produced by the goat: @nevrfall

lyrics:
i'm hiding in my own pain don't think that i won
my beretta's in the closet locked away in a box
with everything you've said got me collecting the dust
and everything we had is something that can't be undone
so put me in this freezer cause i need to reset
i had an asian girl but she left me for college
"things happen for a reason" that's what she always said
so if i die is that a reason why it happened

n the texts you send, question me how i write
but i'm too afraid to say direct in ur eyes
and this feelings dark but with you i had light
n before u left we loved us one last time

so tell me bout u first
u always cease to amaze me
u still worried about her
i think ur just crazy
u know that it hurts
when u don't even trust me
i'm far from a flirt
nobody even wants me
just another face, i'll forget about
just more extra pain and scars to heal out
just get out my way, i don't need u now
no way we could make up, without a doubt

i'm hiding in my own pain don't think that i won
my beretta's in the closet locked away in a box
with everything you've said got me collecting the dust
and everything we had is something that can't be undone
so put me in this freezer cause i need to reset
i had an asian girl but she left me for college
"things happen for a reason" that's what she always said
so if i die is that a reason why it happened

i'll wait 3 more years until college is done
that's if were alone, with nobody to give love
the war is on its way can u hear them run
they're raging and they laugh, when the jobs done

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undone (p. nevrfall)

by https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
for me
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
for me
where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
i cannot die alone
it sucks u had to go
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
now i'm by myself
but u can't even tell

where do i go from here
i'll kick it with my tears
i don't recognize a thing
the water made them sting
where should i even go
i've never felt this alone
should i take my life
cause god it's on my mind

where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
i cannot die alone
it sucks u had to go
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
now i'm by myself
well too bad u can't tell

veins

live

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heylog - live

cover of 'wear' by @xona
guitar played/re-recorded by logan

speak lightly
i won't seem
that worried
about u and me
down few
many lose
lives quick
nothing’s new
hiding right behind you
you’ll choose
you’ll choose

from what i wear
to see and stare
i swear i swear
you’ll have my care

how are you here with me
i told you i’m scared of-
graphic and the terror to seize
it’s more than it could seem
it’s more than wear and tear
and i could hardly bear
and i could hardly bear
i  could hardly bear
i could hardly-

from what I wear
to see and stare
i swear i swear
you’ll have my care

wear cover (xona)

Produced by heylog

Lyrics:
checking on my phone i keep waiting for your name
got me pissed off cause i let loose of my brain
i don't think you understand i don't think you can
don't needa call you "baby," think i should call you "pain"

honestly, just get out of here
leave already
cause i'm stuck in here
i'll never be
driving home
anymore
i want you gone
haven't seen you in a minute
you say you're busy
but you're with your friend
i don't understand
thought you hated her
that's what you said

i keep checking on my phone waiting for your name
if i was important you won't forget about me
i don't think you love me yeah
i don't think you can
i'm a lot to handle baby
just let go of me

checking on my phone i keep waiting for your name
got me pissed off cause i let loose of my brain
i don't think you understand i don't think you can
don't needa call you "baby," think i should call you "pain"

typing in my phone don't if i'll call you baby
she respond saying that i'm cute and sweet like honey
got a girl looking like you crush on your favourite anime
she pitching up her voice when she spoke to me

checking on my phone i keep waiting for your name
got me pissed off cause i let loose of my brain
i don't think you understand i don't think you can
don't needa call you "baby," think i should call you "pain"

i'm closing my eyes when i scream into the mic
you got me so mad i propose to start a fight
i'm yelling in my pillow
now the whole thing's drenched from the water in my eyes

heylog - busy

Lyrics:


No I know that you don't really need me
Got caught on in this place you won't see me
On and off, different moods what're you feeling
What're you feeling
What're you feeling
After that let's get out of this place
No ones home now I'm wishing you could stay
Took a step further back staples in my face
Bodies shot red liquid is falling down my leg


This is not the same it is not the same
On the drive home I do not feel safe
I'm the one to blame I'm the one to blame
Without you this time I don't feel okay


Baby your my home, can't imagine it with someone else
Eyes are pointing to the floor don't want you to see myself
Are we on a different page or are we on a different shelf
I'll be reading chapters just so I could be with you or else

Driving home now I'm wishing I could stay
Lightning strikes the summer skies hear the city train
Purest words between your lips is keeping me sain
Ill keep you safe around my arms u give me all your pain
Just miss your flight and stay with me I'll give you better days
The weather shifts with waterfalls we're kissing in the rain
If your in doubt you know I'm here just tell me anything
We're out of time you gotta go is this where it will change?


No I know that you don't really need me
Got caught on in this place you won't see me
On and off, different moods what're you feeling
What're you feeling
What're you feeling
After that lets get out of this place
No ones home now I'm wishing you could stay
Took a step further back staples in my face
Bodies shot red liquid is falling down my leg

heylog - Driving Home & Im Wishing U Could Stay

heylog - if this was the last time

lina - heylog (transparent)

[Intro]
Tired of betting my heart on a losing game every spark just fades away.
Still I chase the fire that never seems to stay with the last bullet chambered.

[Verse 1] Crying out into the void wishing you’d speak my name. Lie to me.  Who do you love? Tired of this endless fight within When love goes bad and out of time Who do you love? 

[Chorus 1] Throw it out the window  like a paper plane with burning wings. The sparks fall then fade away
Our love lifted us if only for a brief moment truth from your lips brought it crashing down

[Verse 2] Oh, should I stay or should I go? Questions with no answers piling up. When morning’s solemn gaze asks you the last. Do you dare to lie again?
Who do you love? Was this ever real or just a dream?

[Bridge]
if our love had honest wings to fly  we could’ve touched the sky.
 [Chorus 2] Throw it out the window  like a paper plane with burning wings. The sparks fall, then fade away 
Our love lifted us if only for a brief moment truth from your lips brought it crashing down

[Chorus 3] Throw it out the window  like a paper plane with burning wings. The sparks fall, then fade away
Our love lifted us if only for a brief moment truth from your lips brought it crashing down

[Outro]
Answers to my questions
now lie before me on the ground 
our fragile paper plane in ashes 

#pop
#electropop
#radiopop
#synthwave
#modernsoul
#lovesong
#demo

Sparks On A Paper Plane - Soul

this song was produced/mixed/mastered by heylog

lyrics:
im popping all my cells
where are u now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay on here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that ive always feared

ur easy to fall in love
i honestly cant get enough
get enough
but hey
youve pulled me away
from the bullshit and pain
i hope that i could do the same
i never been on this page
but tell
tell me this is true
i cant stand being lied to
but you
you wont admit
all the things you did

someone put me in my place
im tired of my mistakes
are u sure wanna love me
baby its too late
i just wanna lay with u
fall back in my dirty shoes
no one even has a clue
i like u cause u think im cool

ur skin and bones feelin mine
thrift shirt reflect off the light
clear frames with big pretty eyes
pretty eyes
but wait
will i see u today?
i already miss ur face
can u call me by my name
i cant go another day
but i
i was in need for your love
i guess i asked for way too much
but you
you wont do shit
you stole what i gave

shelter

produced by heylog

lyrics:
rock bottom to the ocean floor
she ask what are u hurting for
u think we're in a simulation
she hasn't felt this fake before
so he cover up his eyes
to shelter from the wicked whores
but he's surrounded with her lies
they're knockin breakin down his door

would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me
no lie
would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me
no lie

everyday when waking up
i swear i'm losing confidence
i been to places seeing things
you'd never imagine
i'm just focused on my life
cut anyone who crosses it
cus any girl or any son
will take upon a deathwish
would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me

i'm tip-toeing metaphors
she ask what are u searching for
i'm looking for the nearest spot
to finally break through my corpse
i'm cleansed my body sanctified
but soon i'll just cry for some more
i screwed up now she's gone
i don't know what i was waiting for
i got dirt in my hands
and cotton in my pants
i look her in the eyes
tell her u don't want romance
cause i'll break ur heart
before u get the chance
does that sound like a plan
i'll warn u in advance

would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me
no lie
would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me

simulation

produced by heylog

lyrics:
oh now you notice
me when I'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth
oh now you notice
me when i'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth

she ask me "what'd u say?"
i'm just talking to myself
i may sound evil
but u gotta get to know me first
i promise i'm nice
but that could quickly take a turn
caught me by surprise
this is not even my worst
she claims that she's gay
wait
but why are u kissing me
don't tease with my brain
cause it's buzzing like a bumblebee
burn out the flame
hoping i get third degree
call me by your name
when ur famous overseas

oh now u like me
since i've changed
so ur saying i wasn't good enough before
what a shame
don't let out the beast
that would be a big mistake
drool drops from his teeth
and his canines concave
u want him released
i believe you've met your fate
she spill all the tea
now the problems piling up with pace
show no mercy
if this water hit me like a wave
begging no please
i'm finally awake

oh now you notice
me when i'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth
oh now you notice
me when i'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth

don't tell me u love me
ik ur lying
lips bittersweet
hint of violet
don't tell me u love me
id rather die
skin like candy
i cant decide