you said you're sorry cause you never reply
but all i'm doing is trying to help so could you please tell me why 
why don't you reply 
maybe you don't miss me or you have no time 
or maybe you moved on and you think i'm doin fine
but you can see my face , look into my eyes 
they're reddish from the joints and from all the tears 
every single tear i shed for you 
could fill up every dry lagoon 
and i wish my eyes dried too 
i can't bare with this i might end it all soon

i'm trying to hang on 
i'm trying really fucking hard 
but every time i try to move on 
it gets even more fucking harsh
i get so lost i can't count the hours 
i go somewhere else where i only see flowers

you said you're sorry cause you never reply
but all i'm doing is trying to help so could you tell me why 
why don't you reply 
maybe you don't miss me or you have no time 
or maybe you moved on and you think that i'm doin fine
but you can see my face , you can look into my eyes

why don't you reply (splashgvng)

Guardin - Mr. Brightside (Cover)(Slowed)

produced by scotty splash
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy

-lyrics-
they tryna blow me off like they puffin on sum
all of my boys, all of my guys like sons
i’m at the top cause i’m touching the sun
writing these hits and i’m making a ton

let’s go
i’m independent, y’all selling y’all’s souls
im next in line, i’m ready set go 
i don’t settle i’m going for gold

i’m sorry
i can be 
so toxic 
that’s scary
i’m splashin
like scotty
and i know
you don’t want me

yeah
cava, koba, senzu, gio
ueca, jxsie, backyard beetle
one day we gonna blow up
never missing, we got cheat codes
we gonna ride or die uh
fight or flight uh
i know i 
don’t wanna die
just yet
//
yeah, woah
picking up the pace
shawty let’s go
even if you leave
i’m not on my own

you know that i don’t got a soul
uh uh
i’m destined to die without a home
uh uh
i don’t wanna die in your arms
i’m just so cold

i’m sorry
i can be 
so toxic 
that’s scary
i’m splashin
like scotty
and i know
you don’t want me

All Platforms

cheat codes (scotty splash)

Angel On My Shoulder (Prod. CapsCtrl)

LYRICS:
I find myself in search of a reason to keep giving up
She's got the power to take my mind
I spend my days giving you my life
Right on the hour, I did it again
I'll buy you flowers, make up for sins
I'll keep to myself, in my head
I've seen this all before
I let it happen again

I feel the weight on my head
This life is bringin me down
The sun is shinin but I,
I keep my mind in the clouds
Or am I just underwater
Helpless, waiting to drown?
And who is that in the mirror?
I don't recognize the person I've become

I'm not the person I used to be
Is that somebody you can love?
I'm not the person that I want to be
You should run far from me
And never turn your head back
Every second I am worrying
About the fantasy I make up
Like how I'm so sure that you want to leave
How could you fall for me?
I'm not the only one for you

In fact, I bet you'll find a lie
Between each tooth
Behind my eyes
God only knows the things I hide
The words I don't speak
The lines I ride
Though every moment will pass me by,
I keep my grip on the wheel held tight
My will to last, my drive to thrive
Will dissipate right before your eyes

I feel the weight on my head
This life is bringin me down
The sun is shinin but I,
I keep my mind in the clouds
Or am I just underwater
Helpless, waiting to drown?
And who is that in the mirror?
I don't recognize the person I've become
I feel the weight on my head
This life is bringin me down
The sun is shinin but I,
I keep my mind in the clouds
Or am I just underwater
Helpless, waiting to drown?
And who is that in the mirror?
I don't recognize the person I've become

Follow me <3

Down

written, produced, and recorded by belak

co-produced by @photographic-memory

lyrics:

wouldnt it be better?
if i wasnt stuck here with myself
and overcast weather
and evil around me
and people that couldnt care lesser
“try staying positive”
that doesnt mix with the pressure
i guess my happy chemicals 
they all left on an adventure
without me, so fuck it
ill cry by myself till my head hurts
im mad at the world
cause the good people ended up dead first
and all i do is let my friends down
everytime that i try
misery loves company
so then lets play some i spy

i spot the biggest fucking loser 
ive seen in my life
its me and myself 
and a god who wont throw me a lifeline
and all this self loathing and hatred
i find behind my eyes
when i get alone alone with myself
sometimes i just wish
id love myself a bit more
instead of stalling untill my times up
im tired of being a tourist
inside of my love
i want to take control
of my feelings
and then fly up
cause to me love sounds just like its

better
if i wasnt stuck here with myself
and overcast weather
and evil around me
and people that couldnt care lesser
“try staying positive”
that doesnt mix with the pressure
i guess my happy chemicals 
they all left on an ad-
wouldnt it be better?
if i wasnt stuck here with
nothing i could do
wouldnt it be better?

yellow

the biggest loser

Stream/Buy

I've been wanting to do another song with @sadboigoyard for so long, so here it finally is!

lyrics:

My history and yours is mixed together like frost upon my lips
And I just wanna know if death is where it stops
Mortality that’s in my face will terrify me ‘till the day i drop
I’m not the way I was, I’m sorry that I might never be

‘Cause I lied when I said I’m fine
There’s just one detail that hurts the most
‘Cause I don’t wanna leave you that way
I don’t wanna leave you this way
If my time’s cut shorter, my friend
In your memories I will be your ghxst
I hope that you knew in the end
Your love and care, it kept me here

I don’t wanna just tell you…goddamn, I’m sorry
It’s something i just cannot control, in my body
I feel like I’m manipulative, and I’m so controlling
I think the hospital’s my home, ‘cause I always feel it calling

Cancer won’t be an excuse to be an asshole now
I never was before when I abused them drugs into the ground
The only reason I’m sober now is so I could start the chemo
I’m biologically out of luck, should have stayed away from them casinos

The people I scarred the most are the people that cared the most about me
So, the people I cut off first were my OG friends and all my family
And even my collaborators from day one, like ghxst collective
Just couldn’t do that shit to Goyard, man, I’m so pathetic

‘Cause I lied when I said I’m fine
There’s just one detail that hurts the most
‘Cause I don’t wanna leave you that way
I don’t wanna leave you this way
If my time’s cut shorter, my friend
In your memories I will be your ghxst
I hope that you knew in the end
Your love and care, it kept me here

Watch me sleep as I hang my head, for the life i’ve lived has run it’s course
As winter turns into haze, just know I missed you, always
Like the caco coin upon my desk, with a heavy heart I’ll be your ghxst
Your existence wiped away my fears
I hope you know how much I cared

I DON'T WANNA BE YOUR GHXST! feat. Goyard Sad Boi | Prod. HeyLee Manzeron

ive had enough
i gave you many chances but
you lie and lie
you're "miss understood"
you say you're sorry
but that means nothing
no oh

ive had enough
i gave you many chances but
you lie and lie
you're "miss understood"
you say you're sorry
but that means nothing
no oh

yeah
you fucked me over again i
swear that this was the last time
i brought you flowers and sunlight
while you fucked another guy

i wanna kill myself but it aint good for my health
settled down for you, an embodiment of hell
hate the way youd say you change
you're still the same as yesterday
at the end i went insane
and you're the only one to blame

yeah ive got too much shit stuck up inside my head
i dont want to care about the things you did
i was taught to almost always forgive
but i dont think i can do that for this this

i hate that i still fuckin love you
after all you that put me through
you ripped me in two, i didnt assume
that you would hurt me
i never knew you

ive had enough
i gave you many chances but
you lie and lie
you're "miss understood"
you say you're sorry
but that means nothing
no oh

ive had enough
i gave you many chances but
you lie and lie
you're "miss understood"
you say you're sorry
but that means nothing
no oh

Miss Understood (ushanka boy)

DA!LY (prod. doublemulti)

this what my songs sound like before i actually record them

LY2TM. (rough)

produced by @essex
mixed and mastered by @iofmusic
cover art by @emotionalbuu

lyrics:

(Hook)
I just made a bop shawty
I dont wanna stop shawty
Saw you in the club
So i knew that shit forsure
Watched you get it poppin
And from where i had watched it
Got a lil blow
But i spilt it on the floor
Now im lookin down 
when i should be lookin up
And these bitches wanna fuck
I shouldnt do this anymore
Got a heart condition
But i dont like to listen
By the way im livin
I wont make it till tomorrow

(Verse 1)
yea
I cant make this up girl
I dont wanna talk about it anymore
I got too much drugs and i got no more love 
And she still wanna fuck me
Acting like i aint enough
But i aint did enough
And she gon say im fake
I say that its fate 
That we met inside the club
I was gettin fucked up
And you were gettin fucked up
We both out here out lookin just for someone else to love
I cant trust myself now
Think i need some help now
Bitches wanna fuck me
Just because im up
I dont know myself now
I got on two belts now
thinkin that she love me
But dont know who i was

(Hook)
I just made a bop shawty
I dont wanna stop shawty
Saw you in the club
So i knew that shit forsure
Watched you get it poppin
And from where i had watched it
Got a lil blow
But i spilt it on the floor
Now im lookin down 
when i should be lookin up
And these bitches wanna fuck
I shouldnt do this anymore
Got a heart condition
But i dont like to listen
By the way im livin
I wont make it till tomorrow

(Verse 2)
I cant trust myself now
I cant talk no more
Cause i dont talk for cheap
Bitch i dont talk for free
Im making bank when they make songs with me
Bitch im comin up 
Love me when the sun is up
They gon fuckin hate me when the moon is out
Fuckin wit my sound
Type boy mad cause you aint found your sound
you Type boy mad cause you aint found your style
Fucked up baby, yea im fucked up baby
I cop mercedes, just to drive her crazy

(Hook)
I just made a bop shawty
I dont wanna stop shawty
Saw you in the club
So i knew that shit forsure
Watched you get it poppin
And from where i had watched it
Got a lil blow
But i spilt it on the floor
Now im lookin down 
when i should be lookin up
And these bitches wanna fuck
I shouldnt do this anymore
Got a heart condition
But i dont like to listen
By the way im livin
I wont make it till tomorrow

spotify/apple music

Heartstopper (+ ESSEX)

She/Her 🏳️‍⚧️
Artist, Producer
Ghxst Collective

i'm still here, forever manzeron