it love
Nothing lasts forever



The roses you gave me
Crimson like the blood I saw that night
Last ten days you and i

Ill be gone you’ll be under the lights

If this fate is this life
Something I always wanted

Nothing lasts forever
But ill still continue to love you


original title : 花無十日紅 (memento mori)
by Byeminty

memento mori

production by @taylor
co-production, mixing, & backing vocals by @blackwinterwells

art by lemonberryblue

what do you want
why are you here
you can't deny
there's so much fear
in this room tonight
wherever you are
you know i'll go
just know that you're
never alone
cause i'm close behind
but you know not to listen
i just say stuff
you got me stuck in a position
where i make tough
decisions every other minute
but i'll play rough
for you
and i keep tryna rip it like a band aid
but then another one just shows up where the last laid
if i said stab me in the side with just a glass blade
would you
you felt the same the day i met you
i want you to say it
use your words
you don't have to stay if it's an issue
i know that i'm not what you prefer
but you could lie
and we don't have to tell nobody about it
i could cry
but it’s not your fault
i knew what i did
so tell me what you want right
right now
so that i can go write
write down
i don't wanna be alone right
right now
i know that you know
right
right
right
right
leave me alone
just go away
i don't want to
look at your face
or i'll trace a line
i'm like a child
the way i scream
whenever i don't
get what i need
or what should be mine
i'm gonna hold it in my hand
so no one can take it all away
i know you'll never understand
but it just has to be this way
and when i roll the pearl between my fingers
admiring the way
that the light refracts
it's not so bad
though i feel the need to say
you felt the same the day i met you
i want you to say it
use your words
you don't have to stay if it's an issue
i know that i'm not what you prefer
but you could lie
and we don't have to tell nobody about it
i could cry
but it’s not your fault
i knew what i did
so tell me what you want right
right now
so that i can go write
write down
i don't wanna be alone right
right now
i know that you know
right
right
right
so tell me what you want right
right now
so that i can go write
write down
i don't wanna be alone right
right now
i know that you know
right
right
right
right

RIP IT! (taylor morgan)

@heartavi
@guiceb0x

prod by @xxkintsugi

save me
please come and save me
before i become something hard to believe in
and you know that you’re better off leaving
save me
please come and save me
before i become something hard to believe in
and you know that you’re better off leaving
i’m crawling through a cavern
where i can barely see
i lost it long ago but
i follow my instincts
you’re not just anybody
you’re the last piece i need
if i fall down too far to come back up
i know you’ll save me
surrounded in darkness in the fear of the night start to pray
then you bring the daylight restore the effects of decay, yeah
heal all my insides (heal)
bad feelings subside (side)
you saved me tonight (you)
feel sparks i ignite (night) 
love leaves me breathless
with you here by my side i'm reminded of being alive
save me
please come and save me
before i become something hard to believe in
and you know that you’re better off leaving
(this time won't you save me)
save me
(this time won't you save me)
please come and save me
(baby i can feel myself giving up)
before i become something hard to believe in
(giving up)
and you know that you’re better off
(giving up)

HEARTAVI - SAVE ME (feat. guiceb0x)(kintsugi)

Also on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6sm5TbNGtxZMW9yuPsnTnA?si=cce9bfeb58a54d80

@aintitmardee

Lyrics:
Pressure building up real hard
Crumbling from the weight
Got me afraid to run
Got me afraid to run
Got me afraid to run away
Problems loom over me 
Reached your hand out to me 
Oasis from burning sun
Told me it's brave to run away
Not be afraid to run 
Do not be afraid to run
Don't be afraid to run 

It used to feel so wrong
to start living for me
Feelings from me 
They're freeing to me 
I'm so alive
So brave
You woke up my heart 
Pushed me to start
Turned the filters off 
They fade
Fading from my eyes
I know 
At the intersection of my road 
taking all these steps so I can grow
Saving me 
Saved me from me 
Saved me for me to breathe

Run (prod. mardee)

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1YTTOURFYdtuKNzHFOiEgF?si=d484906f983d4279

prod @aintitmardee master @chriad

paper’s getting thin, i gotta make it back again
count your blessings, count your sins, i’m doing really bad again
chemical on top my tongue, i’m going to hell and back again
angel numbers in my head, repent to the most high, back again
by myself, by myself, i pour the water on top my head
just know that i’m making amends when my hair is getting drenched
ice cold and i like the way it’s beading down my skin
hypothermia inducing and i’ll do it all again

how hard is it to be a decent person anymore
they made me sick, my eyes are sore
life alert, I’m on the floor
if you were a bird, where would you fly?
baby, i would fly around the world
read the symbol on the bill, you know there’s something more
in between the light, you’ll find it at the corner store
calypso tasting funny, forgot that it was muddy
that’s some funny colored honey, their liver popped inside their tummy

paper’s getting thin, i gotta make it back again
count your blessings, count your sins, i’m doing really bad again
chemical on top my tongue, i’m going to hell and back again
angel numbers in my head, repent to the most high, back again
by myself, by myself, i pour the water on top my head
just know that i’m making amends when my hair is getting drenched
ice cold and i like the way it’s beading down my skin
hypothermia inducing and i’ll do it all again

call me mr arctic man, they way i’m on a glacier
i miss the days when we were laughing watching frasier 
finger tips, they started lacking circulation
if this keeps up, imma need an amputation
cut the treads attached to my back
i’m a real boy, the crickets came with circumstance 
whatever does it take to make my reality enhanced
i got like 20 belts but none could really hold my pants

even if i had the money
count your blessing, count your sins cause you might go back to bad again
fuck the chemicals cause i don’t want to go to hell again
angel numbers in my head, repent to the most high, back again
by myself, by myself, i pour the water on top my head
just know that i’m making amends when my hair is getting drenched
ice cold and i like the way it’s beading down my skin
hypothermia inducing and i’ll do it all again

the water’s cold and i love it
the water’s cold and i love it
the water’s cold and i love it
the water’s cold and i love it

spotify

the water is cold (mardee)

dior david - adore you (prod jolst & mardee)

production by @xxkintsugi 
mixing by @blackwinterwells

i hope it was worth it in the end
all that pushing paper to a pen
i can scoot over and you get in
just don’t ask about where i have been
i’m not afraid of the things that could happen
i think i’ll be okay
the theater was clapping
right after the movie
a bag in a trash can
my tears hidden by a sleeve
i think it was untrue
i’m maybe a little
afraid of the ending
zoned out in the middle
just come with me next time
and i’ll show you what i mean
i’m going out alone
take nobody with me
i never have the time
because i’m always busy
i might go have a drink
because i’m in the city
put on my favorite shirt and smile at the driver
i know that i should think it’s great to be alive but
a real connection always feels like it is out of reach
solo trip into the world
don’t wanna be your girl
just wanna mean something to you
i won’t let you be a mean friend
messing up my weekend
but you know i got some screws loose
i cant focus on the movie
why’d you do it do me
doesn’t matter truly i can see
two girls looking so in love
i hope they never budge
i hope they spend a life together
cold hurt
didn’t bring a warm shirt
but i know that you’re worse
overheating in the desert
sorry that i’m wishing pain
i hate the way you made me
and i hope i see you never
don't rain on my parade
don't make me feel that way
i came to see a show
and baby you're just gonna have to wait until the credits roll

FAVORITE DAY (kintsugi)

production by @taylor
mixing by @blackwinterwells

not over until i say
but i might today
tell me when you feel afraid
i’ll increase the pain
remains go into a ditch
hope they find you quick
i’ll be gone they’re wondering
who did what i did
i’m not very hard to please
speak and i’ll agree
slipping falling on my knees
i've got a disease
doesn’t matter much to me
gonna make you see
you should never lie to me
i can tell you think i’m weird
just be honest we’re adults
think you know why i am here
i don't really wanna talk
you been lying on my name
imma put you in a box
think you know why i am here
i don't really wanna talk
you know that i would never hurt you
fingers crossed behind my back
a lot of time we gotta burn through
before your vision turns to black
relax
relax
it’s not that deep
it’s just six feet
plus the two that separate us
bridge that gap
and come to me
bridge that gap
and come to me
not over until i say
but i might today
tell me when you feel afraid
i’ll increase the pain
remains go into a ditch
hope they find you quick
i’ll be gone they’re wondering
who did what i did
i’m not very hard to please
speak and i’ll agree
slipping falling on my knees
i’ve got a disease
doesn’t matter much to me
gonna make you see
you should never lie to me
put my body in a box
throw me down the niagara
no bones i'm a husk
i can barely even stand up
think i've had enough of what you have left to give
yeah i think my time is up
i have no more life to live
yeah i feel like giving up
let you down let it go
yeah i feel it in my chest and my gut and my soul
and i need to be alone
and i need you to believe me
need to let it bleed
let it rest
don't forgive me
not over until i say
but i might today
tell me when you feel afraid
i’ll increase the pain
remains go into a ditch
hope they find you quick
i’ll be gone they’re wondering
who did what i did
i’m not very hard to please
speak and i’ll agree
slipping falling on my knees
i’ve got a disease
doesn’t matter much to me
gonna make you see
you should never lie to me
not the end until i say it is
i might if you can’t act right
what remains will go into a ditch
they’ll find you there by sunrise
and i’ll be far away they’ll never know
you’ll never what hit you
i meant it when i said you had to go

PEARL (feat. blackwinterwells)(taylor morgan)

production by me & @blackwinterwells
mixing by @blackwinterwells

why would i spend a million dollars on some therapy when i could spend $49.99 plus shipping/handling
i could be wherever it is that i wanna be and i know when i look inside my pocket you’re still here with me like
tamagotchi you’re so cute and you’re so lovely
i just wanna be your friend
but i don’t know if you would want me
tamagotchi you’re so nice and you’re so friendly
i just wanna be with you
but i don’t know if you would let me
tamagotchi you’re so cute and you’re so lovely
i just wanna be your friend
but i don’t know if you would want me
tamagotchi you’re so nice and you’re so friendly
i just wanna be with you
but i don’t know if you would let me
8am
let's play pretend and talk it out
you were my friend
but now you're hard to figure out
i'm losing it
you're drawing circles on the couch
i don't know what to do about you
tamagotchi you’re so cute and you’re so lovely
i just wanna be your friend
but i don’t know if you would want me
tamagotchi you’re so nice and you’re so friendly
i just wanna be with you
but i don’t know if you would let me
tamagotchi you’re so cute and you’re so lovely
i just wanna be your friend
but i don’t know if you would want me
tamagotchi you’re so cute and you’re so lovely
i just wanna be your friend
but i don’t know if you would want me
tamagotchi you’re so nice and you’re so friendly
i just wanna be with you
but i don’t know if you would let me
tamagotchi you’re so cute and you’re so lovely
i just wanna be your friend
but i don’t know if you would want me
tamagotchi you’re so nice and you’re so friendly
i just wanna be with you
but i don’t know if you would let me
so don't die on
don't die on
don't die on
don't die on
don't die on me

TAMAGOTCHI (HEARTAVI + blackwinterwells)

production by @taylor & @aintitmardee
mixing by @blackwinterwells & @bandanabloom

just tell me you don’t care
don’t make me waste my breath
i’ll be right over there
until you want me next
it’s sickening to see
i don’t like how i act
this truly isn’t me
that’s truly not a fact
but if you touched me i swear i’d just pass out
the world is ending but you’re all i’m worried about
i see the signs but, like you, i just don’t care
you say you want me but you want me over there
over there
over there
just look me in my face
no not down at the floor
and put me in my place
tell me you don’t want more
i really need to know
just what it’s gonna be
and for my next act i’ll be someone you can see
cause if you touched me i swear i’d just pass out
the world is ending but you’re all i’m worried about
i see the signs but, like you, i just don’t care
you say you want me but you want me over there
over there
over there

OVER THERE (taylor morgan + mardee)

NEVER EVER (prod Medium + Mardee)

icantdi3 - gamble [fotia mardee]

ICANTDI3 - Scriptures (mardee x knotchej)

ongoing love is like
walking through an empty space
with my eyes both covered I
can’t see through the misty place

my piece of mind can’t put into words
soundscape it instead
all my urges after all these years
can’t fight back until I’m dead 
(I’m dead)

this war will never end
(will this war ever end)

back to my old habits 
the bad kind of nostalgia
but i just had to have it
enslaved to my insomnia


my piece of mind can’t put into words
soundscape it instead
all my urges after all these years
can’t fight back until I’m dead 
(I’m dead)

[Chorus]
memories of the things said and done
wasting time trying to blame
just when I think I’m flying to the sun
but I’m just a moth to the flame

going back to my own ways
entire world is watching you wither away
every eye on the things you do
while counting the days wishing 
that you were okay

moth to the flame
making the same mistakes
your eyes are fake

[Bridge]
don’t you fly too close to the sun
both your wings will fall apart
staying in, paler than the moon
and the getting out, that’s always hard

[Chorus]

think about the times you’ve loved and won
forget about the other side of the moon

hold my hand, let’s dance to this tune

moth to the flame

90lb

metamorphosis

very unfortunate of you, pygmalion.........

hit me up, ur porcelain skin n glass eyes
cant believe the fact u wont be here tonight
cuz everyone deserves better and so do I
bittersweet dreams id rather stay by your side

i wanna dance with you 
even if we die
all eyes on me
every single pair of their eyes on me oh

nothings ever real
ur looks are perfect
but u cant rlly feel
can u

every frame holds a story
perished days in their glory
and im never feeling sorry
again

just bring me back to life
again

love is alive n real 
so pls dont let me go
again

frozen hourglass
never enuf w what one has
oh

..........oh? r u talking?


ideal lovers, only one me in ur arms
breathe on me and then i shall come alive
u already know  i never mean you no harm
guess u will never let me out of ur sight
let me out of ur mind (out of ur mind)

{not a single worry in your eyes!!!!}
just want to dance with you
even if u wouldn't die with me
this, this is all meant to be
every little thing is all meant to be
me n u
{is this creation confused by me?}

pygmalion 『prod.gomaa』

produced by mardee & medium

and you ask why i act like this
its cuz nobody got my back
i hope tajh up there got my back
cuz i dont wanna blow dis
cuz i dont wanna watch you bleed
it got hard and i watched you leave
spend in a foreign about you at least
im tryna see you tuesday
im onna block tryna catch me a runner
got that fye if he think he gone run up dummy
me and my slimes on the come up dummy
i been outside wit da guys gettin money
cvs i got the milligram munchies
i hit the west side when im feelin crunk
you got a crush on that hoe and she busted
you got a crush on that hoe and she
damn we hit a stain on the plug
fuck just let him drown in his blood
fuck guts pouring out of his guts
she dont wanna engage in touch
why? she just think im a monster
i think that it haunts her
i dont wanna lose you
i know that they want her
everything you think you want hurts
so tell me what do you want first
fangs in your neck its a wonder
you only hunt for the one hurt