multi genre alt pop type shit

ick's everyth1ng

Chill

Stereo mix of fixed electroacoustic work for 24 channel wave field array

To Think of Rain

scrapped album intro track - felt necessary to release something while music remains difficult for me. working on reboot + new visual/musical direction

i'll put it on plats if you all enjoy it that much

guitar by soundcloud.com/maae-ko

is it my fault
that i feel like i'm the center of gravity
feel like everyone else has it out for me
that all my problems will resolve themselves naturally
the moment is magically
erased like its alchemy

why does everyone else seem afraid of me
have i always been some kind of enemy
am i afraid to be wrong or just scared to belong or do i want everyone else gone

crickets [jan 2023]

how to lie (Jane Remover cover)

https://ffm.to/n2bg7w3

cover art by noah greene https://temberl.in/

it didn't have to be like this
_________________________________
(do you remember me?)

hold it close to you
broken bowed a new
i thought this was life
watch the thread unwind

we were in zion that summer
i was still trying to breathe
watch it corrode the isomers
everything i couldn't keep

all the nights that we spent being young
the copper rocks under our feet
the pastures never felt so wrong
up in flames your favorite evergreen

pull the needle through
laces lorn the center

i promise i wasn't crying
there was just smoke in my eyes
holding you until the morning
i'd fall in and out of the fire
wreathed in hollow ivory
christened collows bedaubing 

and i saw your body covered in roses 
and i started screaming, nobody noticed
the locket you gave me thread intertwined
tearing taut at the seams when it started unwinding 
i fell out the trunk of your dad's four wheel drive 
and we laughed it off when we called it a night
through the laurels and brushweeds we walked side by side
god you were so pretty even when we were crying 
cus' the rust started falling i ran out of time 
watch the world invert into infrared light 
lying lithe on the duff dying embers dissolving 
the smoke in my lungs couldn't stop me from calling your name
but i, (2x)

laurel

the original song is genuinely the best song ive ever heard

og: https://soundcloud.com/thatcherblackwood/laurel?si=f13daaa3f277405fba9e99da19d95ee3&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

laurel by thatcherblackwood but its just piano (first half)

ATTACHMENT SOURCE

Census Designated but it's just my voice

https://ffm.to/alwayswere

cover art by noah geene https://temberl.in/ 

i think i see it in the distance 
___________________________________
always were, like you always were
its the rote screen door on your front porch 
where you fell asleep on the tile floor
but you've unstrung all your britching now

bite my tongue 'till it falls right off
its the tailgate on that fane barbwire 
trace the windshield as we drove for miles 
spurn the sauder on the backing line
and i swear i saw you standing at the edge 

and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 

forget it, forget it, the day is done
forget it, forget it, you saved it once
i get it, i get it, you've frayed and rubbed the velvet off your antlers

and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 

forget it, forget it, the day is done
forget it, forget it, you saved it once
i get it, i get it, you've frayed and rubbed the velvet off your antlers

always were

https://fanlink.tv/ifyourewithme

originally made for FORM's 'All Nighter 9'


miocene memorial garden
@cash-official @acloudyskye @viznode @suji_scared @ejtheloser @shameless_wav @jhlofficixl @gethosyne

visuals by @gethosyne, @suji_scared @viznode & https://x.com/_exaflares


I hide the words again from myself
Knowing no one else is there, to tell
And always fighting, to understand you

And I get dizzy
Just staring out there
So if you're with me
Could you just give me a sign
Cause it's been ages and I
(I'm still alive)
Haven't really been fine

Wait
Feeling lost, can you say we're bound to fate?
Scared of losing everything along the way
I can't change
Chasing a ghost that won't show face
Pile up these dirty leaves
Pointless things ah yeah
Convenient that
There's things I have to tell you

And I get dizzy
Just staring out there
So if you're with me
Could you just give me a sign
Cause it's been ages and I
Haven't really been fine
You took all the time from me
Just passing me by
Show me some life

I keep us tied to each other
Your face in all the places I've been
Still stuck around all the corners
Staring out there

Hide your words
Obscure my face
An empty place
It doesn't even matter
I throw it all away
To escape your face
It fills me with dread
Cause it doesn't even matter

Tell me now
What if we couldn't take —
Call it out
Feeling of echoes
No one knows

listen to me
How did it go
when it fell
out of my reach
Reach out to me
Hopelessly waiting
Wandering out sight

Didn't waste my time
Watering all these dead flowers

Don't go chasing this
Don't go chasing this
Cause I wanted you to know
There's a fire outside your door
Engulfing everything

Just for now
Just for now
It wouldn't matter anymore
Until the dust settles clear

Just for now
Just for a moment

So fingers crossed
Left behind

IF YOU'RE WITH ME

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/kaynn/heartsick-feat-akkiro-2

prod. by @1kaynn
lyrics by @1kaynn
vocals by @1kaynn and @7akkiro
guitars by @1kaynn and @und3rw3ather

the end of a story

____________

two weeks without a real conversation
two weeks without knowing if you are alive
i keep stalking with fragile observations
posting shit on my close friends for you to find
im homesick, heartsick, missing you
when my thoughts stick, burns thick, cuts me through
how the world broke and things used to be
what's the verdict
was this shit in God's script 
i vow i want to fix it but im growing sick
written down my neck
expressing in this project 
i guess it's over now 
and im nearing to accept
im homesick, heartsick, missing you
when my thoughts stick, burns thick, cuts me through
how the world broke and things used to be

every step away just leads me back to the truth
i dont want to get over you
i dont want to get over you

"shattered by the silence you left behind, heartsick"

when the stone turns into sand
when the sunset does not feel the same
every cycle comes to an end
like a shadow lost in the rain 
drowning slowly, caught in the tide
new wounds over my skin
broken promises, promises
i think i wouldnt win anyway

i prayed to God to show me the truth
i begged for mercy and asked for the proof
i saw you the next day, soaked head to shoe
but i was left with nothing, just traces of you

few weeks without a deep conversation 
few weeks and now i know you're not mine
i keep stalking with fragile observations
and i am heartsick 
     
i dont want to get over you
but i have to   

i was waiting like you asked me
i gave you the time 
but it felt like i was screaming for help
my path to learn
with no return
do you know how it feels?
do you know how it feels?
when the stone turns into sand
when the sunset doesnt feel the same
every cycle comes to an end
like a shadow lost in the rain 
drowning slowly, caught in the tide
new wounds over my skin
broken promises
i think i wouldnt win anyway
broken promises
i think i wouldnt win anyway

heartsick (featuring akkiro)

Dypestian - Spite
Released on Tonality Vol.1
20-3-25

Spite

thanks to everyone who's ever been there to support me.

i wouldn't be here without you guys.

this was gonna be for 2k, but fuck it, you guys deserve it.

a letter to my freshman self (prod. purpan)

Hey guys, today i think i made my best chill beat ever in 2016,! It's got a nice slow chill out vibe for you guys to freestyle on, use in video's,  whatever! Enjoy this super chill slow old school rap beat!


'Slow Down' Real Chill Old School Hip Hop Instrumentals Rap Beat #26

@mt-marcy

LYRICS:
i'm sick of trembling in fear at the idea of death
since it's always on my mind i just hide in my bed
"everybody's scared of it" is what my therapist said
but my case seems worse, when i've barely been fed

because the kitchen's too far to desire the steps
it'd take to make it down the stairs and try to find a baguette
or something similar that wouldn't make my stomach upset
it doesn't feel like this is real, yeah, my mind is a mess

the only times it seems clear is when music is played
some relatable creator says i'll soon be okay
or when reading poetry trying to soothe the dismay
and i can lose my insecurities in cute little sayings, like

"why frown when the sun goes down,
if you'll wake in the morning to such nice sounds
when the nighttime creeps, well your eyes might weep
but that's just moonlight tryna find nice people"

"why frown when the sun comes 'round
even if you feel shaken or upside down
when the daytime hits, you'll be great, my friend
just make it through this, just make it through this"

"why frown when the sun comes 'round
even if you feel shaken or upside down
when the daytime hits, you'll be great, my friend
just make it through this, you can make it through this"

meurte

such nice sounds (prod. mt. marcy)

hey, thanks for 50k <3

lil vocal acting by my homies jake & marcus <3

lyrics:
i think that now i'd call myself a wordsmith
but not because of talent of ability
it's more that i can balance the facilities
of living as a human, while i'm sittin' here decal-ing my sililoquies
and i guess it makes sense, in that regard
i use my brain as a capture card
inhalin' every word i stumble upon
to try to catalog 'em all before the rapture starts

so you can tag along and follow all the wacky antics
like all my stupid problems that relapsing can't fix
"keep your head up out the sand, stop scratching that wrist
before you turn into another anxious ativan kid"
well i guess it's too late... a couple hundred panic states passed
and my broken self ran away fast
feels like i lost my body in a hand grenade blast
with all this absence in my soul, and i can't evade that

so i'm stuck... trapped in a painting of myself
that was made before i changed how i felt
i'm hoping that my other friends can break out and help
but to be honest, it seems like they've greyed out as well
i constantly remember back in high school
sneaking out to kick it with no pay stubs
everything was simpler then, i guess
i only feel free when there's something to escape from

so i'll keep writing songs of longing for the olden
looking to the future for my confidence and boldness
it certainly isn't here, and neither am i
but i think that we've established that enough to decide
that it's time for a change; or, rather, time to revert
'cause we all sorta miss the designs that we were
and maybe nowadays what i write's more diverse
but the patrick years back didn't understand hurt

and that hurts

crickets [jan 2023]

aephyn