track 02
prod @geolied

lyrics:
[Verse]
When you look at him do you think of me? (Do you think of me)
When you take that fenty Perc do you think of me? (Do you think of me)
When you get that pregnancy scare do you think of me? (Do you think of me)
When in Alpharetta do you think of me? (Do you think of me)
I take these laced pills and I feel good for once, for a moment
What will my momma think when she finds my body?
It's my destiny
I don't have any friends just acquaintances
In bed with a model but still feel alone
Find peace from the benzos, find peace when I think of us
Just tell me if you still do? (Just tell me if you still do?)
I just need to know (I just need to know)
.45 to my brain, I know I won't be missed
If you could tell me one last thing what would it be?
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry
When I'm gone will they sample me?
When I'm gone will you miss me?
I'm tryna fill the void, no drug compares to our love
New girls fall in love when they hear me sing
But they're not you though (But they're not you though)
In a pool of benzos that's where I go
Gun to my head I hope that I go
If I'm still alive when you hear this, can you call me?

if I'm still alive when you hear this, can you call me (demo)

feat @ripyurei

(yurei)
oh and somehow
everything was all my fault
nothing was true at all
and somehow 
everything was in my head 
everything was left in shreds
oh i think i'll rot in bed

(ivory falls)
something was telling me that you loved him instead
and now i'm off the meds
cause you was in my head
some day i hope that we can still be friends
until the very end
it's on you so that depends
some how i end up in my room again
do i plot revenge?
or do i look within

(yurei)
oh and somehow
everything was all my fault
nothing was true at all
and somehow 
everything was in my head 
everything was left in shreds
oh i think i'll rot in bed

some how (feat. yurei)


how many songs can i make about you?
you said that you love me was it even fucking true?
broke my heart into pieces, guess that i just fucking lose
theres pain in my heart yeah i think you left a bruise 
i hope thats what you wanted
what you wanted
got a new man yeah guess you wanna flaunt it 
the ring i bought for you guess i gotta fucking pawn it 
heading for a tree i told bro to fucking floor it 
what made you change your mind? 
what made you change your mind? 
now i can't go outside now i can't go outside
but i'm still catching flights 
wish you were with me girl we could see all the cites 
blinded by the city lights 
told myself i won't gon cry 
how you make it look so easy? (so easy)
i'm dying here tell me that you need me (need me)
tell me that you need me 


told myself i weren't gon cry

prod @michaelharrison1

i know i mess it up all up 
i know you wouldn't take me back
you was right i relapsed
i miss you and your cat
always seem to come in last

can we just try again? 
even it's pretend 
miss matching blonde hair
guess i miss a lot of things 
i see you in every dream
numb the pain can't feel a thing 
you're all i ever wanted 
all i ever wanted
i never broke a promise
in france watching the comets
if there's a problem i can solve it 
i took you for granted 
when you left me did you plan it?
i can't wait to leave this planet 
kill myself but i got some habits
i know they'll do it for me
i should be working on me 
but i got nothing left
the moment that you left 

don't you miss the good times?
there wasn't many bad times 
in my mind it rewinds 
miss the trips to the seaside
i'm not stupid i know it's too late 
but anything i said can you relate? 
remember all the stuff you love and hate
but what about me?
do you love or hate me?

see you in every dream

prod @reactanceprod

https://open.spotify.com/album/0J31Kphz2xy64886ZS8jM7

at the airport screaming don't go
on your layover crying through the phone
begging please just come home
broke my heart left me alone

and i'm sick of it 
and i'm sick of it 
and i'm sick of it
and i'm sick of it 

my hoodie still smells like you
without you i don't have a clue
i can die now there's nothing left to lose
it's a gun or a noose what to choose?
what to choose? 
what to choose? 
how was i the one that became the fool?
why you so perfect you so cool
why you so perfect you so cool

at the airport screaming don't go
on your layover crying through the phone
begging please just come home
broke my heart left me alone

and i'm sick of it 
and i'm sick of it 
and i'm sick of it
and i'm sick of it 

got a layover in shanghai
wish i had more time to say goodbye 
if i did then i'd probably cry 
now you're gone can you let me die?

layover in shanghai

i
want
you 
back 

we don't gotta hate each other 
we don't gotta hate each other
i just want your skin on my skin
laid in bed next to you
think about what we went through 
you're someone i can't lose
no you can't be replaced
no you can't be replaced
why can't i get over you?
ever since you left i just lose 

i 
want
you
back 

am i askin' for too much?
you're the love of my life 
sorry that i couldn't get it right 
you're so perfect you're so kind 
i'll never find another like you 
but i should probably take a break from what my hearts been through
but i miss you
but i miss you
but i miss you
miss you 

love of my life

first song ive recorded since being sober
prod @sh4dowfigure

say you wanna be alone but i'm that guy 
say you wanna be alone but you too high 
it's all my fault so i won't cry 
i just want you back no i can't lie 
slide through in a uber in the late night 
i'll be right there baby hold tight 
i'm a die real soon but it's alright
when i hear your voice i'm getting tongue tied 
in the hollywood hills i'm just tryna hide 
but i really really miss it on the east side 
i had to get sober get my head right 
if you don't come back have a safe flight 

had to get sober get my head right
had to get sober get my head
if you don't come back have a safe flight
if you don't come, have a safe flight 
have a safe flight 
have a safe

say you wanna be alone but i'm that guy 
say you wanna be alone but you too high 
it's all my fault so i won't cry 
i just want you back no i can't lie 
slide through in a uber in the late night 
i'll be right there baby hold tight 
i'm a die real soon but it's alright
when i hear your voice i'm getting tongue tied 
in the hollywood hills i'm just tryna hide 
but i really really miss it on the east side 
i had to get sober get my head right 
if you don't come back have a safe flight

dreams wash away


love live and i'm so happy 
love live and i'm so happy 
love live and i'm so happy 
love live and i'm so happy 
love live and i'm so happy 
love live and i'm so happy 

sunshine and rainbows 
gotta let the drugs go 
lifes so fun and exciting
suicide wouldn't even cross my mind
every person that i meet is so kind 
this planets so good why would i lie?
nine to fives are so fun you gotta try 
feel like peter pan flying through the sky

love life and i'm so happy


i miss all the simple things
like waiting for the bus with you 
i hoping that these songs get through
blinded by your eyes they're so blue 
we should've had a child i'm sorry what you went through 
it's been so long but feels new
miss every single thing about you 

you said you'd never leave my side
you said you'd never leave my side
that's why i can't sleep at night 
that's why i dream of you every night 
every night 
every night

can you just come back?
can we forget about past? 
that one night in the hotel i wanted it last
can i get a pass?
i waved the white flag
can you really say you don't miss what we had? 

does your new man really love you like that?
i relive it all again so i take another tab 
i miss you so much can you please just come back?

been so long but feels new

think about you all day (feat. bluchrist)


let me just go past all the trees 
where we used to live 
now i cannot sleep
what about me? 
what about us?
you don't feel the same
was i there for you? 
i was supposed to be 
i let you down 

ahhhh 
i let you down
i let you down
i let you down
i let you down

so sick of saying goodbyes 
carve your name in stone cause you're all mine 
hard to admit that i was wrong 
percocets help me to stay strong
can't believe you weren't the one 
hanging from the ceiling and it's my fault 
miss you so bad and it's my fault
miss you so bad and it's my fault

i just wanna breathe do you get that?
can't even get a call back 
if you kill me now then it's okay 
i don't wanna live anyway 
memories starting to fade
i know it's too late to stay 

so sick of saying goodbyes 
carve your name in stone cause you're all mine 
hard to admit that i was wrong 
percocets help me to stay strong
can't believe you weren't the one 
hanging from the ceiling and it's my fault 
miss you so bad and it's my fault
miss you so bad and it's my fault

yeah it's my fault
it's my fault
it's my fault

if I'm still alive when you hear this, can you call me (demo)

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