“She’s back again oh god” man fr😮‍💨

log <3

produced by heylog

lyrics:
ok i been right here since the beginning
look into the mirror and i hate what i see
back away n just shake it off
i never even knew i could look this rough
so i'm glad we're done and i'm glad we broke up
if u saw me u might just throw up
hate myself, show it through a cut
new faces, have to adjust
so i'm glad we're done and i'm glad we broke up
if u saw me u might just throw up
hate myself, show it through a cut
new faces, have to adjust

well i heard what u said right behind me
making rumors up bro why u lying
so tired of being under the bus
always cautious about who i trust
so i don't need anyone, only need me
cus in the end that's the most important thing to me
i never noticed when we talk
both your lips are coated with gloss
so i'm glad we're done and i'm glad we broke up
if u saw me u might just throw up
hate myself, show it through a cut
new faces, have to adjust
and i hate the way you look at me
your face expressions fib to me
and i sent you a text but it never received
and u sent me a snap but it says pending
and i cant believe we're separate paths
i hope ur happy and i hope ur glad
so finally i can catch a breath
without your hands around my neck

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i'm glad we broke up

@heylog
produced by @herskylin

(vil)
i stay in the moment i’m lost in
time fractures and i’m exhausted
serpent biting all on the cartridge
perfecting everything in my way
and it sucks to suck
in your world
i mean nothing to you, you say it sucks to be you
(cut me loose)

cut me loose from the ties i’m
holding on despite the
ruckus you’ve caused
i should abandon you but what would that fix
…nothing at all
this confrontation is just breaking us apart
i cant even find the start
and so i

break down (x4)
can’t find a way, need an escape
i’m left for dead blood spewin out
my pores are closing
i’m decomposing
show me what it’s like to be controlling

(heylog)
my life's so concerning
wait too long i need to hurry
my stomach's churning
decide if i need to worry
what am i here for
what is my goal
oh my god i'm so worn from climbing out this hole
abuse my body oh it's hurting
i'm so lost think that i'm worthless
pretty sure i don't have a purpose
make mistakes constantly learning
what not to do next time
too lazy to reply
but i don't even try
desert phone, it's so dry

(vil)
i’m bleeding out from my wrist
and i’m choked up, let me say my final wish
you act like what we had never existed
so i’m blaming you until death

serpent +heylog (skylin ✧)

original song 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2MI1WHc6RI
u make me look stupid

lyrics:
i think were fallin outta love
i dont know who i could trust
i said i got issues
i swear to god this aint my luck
i fail at being honest
this was never my intention
im always lying to my parents
i dont know how i keep doing this

i dont know how i keep doing this
u pretend ur clueless
i try to make u laugh
but baby u make me look stupid
i failed you at being honest
im surprised u didnt notice
atleast i tried to make u smile
but instead i just looked stupid

i hate how u always look at me
but it was nothing new to me
im too distracted by ur eyes
while u continue to keep breaking me
i think that we were fiction
u kept me suffocated
i know u never listened
im crying while im twitchin
your 'tude needs some fixin
thats not even a question
u got me second guessin
now im overthinkin

i tried to make u laugh
i tried to make it right
i tried to get a smile
but instead i make u cry
we'll feel nothing like the start
u just slipped out from my arms
i could never let u go
when i still have ur heart

i know i did u wrong i guess thats what i deserve
i hate to see u gone and the thought just makes it worse
u made it in another song i doubt youll even care
i know that this dont matter so i doubt youll even hear
i know i did u wrong and i know i killed us off
i know its all my fault but i made u another song
i doubt youll even care and i doubt youll even hear
i cut off all my hair just so u could stop and stare

i dont know how i keep doing this
u pretend ur clueless
i try to make u laugh
but baby u make me look stupid
i failed you at being honest
im surprised u didnt notice
atleast i tried to make u smile
but instead i just looked stupid

heylog - u make me look stupid

i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 

w/ @heylog

prod: https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow
master: https://soundcloud.com/ezraspandora 

looking back baby,
i already was hollow
toss it back 
way too fast 
till i get through the bottle
i don't wanna leave this club
i just wanna drink 
until i throw it all up
(lock me up)
want you to squeeze until i'm leaking out blood
i wanna see just how it feels to go numb
i wanna feel it on the tip of my tongue
let's fuck it up until we're going out bad 
let's break it all apart until there's nothing fucking left
cause i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 
and i want you to tell me i'm a waste of fucking breath
oh i'm terrible 
i'm the reason you're falling 
unbearable 
i'm the bones in your closet
i still just wanna see you get out 
there's nothing left for me to be now

damn it all 
pray for what 
there's nobody there
(i'm too far gone)
tell me why 
i wanted you then 
i want you now

heylog:
i'm chillin at a party, why'd i decide to go out
wish i just stayed home but i been stuck inside my house
i don't even care, i'd much rather be sober
she hung around the bottles and i could tell it broke her
i'm glad i can't relate cause i've never had that problem
you told me i'm rude for that but hey, i'm being honest
i would never lie to you, just want you to stop it
i could up and go, i've got plenty of options
quit talking, ur just holding me back
it's safe to say, tonight ur getting trashed
take a second to breathe, ik ur sad
you don't have to drink it away, could you relax
she phones her girls for a ride at 3am
can't even walk to her room, she needs a hand
throwing up all the time, she's used to it
friday night rolls around and repeat it

tip of my tongue (w/ heylog) (prod. eric godlow)

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

i run away out of fear and out of panic
i dissipate everybody who cause damage
i love it here
i think i can manage
i disappear into trees and into foliage
i walk a path, clear my head for my advantage
no one knows i'm here
no one knows i vanish

walking through mud, all the mire's climbing up my pants
water soaking through my jeans, why is it all swampy land
i'm so getting sick of this, take me to the flower field
i need to lay down and rest
sleeping would be ideal

love

vanish

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heylog - vanish

prod logan

lyrics:
wait here for a minute
i'll be back in a moment
tie me to a rope
pull it back, cut me open
everything we did together
(god)
likes to haunt me
i take it with a grain of salt and everything you taught me
in the end i'm still a human but you hate that
cause you put me in a bottle when u face back
and i remember we were tight but i don't trace back
so ima move on with my life and never think "past"
cause i don't wanna get caught up in flames i've been in before
i see my problems and delete like i just been through a war
and i got 24 hours and 7 days filled with bored
but when someone asks me to hang i don't have time to afford
and by that i mean i just wanna hangout by myself
& i'm sorry but i'd rather work on music n melt
cause oh my god this heat has got me sweating hotter than hell
i haven't showered for a while and i'm starting to smell
now i look into the mirror, sensing anger in me
i wanna smash it into pieces, i don't wanna be weak
i wanna get me out this town and move somewhere overseas
i'm tryna get me to the top but i'm progressing with ease
and the last thing ima do is hang my head and give up
i think they're praying me to fall but so far they're outta luck
cause i continue steady work while they're hungover as f-
and on the weekends i be staying home cause it's just as fun

again

hey guys hope u enjoy this new track.
shoutout to @prodjpjp for the production
& shoutout to @heylog for hopping on it 

LYRICS:
All my friends have turned to strangers
Am I really all alone?
Tell me truth and don't be jaded
Where have you been all night long?
I'm all alone
Struggling to get off my phone
Yeah, I think we did this all wrong
And I cannot get over it
I shouldn't feel this way, not at this young age

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I'll never know
But I wish you the best
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

(I'm leaving home)
Uh, so imma leave all my vices
Leave all the memories
Leave all the trauma
You was just my enemy
You're not a friend of me
I see that now it's clear as day
So, it's time to runaway

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I’ll never know
But I wish you the best 
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

What has my life become?
Can't think how I once was
All these years gone by so fast
How come I still look back?
This blonde boy I used to be
Smiled big and was happy
Now everybody's watching
I hate it to be honest
The past few years have felt this way
And oh I've had so much to say
Thinking I'll get over it
There's a lot here to digest
Another person disrespects
I'm keeping guard oh, yet again
Maybe I should unalive
Piss right off and from my life

bones w/ heylog (jpjp)

Prod ERXN & heylog

every photo, im not recognised
its always black and white, with some grain inside
you would think that i was tryna hide
im really not i just hate what i see

you wouldnt like it no doubt
ill force my hand over your mouth
youre half the size of me now
bruise on your knees start to sprout

look to my left, im in a forest where im tryna find 
a piece of you that just keeps falling down beside my side
i ran right through the forest path we did a thousand times
im scared that I wont make it back I might of lost my mind 
might of broke down for a minute but its cool 
image distorted in my vision when you call 
i know its just anxiety but if its more 

ima need a Prozac for this 
if you never loved me that's shit 
keep me out of line like im wearing high viz 
keep me outside like im never not in 
if you need me il die il tell you im in 
see me outside come around real quick 
baby I know the way to try and get your hate out 
click it back and put it to my face now

man i wish that she was close
hanging out, youre on the phone
think that i just found a home
hopefully we'll always grow
11 days until i board my flight
i just gotta know if youre worth my time
moving on to better things
she found me, shes in love w me
she always wants to say my name
yeah all she does is say my name
and i love her honesty
you really put my mind at ease
she wants to call me everyday
just so she can say my name

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BRUISE w/ hiraeth & heylog

over distorted waste of time
prod heylog

lyrics:
you feel the pain?
what you trying
what you sayin?
bitch say my name
go on, do it
say it loud
let them know we're not the

same
we're not the same

i'm on my own
all i do is move in silence
i don't need to talk
i advance while bein quiet
so
in my head nothing but violence
pray to God he'll bring me peace
and show me lightness yeah

pray God for my peace
pray for enemies

i wanna be dead
so i can hear the angels cry
why am i seeing red
shut up, now is not the time
help me to relax
cause right now i could kill someone
i got a list of rats
and i do not need a gun
i wanna be dead
so God's standing before my eyes
i'm sorry for my sins
i can't control myself sometimes
me? could not forgive
the list of people i would kill
why think like this
the fight to keep my mental still

i feel awake
why you cryin
why you shakin
those follows fake?
WE'RE NOT THE-
heard you barking like a bitch
make them sit
we're not the

same
we're not the same

prod by heylog

lyrics:
there's just something about driving away from your house
you cried in my arms cause i gotta go now
when you touch my skin, i go numb cause of it
your hand on my face, narrow waist on my hips
i don't know why i'm like this
i'm not open minded
i'm filled up with hate
but you keep me sane
she looks up and listens
and she likes submitting
i got you, it's fine
i'll give us a life

there's just something about walking out of your house
you stood at the stairs, i know you'll miss me now
your nails touch my skin, i go numb cause of it
your lips on my mouth and your waist on my hips
god this feelings amazing
the smell of your fragrance
lingers in my room
it makes me miss you
the ripples and dents
you won't bleed again
i got you, it's fine
i'll give you a life

mouth

this track was produced by @nevrfall

lyrics:
i dont think this is my time
place my feet i feel alright
missing all your face again
15 pounds help sleep at night

life ur body, dont feel ashamed
i still feel u miles away
i still feel lonely when im with you
all these people around and i miss you
i dont think this feelings right
caught your stare as we locking eyes
i dont know who these people are
bandages gotta hide my scars

𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶?
𝘰𝘩. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸...
𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨

I BARELY KNOW WHO THESE PEOPLE ARE
I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO THESE WOMEN ARE
I BARELY KNOW WHO THIS BITCH IS
BABY JUST HOLD ME ITS GETTING DARK
WHERE I AM 2 HOURS DIFFERENCE
NOW WERE APART EVERYTHING IS DIFFERENT
NOW WERE AFAR EVERYTHING FEELS DISTANT
IN 4 YEARS
will we still be kissing?

i dont think this is my time
place my feet i feel alright
missing all your face again
15 pounds help sleep at night

miles away (p. nevrfall)

the beat was produced by @lindenpearce @nevrfall

lyrics:
𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘸𝘴 𝘶𝘳 𝘥𝘢𝘺, 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨
𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦, 𝘪 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨
𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘯, 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘥𝘰 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘶
𝘥𝘰 𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯? 𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘪 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘶

light blonde hair hangs over your eyes
i dont wanna waste all ur time
am i wrong, i think im right
on the search for duds just to light it one more time

eyeliner covering your eyes
i get nervous wasting your time
am i wrong or am i right
tell her to leave so u can stay for the whole night
on the balcony, im afraid of heights
standing next to u, made my fear shy
is it just me or does this feel right
out here in the cold,
could be here for the whole night

im waitin for you
im bad at the first move
im breaking for you
im sad now, its not new
not afraid of death bitch im burning in both eyes
when she look at me i lose track of mind
if i give u my heart, will u hold it tight?
and if u gimme yours, i promise ill treat it right
i get nervous on what i could say to u
i dont want u to leave so damn soon
i would spare my time just for u
and if this could be it, id take a bullet for u

im sorry u had to go, ill see u in a week or so
i put u in my phone but im nervous to hit u up
now that youre here, im shy gotta cover up
im a nervous wreck, but thats because when ur
eyeliner covering your eyes
i get nervous wasting your time
am i wrong or am i right
tell her to leave so u can stay for the whole night
on the balcony, im afraid of heights
standing next to u, made my fear shy
is it just me or does this feel right
out here in the cold,
could be here for the whole night

im wastin your time
im sorry, ill shut my mind

𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺
𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵?
𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘰 𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘥𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦

nervous (p. linden & nevrfall)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i dont
think
she into
me
yeah im
great
but u never asked
me
im so
mad
she speaking
death
u think im
scared?
ive done worse
than that

if u wanna tag along lets go
im done collecting dust its getting old
im avoided or so ive been told
leave me here guess ill stay in the cold
im fine until i heard u on the phone
cute voice i love it, wait no
she brainwashing me just like before
earl grey approaching n the storm

jot all of my problems its piss
she told me i love u with lips
another ill add to the list
another ill add to my wrist
she whispered some words they were sour
im beginning to feed all this power
bite into her flesh n its tough
i think that im falling in love
jot in my journal cus im pissed
im speaking in tongues cus i sin
she back oh please not again
shes back oh god not again
she got me melting like a candle
girl this is just too much to handle
releasing my stress on her hands though
i release all my stress in her deep throat 

 if u wanna tag along lets go
im done collecting dust its getting old
im avoided or so ive been told
leave me here guess ill stay in the cold
im fine until i heard u on the phone
cute voice i love it, wait no
she brainwashing me just like before
earl grey approaching n the storm

i dont wanna joke around anymore
u wanna talk to me? wow u must be bored
no one converses with me i think i like it though
imma take this time while i build up my core
i avoided her but what did i do that for?
its been 2 months im sorry i like to ignore
deep in the water till u washed me up to the shore
i never asked for u, shouldve locked my door

grey

produced by heylog

lyrics:
look i dont know man
how can i explain this
and not hurt your feelings
cause i care about that
okay ill b honest
ur kinda selfish
i take that back actually
youre very very selfish
wait, where are we going
love where are u taking me
buried in the forest
no sign of vacancy
u hear the thunder roaring
wind breaking through the trees
she said im not important
as the ground collapse beneath my feet

now she aint want nothing to do with me
i got tears comin above my knees
if ur here for an apology
i have changed dont expect a sorry
her pretty words are latching on to me
i cut em off avoiding history
this dairy got my stomach acidy
she my lactose stay away from me

this is my best babe
give u the best
charge me up like a tesla
baby i cannot fix u
she camera me post the picture
she ask "why dont u post me?"
cus our love will fall shortly
i dont wanna share u on my feed
cause i wont have to delete anything
wait where are we going
can u feel my heart breaking
she catching up w my life now
she callin me gotta watch out
its gettin a bit toasty
my face hurts popping acne
she burrowed in breakouts
still look pretty with or without

now she aint want nothing to do with me
i got tears comin above my knees
if ur here for an apology
i have changed dont expect a sorry
her pretty words are latching on to me
i cut em off avoiding history
this dairy got my stomach acidy
she my lactose stay away from me

collapse

produced by heylog

lyrics:
my thoughts could start a riot
im thirsty for some violence
this boy think he a god yeah
i could fit him in my pocket
i got posers poppin sockets
dont even try to study this
i think its pretty funny when
she fangirl in his messages
but look he aint no special man
ur not even either yea
im relieved to get this off my chest
i hope u both listen to this
i hear he likes to talk a lot
but all i hear is silence
lay out their positions
while i go back to work again

if u love me pls dont say it
id rather u lie it
my heart is close to dying
no way i can revive it
leave me here in peace and silence
if im hurt youll hear the sirens
oh take me to the ambulance
these voices feel so ambient
my gas shot i cannot break it
ur bestfriend real good at flaking
honestly i kinda hate him
what goes on inside that brain of his?
she worship all the wickedness
i cannot just stand for this
her soul with flames and ashes
dont look back as i walk past it
my heart is half divided
she threw it in the garbage
that explains why i cant find it
could u spare me a medkit
i been busy duct taping it
but that cant even hold it
the pieces keep on falling
no she dont even notice
she ask "hey should i post this"
OMG YOU GOT ME MEGA PISSED
have i told u how im sick of it
how u love me when im just a kid
she crying while im grinning
im laughing while she fearing
i feel like pandora
tag along cus im useless

i dont wanna talk baby could u just let me go
i feel safer praying even god thinks im alone
nobody can hear me here yelling in the pillow
punch holes in the wall oh man im getting pretty close
move on to ur face ill give ur boy a bloody nose
jump into the ice its cold but i forgot my clothes
she touch 'round my stomach and feeling all my ripples
nails scratching the crevices she kissing my freckles

my thoughts could start a riot
im thirsty for some violence
this boy think he a god yeah
i could fit him in my pocket
i got posers poppin sockets
dont even try to study this
i think its pretty funny when
she fangirl in his messages
but look he aint no special man
ur not even either yea
im relieved to get this off my chest
i hope u both listen to this
i hear he likes to talk a lot
but all i hear is silence
lay out their positions
while i go back to work again

freckles

the sky has fallen
yet you are still here
is it time for a rewind
are you longing for your kind


grey

heylog

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