the amount of times ive listened to this is insane

still listening to this song in 2023 it is August 4th  today

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
still oblivious to what u like
took my head cut away for life
hoping you'll see, maybe notice the time
ur wasting, face it, i wanna make u mine
still oblivious to what u like
took my head cut away for life
hoping you'll see, maybe notice the time
ur wasting, face it, i wanna make u mine

fiending for love, don't know if i'll get it
my heart is growing numb, i can never feel it
and if u are the one, doubt i would know it
cause i'm too dumb to know what ur feelin
REMEMBER WHEN YOU SAID YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE ME
WERE YOU JUST SAYING THAT CAUSE I TOOK IT HONESTLY
NO POINT IN FEELING BAD I'M JUST HAPPY YOU COULD SEE
HOW HARD I'M BOUTTA CRASH AND YOU SAY YOU'RE HERE FOR ME

still healing to be whole
don't know what's inside
guess i could explore
the sun sets west as i pedal on my bike
the rain falls best in a vertical line
still fallin inna hole
let's see what i find
cus i need somethin more
the sun sets west if the horizons behind
the rain falls best in a vertical line

fiending for love
don't know if i'll get
my heart is growing numb
i can never feel it
n if you are the one
doubt i would know it
cause i'm too dumb
to know what ur feelin
remember when u said u would like to see me
were u just saying that cause i took it honestly
no point in feeling bad im just happy u could see
how hard i'm boutta crash

THE THUNDER IS APPROACHING FROM MY HOME TO YOU
CAUSE EVERYTIME I DROVE BACK THE SKY WAS NEVER BLUE
AND THAT HAD TO MEAN SOMETHING BABE
CAUSE IT HAPPENED EVERYTIME I LEFT YOUR PLACE
NOW EVERYTIME IT RAINS I ALWAYS THINK OF YOU
CAUSE WE COULD BE KISSING, DANCING UNDER THE MOON
NOW I WONDER IF YOU THINK THE SAME THINGS
I DOUBT IT, PROBABLY JUST ME
SO KILL ME NOW CAUSE I KNOW I'M LOSING YOU
IT'S SO HARD TO BREATH IF WE'LL NEVER UNDO
I STILL LOVE YOU WITH EVERYTHING
IT'S BEEN A WHILE LAYING EYES ON YOUR FACE
I'M WRITING THESE SONGS N BABY THEY'RE ALL FOR YOU
HOPING THAT YOU SEE AND COME IN TO PURSUE
SO BABY TELL ME WE'RE OK
IS THIS LIFE? CAUSE I'M HOPING IT'S A PHASE

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lyrics:
staring at the random number
but my mind is at a blank
lookin at my computer
so i ask, "who is this"
it was my lover
how could i forget?
ur light im thunder
ill hurt u twice again
staring at the late phone call
whoops did i miss that on purpose?
yeah that was intentional
and all this distortion
girl i never wanted this
for u to go off to college
and honestly i hated it
so id never have a chance

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

i tried my best baby but this is never gonna happen
im not the one to show love, shouldve known that was a problem
i picked these flowers for u i know u probably tossed em
now i just be resting from girls n everybody
she dont really love me
she just like to attention
how am i this stupid
omg im gonna lose it
take in all this caffeine
i still have no energy
drinking all this coffee
still got no energy

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

at least i didn't forget

heylog - at least i didn't forget

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
would u like to meet in the summer
catch up on life or should i even bother to plan a dine
i don't really even know where u reside
pick apart my soul and it feel like
something has been missing
right now i really miss u
n when i'm alone i wish i could reach out and kiss you
but life isn't fair
no life's never fair
the one i truly loved is gone now i'm the only one that's here
man i'm really done, getting tired, might just book a plane
this the same shirt i wore, for like 3 days
throw it on, roll my eyes looking mad at the stains
no if u can't handle this then u can't handle me
i'm busy hangin w myself so i got no time
to come through and drink booze or waste my life
peer pressure, i said i don't wanna get high
but the pressure continues i got a fragile mind
so i fantasize about a future that lies
and u are in it w me, all the way till we die
but i don't want it to seem like i am forcing
anything oh at all, just tell me what u think

always feelin down, guess this is life
surprised i live another night
surprised i haven't took my life
surprised i'm even still alive
but i got way too much to lose
i don't do it for me, i do it for you
i put away the knife, i did that for you
i'm wonderin if u can see, i'm right in front of you

so i fantasize about a girl who i'd die for
and she look up to me, like "ur the one that i search for"
but that's too good to be true
and that is my point of view
if i had to ask one thing
would you die for me too
so would u wanna run away with me..?
through the mountains and things i've never seen
on a hill maybe lay down by a tree
and close my eyes with a little bit of breeze
she said, "i can't do this log... i can't look after u no more"
so why u telling me this now?
i thought u had me figured out

man i'm really done getting tired might just book for a plane
in the north montana, gotta isolate
need someone to break my heart to feel something
cus i deserve it i've caused way too many pains
so i fantasize about a girl who i'd die for
and she look up to me, like "ur the one that i search for"
but that's too good to be true
and that is my point of view
if i had to ask one thing
would you die for me too

reside

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
the biggest thing i fear
the darkness in my heart
will never disappear
now i'm back to start 
but u gave me one night where i felt happy again
i smiled and waved goodbye
i think i made a friend

she said, "the night is young"
i got nothing to do
let's ride around town
windows open through the roof
i think this is special
it's never been us two
laughing in the meadows, while the flowers bloom
don't leave u needa stay
i don't wanna go home
i could stay here for days
maybe hang again
cause i'm okay with that
i don't wanna get my hopes up but hey,
i think i made a friend

i hear them calling on my name
i'm still log and i'm still the same
hold right here don't let go of me
i'll be here if u need anything
it's getting pretty late
i could talk to u for hours
i never say a thing, i never say a word
but when i speak with u
i leave my introvert
i leave it all behind, is it better is it worse

well is it better is it worse cause you've known me for a while
and the day really depends if i frown or if i smile
will depression come again
but as soon as u went home
depression came back
but i don't really care cause i think i made a friend

she said, "the night is young"
well i got nothing to do
let's ride around town
windows open through the roof
i think this is special
it's never been us two
laughing in the meadows while the flowers bloom
don't leave u needa stay
cause i don't wanna go home
i could stay here for days
so maybe hang again
cause i'm okay with that
i don't wanna get my hopes up but hey..
i think i made a friend

but i don't think i'm ready i cannot have a girl yet
i'm still getting over my last relationship
i'm slowly getting better but some nights i still feel numb
now people wanna hangout but the doors shut
u say that u miss me and i really doubt that
u say that ur proud of me, do u even mean it?
but i think ur tryna take advantage of me
cause no one around me is doing what i'm doing

I THINK I MADE A FRIEND
I THINK I MADE A FRIEND
I THINK I MADE A FRIEND





i think i made a friend :,)

i think i made a friend

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
i just woke up and i'm not even tired
it's 7 in the morning but i ain't set my timer
u said u fell asleep but i think ur a liar
it's a shame that ur the only one that i admire
is it too much for u to shoot a text
cause it'd probably just take a sec
right now i take it slow with baby steps
but i think that u just want me in my bed
and that's fine
yea it's okay
but i lie
but you'd do the same
and i wonder why even stay?
when ur just killing time and worsening my pain

do you think our friend's would hold support for us
i don't know whether this is lust or love
thinking about your lips in between mine
i'd treat u better than these stupid guys
so if we were together i would give support for you
and not just a little i would give a ton
so maybe u should keep it in mind
i'd treat you better than any other guy

the violent sounds that keep me up at night
leaves my neck in sweat causing my pillow to fight
but i lay back down, praying for sleep
their words are profound, they're never nice to me no
so is it too much for u to shoot a text
i swear it'd probably just take a sec
rn i take you slow with baby steps
but i swear that u just want me in my bed
procrastinating whether if i should go to sleep
cause i don't wanna see you in another dream
oh i hate it
it feels so real
i could touch it
and keep u sealed

don't tell her i'll be gone
either way she wouldnt know
i just took off
I'll see you when i play a show
mom and dad have moved
thought for sure they wouldn't go
let me stay with you, you are my second home
i wanted you to see
i wanted you to know
i'd tell you to my friend's just so i could boast
but you don't understand
that i am not a man
i do this for my brother
and i do this for my fans
fake talk, this a face off, i ain't scared of you
bite down, rip my tongue off and the blood run through
show up i got teeth marks and my peck turned blue
the suns down, imma head out yeah it was nice to see you
i gotta keep my cool yeah just wait wait wait wait
you gotta calm down log but i'm addicted to the pain
LOVE WHEN YOU LIE
LOVE WHEN YOU SPEAK
LOVE WHEN YOU CRY
AND LOVE WHEN YOU BREATHE
POSTED OUTSIDE, WAR IS COMPLETE
I FOUGHT FOR MY LIFE
IT GOT DEADLY
BLOOD ON MY FACE, STOP HOLDING ME
DODGING A MACE
BUT I DON'T RETREAT
i need to lay down thank god i'm alive
i knocked your man's down, i think he might die
lost our loved one's
bring peace to us all
cowards they run
and snakes in the wall
pray for em all

snakes in the wall

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
am i alive? guess we'll know if i breathe
i killed them all i can live in peace
i lost a lot, praying for enemies
avoiding evil that i might bring
i'll fight till death if it keeps u safe
i'll kill them all just to make sure ur okay
they charge at me, hold my ground, be brave
i lost my mind and there's nothing that remains

(one, two, three, go)

i just wrote you a letter
i wish u the best
yea i been doin better
and that's a big step
u got what u asked for
a life with no us
but u come back for more
and it's never enough
i just sent a letter
all the way from home
i'll miss u forever
why'd u have to go
i'm caught up in the center
baby i could die
it has been a pleasure
i'll meet u in the sky
this is it yea can't let down my guard
i never talk man, don't put me in charge
i cut her off should've done that from the start
leaving marks
i don't love me
why do i continue? swim in agony
we were so close until u stabbed me
i cut u off too cause u were bad for me
don't come back to me no

i'm so nervous right now i'm tweaking, why can i not speak
i fidget, it's so obvious i have anxiety
u sat there and did nothing while u saw me slowly bleed
i wiped it from my skin now there's scars for eternity
am i okay? guess we'll know if i breathe
check for my pulse to make sure it beats
i lost a lot, it's too much for me to see
i talk to god, praying for my enemies

the war II

produced by heylog
guitar by ashen

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lyrics:
my minds
dizzy and my head is way too light 
middle of nowhere just i
now i wish u could be here
the plan is to go disappear

no i
wanna leave so bad i sigh
and i'm sick of everything i cry
and i don't if i should be scared
just let me know if you'll be here
cause i'm too used to people leaving
why is it never good timing
and i'm sick apologizing 
when ur the one who should b sorry
i'm sick
i'll pass it over with one kiss
now we're both sharing our dna
too soon for home yea i'll be there late
still see grey

i'm sick
i'll pass it over with one kiss
now we're both sharing our eye's
what is it like sharing lives?
tonight i plan to make u mine
hearts so lost, thinking u could change that
i been through a lot and i lost a couple friend's 
but if i'm being honest i could care less
i don't wanna go through hell again
i need nothing, from u or anyone
i see something in her, i felt like i have won
(won)
translate my words into love
a better me, better evolve
no i
wanna leave so bad i sigh
and i'm sick of everything i cry
and i don't if i should be scared
just let me know if you'll be here

(fun fact: i recorded this song with a strep throat)

evolve

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
i wait patient for karma
butterflies and larva
pain in my sternum
poking me in my heart oh
floating i've risen
fall apart, rebuild it
emptiness, refill it
but i'm out of liquid
i made it far
low on juice, recharge
going through some photos, i feel pain in my heart
(god)
love me or not, do something
don't tease or play w my feelings
wait here in the cold
anger, unfold

you
oh
you
oh
you
oh
oh
you
baby hold me
enough is not enough
i need something
when i fall out of love

listen here u need to know
come closer, this is unknown
our love is what i'd die for
i don't bluff so let's explore
(ok)
i love u and no one else
i left u so i'll take the guilt
please don't move and just sit still
don't let go it's me i'll kill

can't stop coughing
bruising my chest
i make mistakes, keep losing my head
avoiding talk, don't wanna see friends
afraid of toxics i can feel it
you said u was my boy
but i hear the fake in your voice
(so fake)
"WHY DO I NEVER HEAR FROM YOU OR SEE YOU
WHY DO I NEVER KNOW WHAT YOU BEEN UP TO"
I DON'T FEEL LIKE CONVERSATING
I BOTTLE UP, GIVE IT TIME TILL I BREAK IT
DROWNING AND DROWNING MY SENSE
HOW AM I BLESSED WHEN YOU SAW WHAT I DID
LET OUT MY EMOTION UPSTAIRS IN MY CRIB
PROCRASTINATING AGAIN AND AGAIN

'the war III' produced by heylog
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lyrics:
resting my eyes wonder if this is a dream
barely get by, drips of blood stain through my fleece
stumbled across some stones near the creek
stopping i pause and hear the angels sing
gasping breaths of air, vision narrow and it's blurred
stop telling me to calm down that only makes it worse
sharpen i got claws now, cutting through my shirt
this is not the end just know soon i will return
watching people die, i cannot look or see
covering my eyes, i hear the distant screams
plugging both my ears but the sound bleeds
crying more tears than it is raining
throw it all away could tell u didn't care
is that all u got? love when it ain't fair
move me out and crop the picture, never there
people love to talk but never wanna square

tell me what u want baby tell me what u need
going through it all everything is out of reach
engaging in a fight everyone is scared of me
but they will never know deep down i'm only weak
please just hear me out can u promise me one thing
i can never win if u promise you'll never leave
baby i'm alone, does life have any means?
falling through the cracks and slipping right through the seams
stepping on the gas
quarter of a tank
i gotta ways to go but i know i have the strength
not in crowds or packs
2 if even that
i fight all by myself, capable of what i have

go in pissed off risking my life
stranded, panic tracking the time
dangerous hatred, kill and divide
this is not what i had implied
bleeding out, mission abort
loose ties, cutting the cords
stable, carry support
no i don't care if this all distorts
contradicting yourself, you make no sense
i try to get me to talk but i'm so dense
shoot my thoughts at the floor and think again
my depression is war, a chain of events
u made a mistake of losing this
now i feel unworthy of so many things
i continue to grow, thanks to a screen
and continue to fly feeling free

trusting my gut
made the right choice
when is it time to stop feeling destroyed
bottom of the ocean
fell into a void
i kinda like it here no sign of any noise
fighting for my life
this is the war III
letting go of souls
who were so close to me
aching won't stop
my heart from leaving
charging with no hope
but i have to believe

believe
believe
believe oh, i need to believe

the war III

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
oh we don't feel the same
like what we used to but we'll be okay
2 hours delay
part of me could never push u away
see i still love you, it'll never change
i need to lose you, i wanna keep u safe
but i'm still waiting for u to come home
u reside somewhere else now
oh kay i'm losing sleep
i think about u every day and every single week
but i'm still surviving this deep
we talk like once a month just know i'm working on me
and when i go to bed ur on my mind
and it effects the way i dream
waking up isn't a good time
u know we made a decent team
driving away u want me to stay
the minute i leave i'm missing your face
i don't understand, u were all i got
i'll piss through my pants if u got a guy
baby i know u could do better
she hates to be used, so why do u let him
if i was you i'd say to him,
"i'll no longer continue to put up with this"

can't keep looking back or else i'll slowly die
but i'm already dead i can't really decide
to open up the gap and better up my life
i want it bad but you'd hate me to try
do ur thing i know it's over
dead boy like being a poser
bad terms couldn't care about no closure
dive into exposure
i don't drink, so i stay being sober
oh man i should've closed her
cut it off but now i wanna hold her
so come a little closer
i told u everything now can u keep it on the low
cross ur heart and promise me that u won't tell a soul
you'll do anything
to keep it closed
i don't wanna say
the less u know
studying ur face
zero flaw
all the details
so beautiful

closure

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(heylog)
between the glass
is filled with poison
i feel like trash
apply the ointment
just stay back
he needs some time alone
cus through the cracks
is the widows home
don't come inside here
i would bounce
we're not alive here
don't stick around
when ur minds clear
come in the house
cus i'm not safe here
so get me out

don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

(casperrr)
oh she
she is lying thru her teeth
i swear that she wants to kill me
lay with my lifeless body
while staring at the ceiling
her actions are deceiving
she cuts herself she's bleeding
the blood is running and she really
fucking loves to see it

welcome to the widows home
there's cracks and holes in every wall
the emptyness fills all those holes
this place really tourments my soul
but you can't leave neither can i
i'll go into a room and cry
i'll try to just make up my mind
cut my hair lock myself inside

there's nowhere to go to now
there's no1 to save you now

(heylog + casperrr)
don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

evolve

heylog

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