produced by the goat: @nevrfall

lyrics:
i'm hiding in my own pain don't think that i won
my beretta's in the closet locked away in a box
with everything you've said got me collecting the dust
and everything we had is something that can't be undone
so put me in this freezer cause i need to reset
i had an asian girl but she left me for college
"things happen for a reason" that's what she always said
so if i die is that a reason why it happened

n the texts you send, question me how i write
but i'm too afraid to say direct in ur eyes
and this feelings dark but with you i had light
n before u left we loved us one last time

so tell me bout u first
u always cease to amaze me
u still worried about her
i think ur just crazy
u know that it hurts
when u don't even trust me
i'm far from a flirt
nobody even wants me
just another face, i'll forget about
just more extra pain and scars to heal out
just get out my way, i don't need u now
no way we could make up, without a doubt

i'm hiding in my own pain don't think that i won
my beretta's in the closet locked away in a box
with everything you've said got me collecting the dust
and everything we had is something that can't be undone
so put me in this freezer cause i need to reset
i had an asian girl but she left me for college
"things happen for a reason" that's what she always said
so if i die is that a reason why it happened

i'll wait 3 more years until college is done
that's if were alone, with nobody to give love
the war is on its way can u hear them run
they're raging and they laugh, when the jobs done

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undone (p. nevrfall)

produced by xona 

@heylog

-lyrics-
I wanna run but I can’t deny
feelin dread to our trust and I cry
and I would get everything for you
she loves him but I’m just that fool
I wanted us back, you didn’t want that
I’m pleading with this pain I held
and now I fall back
all on my prozac’s
and I just hope that I get your help

and now I’m washed up all alone
the little essence that you left long ago
the flowers wilt down to my floor
push me down like I’m nothing more

and I don’t wish the best for you
you wanted healing but I was see through
you wanted blood, now you got it on view
many voices telling me on what I knew
there’s reflections that portray all of us 
you’re sick of me and the things that I love 
I won’t forget what it meant for us
these 6 letters that stuck like a drug

stab me again i won't feel a thing
hold me down this some sentencing
taking my bliss, more apologies
i don't like this, just don't talk to me
wasting away i'm never calling you back
i'm stuck with memories i won't forget
with all this weight i carry on my back
you did this to me and i will never forgive

you
oh
i hate 
you
with
every little gut in my body

WALKING UP TO HEAVEN I CANNOT BELIEVE I'M HERE
BUT WHY AM I STILL RUNNING FROM THIS NEVER ENDING FEAR
I'M SHIFTING THROUGH LANES WHILE UR STILL STUCK IN 2ND GEAR
SURPRISING EVERYONE LIKE 2 HEADLIGHTS ON A DEER
WASTING AWAY I'M NEVER CALLING YOU BACK
I'M STUCK WITH MEMORIES I WON'T FORGET
(forget)
WITH ALL THIS WEIGHT I CARRY ON MY BACK 
YOU DID THIS TO ME AND I HATE YOU FOR THAT

you
oh
i hate you
with
every little gut in my body

i wont forget

i won't forget w/ heylog

produced by heylog
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lyrics:
as usual i manage to breakdown
don't bother me i enjoy no sound
can't talk to ppl and i know i should
the nerves i build up come out me like a flood
i expect a better me to finally come my way
but the hope i'm losing is drifting away
i forgot that u were mine and that u exist
and that's a good thing
i'm making progress
i hold a whole heart
i gotta use it wise
i cancel all my plans
cus i changed my mind
she smell like lavender
and i think i'm in love
wait hold on a min
can we take a pause
i needa overthink
when i talk to you
it's not on purpose
now u know the truth
i told u everything
n all my secrets
and now it feels wrong
and i know i'm screwed
i look in your eyes it's like looking in an abyss
thanks for your time i learned a lot from it
i'm different now, done with u, you know what i quit
i'm leaving now, don't care to be part of this
YOU SAID SHE WAS A WHORE
WELL MAYBE UR THE HOE
ABSCONDING EVERY GIRL
IS THIS WHERE I GROW
COULDN'T ASK FOR MORE
I'LL BREAK EVERY BONE
NOW DUDES CARE FOR ME
BUT I ONLY GOT 1 BRO

𝘭𝘰𝘨𝘢𝘯
𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘶𝘱

𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨

lavender

produced by xona

@heylog

-lyrics-
deep within my own skin
i stay low until my breath
runs out and i hold my neck
cause deep down i need to rest
the only thing i need is you
a little late, i ain’t got to lose
anything to get us through
but I’ll stay like back then too

well, it’s awful to think
you’re on my mind and can’t let it deplete
sit in my room then write the lyrics to sing
but I’m discarding this energy to bring back the old me
its a tragic that i let it go
i couldn’t tell if you need me close 
well it’s too late for that now
so i can’t keep you around 
don’t need to make another sound

baby i know you love it when you see me overthink
got me pushing buttons tryna get this thing to play
never thought a girl would challenge me to use my brain
think outside the box using my logic against her game

i know you love it when you see me overthink
baby please
tell me what it means
these other guys try to steal you from me
they're enemies
break em to their knees
cut the rope
let the river flow
one at a time
kill em, let em know
baby go
get inside the boat
it's business for me to kill all them very slow

hazel

hazel w/ heylog

lina - heylog (transparent)

original song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e_Rc33SgCTs


lyrics:

we were lookin at the sky
i hope u know u been in my mind
i wanna tell u but it dont feel right
im sorry but atleast i try

i hope ur doing good i think youre better off without me
she said ur pretty cute and mentioned that ur kinda funny
the hole inside her jeans match the one inside ur chest
I hope i can repair it with my love and all the rest

ive told you a thousand times that Im sorry
its cause my head been hurt and damaged lately
its just another cycle
i dont know where my mind goes
its just another cycle
everyday i feel my mind go

i see ur doing great knew u were better off without me
my brain is feeling good and my fingers keep on shakin
ringing in my ears and the voices always haunt me
dirt between my teeth from the face plant happened last week

the freckles on her face match the heart inside her chest
no hope for a repair with my love and all the rest

i hope ur doing good i think youre better off without me
she said ur pretty cute and mentioned that ur kinda funny
the holes inside her jeans match the one inside ur chest
I hope i can repair it with my love and all the rest

i dont wanna leave but i got to
before i hit the road she say i love you
its just another cycle
im just another pyscho

walking to your door
i catch myself staring at ur face
i need ur love
can u set the pace
u called me im mean
i feel like the monster
i feel like the monster
i feel like the monster

i tuck
my neck
its cut
you did this

just breathe
but i cant
youll be okay
grab my hands
dont fall off
dont want u slipping
u need to calm down
what are u doing

i see ur doing great knew u were better off without me
she said u always haunt me
how do u keep coming back to me
ur so frighting

heylog - hope ur doin good

prod by me :>

(skylin)
all the hatred that you're giving me is only poisoning
at least with my enemies i know what it is they seek
I rather judas instead of someone backstabbing me
oh you're pathetic askin me if I would forgive you

I never go out or talk to people like I know I should
it's easier not engaging and hiding inside my hood
sometimes I tend to fail myself and everyone around me
I guess it kinda scared me from socially interacting

on the darkest days I don't know who it is that I will call
but I am hoping you answer because im bout to fall
and I don't know where I am going but ik you know it all
so I am calling out to you please do not let me fall


(heylog)
catch me on the other end
what i said i really meant
what are all the thoughts your brain holds
what's inside that head
i think i finally figured you out
i think it's time to step out your life now
i don't know what i did for you to become untied to me
if you're gonna act like this then break it off entirely
and if i would've known your emotions would all start piling
then i would've kept it hush instead of you crying to me
i was there for you when no one else was
now i'm seeing the truth and exposing your bluffs
i was there for you at your lowest point
don't go and blame it on me, this wasn't my choice

[[anger - disconnect]]

traitor w/heylog

traitor w/ heylog (Now on Spotify)

Prod ERXN & heylog

every photo, im not recognised
its always black and white, with some grain inside
you would think that i was tryna hide
im really not i just hate what i see

you wouldnt like it no doubt
ill force my hand over your mouth
youre half the size of me now
bruise on your knees start to sprout

look to my left, im in a forest where im tryna find 
a piece of you that just keeps falling down beside my side
i ran right through the forest path we did a thousand times
im scared that I wont make it back I might of lost my mind 
might of broke down for a minute but its cool 
image distorted in my vision when you call 
i know its just anxiety but if its more 

ima need a Prozac for this 
if you never loved me that's shit 
keep me out of line like im wearing high viz 
keep me outside like im never not in 
if you need me il die il tell you im in 
see me outside come around real quick 
baby I know the way to try and get your hate out 
click it back and put it to my face now

man i wish that she was close
hanging out, youre on the phone
think that i just found a home
hopefully we'll always grow
11 days until i board my flight
i just gotta know if youre worth my time
moving on to better things
she found me, shes in love w me
she always wants to say my name
yeah all she does is say my name
and i love her honesty
you really put my mind at ease
she wants to call me everyday
just so she can say my name

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BRUISE w/ hiraeth & heylog

Tags: house tech-house club groove 100bpm Fmin dark-groove bassline city-night instrumental bangkok thai ai3oniar

Shadows stretch

produced by heylog

lyrics:
look i dont know man
how can i explain this
and not hurt your feelings
cause i care about that
okay ill b honest
ur kinda selfish
i take that back actually
youre very very selfish
wait, where are we going
love where are u taking me
buried in the forest
no sign of vacancy
u hear the thunder roaring
wind breaking through the trees
she said im not important
as the ground collapse beneath my feet

now she aint want nothing to do with me
i got tears comin above my knees
if ur here for an apology
i have changed dont expect a sorry
her pretty words are latching on to me
i cut em off avoiding history
this dairy got my stomach acidy
she my lactose stay away from me

this is my best babe
give u the best
charge me up like a tesla
baby i cannot fix u
she camera me post the picture
she ask "why dont u post me?"
cus our love will fall shortly
i dont wanna share u on my feed
cause i wont have to delete anything
wait where are we going
can u feel my heart breaking
she catching up w my life now
she callin me gotta watch out
its gettin a bit toasty
my face hurts popping acne
she burrowed in breakouts
still look pretty with or without

now she aint want nothing to do with me
i got tears comin above my knees
if ur here for an apology
i have changed dont expect a sorry
her pretty words are latching on to me
i cut em off avoiding history
this dairy got my stomach acidy
she my lactose stay away from me

collapse

produced by heylog

lyrics:
oh now you notice
me when I'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth
oh now you notice
me when i'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth

she ask me "what'd u say?"
i'm just talking to myself
i may sound evil
but u gotta get to know me first
i promise i'm nice
but that could quickly take a turn
caught me by surprise
this is not even my worst
she claims that she's gay
wait
but why are u kissing me
don't tease with my brain
cause it's buzzing like a bumblebee
burn out the flame
hoping i get third degree
call me by your name
when ur famous overseas

oh now u like me
since i've changed
so ur saying i wasn't good enough before
what a shame
don't let out the beast
that would be a big mistake
drool drops from his teeth
and his canines concave
u want him released
i believe you've met your fate
she spill all the tea
now the problems piling up with pace
show no mercy
if this water hit me like a wave
begging no please
i'm finally awake

oh now you notice
me when i'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth
oh now you notice
me when i'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth

don't tell me u love me
ik ur lying
lips bittersweet
hint of violet
don't tell me u love me
id rather die
skin like candy
i cant decide