prod @shrinex

lyrics:
cut me off this isnt working
n u treat me like a burden
all this suffering wasnt worth it
all these scars they look perfect

leave me in the background leave me in the cold
i cut so deep baby u can see the bones
n u could rip my heart out bury me in snow
u dont get it baby i think u should go

metal to my flesh i let my veins rip
put a knife in my mouth i need a facelift
blood pooling on my tongue think u should taste it
feel like im running out of time i aint gon make it

and u was faking
u dont feel like me
i look in the mirror i fucking hate what i see
i wanna fall apart u see me ripping at the seams
cant even make music baby i just wanna scream
i wanna give up baby i just wanna leave
rotting in the field turn my organs into trees
my blood is in the roots and my soul is in the leaves
im not a fucking artist im just venting on a beat

patched up but i got blood on my jeans
this aint lexapro baby this is ketamine
cancel all my plans just to stare into a screen
waste away my life with adderall and mp3s

because of me i hate myself
only way to cope is to romanticize my health
u treat it as a trend but baby im not doing well
u treat it as a trend but baby this a cry for help

and u was faking
u dont feel like me
i look in the mirror i fucking hate what i see
i wanna fall apart u see me ripping at the seams
cant even make music baby i just wanna scream
i wanna give up baby i just wanna leave
rotting in the field turn my organs into trees
my blood is in the roots and my soul is in the leaves
im not a fucking artist im just venting on a beat

like a puppet u control my feet
u could pull the strings walk me right into the street
i feel like throwing up everytime i try to speak
i wanna disappear every time u look at me
n im so paranoid baby i cant even sleep
i fucking hate my life why u tryna copy me
n ive been feeling sick baby i cant even eat
im nothing anyway throw my body in the creek

inspired by bliss

pretend (shrinemaiden)

gleam