https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
staring at the random number
but my mind is at a blank
lookin at my computer
so i ask, "who is this"
it was my lover
how could i forget?
ur light im thunder
ill hurt u twice again
staring at the late phone call
whoops did i miss that on purpose?
yeah that was intentional
and all this distortion
girl i never wanted this
for u to go off to college
and honestly i hated it
so id never have a chance

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

i tried my best baby but this is never gonna happen
im not the one to show love, shouldve known that was a problem
i picked these flowers for u i know u probably tossed em
now i just be resting from girls n everybody
she dont really love me
she just like to attention
how am i this stupid
omg im gonna lose it
take in all this caffeine
i still have no energy
drinking all this coffee
still got no energy

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

at least i didn't forget

heylog - at least i didn't forget

produced by heylog

lyrics:
(hair)
i heard what u said but now i'm past it
getting tired of you talk ik u cappin
i'm p good at sitting back behind the action
i never even know, force of habit
gotta hold me back and my aggression
fists hurt from doing all this clenching
you think i'm pissed off, i'm just upset
i'm tryna see the light, wanna end this

hold what i have learned from u and leave everything else behind
wonder if she notices i'm distancing and tryna hide
burning all the passages and that includes both you and i
fighting on this field for u but i think you'd rather me die
face plant
in the soil
the water comes
to a boil
now it's hot
take my shirt off
got 8 bumps
between my torso
old ones keep in touch cause they see that i'm doing something right
think about how far i've come, it honestly got me surprised
u say we're the same but man that hurts cause i am not ur kind
more destruction, come prepared, the blood is real and well defined
missiles coming from the heavens, everybody runs with fear
think i'm deaf from all the bombs, i just hear ringing in my ears
the voices are embedded, i be battling for quite some years
don't know what they say, i just know they like to interfere
PACK MY BAGS OR CONTINUE FREEZING
I HATE MYSELF AND YOU'RE THE REASON
BUT I PROMISE I'M GETTING THERE
LESS HEAD PULLING, LOOSE STRANDS OF HAIR
SHE DETOX WITH A GLASS OF WATER
I MAKE SMART CHOICES, THAT'S WHY I'M WISER
I SMELL THE BOOZE COMING OUT ON YOUR BREATH
I GUESS YOU NEEDED TO TAKE SOMETHING OFF THE EDGE

i heard what u said but now i'm past it
getting tired of you talk ik u cappin
i'm p good at sitting back behind the action
i never even know, force of habit
gotta hold me back and my aggression
fists hurt from doing all this clenching 
you think i'm pissed off, i'm just upset
i'm tryna see the light, wanna end this

don't know why u up
like what do you want
i'm not here to judge
do u feel forced in love
i needed help as my skin tears
i would really like to know why u weren't there
whom i love, i'm in despair
can u hear my voice, are you here

spotify

hair

produced by sleepwater leftquiet and heylog
w @heylog

im losing faith and abilities
i wish i was brave im never at ease
what did you say to me
nothing was made for me
nothing went the way of the willow
ill sit right here and wait by my window

picking leaves for you to see
i hate these trees when i cant breathe
im sick of me i said too much
i hate myself not scared to crush
im not scared to crush
i hate myself
not fair no touch
i did this to myself

come destroy me now i rlly wanna know
i locked inside your arms
i hate the way it goes
im locked inside a farm 
while u remove his coat
ive never had the time 
to let anyone close

heylog:
just a log and a tree standing open in fields
rough times for a being if u don't know how to heal
kill me lover, push below the ground
oh i can't stand it here, not even an ounce
oh you
oh my
come back
to my side
i dont know myself
dont go ill stay and get help

no i dont miss you
hate what u done to me
say that your in love me
200 hundred days
where i would see you
i made a mistake
now i cant see you

fields w/heylog

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater and leftquiet

lyrics:
ive been to heaven hell and she wanted it
she wanna ham my neck till im on it
switching positions i feel like im in night time
i don't feel the sun no more i dont like sunshine
quicker my heart declines
more that i find myself
shut my windows and blinds
more that i hate myself
i dislike everything
but dislike you the most
my lifes full of sin
cos i dont know where to go

stood outside im seeing flies
im outside you know my time
wait for this im on a climb
fuck my psyche its pain until i die
gaining more likes am i doing something right
its gone up in spikes have i gone up in my life
maybe you should listen to me once in a while
surely you would be different if you werent in denial
EVERY THOUGHT SHES EVER HAD STARTS TO FUCKING PILE
OH I WISH I NEVER HAD SHES FUCKING VILE
depression getting really bad you can crack a smile
you can barely leave your bed stop acting like a child
how did you get rid of your sweat did you run it off
do something w ur life and make it worthwile

heylog:
she's so psychotic, i knew when i saw
speaking so toxic ur just like ur mom
everything i do she gets really pissed
so why does it feel like it's always my fault
god ur chaotic, quit starting a fight
i ain't one to argue, it's a waste of time
she purposely trying to spark up a flame
and now all of this is getting out of line
oh baby
ur so cold
ur making this easy
give more
oh baby
we're off course
she said she want more she said she want more
innocence
don't exist
she'll find ways to get your head
she's offended again
exaggerate things i say
oh my dear
you're in fear
block it out with a few beers
everyone she's ever cursed is in a pile
everyone she's ever hurt calls her vile
and everyone she's done the worst gets away
am i the only one who's learned from her pain
now the whole place burnt down
and i can see it in her eyes she's happy
i hope you know u look like a clown
cus only you would act a little trashy

𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘺 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨

pile w/heylog

original song 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2MI1WHc6RI
u make me look stupid

lyrics:
i think were fallin outta love
i dont know who i could trust
i said i got issues
i swear to god this aint my luck
i fail at being honest
this was never my intention
im always lying to my parents
i dont know how i keep doing this

i dont know how i keep doing this
u pretend ur clueless
i try to make u laugh
but baby u make me look stupid
i failed you at being honest
im surprised u didnt notice
atleast i tried to make u smile
but instead i just looked stupid

i hate how u always look at me
but it was nothing new to me
im too distracted by ur eyes
while u continue to keep breaking me
i think that we were fiction
u kept me suffocated
i know u never listened
im crying while im twitchin
your 'tude needs some fixin
thats not even a question
u got me second guessin
now im overthinkin

i tried to make u laugh
i tried to make it right
i tried to get a smile
but instead i make u cry
we'll feel nothing like the start
u just slipped out from my arms
i could never let u go
when i still have ur heart

i know i did u wrong i guess thats what i deserve
i hate to see u gone and the thought just makes it worse
u made it in another song i doubt youll even care
i know that this dont matter so i doubt youll even hear
i know i did u wrong and i know i killed us off
i know its all my fault but i made u another song
i doubt youll even care and i doubt youll even hear
i cut off all my hair just so u could stop and stare

i dont know how i keep doing this
u pretend ur clueless
i try to make u laugh
but baby u make me look stupid
i failed you at being honest
im surprised u didnt notice
atleast i tried to make u smile
but instead i just looked stupid

heylog - u make me look stupid

lina - heylog (transparent)

prod by me :>

(skylin)
all the hatred that you're giving me is only poisoning
at least with my enemies i know what it is they seek
I rather judas instead of someone backstabbing me
oh you're pathetic askin me if I would forgive you

I never go out or talk to people like I know I should
it's easier not engaging and hiding inside my hood
sometimes I tend to fail myself and everyone around me
I guess it kinda scared me from socially interacting

on the darkest days I don't know who it is that I will call
but I am hoping you answer because im bout to fall
and I don't know where I am going but ik you know it all
so I am calling out to you please do not let me fall


(heylog)
catch me on the other end
what i said i really meant
what are all the thoughts your brain holds
what's inside that head
i think i finally figured you out
i think it's time to step out your life now
i don't know what i did for you to become untied to me
if you're gonna act like this then break it off entirely
and if i would've known your emotions would all start piling
then i would've kept it hush instead of you crying to me
i was there for you when no one else was
now i'm seeing the truth and exposing your bluffs
i was there for you at your lowest point
don't go and blame it on me, this wasn't my choice

[[anger - disconnect]]

traitor w/heylog

traitor w/ heylog (Now on Spotify)

The Way Goodbye Looked At Me,

In "The Way Goodbye Looked At Me," ObiAmeshi crafts a haunting meditation on the final moments before love ends. This deeply personal composition captures the weight of unspoken farewells and the piercing clarity that comes when you realize someone is already gone, even while they're still standing before you.
The track explores the paradox of endings - how goodbye can arrive not as words but as a look, a shift in the air, a sudden understanding that passes between two people. ObiAmeshi's vocals navigate the tender space between acceptance and heartbreak, delivering each line with the vulnerability of someone who has felt the exact moment when forever becomes never.
Musically, the song builds from intimate whispers to emotional crescendos, mirroring the internal storm of recognizing loss before it's officially acknowledged. The production creates an atmosphere that feels both spacious and suffocating, perfectly complementing the lyrical journey through the geography of goodbye.
"The Way Goodbye Looked At Me" stands as a testament to ObiAmeshi's ability to find profound beauty in life's most difficult moments, transforming personal pain into universal art that resonates with anyone who has ever watched love slip away in real time.

The Way Goodbye looked At Me

produced by heylog

lyrics:
deeply in fate
u could heal my pain
before we dont break
ill love u till the end
dear anjed
i need to say something
id fall in love again
i wish u the best

deeply in fate
u could heal my pain
before we done break
ill love u to the end
hey anjed
this is important
ill love  once again
ill be here to the end

u recalling what u said?
you was talking behind my back
i deleted everything
i cleared out all the messages
he was like a brother
i hate him for doing that
deep down it still hurts
but ill b over it
dear anjed i lost
dont know if i can get u back
now since weve matured
maybe try again
i can take us places
am i overthinking
ur in another book
while im flippin through these pages
hey anjed im sorry
i got to get this off my chest
we been together twice so we have learned from our past
its like ur a stranger
i get to know u once again
could never function right she got me short im losing breath
dear anjed this is me
giving u my heart
theres nothing to be afraid of ill keep in my arms
i havent gone to sleep
cause im thinking of u in the dark
join me in this journey i believe three times a charm

deeply in fate
u could heal my pain
before we done break
ill love u to the end
hey anjed
this is important
ill love  once again
ill be here to the end

dear anjed i want
u
like really bad
hope this isnt dumb
i hope that youll be glad
hey anjed hello
u
it got me sad
years have gone by
patience really met
here we are again..

dear anjed

produced by heylog
main guitar played by SADisfying

lyrics:
if i cant love
will i end up
lone and forgot
or spend it with someone
i cant fall in love
my hearts dead probably numb
i hope it wont be long
to heal cus its been months
if i cant love
will she leave us?
alone here in the dust
ill never get enough
my time is up
i cant think with all the fuss
these camels takin my lungs
i think of u when im buzzed

i wish youd stay home permanently
i cant sleep alone if ur in my dreams
i cant let u go this cant be happening
but ur bad for me
but ur bad for me
i still love u even if u hate me
i still want u even if u despite me
i still care for u even if u dont care for me
u were good to me
u were great for me

i never understood 
how u could put up with me
cause i barely showed love 
im still surprised u didnt leave me
now as i look back
i shouldve cherished what i had with you
call me "heyregret" 
thats how i feel with everything
i havent touched food all day
too busy making music 
she asked me if im aokay
"i listen to ur lyrics"
i dont know how to love
i show zero emotion
only in my songs
my tears could flood the ocean

if i cant love
will i end up
lone and forgot
or spend it with someone
i cant fall in love
my hearts dead probably numb
i hope it wont be long
to heal cus its been months
if i cant love
will she leave us?
alone here in the dust
ill never get enough
my time is up
i cant think with all the fuss
these camels taking my lungs
i think of u when im buzzed

months

produced by heylog

lyrics:
my thoughts could start a riot
im thirsty for some violence
this boy think he a god yeah
i could fit him in my pocket
i got posers poppin sockets
dont even try to study this
i think its pretty funny when
she fangirl in his messages
but look he aint no special man
ur not even either yea
im relieved to get this off my chest
i hope u both listen to this
i hear he likes to talk a lot
but all i hear is silence
lay out their positions
while i go back to work again

if u love me pls dont say it
id rather u lie it
my heart is close to dying
no way i can revive it
leave me here in peace and silence
if im hurt youll hear the sirens
oh take me to the ambulance
these voices feel so ambient
my gas shot i cannot break it
ur bestfriend real good at flaking
honestly i kinda hate him
what goes on inside that brain of his?
she worship all the wickedness
i cannot just stand for this
her soul with flames and ashes
dont look back as i walk past it
my heart is half divided
she threw it in the garbage
that explains why i cant find it
could u spare me a medkit
i been busy duct taping it
but that cant even hold it
the pieces keep on falling
no she dont even notice
she ask "hey should i post this"
OMG YOU GOT ME MEGA PISSED
have i told u how im sick of it
how u love me when im just a kid
she crying while im grinning
im laughing while she fearing
i feel like pandora
tag along cus im useless

i dont wanna talk baby could u just let me go
i feel safer praying even god thinks im alone
nobody can hear me here yelling in the pillow
punch holes in the wall oh man im getting pretty close
move on to ur face ill give ur boy a bloody nose
jump into the ice its cold but i forgot my clothes
she touch 'round my stomach and feeling all my ripples
nails scratching the crevices she kissing my freckles

my thoughts could start a riot
im thirsty for some violence
this boy think he a god yeah
i could fit him in my pocket
i got posers poppin sockets
dont even try to study this
i think its pretty funny when
she fangirl in his messages
but look he aint no special man
ur not even either yea
im relieved to get this off my chest
i hope u both listen to this
i hear he likes to talk a lot
but all i hear is silence
lay out their positions
while i go back to work again