Lost My Life w/ The North Shore, emptychest, 1fern & cash nasty

screamingbloodymurder *cian*

Mixed/Mastered By Me & https://soundcloud.com/auby4rc
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Prod By https://soundcloud.com/stezzyxl
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(Lyrics)
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[Chorus]
i always think about oh I'm just an obstacle 
no need to worry girl i know that you are comfortable 
that's how i feel and you were so dramatic girl 
don't know what's real i need to find the cause of it 

[Auby]
i came to plead again
please end my suffering 
looks like my hands are tied
in the palm of your hand
let me take solace that youll be here with me
im done with all this constant wondering
cant look you into your eyeshouldnt be very surprised
sorry that im a mess
i promise i tried my best
living in a web of lies
without you i wouldnt survive
no type of medicine could fix what is happening

[Chorus]
i always think about oh I'm just an obstacle 
no need to worry girl i know that you are comfortable 
that's how i feel and you were so dramatic girl 
don't know what's real i need to find the cause of it x2

[Verse]
seeing all the messages saying that you hated me
i can barely sleep at night i find it hard to fucking breathe 
and i just wanted you closer 
these lonely thoughts are getting colder 

[Outro]
and i just wanted some closure holding each other till we're warmer 
seeing all the messages saying that you hated me
 i can barely sleep at night i find it hard to fucking breathe

breathe w/ auby (stezzyxl)

why am i like this?

spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/7e576Psa1QkEnUNp3zG1jb?si=8b4ded73f0884119

lyrics:
theres this ghost in this room he paints with visions that he wants
stuck at home, maybe the moon will gift him something going on 
and as the time had passed and days tunred into months turned into years
he met a girl and let her close but he got scared when it got real 

and she smiled so pretty 
when he tried to hold her hand 
but he felt so guilty 
because he doesnt understand 
what they said 
how he should feel it hurts his head
he puts his all into an act
to hide whats real from her and friends 
but that doesnt rly go to great, how nice!
when he finds that every goddamn thing makes him cry
and he feels like he did back in 8th grade 
because how he hates himself these times 
and hed probably say anything to get to stop checking his vitals signs

"oh hes so understanding" when he does resort to lying 
there he goes hoping someone sees the truth inside these eyes 
dont he know that hes the only one that wants him left behind?
so then he wouldnt have to talk himself to tears to feel alive 
alive, alive

and in her arms
is what his younger him did want 
cuz in the shards of broken hearts
he found the only way he ever thought he could relate to love

exactly what he wished for | prod. majora

no place like home, right?

alone. [ft. floret][+irby]

[chorus]

Oh my God, oh my God, can’t you see that winters coming
Oh my God, oh my God, can’t you see that winters coming 
Oh my God, oh my God, can’t you see that winters coming
Oh my God, oh my God, can’t you see that winters coming 

Woah
I know that it’s too cold
Girl it’s too cold, December’s too cold
December’s too cold to remember 

[verse 1]

Dry eyes
I see those dry eyes
And I know why
It’s cuz you cry

So let me inside of your heart
I know that it gets dark
I just need a single chance
I can light it with a spark

So just give me one moment
Imma probably blow it
My target is moving
And it’s like a torrent 

I think that it’s storming 
My heart is in ruins
I don’t wanna do this
Everything is haunting

[chorus]

Oh my God, oh my God, can’t you see that winters coming
Oh my God, oh my God, can’t you see that winters coming 
Oh my God, oh my God, can’t you see that winters coming
Oh my God, oh my God, can’t you see that winters coming 

Woah
I know that it’s too cold
Girl it’s too cold, December’s too cold
December’s too cold to remember 

[verse 2]

Crash in the ocean 
Notice it’s in motion
That’s when it hones in
And it starts exploding

Freezes me in December 
I think I’ll remember 
Maybe in my closer
Will I finally remember 

It’s too cold
December 
It’s too cold
Decem-

[outro]

Ohh
Ohh, ohh
It’s cold in December to notice
Everything that’s around you and focus

december's 2 cold (michael harrison)

prod. pekarot and jolst 



i gotta go it alone
i need the space to heal 
from the pain thats been caused
and  thoughts that i conceal
just give me a second to breathe 
wish i could fall asleep
two rips from the pipe, ill feel alright
why do i feel the need to apologize?
pretty fucked up, im not gonna lie
it happens every time
i go back to the moment
i dont regret it, i own it
the weight of the world has me feeling like im dope sick 
house set up in flames
so i forced a window to open 
i need to find out just why im so fucked in the head
i bet it’d make more sense if you found me dead
cause thats what you want anyway
my minds got something to say about it all the time
why
why the fuck do i even try? 
it seems that no remedy can suffice
my guilt is starving, watch it eat me alive
so i guess just let me know ill never get it right

i tell u, i do not know! (prod. pekarot x jolst)

~2300~ 

Lyrics:
[HOOK]
Ever been in love? 
Wake up and it’s gone
Fucking it all up
No matter what you want

[VERSE1]
I’m taking one step forward and two steps back 
I’ve got a one-track mind and I can’t relax
She’s got sunset eyes and a heart so black
I wanna know you’re mine and I won’t hold back
If it doesn't matter I don’t wanna know
I’ve been falling back cause I can’t let it go 
You need somebody that you can lean on 
I need someone to give me a reason

[HOOK]
Ever been in love? 
Wake up and it’s gone 
Fucking it all up
No matter what you want 
Ever been in love? 
Wake up and it’s gone 
Fucking it all up
No matter what you want

[VERSE2]
Say the word I’ll make it right
Fuck the world it’s you and I
All the times I’ve compromised
To save a place that’s by your side 
I’m alright
Say the word I’ll make it right
Fuck the world it’s you and I
All the times I’ve compromised
To save a place that’s by your side

[HOOK]
Ever been in love? 
Wake up and it’s gone 
Fucking it all up
No matter what you want 
Ever been in love? 
Wake up and it’s gone 
Fucking it all up
No matter what you want

Lover

[intro]

Tell me one thing, do you really feel alive
But can you really be you in the hive mind

[chorus]

Can you come back from the past
Hell took you in, but that didn’t last
My mind messed up from the spell that you cast
Let me know when you come back with the zodiac

Yeah, with the zodiac
Yeah, we pop no cOnClusiOn that’s a WRAP
I wouldn’t be surprised if-if-if ended in collapse
Yeah, little did I know it was just a relapse

[verse 1 - ZBee]

So much time that I can’t get back
Threw it all away, for what, I don’t ask
Rather not know about the things that didn’t last
I just want to go home, baby take me back 

Hail rains down when you come from the sky
I’m overthinking everything I think that I might die
Hold me down, I can’t feel no
Yeah, you came to me a fake with a halo

[verse 2 - wokely]

As the days go
Don’t stay low
It’ll only take some time before the fame grows
And as the days go, and the fame goes
I’ll be right by you and I’ll fight for you

Lately I been wondering what’s in your mind is you really Goddamn faking
I just want to go inside your mind I just really wanna know what you thinking
Baby, don’t say that you’re basic, baby
I don’t wanna feel evasive, baby
And I know that your hearts been broke and you just wanna 

Die
You don’t wanna be alive
And you’re feeling fucking tired
But you’re getting fucking higher 

[chorus]

Can you come back from the past
Hell took you in, but that didn’t last
My mind messed up from the spell that you cast
Let me know when you come back with the zodiac

Yeah, with the zodiac
Yeah, we pop no cOnClusiOn that’s a WRAP
I wouldn’t be surprised if-if-if ended in collapse
Yeah, little did I know it was just a relapse

hail (feat. wokely)(michael harrison)

lyrics:

she thinking i’m dumb girl i promise i see thru the ruse
i been on the hunt run for cover i been in a mood
hotter than the sun stack a ton still ain’t shit to lose
don’t stop till it’s done spin the block like a centrifuge

boy i’m not the one i been running out of patience
if he think it’s fun we gon run him out his laces
beat it like a drum call me when her back need breaking
watch how i succumb find my body in the basement

hold me until u break me
when it’s all done im hoping u hate me
put me down please do it humanely
n when im gone i hope u shelter in safety

i’m going all in i think it’s time we raise the stakes
leave em in the dust if they can’t keep up with the pace
don’t turn ur back n act surprised when i don’t chase 
it’s probably best for both of us to u run away

all u do is ride dick i’m getting chafed 
sewage for a brain im- i’m such a waste
when the lights are off all that matters is her shape
been feeling unbalanced i’m beginning to decay

she tell me she think i’m the one i know there’s been a few
the time will come i just fill space like i’m an interlude
using me for treatment baby i’m not clinical
i can see the nucleus the mass is close to critical

boy i’m not the one i been running out of patience
if he think it’s fun we gon run him out his laces
beat it like a drum call me when her back need breaking
watch how i succumb find my body in the basement

hold me until u break me
when it’s all done im hoping u hate me
put me down please do it humanely
n when im gone i hope u shelter in safety

please be patient with me i’m used to being harmed
once the inners frozen there’s more pain in being  warmed
it’s hideous beneath this skin covered in ink and scars
split ceramic one more blow and imma fall apart

walking a thousand miles anything to see ur face
another body in the pile i just sealed my fate
stuck at the bottom for a while i think imma stay
i feel at home under the force of this crushing weight

critical mass // on the brink (scottysplash)

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december's 2 cold (michael harrison)

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