make music regardless of the feeling. please.

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
she's so far, somewhere i can see
and her lips taste good
they're always hautin me
u let me inside ur home
n all our memories
5 letters ending in 'veaux'
they still hold on to me
holdin on to me

crash
crash away with me
rememberin our past
pass away with me
treat me like your first
but instead i was your last
how could i be so stupid to believe u were exact
latch
ur latchin on to me
i'm burning right through the ash
ur morphed in the heat
sparks flying around the sky
as we share a couple laughs
without u in my life i'm steady livin with that

this is all my fault n wish i could take it back
put my life on the line balancing through every step
don't know if the waters deep don't even know the depth
the rocks fall down the cliff as i'm lookin over the edge
i see your reflection bouncing off the ocean
why do u look mad, ur prolly dissapointed
ur blurry through the heat waves
ashes fly over your face
can't tell if ur mad, can't tell if ur okay
there's so many things i do
to piss or to upset you
i don't have the time to explain what i ask of u
grab her hand, kiss it softly
she can't help but notice the polish slowly tearing
right from her nails
ur nails were always pink and how u looked in my eyes
i paused and couldn't blink
so i failed
and lost your company
i swear i still hear your voice through the phone talking to me

so come and crash
crash away with me
rememberin our past
pass away with me
treat me like your first
but instead i was your last
how could i be so stupid to believe u were exact
latch
ur latchin on to me
i'm burning right through the ash
ur morphed in the heat
sparks flying around the sky
as we share a couple laughs
without u in my life i'm steady livin with that

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xuaev

featuring @xona
produced by heylog & xona

lyrics:
(heylog)
in the winter my hair turns dark and the tips curl
when can i learn how to meet a girl
hurry back need to defend the available angles
i swear i've made contact with monsters and angels
in the winter my skin dry's after a shower
don't care for the sun but i love all the flowers 
you missed my call now she thinks she has the power
do what you want just know that you are a coward
oh hi, 
didn't see u waving by
its not like ur wasting my time
finding out what its like
to be the light
cause you
um
don't know where i'm coming from
your life's only just begun
i can show you what its like
to feel numb

(xona)
cause I hate when i'm alone 
I’ve witnessed what she honed
it burns me through my core 
so tell me what’s-
and I don’t wanna waste my time
see a blur of image that I like
seeing nothing but girl who tries to lie
and you wish that I’ll fall again 
just to show your other friends
but I know I’m adamant, toxic is your finest edge
day by day it’s on myself
feeling weaker on my guilt 
told no one I needed help 
It’s on myself

(heylog)
need to get my life together climbing up steep hills
enjoying the sunset under the windmills
i cannot stand here nor can i sit still
i'm not on anything nor do i take pills

(heylog & xona)
i'm done with everything nor do i even care
do you want attention?
laugh all u want i'm just tryna be nice here
and i don't know why
i think i'm normal, maybe a little weird
do you think i'm here? maybe something's not clear
i got my morals, tryna meet my peers
don't need a sign on why i need you right?

animus ft. xona

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
the birds all sing a beautiful song
light beams through this is where i belong
peaceful people who fear to talk
they mimic them and love to mock
women from different countries
i feel pressured there's people watching me
pull u in with the sound of harmonies
they say this kid's gifted with prodigy

occupied i'm tired of people
that look in ur eye tells me u are deceitful
you live knowing this time your whole act has been a lie
you walk by the garden and every flower dies

THE BIRDS ALL SING A BEAUTIFUL SONG
LIGHT BEAMS DOWN THIS IS WHERE I BELONG
PEACEFUL PEOPLE WHO FEAR TO TALK
THEY MIMIC THEM AND LOVE TO MOCK
WOMEN FROM DIFFERENT COUNTRIES
I FEEL PRESSURED THERE'S PEOPLE WATCHING ME
PULL YOU IN WITH THE SOUND OF HARMONIES
THEY SAY THIS KID'S GIFTED WITH PRODIGY

yeah u better run from me i said
i'm used to this and being lonely
conversations don't extend when i'm
short on words i guess i don't feel like talking
spare my life it's just begun
i'm still tryna get us back but i know we're done
growing old too fast i'm too slow to outrun
problems chasing me but i know that they won

this is where i belong

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lyrics:
pacing around the floor making circles that could go miles
tears are running down my face they're stacking up in piles
threw us in recycle, unrecognizable files
all our data's lost, babe it's been a while
cause we
don't need
us
remember when we met i was too scared to even look at u
these knots that are in my stomach ain't normal they're all bc of u
and i can't help but stutter the first time i ever talked to you
and i knew u were special, really thought we'd have a future
but we
don't need
us

i stg
this can't be real
2 years gone
nothing to feel
it went so fast
thought it would last
but i was too, arrogant with that

staying the night at your home
feels good waking up, knowing ur close
don't know why or how i go
with you, was never alone
i'm poppin all my cells
where are you now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay right here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that i've always feared
that i fear

CAPABLE OF LOSING EVERYTHING
I GOT NO FRIENDS
ONLY PEOPLE THROUGH A PHONE SCREEN
I'M ALONE LESS
WHEN YOU CALLED I WAS HOPING
YOU WERE COMING HOME
1 YEAR DONE NOW 3
LEFT TO GO
POURING OUT MY HEART TO RANDOM EYES
BET THEY KNOW ME
BETTER THAN YOU EVER DID
COME AND SHOW ME
SHE'S TOO BUSY THROWING UP
ALL THE ALCOHOL
WHILE I'M SITTING IN MY LIVING ROOM
CUDDLING WITH MY DOG
bored out of my mind, riff guitar i love to escape
cut off everyone, i keep swimming in my mistakes
staring at the ceiling
bet it has more feelings
than i ever will i come to realize i'm deceiving

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lyrics:
would u like to meet in the summer
catch up on life or should i even bother to plan a dine
i don't really even know where u reside
pick apart my soul and it feel like
something has been missing
right now i really miss u
n when i'm alone i wish i could reach out and kiss you
but life isn't fair
no life's never fair
the one i truly loved is gone now i'm the only one that's here
man i'm really done, getting tired, might just book a plane
this the same shirt i wore, for like 3 days
throw it on, roll my eyes looking mad at the stains
no if u can't handle this then u can't handle me
i'm busy hangin w myself so i got no time
to come through and drink booze or waste my life
peer pressure, i said i don't wanna get high
but the pressure continues i got a fragile mind
so i fantasize about a future that lies
and u are in it w me, all the way till we die
but i don't want it to seem like i am forcing
anything oh at all, just tell me what u think

always feelin down, guess this is life
surprised i live another night
surprised i haven't took my life
surprised i'm even still alive
but i got way too much to lose
i don't do it for me, i do it for you
i put away the knife, i did that for you
i'm wonderin if u can see, i'm right in front of you

so i fantasize about a girl who i'd die for
and she look up to me, like "ur the one that i search for"
but that's too good to be true
and that is my point of view
if i had to ask one thing
would you die for me too
so would u wanna run away with me..?
through the mountains and things i've never seen
on a hill maybe lay down by a tree
and close my eyes with a little bit of breeze
she said, "i can't do this log... i can't look after u no more"
so why u telling me this now?
i thought u had me figured out

man i'm really done getting tired might just book for a plane
in the north montana, gotta isolate
need someone to break my heart to feel something
cus i deserve it i've caused way too many pains
so i fantasize about a girl who i'd die for
and she look up to me, like "ur the one that i search for"
but that's too good to be true
and that is my point of view
if i had to ask one thing
would you die for me too

reside

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
ok i been right here since the beginning
look into the mirror and i hate what i see
back away n just shake it off
i never even knew i could look this rough
so i'm glad we're done and i'm glad we broke up
if u saw me u might just throw up
hate myself, show it through a cut
new faces, have to adjust
so i'm glad we're done and i'm glad we broke up
if u saw me u might just throw up
hate myself, show it through a cut
new faces, have to adjust

well i heard what u said right behind me
making rumors up bro why u lying
so tired of being under the bus
always cautious about who i trust
so i don't need anyone, only need me
cus in the end that's the most important thing to me
i never noticed when we talk
both your lips are coated with gloss
so i'm glad we're done and i'm glad we broke up
if u saw me u might just throw up
hate myself, show it through a cut
new faces, have to adjust
and i hate the way you look at me
your face expressions fib to me
and i sent you a text but it never received
and u sent me a snap but it says pending
and i cant believe we're separate paths
i hope ur happy and i hope ur glad
so finally i can catch a breath
without your hands around my neck

i'm glad we broke up

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lyrics:
the biggest thing i fear
the darkness in my heart
will never disappear
now i'm back to start 
but u gave me one night where i felt happy again
i smiled and waved goodbye
i think i made a friend

she said, "the night is young"
i got nothing to do
let's ride around town
windows open through the roof
i think this is special
it's never been us two
laughing in the meadows, while the flowers bloom
don't leave u needa stay
i don't wanna go home
i could stay here for days
maybe hang again
cause i'm okay with that
i don't wanna get my hopes up but hey,
i think i made a friend

i hear them calling on my name
i'm still log and i'm still the same
hold right here don't let go of me
i'll be here if u need anything
it's getting pretty late
i could talk to u for hours
i never say a thing, i never say a word
but when i speak with u
i leave my introvert
i leave it all behind, is it better is it worse

well is it better is it worse cause you've known me for a while
and the day really depends if i frown or if i smile
will depression come again
but as soon as u went home
depression came back
but i don't really care cause i think i made a friend

she said, "the night is young"
well i got nothing to do
let's ride around town
windows open through the roof
i think this is special
it's never been us two
laughing in the meadows while the flowers bloom
don't leave u needa stay
cause i don't wanna go home
i could stay here for days
so maybe hang again
cause i'm okay with that
i don't wanna get my hopes up but hey..
i think i made a friend

but i don't think i'm ready i cannot have a girl yet
i'm still getting over my last relationship
i'm slowly getting better but some nights i still feel numb
now people wanna hangout but the doors shut
u say that u miss me and i really doubt that
u say that ur proud of me, do u even mean it?
but i think ur tryna take advantage of me
cause no one around me is doing what i'm doing

I THINK I MADE A FRIEND
I THINK I MADE A FRIEND
I THINK I MADE A FRIEND





i think i made a friend :,)

i think i made a friend

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lyrics:
i just woke up and i'm not even tired
it's 7 in the morning but i ain't set my timer
u said u fell asleep but i think ur a liar
it's a shame that ur the only one that i admire
is it too much for u to shoot a text
cause it'd probably just take a sec
right now i take it slow with baby steps
but i think that u just want me in my bed
and that's fine
yea it's okay
but i lie
but you'd do the same
and i wonder why even stay?
when ur just killing time and worsening my pain

do you think our friend's would hold support for us
i don't know whether this is lust or love
thinking about your lips in between mine
i'd treat u better than these stupid guys
so if we were together i would give support for you
and not just a little i would give a ton
so maybe u should keep it in mind
i'd treat you better than any other guy

the violent sounds that keep me up at night
leaves my neck in sweat causing my pillow to fight
but i lay back down, praying for sleep
their words are profound, they're never nice to me no
so is it too much for u to shoot a text
i swear it'd probably just take a sec
rn i take you slow with baby steps
but i swear that u just want me in my bed
procrastinating whether if i should go to sleep
cause i don't wanna see you in another dream
oh i hate it
it feels so real
i could touch it
and keep u sealed

don't tell her i'll be gone
either way she wouldnt know
i just took off
I'll see you when i play a show
mom and dad have moved
thought for sure they wouldn't go
let me stay with you, you are my second home
i wanted you to see
i wanted you to know
i'd tell you to my friend's just so i could boast
but you don't understand
that i am not a man
i do this for my brother
and i do this for my fans
fake talk, this a face off, i ain't scared of you
bite down, rip my tongue off and the blood run through
show up i got teeth marks and my peck turned blue
the suns down, imma head out yeah it was nice to see you
i gotta keep my cool yeah just wait wait wait wait
you gotta calm down log but i'm addicted to the pain
LOVE WHEN YOU LIE
LOVE WHEN YOU SPEAK
LOVE WHEN YOU CRY
AND LOVE WHEN YOU BREATHE
POSTED OUTSIDE, WAR IS COMPLETE
I FOUGHT FOR MY LIFE
IT GOT DEADLY
BLOOD ON MY FACE, STOP HOLDING ME
DODGING A MACE
BUT I DON'T RETREAT
i need to lay down thank god i'm alive
i knocked your man's down, i think he might die
lost our loved one's
bring peace to us all
cowards they run
and snakes in the wall
pray for em all

snakes in the wall

produced by heylog
guitar by ashen

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lyrics:
my minds
dizzy and my head is way too light 
middle of nowhere just i
now i wish u could be here
the plan is to go disappear

no i
wanna leave so bad i sigh
and i'm sick of everything i cry
and i don't if i should be scared
just let me know if you'll be here
cause i'm too used to people leaving
why is it never good timing
and i'm sick apologizing 
when ur the one who should b sorry
i'm sick
i'll pass it over with one kiss
now we're both sharing our dna
too soon for home yea i'll be there late
still see grey

i'm sick
i'll pass it over with one kiss
now we're both sharing our eye's
what is it like sharing lives?
tonight i plan to make u mine
hearts so lost, thinking u could change that
i been through a lot and i lost a couple friend's 
but if i'm being honest i could care less
i don't wanna go through hell again
i need nothing, from u or anyone
i see something in her, i felt like i have won
(won)
translate my words into love
a better me, better evolve
no i
wanna leave so bad i sigh
and i'm sick of everything i cry
and i don't if i should be scared
just let me know if you'll be here

(fun fact: i recorded this song with a strep throat)

evolve

'the war III' produced by heylog
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lyrics:
resting my eyes wonder if this is a dream
barely get by, drips of blood stain through my fleece
stumbled across some stones near the creek
stopping i pause and hear the angels sing
gasping breaths of air, vision narrow and it's blurred
stop telling me to calm down that only makes it worse
sharpen i got claws now, cutting through my shirt
this is not the end just know soon i will return
watching people die, i cannot look or see
covering my eyes, i hear the distant screams
plugging both my ears but the sound bleeds
crying more tears than it is raining
throw it all away could tell u didn't care
is that all u got? love when it ain't fair
move me out and crop the picture, never there
people love to talk but never wanna square

tell me what u want baby tell me what u need
going through it all everything is out of reach
engaging in a fight everyone is scared of me
but they will never know deep down i'm only weak
please just hear me out can u promise me one thing
i can never win if u promise you'll never leave
baby i'm alone, does life have any means?
falling through the cracks and slipping right through the seams
stepping on the gas
quarter of a tank
i gotta ways to go but i know i have the strength
not in crowds or packs
2 if even that
i fight all by myself, capable of what i have

go in pissed off risking my life
stranded, panic tracking the time
dangerous hatred, kill and divide
this is not what i had implied
bleeding out, mission abort
loose ties, cutting the cords
stable, carry support
no i don't care if this all distorts
contradicting yourself, you make no sense
i try to get me to talk but i'm so dense
shoot my thoughts at the floor and think again
my depression is war, a chain of events
u made a mistake of losing this
now i feel unworthy of so many things
i continue to grow, thanks to a screen
and continue to fly feeling free

trusting my gut
made the right choice
when is it time to stop feeling destroyed
bottom of the ocean
fell into a void
i kinda like it here no sign of any noise
fighting for my life
this is the war III
letting go of souls
who were so close to me
aching won't stop
my heart from leaving
charging with no hope
but i have to believe

believe
believe
believe oh, i need to believe

the war III

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lyrics:
oh we don't feel the same
like what we used to but we'll be okay
2 hours delay
part of me could never push u away
see i still love you, it'll never change
i need to lose you, i wanna keep u safe
but i'm still waiting for u to come home
u reside somewhere else now
oh kay i'm losing sleep
i think about u every day and every single week
but i'm still surviving this deep
we talk like once a month just know i'm working on me
and when i go to bed ur on my mind
and it effects the way i dream
waking up isn't a good time
u know we made a decent team
driving away u want me to stay
the minute i leave i'm missing your face
i don't understand, u were all i got
i'll piss through my pants if u got a guy
baby i know u could do better
she hates to be used, so why do u let him
if i was you i'd say to him,
"i'll no longer continue to put up with this"

can't keep looking back or else i'll slowly die
but i'm already dead i can't really decide
to open up the gap and better up my life
i want it bad but you'd hate me to try
do ur thing i know it's over
dead boy like being a poser
bad terms couldn't care about no closure
dive into exposure
i don't drink, so i stay being sober
oh man i should've closed her
cut it off but now i wanna hold her
so come a little closer
i told u everything now can u keep it on the low
cross ur heart and promise me that u won't tell a soul
you'll do anything
to keep it closed
i don't wanna say
the less u know
studying ur face
zero flaw
all the details
so beautiful

i'm glad we broke up

heylog

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