smiling lots n lots :') so so so lovely thank you so very much beyond words this is the best <3

post family gathering appx 3am.

-recorded dec 22 2023

new recording 22 dec (*******'s lullaby)

prod. me // art by halo // vox: me + @trustt + @nujioh

[vai]
search for my own heart
learn how to breathe again
I can't handle
to stay with you
to stay misused
just discard me
hands shake as you
try say that you
love me but you
don't I can see through you

do you feel do you 
do you hurt do you 
do you hurt do you
what was I to you

don't look my way 
I'll stay by myself

i don't think i'll handle this
I don't think that I'll forget
relearn all that I have missed
relearn how to love again 

I'd break all my bones
just to escape you
I'll stay all alone
I'll find my own
way out of here 
you don't really know me
try again
I'll handle it

[trustt]
dont use me just for reference
for how bad your best friend looks
i dont wanna be that one
and i said
things i dont like about you
are thing i like about me
i paint my body for you
and you dont even care to see
help yourself breathe

[vai]
I'll try escape 
all that you say 
all that you mean
do you hear my heartbeat pulsing
just watch me go 
I'll never fold
I'll never break
I'll handle this I'll handle you
I'll handle -

[nujioh]
i don't sin too often
but i don't fear your judgement
to be honest i don't have no intentions
to coerce with you
approaching aimlessly
your words so hastily
when you said "just go away", i don't know if i'll be back
its a vicious cycle
sick to my stomach, gut feelings
i spilt it to you, you told me just can't hear it
i feel like, the freedom that i wanted back because you stole mine
is there some way?
is there some way?

or is there,
no one to save us? 
no one to save us? 
no one to save us?
no one to save us?

handle w/ trustt + nujioh

Pond Scum (Group Project)

i keep clipping my tail on the curb
i keep spilling out onto the arrow
waiting until it don't hurt
yet my body's giving out all the errors

i'm holding together just fine
but it's hard to see things in straight lines
i'm trying to laugh about it, laugh aloud
i'm trying to laugh about it, level out

oooo, ooo

from under my green cat cap (meow), thinking about death
thinking about what i leave behind for my family
good lace on my left, and my dearest treble clef
i will give it up to you with my hands still trembling

hold me, tell me that things will be fine
anything to anchor me to real life
and we can laugh about it, laugh aloud
means we can laugh about it, laugh aloud

oooo, ooo
tell me that things will
tell me that
(meow)

laugh aloud

We go to the old fort in the tree line
To know what a copy feels like
We glow below small town streetlight
So I told you, I can’t feel this ground beneath

My brain’s been failing my body
My brain’s been failing my body
My brain’s been failing my body
My brain’s been failing my body

And though my nerves may melt away
They’re remembered by their husks
The tunnels formed from better days
In the mantle under crust

You and I were stronger then
Metamorphic we were tough
I’m left sifting through the sediment 
Which one of these grains was love

Metamorphic (demo)

battling jazz club entities

DJ Saucy Spaghetti & Emorave -Forever

made in 8 hours after thinking hard to myself for a while.
this project is in 7/4 (mb gang)

-lyrics-
**n33t and hidden contact talking**
**me recording myself in my room**

went far to see the sun rise
i saw her climb into the sky
if things go wrong its alright
i know it gets better with time

do you know what its like
to be cast aside (i know)
wanted to say so much more
im out to give the warmth

what can i do if its me
if things go wrong its alright
i know it gets better with time

what if its me

this is a @dream_diary song
pls listen to dream diary :]

dream diary - heart locket (piano cover)

song is by @ode-dyne
pls listen to ode dyne :]

photo from paddy @clovehitch

ode dyne - small inductors (winter town version)

[NOTE] Due to SoundCloud copyright issues the audio file has been pitched up 50 cents

https://evangeline.info

Produced, written and performed by Evangeline
lyrics: https://genius.com/Evangeline-au-end-of-life-lyrics

End-of-life

Gala Unurbatar
June 7, 2000

rooting for you

ode dyne - small inductors (winter town version)

hidden contact

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