Breathe

i left my window open

lyrics:
sometimes i imagine you dying
as a form of self sabotage
endless days in bed crying
surrounded by bereavement cards
and i don’t deserve nice things
i don’t deserve you 
and all my life I’ve been running
it feels weird to stop for the view

i can’t shake the feeling 
that im in the wrong city
can we sleep at the same time please
so we can meet up in my dreams?

we spent the first weeks of a new decade
dancing around each others feet
and i spent the next two just trying to
convince you im not just all misery
if im uncomfortable ill stay uncomfortable 
cause i know you like laying there
but when i hold you i do it carefully
cause i know how it feels to be scared

i can’t shake the feeling 
that im in the wrong city
can we sleep at the same time please
so we can meet up in my dreams?

bereavement cards

Im falling back
On what I know

And that’s hard to do
I don’t know a thing

Driving aimlessly down
An endless road

Hands on my neck
I don’t feel the pain
Anymore



Head on the ground
Hands held to god

Lips locking yours
With eyes wide open

Your pupils grow  
Hiding your cards

If there were no secrets
Then why don’t you show them?



Im falling back
On what I know

And that’s hard to do
I don’t know a thing
Anymore

uncertainty

you got a way with words
i cant deny it

no matter how much it hurts
ill try to hide it

tucking my feet away
under the blanket

no matter what i say
i know you hate it
i know you do

i know you too well

i know you dont like when i get like this
but babe im angry

god i dont want it like this
how can you take me?

running in circles with myself
im getting tired

and above just about anything else

i know you too well

words

君が捨てたフラスコの中
君に見えなかったものが見たい
町を抜けて山や川を越えても
また現れるのは町

君は色のついた布をつけて
その鮮やかさの中　笑っている

2024 demos

ある錬金術師の恋(Demo)

GET WELL

i have 10 walls up, come break them down
sunday december 31st
the void in me was deeper than the sea 
how do i explain my feelings 
i cant take this cycle of losing you
i cant hold on any longer 
put this pain into acrylic paints 
i splatter it all
i splatter it all
nothing in this world can hurt me anymore 
i had it all
i had it all
you’re so soft and you’re so sweet
don’t try to deny it cause it’s true 
i’ll remember this version of you 
in my dreams
you’re so soft, you’re so sweet, don’t try to deny it cause it’s true
i remember 
i remember all those times
i’ll remember every second i spent with you

its_true

okay okay, here is the english version


War machine screams
Then quits
The rattle stays inside my teeth
A small violence
Condensed
Cup cools
Tastes bitter
A memory I cannot spit out
A mouth I fed
Tasting my blood
Sunlight stabs the iron rail
Cuts the floor
Jagged strips
Real
Unreal
Real
Unreal
I count what I have swallowed
The words
The panic
Dead weight of fighting alone
Peace is not a repair
It is the dust floating
No longer filth
Just proof that I breathe
Ten dollars in the pocket
Buying my life back
Daily
Still here
With purpose
Still here

ristretto folk (WIP)

check it out on spotify too! https://open.spotify.com/album/3c0bg5ICnT8WYh1SyNIUN6?si=WoVFOf9CTrmntYSGC1nigg

lyrics:
you were searching for something embarrassing to share about me
i heard the laughter fill the room as you made sure i was nowhere to be seen
no, i can't live like this
and i remember on that tuesday we drove down to the beach
and there were all of them red flags in the sand i pretended not to see
no, i just looked away
that's why i'm the one to blame for everything i hate

make a list of all the things you hate about me
i promise i can make one longer about you
suddenly i can't count the reasons you should stay
and i hope i never see you again

red flag

i will take my time
i hope that you’ll yours

for i have fallen down
a rabbit hole of horrors

won’t you tell me the thruth babe?
i can tell you’re lying through your teeth

there is nothing more painful
than when two broken people meet

i’ve hid myself from darkness
now all i know is light

i depend on you so heavily
even when i'm taking flight

promise when i leave for california
you won’t leave me behind 
i want to go i want to stay
i want to know that there’s a way

for love to power through
i’m forever indebted to you
for making me okay

i know love will power through
i’m forever indebted to you
for making me okay

i left my window open

heather june