this part truly hits home, thank you for the amazing performance log <3

Your music is truly amazing. I wish this was what main stream was about. Love and things that are true to the human soul this song is very beautiful.

The Upload

produced by xona 

@heylog

-lyrics-
I wanna run but I can’t deny
feelin dread to our trust and I cry
and I would get everything for you
she loves him but I’m just that fool
I wanted us back, you didn’t want that
I’m pleading with this pain I held
and now I fall back
all on my prozac’s
and I just hope that I get your help

and now I’m washed up all alone
the little essence that you left long ago
the flowers wilt down to my floor
push me down like I’m nothing more

and I don’t wish the best for you
you wanted healing but I was see through
you wanted blood, now you got it on view
many voices telling me on what I knew
there’s reflections that portray all of us 
you’re sick of me and the things that I love 
I won’t forget what it meant for us
these 6 letters that stuck like a drug

stab me again i won't feel a thing
hold me down this some sentencing
taking my bliss, more apologies
i don't like this, just don't talk to me
wasting away i'm never calling you back
i'm stuck with memories i won't forget
with all this weight i carry on my back
you did this to me and i will never forgive

you
oh
i hate 
you
with
every little gut in my body

WALKING UP TO HEAVEN I CANNOT BELIEVE I'M HERE
BUT WHY AM I STILL RUNNING FROM THIS NEVER ENDING FEAR
I'M SHIFTING THROUGH LANES WHILE UR STILL STUCK IN 2ND GEAR
SURPRISING EVERYONE LIKE 2 HEADLIGHTS ON A DEER
WASTING AWAY I'M NEVER CALLING YOU BACK
I'M STUCK WITH MEMORIES I WON'T FORGET
(forget)
WITH ALL THIS WEIGHT I CARRY ON MY BACK 
YOU DID THIS TO ME AND I HATE YOU FOR THAT

you
oh
i hate you
with
every little gut in my body

i wont forget

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i won't forget w/ heylog

know better w/ eric godlow (prod m.e)

'me' produced by heylog

lyrics:
you see
i'm always down
down bad and
turn around
walking backwards
hit the ground
lookin up pushing me down
my biggest enemy
is
me
but how can
this
be
look i
step in a party
wonder why
am i here 
and check the time
check the weather 
and do it twice
then i realize my biggest enemy
is
me
but how can
this
be?

if u know me well enough then u know i got flaws
u gotta get going, when u leave i shut off
argue with me all the time i'm just overthinking
grab the brain and took the mind connecting all the pieces oh
the enemy
here is me
this whole time..
i been
in front of me

can't get me to stop
my shoes giving me blisters
it's difficult to crop u out the picture
but i gotta do it one of these days or later
baby i'm a nuisance
my hearts covered in layers oh
the enemy
here is me
this whole time
i been..
in front of me
look here i go through it
this not a joke i'm so pissed
wake up and mope, slouching
always no hope
(but don't quit)
hate on myself
that's my loss
i don't need help
i'm so done
one two three four
i'm it
but i give up
you win
take me out the frame i don't do this
swear like every single day i'm always losing
can't tear me apart already ruined
but i don't know why u lie what are u doing
already knew it
hating myself twice now i don't even cry no more
underneath my eyes, rapidly bounce back and forth
seeing through your lies
now i don't get phased
but thank god, now i realize
that the enemy is me

produced by heylog

lyrics:
(hair)
i heard what u said but now i'm past it
getting tired of you talk ik u cappin
i'm p good at sitting back behind the action
i never even know, force of habit
gotta hold me back and my aggression
fists hurt from doing all this clenching
you think i'm pissed off, i'm just upset
i'm tryna see the light, wanna end this

hold what i have learned from u and leave everything else behind
wonder if she notices i'm distancing and tryna hide
burning all the passages and that includes both you and i
fighting on this field for u but i think you'd rather me die
face plant
in the soil
the water comes
to a boil
now it's hot
take my shirt off
got 8 bumps
between my torso
old ones keep in touch cause they see that i'm doing something right
think about how far i've come, it honestly got me surprised
u say we're the same but man that hurts cause i am not ur kind
more destruction, come prepared, the blood is real and well defined
missiles coming from the heavens, everybody runs with fear
think i'm deaf from all the bombs, i just hear ringing in my ears
the voices are embedded, i be battling for quite some years
don't know what they say, i just know they like to interfere
PACK MY BAGS OR CONTINUE FREEZING
I HATE MYSELF AND YOU'RE THE REASON
BUT I PROMISE I'M GETTING THERE
LESS HEAD PULLING, LOOSE STRANDS OF HAIR
SHE DETOX WITH A GLASS OF WATER
I MAKE SMART CHOICES, THAT'S WHY I'M WISER
I SMELL THE BOOZE COMING OUT ON YOUR BREATH
I GUESS YOU NEEDED TO TAKE SOMETHING OFF THE EDGE

i heard what u said but now i'm past it
getting tired of you talk ik u cappin
i'm p good at sitting back behind the action
i never even know, force of habit
gotta hold me back and my aggression
fists hurt from doing all this clenching 
you think i'm pissed off, i'm just upset
i'm tryna see the light, wanna end this

don't know why u up
like what do you want
i'm not here to judge
do u feel forced in love
i needed help as my skin tears
i would really like to know why u weren't there
whom i love, i'm in despair
can u hear my voice, are you here

hair

by https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
for me
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
for me
where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
i cannot die alone
it sucks u had to go
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
now i'm by myself
but u can't even tell

where do i go from here
i'll kick it with my tears
i don't recognize a thing
the water made them sting
where should i even go
i've never felt this alone
should i take my life
cause god it's on my mind

where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
i cannot die alone
it sucks u had to go
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
now i'm by myself
well too bad u can't tell

veins

live

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heylog - live

MiseryGarden Collective exclusive release!!

written by kobayami, Vertigo, & Lxst Boy
produced by jxsie beats
mixed by Lxst Boy & kobayami
mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by kobayami

-lyrics-
(Verse 1: kobayami)
been about a year since I felt your grace
and I wont lie
I been missing that pretty face
with bangs on the side
thinking bout what i could've done better for you
should've adored you
should've gone for it and kissed you
well you know it wasn't always that bad
got to finally meet when you drove me mad 
with your beautiful looks
and the rope that you took from me
I know what I ain't took
but you put the life back in me
2 weeks into meeting you and we're talking in the dms
blowing up my phone, stating up until the a.m.
talking bout cute days but we'll never see them
cause I dont talk to you no more
I'm sorry babe I should've done more
without me though you're much better off
I'm not the same as i was before
mostly cause I'm such a bore

(Verse 2: Vertigo)
never been that into bangs but they look good on you
I never meant to change my ways, sorry if I failed you
now i just need you to know that I made every shot count
and I counted up my sorrows while I'm still on this couch
got ice cream and movies, yeah thats where I'm at
I'm feeling empty in my chest, dont know where  my head's at
I got a grovel to my voice, she said lets smoke till 2
i like that you think that, so lets go smoke on the roof
wish that I could've brought some weed and ride the high like noble steeds
but instead I grow like weeds
and affect your love too
she said I always seemed like the man with the plan
those people annoy be though, they're the type i can't stand
and so I'm sorry that i bored you with my lackluster ways
i hope that you'll forgive me
maybe
maybe someday

(Verse 3: Lxst Boy)
yeah
brush your bangs up off your face
looking so cute
I tried to be a better person
but that's far from the truth
and baby i cant fall asleep
cause I'm thinking bout you
constantly i find myself
walking straight up the moon
i miss your pale white face
in the glow of the evening light
talk about our past decisions
one day maybe get it right
yeah
or maybe get our act together
I sit and ponder petty things like the rainy weather
you picked me like a rose and told me I was something special
and now i wither and I die, never elemental
I grow as old as the trees as they surround the middle
I'm sorry that I'm boring
oh baby just a little

you're boring (kobayami, jxsie beats, Vertigo, & Lxst Boy)

@sorrow - sunshine (prod. 8ROKEBOY)

boredddddddd but heres one with umu :)

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fallen skies (w/umu)

i wish i could fix myself 4 u (demo lol)

'let's get u home' produced by heylog

lyrics:
it feel like no one lives here
it's so alone in this house
i miss the days cuddling on the ground
well time flies by when ur having fun
u went too fast, it hit harder than a gun
and when i walked down the stairs
ur sound asleep in the living room
hi baby girl, it's your brother to guard u
just know i'll fight off anything that gets close
i'll be your provider and get u home

and get u home
n get u home
and get u home
n get u home

it was 3/25
when everything bent
i've cried to the point where i don't have water left
u were the piece that was missed all along
the piece that completed me and made me strong
and when i walked down those stairs
ur still asleep in the living room
i wish i spent every second i had w you
just know i'll kill anything to come close
i'll be your protector, let's get u home

let's get u home..
let's get u home
let's get u home

it's so hard knowing ur not here, it tears me apart
i'm losing grip, always fail from the start
life is disgusting, hold no remorse
live everyday in doubt and always mourn
folks that i love feel too far away
i'm out of reach, they get farther by the day
16 years pass that i won't forget
so low i'm used to living in wretch

let's get u home

'destroy' produced by heylog

lyrics:
often this summer we fight & start over
u were the best but this bye ain't forever
i'll make some space for ur tears on my shoulder
cus i'll still be here when ur ready to come home

don't cry i'm here with u
through every bump i still love you
don't give up, we'll survive the storm
i promise to keep u warm
babe i try but it's so hard
another boy is probably locked in ur arms
i have no hope of trying again
do u believe we've come to an end

i'm so goin numb, rip my heart out and my guts
love for me is lost and this pain is all for what?
(why)
i built an outer shell, ain't no one allowed in here
i keep my circle small and i shrink it every year
i'm still growing up and i fear the endless void
that i might get sucked in and soon to be destroyed
(destroy)
never would i want u to feel like ur not safe
i see fear in ur eyes when i found ur true place
why u always lie
don't joke it's not the time
i'm not here to pick sides
i'm just here to sit tight
she leveled to my waistline
and give me the rude eye
no something don't sit right
emotionless incline

I ALWAYS GET WORSE BEFORE I GET ANY GOOD
WHY CAN I NOT LEARN WHEN I KNOW I PROBABLY SHOULD
I LOOK AT MYSELF AND I HATE THE FACE I SEE
YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THESE WORDS TRULY MEAN
	
i just need to isolate before i go and lose it
on some stupid situation i have no control with
watch me think over my head
at this point i'm useless
i won't match up to your degree
who in here is uncommon like me
just leave me alone
before i destroy us
away with everything
and everyone

destroy

tysm too @xona & @heylog
for jumping on the song, love ya kings <3

Lyrics.
xona -
by myself
I need your help
to leave this place and reach a realm 
where I’m safe from all of this
it’s raining and I don’t know when
this envy, this hatred will end
as long as you know it from then 
i cannot bleed for you longer
you got me locked in this somber-
state and it’s not even shocker 
you walked all way and just prospered
i can’t believe that i knew 
i would be here to rue
you’re gone without telling me too
so where do i go without you?

Heylog-
i'm almost home babe
sorry i'm a little late
i've traveled far and wide
i've seen some better days
i can't get enough
look in my eyes and tell me i look rough
here lies a soulless place
i just heard some cries that do not sound okay
heard shots coming far away
hard to misplace thoughts when they are insane
i'm here outside ur place
babe i've come home and now ur safe
i'm alright
i'm just fine
hide every cut from the fight
i'm alright
i see light
darkness gets lost from behind
i need something i can feel, something i can feel
somewhere i can hide
somewhere i can heal
u mean nothing to me now
i mean something to me now
send the warriors out to battle on the field
u know what's the deal
every enemy i fought is dead
now their families kneel
i'm sorry i had to kill ur friend and so now ur next
never saw it coming cause he's dumb
shit's a bloodybath 
i'm bleeding
they're grieving
sorry i had to kill them
i'm reaching
the ceiling
there's a new king since yours dead

enemy ft. xona & heylog

guitar played by @user-374890447

lyrics:
what do you know about this
what do you know about this
oh what do you know about this
I'm sick of saying that I'm okay

I'm sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i pray it don't
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but im all alone
im sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i pray it don't
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone

say what u done to me
you open me gave me misery
you blow out the candle as i set it alight
fate wasn't kind to me
your over me were history
into someone else
erases every part of me

I'm sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i pray it don't
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
I'm sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i prey it don't
i wanna leave but im all alone
i wanna leave but im all alone
i wanna leave but im all alone

anxiety

prod by me :>

(skylin)
all the hatred that you're giving me is only poisoning
at least with my enemies i know what it is they seek
I rather judas instead of someone backstabbing me
oh you're pathetic askin me if I would forgive you

I never go out or talk to people like I know I should
it's easier not engaging and hiding inside my hood
sometimes I tend to fail myself and everyone around me
I guess it kinda scared me from socially interacting

on the darkest days I don't know who it is that I will call
but I am hoping you answer because im bout to fall
and I don't know where I am going but ik you know it all
so I am calling out to you please do not let me fall


(heylog)
catch me on the other end
what i said i really meant
what are all the thoughts your brain holds
what's inside that head
i think i finally figured you out
i think it's time to step out your life now
i don't know what i did for you to become untied to me
if you're gonna act like this then break it off entirely
and if i would've known your emotions would all start piling
then i would've kept it hush instead of you crying to me
i was there for you when no one else was
now i'm seeing the truth and exposing your bluffs
i was there for you at your lowest point
don't go and blame it on me, this wasn't my choice

[[anger - disconnect]]

traitor w/heylog

traitor w/ heylog (Now on Spotify)

Prod ERXN & heylog

every photo, im not recognised
its always black and white, with some grain inside
you would think that i was tryna hide
im really not i just hate what i see

you wouldnt like it no doubt
ill force my hand over your mouth
youre half the size of me now
bruise on your knees start to sprout

look to my left, im in a forest where im tryna find 
a piece of you that just keeps falling down beside my side
i ran right through the forest path we did a thousand times
im scared that I wont make it back I might of lost my mind 
might of broke down for a minute but its cool 
image distorted in my vision when you call 
i know its just anxiety but if its more 

ima need a Prozac for this 
if you never loved me that's shit 
keep me out of line like im wearing high viz 
keep me outside like im never not in 
if you need me il die il tell you im in 
see me outside come around real quick 
baby I know the way to try and get your hate out 
click it back and put it to my face now

man i wish that she was close
hanging out, youre on the phone
think that i just found a home
hopefully we'll always grow
11 days until i board my flight
i just gotta know if youre worth my time
moving on to better things
she found me, shes in love w me
she always wants to say my name
yeah all she does is say my name
and i love her honesty
you really put my mind at ease
she wants to call me everyday
just so she can say my name

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BRUISE w/ hiraeth & heylog

“Forever You” is a story told through light, rhythm, and memory.
It begins at sunset — when everything feels infinite — and drifts through the heartbeat of the night until the first light of morning.

Every track captures a different shade of freedom: the laughter, the rush, the quiet moments that only exist when the world is asleep.

It’s music for open skies, late hours, and hearts that still believe in something pure.
Where euphoric synths meet human warmth, and every drop feels like a new beginning.

Forever You is not about one night — it’s about the part of you that never fades,
the one that keeps dancing long after the sound is gone.

AI project under the name of ewa

destroy

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