produced by heylog

lyrics:
still oblivious to what u like
took my head cut away for life
hoping you'll see, maybe notice the time
ur wasting, face it, i wanna make u mine
still oblivious to what u like
took my head cut away for life
hoping you'll see, maybe notice the time
ur wasting, face it, i wanna make u mine

fiending for love, don't know if i'll get it
my heart is growing numb, i can never feel it
and if u are the one, doubt i would know it
cause i'm too dumb to know what ur feelin
REMEMBER WHEN YOU SAID YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE ME
WERE YOU JUST SAYING THAT CAUSE I TOOK IT HONESTLY
NO POINT IN FEELING BAD I'M JUST HAPPY YOU COULD SEE
HOW HARD I'M BOUTTA CRASH AND YOU SAY YOU'RE HERE FOR ME

still healing to be whole
don't know what's inside
guess i could explore
the sun sets west as i pedal on my bike
the rain falls best in a vertical line
still fallin inna hole
let's see what i find
cus i need somethin more
the sun sets west if the horizons behind
the rain falls best in a vertical line

fiending for love
don't know if i'll get
my heart is growing numb
i can never feel it
n if you are the one
doubt i would know it
cause i'm too dumb
to know what ur feelin
remember when u said u would like to see me
were u just saying that cause i took it honestly
no point in feeling bad im just happy u could see
how hard i'm boutta crash

THE THUNDER IS APPROACHING FROM MY HOME TO YOU
CAUSE EVERYTIME I DROVE BACK THE SKY WAS NEVER BLUE
AND THAT HAD TO MEAN SOMETHING BABE
CAUSE IT HAPPENED EVERYTIME I LEFT YOUR PLACE
NOW EVERYTIME IT RAINS I ALWAYS THINK OF YOU
CAUSE WE COULD BE KISSING, DANCING UNDER THE MOON
NOW I WONDER IF YOU THINK THE SAME THINGS
I DOUBT IT, PROBABLY JUST ME
SO KILL ME NOW CAUSE I KNOW I'M LOSING YOU
IT'S SO HARD TO BREATH IF WE'LL NEVER UNDO
I STILL LOVE YOU WITH EVERYTHING
IT'S BEEN A WHILE LAYING EYES ON YOUR FACE
I'M WRITING THESE SONGS N BABY THEY'RE ALL FOR YOU
HOPING THAT YOU SEE AND COME IN TO PURSUE
SO BABY TELL ME WE'RE OK
IS THIS LIFE? CAUSE I'M HOPING IT'S A PHASE

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oblivious

produced by heylog

lyrics:
the birds all sing a beautiful song
light beams through this is where i belong
peaceful people who fear to talk
they mimic them and love to mock
women from different countries
i feel pressured there's people watching me
pull u in with the sound of harmonies
they say this kid's gifted with prodigy

occupied i'm tired of people
that look in ur eye tells me u are deceitful
you live knowing this time your whole act has been a lie
you walk by the garden and every flower dies

THE BIRDS ALL SING A BEAUTIFUL SONG
LIGHT BEAMS DOWN THIS IS WHERE I BELONG
PEACEFUL PEOPLE WHO FEAR TO TALK
THEY MIMIC THEM AND LOVE TO MOCK
WOMEN FROM DIFFERENT COUNTRIES
I FEEL PRESSURED THERE'S PEOPLE WATCHING ME
PULL YOU IN WITH THE SOUND OF HARMONIES
THEY SAY THIS KID'S GIFTED WITH PRODIGY

yeah u better run from me i said
i'm used to this and being lonely
conversations don't extend when i'm
short on words i guess i don't feel like talking
spare my life it's just begun
i'm still tryna get us back but i know we're done
growing old too fast i'm too slow to outrun
problems chasing me but i know that they won

this is where i belong

produced by xona 

@heylog

-lyrics-
I wanna run but I can’t deny
feelin dread to our trust and I cry
and I would get everything for you
she loves him but I’m just that fool
I wanted us back, you didn’t want that
I’m pleading with this pain I held
and now I fall back
all on my prozac’s
and I just hope that I get your help

and now I’m washed up all alone
the little essence that you left long ago
the flowers wilt down to my floor
push me down like I’m nothing more

and I don’t wish the best for you
you wanted healing but I was see through
you wanted blood, now you got it on view
many voices telling me on what I knew
there’s reflections that portray all of us 
you’re sick of me and the things that I love 
I won’t forget what it meant for us
these 6 letters that stuck like a drug

stab me again i won't feel a thing
hold me down this some sentencing
taking my bliss, more apologies
i don't like this, just don't talk to me
wasting away i'm never calling you back
i'm stuck with memories i won't forget
with all this weight i carry on my back
you did this to me and i will never forgive

you
oh
i hate 
you
with
every little gut in my body

WALKING UP TO HEAVEN I CANNOT BELIEVE I'M HERE
BUT WHY AM I STILL RUNNING FROM THIS NEVER ENDING FEAR
I'M SHIFTING THROUGH LANES WHILE UR STILL STUCK IN 2ND GEAR
SURPRISING EVERYONE LIKE 2 HEADLIGHTS ON A DEER
WASTING AWAY I'M NEVER CALLING YOU BACK
I'M STUCK WITH MEMORIES I WON'T FORGET
(forget)
WITH ALL THIS WEIGHT I CARRY ON MY BACK 
YOU DID THIS TO ME AND I HATE YOU FOR THAT

you
oh
i hate you
with
every little gut in my body

i wont forget

i won't forget w/ heylog

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i just woke up and i'm not even tired
it's 7 in the morning but i ain't set my timer
u said u fell asleep but i think ur a liar
it's a shame that ur the only one that i admire
is it too much for u to shoot a text
cause it'd probably just take a sec
right now i take it slow with baby steps
but i think that u just want me in my bed
and that's fine
yea it's okay
but i lie
but you'd do the same
and i wonder why even stay?
when ur just killing time and worsening my pain

do you think our friend's would hold support for us
i don't know whether this is lust or love
thinking about your lips in between mine
i'd treat u better than these stupid guys
so if we were together i would give support for you
and not just a little i would give a ton
so maybe u should keep it in mind
i'd treat you better than any other guy

the violent sounds that keep me up at night
leaves my neck in sweat causing my pillow to fight
but i lay back down, praying for sleep
their words are profound, they're never nice to me no
so is it too much for u to shoot a text
i swear it'd probably just take a sec
rn i take you slow with baby steps
but i swear that u just want me in my bed
procrastinating whether if i should go to sleep
cause i don't wanna see you in another dream
oh i hate it
it feels so real
i could touch it
and keep u sealed

don't tell her i'll be gone
either way she wouldnt know
i just took off
I'll see you when i play a show
mom and dad have moved
thought for sure they wouldn't go
let me stay with you, you are my second home
i wanted you to see
i wanted you to know
i'd tell you to my friend's just so i could boast
but you don't understand
that i am not a man
i do this for my brother
and i do this for my fans
fake talk, this a face off, i ain't scared of you
bite down, rip my tongue off and the blood run through
show up i got teeth marks and my peck turned blue
the suns down, imma head out yeah it was nice to see you
i gotta keep my cool yeah just wait wait wait wait
you gotta calm down log but i'm addicted to the pain
LOVE WHEN YOU LIE
LOVE WHEN YOU SPEAK
LOVE WHEN YOU CRY
AND LOVE WHEN YOU BREATHE
POSTED OUTSIDE, WAR IS COMPLETE
I FOUGHT FOR MY LIFE
IT GOT DEADLY
BLOOD ON MY FACE, STOP HOLDING ME
DODGING A MACE
BUT I DON'T RETREAT
i need to lay down thank god i'm alive
i knocked your man's down, i think he might die
lost our loved one's
bring peace to us all
cowards they run
and snakes in the wall
pray for em all

snakes in the wall

produced by heylog

lyrics:
oh we don't feel the same
like what we used to but we'll be okay
2 hours delay
part of me could never push u away
see i still love you, it'll never change
i need to lose you, i wanna keep u safe
but i'm still waiting for u to come home
u reside somewhere else now
oh kay i'm losing sleep
i think about u every day and every single week
but i'm still surviving this deep
we talk like once a month just know i'm working on me
and when i go to bed ur on my mind
and it effects the way i dream
waking up isn't a good time
u know we made a decent team
driving away u want me to stay
the minute i leave i'm missing your face
i don't understand, u were all i got
i'll piss through my pants if u got a guy
baby i know u could do better
she hates to be used, so why do u let him
if i was you i'd say to him,
"i'll no longer continue to put up with this"

can't keep looking back or else i'll slowly die
but i'm already dead i can't really decide
to open up the gap and better up my life
i want it bad but you'd hate me to try
do ur thing i know it's over
dead boy like being a poser
bad terms couldn't care about no closure
dive into exposure
i don't drink, so i stay being sober
oh man i should've closed her
cut it off but now i wanna hold her
so come a little closer
i told u everything now can u keep it on the low
cross ur heart and promise me that u won't tell a soul
you'll do anything
to keep it closed
i don't wanna say
the less u know
studying ur face
zero flaw
all the details
so beautiful

closure

<//3

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater
lyrics:

i don't think that i feel it
my stomach can't heal it
my heart i warn you
surround me i turn blue
you doubt me you flew
you drowning in sloot
my heart break in 2
im ready to die
cos i left ur side
i kick back and cry
this where i resite
i laugh at myself
its good for my health (oh no)
whats that on my the shelf (oh no)
i think its yourself (oh no)

ash blonde hair i need you now
carve my life thru the fields im a tree in the ground
i can't feel my fucking heart so why does it go pound pound pound
i sense you wanna dart, so why
 dont u wannaa stay, now

i can sense the fear ik our loves linear now
feeling like a tree thats never gonna grow; help
beat me black and blue with all the words you spew pal
you could save him now but i don't think he wants you now

heylog:

your pretty little words are meshed and i don't feel them
i'm to the point where i just lost every feeling
i still wouldn't feel a thing if i had a million friends
i'm getting closer everyday to ending it
the sun falls and creeps through my window
it's blinding me, now orange is painted on my walls
the same colour i saw when i fell in love
when i see it again i just can't get enough
can someone end my life, i don't wanna be here at all..
i'm past the part where i care at all
that's when i know shits getting bad
and i wonder how long this'll last

tree w/heylog

prod logan

lyrics:
fall slowly
all the debt it cost me
run, charge me
oh the pains so lovely
burn to ash
watch all unfold
safe before i crash
u were too hard to hold

it was too hard to hold
i had to let go
why won't the problems stay away
i swear this shits just getting old

fall slowly
all the debt it cost me
run, charge me
oh the pains so lovely
ur wasting so much time
but it's all apart of your plan
throw my soul in fire
as u wash me off your hands

so lovely

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prod. @deademane

(heylog)
between the glass
is filled with poison
i feel like trash
apply the ointment
just stay back
he needs some time alone
cus through the cracks
is the widows home
don't come inside here
i would bounce
we're not alive here
don't stick around
when ur minds clear
come in the house
cus i'm not safe here
so get me out

don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

(casperrr)
oh she
she is lying thru her teeth
i swear that she wants to kill me
lay with my lifeless body
while staring at the ceiling
her actions are deceiving
she cuts herself she's bleeding
the blood is running and she really
fucking loves to see it

welcome to the widows home
there's cracks and holes in every wall
the emptyness fills all those holes
this place really tourments my soul
but you can't leave neither can i
i'll go into a room and cry
i'll try to just make up my mind
cut my hair lock myself inside

there's nowhere to go to now
there's no1 to save you now

(heylog + casperrr)
don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

casperrr x heylog - there's nothing left here (deademane)

cover of the song 'arctic eyes' by 9TAILS
produced by nciku

arctic eyes cover (9TAILS & nciku)

Prod ERXN & heylog

every photo, im not recognised
its always black and white, with some grain inside
you would think that i was tryna hide
im really not i just hate what i see

you wouldnt like it no doubt
ill force my hand over your mouth
youre half the size of me now
bruise on your knees start to sprout

look to my left, im in a forest where im tryna find 
a piece of you that just keeps falling down beside my side
i ran right through the forest path we did a thousand times
im scared that I wont make it back I might of lost my mind 
might of broke down for a minute but its cool 
image distorted in my vision when you call 
i know its just anxiety but if its more 

ima need a Prozac for this 
if you never loved me that's shit 
keep me out of line like im wearing high viz 
keep me outside like im never not in 
if you need me il die il tell you im in 
see me outside come around real quick 
baby I know the way to try and get your hate out 
click it back and put it to my face now

man i wish that she was close
hanging out, youre on the phone
think that i just found a home
hopefully we'll always grow
11 days until i board my flight
i just gotta know if youre worth my time
moving on to better things
she found me, shes in love w me
she always wants to say my name
yeah all she does is say my name
and i love her honesty
you really put my mind at ease
she wants to call me everyday
just so she can say my name

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BRUISE w/ hiraeth & heylog

this song was produced/mixed/mastered by heylog

lyrics:
im popping all my cells
where are u now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay on here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that ive always feared

ur easy to fall in love
i honestly cant get enough
get enough
but hey
youve pulled me away
from the bullshit and pain
i hope that i could do the same
i never been on this page
but tell
tell me this is true
i cant stand being lied to
but you
you wont admit
all the things you did

someone put me in my place
im tired of my mistakes
are u sure wanna love me
baby its too late
i just wanna lay with u
fall back in my dirty shoes
no one even has a clue
i like u cause u think im cool

ur skin and bones feelin mine
thrift shirt reflect off the light
clear frames with big pretty eyes
pretty eyes
but wait
will i see u today?
i already miss ur face
can u call me by my name
i cant go another day
but i
i was in need for your love
i guess i asked for way too much
but you
you wont do shit
you stole what i gave