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rouri404 - Cant Lose What U Never Had

produced by xona, ruevi, & oc

big thank you to all individuals who helped make this song possible <3

@ruevi @prod-oc
@heylog
@hiraethsry
@sleepywater
@sinxi
@caspywaspy
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@valerii
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-lyrics-
https://genius.com/Xona-avoid-ii-lyrics

xona

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avoid II w/ ruevi, heylog, hiraeth, sleepwater, sinxi, casperrr, vil, valerii & deadfish

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
don't u ever talk about me or ur gonna get yourself hurt
i wake up and i'm winning, how does second feel when i'm first
my life might be lame but at least that i'm not lamer
i gotta get goin and i hope to see u never

i'm getting closer and closer
and closer
it's over
cause ima steer off if i keep losing composure
YOU'RE GETTING CLOSER AND CLOSER
AND CLOSER
IT'S OVER IT'S OVER
if u ever talk about me boy ur gonna get ur ego hurt
how does second feel when i'm consistently just placing first
maybe you'll reflect from your mistakes just how i have learned
we are not the same cause u are opposite of down to earth

i have fun, i don't need a beer
u talk and it goes out my ear
my hair smells like tobacco smoke
puff cigars, the bands maduro
she's wasted while i'm cookin heat
(damn son)
i can't talk i'm making a beat
can't text, i'm sweating down my chin
pump iron, bumping 2hollis

now don't you ever talk about me or ur gonna get urself hurt
wake up and i'm winning, how does second feel when i'm first
my life might be lame but at least that i'm not lamer
i gotta get going and i hope to see u never

maduro

cover of 'poland' by lil yachty produced by f1lthy
re-produced by heylog

heylog - poland (lil yachty)

eyelids (drma x yunny)

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
I COULD DISINTEGRATE RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES
AND YOU WOULDN'T KNOW WHETHER IF I WAS DEAD OR ALIVE
NOW THEIR EYES WIDEN LIKE IT'S SOME SORT OF SURPRISE
I WAS JUST TESTIN TO SEE IF IT CROSSED YOUR MIND

in the eventide it's cold 
as i'm right beside the woods
every bug is now buzzing
in a forest, in a bush
it's that time to hibernate
animals retreat from the north
toward the south to migrate
winter streets get quickly worn
DESCEND INTO YOUR SOUL
BLOOD DRAWING FROM MY SKULL
WOULD YOU TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT
YOU REAP WITH WHAT YOU SOW
examining your mind
hope to intertwine
oh everything aligns
beside you feeding me with lies

pokin thru the light and lost all them
being used as your personal vent
if u keep it up i might just dip
cus the words u say leave me in dents
i set my expectations way too high
it kinda sucks but i'll let this one slide
i gotta regroup and resupply
quit tryna fool me i see right through ur eyes

I COULD DISINTEGRATE RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES
AND YOU WOULDN'T KNOW WHETHER IF I WAS DEAD OR ALIVE
NOW THEIR EYES WIDEN LIKE IT'S SOME SORT OF SURPRISE
I WAS JUST TESTIN TO SEE IF IT CROSSED YOUR MIND
BUT IT DIDN'T 
I SEE YOU'RE TRYNA PRY YOUR WAY INTO MY BUSINESS
YOU'LL NEVER GET IN
EVERY YEAR THE CIRCLE SHRINKS AND IT THICKENS
IT ALWAYS THICKENS

pause

she wonders why i always hangout in the dark
idk bruh just chilling playing guitar
oh it was all my fault
didn't know committing to a girl would be hard
so i should really focus on my bread
there's never a balance, music till i go to bed
baby i'm far too gone
bags under my eyes i didn't sleep until dawn

you'll never get it

disintegrate

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
i hate to say i forced myself thinking that you were sweet
but ur a monster, didn't know that you were a freak
lock me out from you and throw away the keys
i won't let you get any closer to me
put my hand on her leg and feel the ridges and scars
i feel afraid you might bury my body under tarp
so dig a grave for 2 people and make sure it is large
you're coming with, i won't die alone or we could restart

i'm not gonna bother you anymore
pulling my collar, pulling out thorns
it was an honor climbing aboard
somebody watch her out on the floor
i'm not gonna bother you ever again
pulling my collar right back where it is
i tried my hardest to help you get fixed
wasn't for long until you relapsed

say does your father know you been out
if i was him you'd have curfew, no doubt
i just want you safe getting back to the house
cause nowadays it's brutal all around
don't hold on 
to my hand
just let go now
find a man
don't look back
not a glance
as i'm crushed by
an avalanche
don't know why you'd say that
you're gonna get pay back
looking at a photo could you possibly get phased at
drinking at a club
i thought you were done
she said, "i stayed away"
but bro it's been a month
i don't wanna hate
i just never drink
you could say i'm boring all you want but i'm not phased
i don't make excuses
i simply do not do it
don't wanna see my life fall into a ruin

i'm not gonna bother you anymore
pulling my collar, pulling out thorns
it was an honor climbing aboard
somebody watch her out on the floor
i'm not gonna bother you ever again
pulling my collar right back where it is
i tried my hardest to help you get fixed
wasn't for long until you relapsed

repeat

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
fiending
oh you're always fiending
for something to catch a feeling
no, you don't take it easy
you're grieving
deleting
cause ur not receiving 
the guy who gives you meaning
it just ends up depleting
you need me

my hair is getting longer and mom says i need to cut it off
today i'm gonna pull it back or maybe i should let it fall
or maybe i should let it fall

my hair is getting longer and mom says i need to cut it off
today i'm gonna pull it back or maybe i should let it fall
i'm looking at the pane and see a kid i don't recognize at all
you think i'm in a crisis but this is my life inside a ball
but i am not the one to be crying over some bullsh-
i'm trying to be a man for a girl who is the purist
and i believe that's only achieved through work and purpose
but at the very end of the day it'll be worth it
so what'd you say you come tag along to a journey
i'll be your protector, you won't have to worry
will you believe in me if i focus and try
i'll do what it takes to give you a better life

i assume your brain still has developing to do
no one cares about my feelings and neither do you
only difference i don't post them, you fiend off replies
absorbing it like energy to mentally survive
you're fiending
oh you're always fiending
for something to catch a feeling
no, you don't take it easy
you're grieving
deleting
because you're not receiving
the guy who gives you meaning
it just ends up depleting
you need me
the letters i would write
could form into a book
when turning every page
seem to be overlooked
so when you read the words
imagine you are me
tearing paper
and grinding your teeth

oh i was always there
too bad i ain't here
go cry, well life ain't fair
it's not like i don't care
but oh my, i'm bad at saying no
but i don't wanna be a problem if i'm holding on
oh my, now you wanna complain
baby i'm not gonna put up with that for very long
for long

teeth II

produced by heylog 
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lyrics:
I LIKE TO THINK ABOUT YOU WHEN I REST
I LIKE TO THINK WE'LL BE TOGETHER AGAIN
SHE DON'T WANT ME TO LEAVE
NOW SHE'S BEGGING HER DAD FOR ME TO STAY
I THINK ABOUT IT WHEN WE MET
BUT ALL THESE MEMORIES ARE DEAD
I FEEL IT SLOWLY DISSIPATE
I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S TIME TO WALK AWAY
notice how it falls in deeper
deeper
oh, it goes deeper
know that i can't be ur healer
healer
healer
ur healer
EVERYTHING'S ABOUT YOU AND THE REST
BUT I GOT TO GO WITHOUT YOU CAUSE IT'S BEST
I LIKE TO THINK WE'LL CROSS PATHS SOMEWHERE ELSE
I HATE THAT THESE THOUGHTS ARE WHERE I DWELL

notice how i fall in deeper
deeper
oh, i go deeper
baby, i can't be ur healer
healer
healer
ur healer

𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘪𝘵, 𝘪'𝘮 𝘶𝘱𝘴𝘦𝘵
𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘥, 𝘴𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘴
𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘯
𝘪 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘮𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭

i don't say enough prayer
or kneel beside the bed
i ask on some nights
to see you again
i didn't find anything
or see any signs
unless they were right in front of me this whole time
i hate that all of my friends
live so far away
it's very lonely
and it's so cliche
i like thinking of you
i do it a lot
why give attention to something that's forever gone?

I LIKE TO THINK ABOUT YOU WHEN I REST
I LIKE TO THINK WE'LL BE TOGETHER AGAIN
SHE DON'T WANT ME TO LEAVE
NOW SHE'S BEGGING HER DAD FOR ME TO STAY
I THINK ABOUT IT WHEN WE MET
BUT ALL THESE MEMORIES ARE DEAD
I FEEL IT SLOWLY DISSIPATE
I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S TIME TO WALK AWAY

healer

prod heylog

lyrics:
wait here for a minute
i'll be back in a moment
tie me to a rope
pull it back, cut me open
everything we did together
(god)
likes to haunt me
i take it with a grain of salt and everything you taught me
in the end i'm still a human but you hate that
cause you put me in a bottle when u face back
and i remember we were tight but i don't trace back
so ima move on with my life and never think "past"
cause i don't wanna get caught up in flames i've been in before
i see my problems and delete like i just been through a war
and i got 24 hours and 7 days filled with bored
but when someone asks me to hang i don't have time to afford
and by that i mean i just wanna hangout by myself
& i'm sorry but i'd rather work on music n melt
cause oh my god this heat has got me sweating hotter than hell
i haven't showered for a while and i'm starting to smell
now i look into the mirror, sensing anger in me
i wanna smash it into pieces, i don't wanna be weak
i wanna get me out this town and move somewhere overseas
i'm tryna get me to the top but i'm progressing with ease
and the last thing ima do is hang my head and give up
i think they're praying me to fall but so far they're outta luck
cause i continue steady work while they're hungover as f-
and on the weekends i be staying home cause it's just as fun

maduro

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