Prod me
Visuals: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zckqH43m4Mg
Lyrics:
I got hella thoughts sayin imma fade away
missin what I'm not, I don't need it anyway
this ain't what I want, I hope they don't notice me
give up what I got just to heal me mentally
Imma spend it just so I don't have no more
been a minute, ain't nothin that I'm waiting for
push to start watch the ashes fallin on the floor
share my heart with the departed wash up on the shore
I don't need it, I don't really need a fix
I don't trust her, but I'm reapin all the benefits
you won't miss me, bc I was never there
bottles in me now I'm actin like I never cared
yeah
dust I'm getting carried by the wind I know
rotting from the inside but it go so slow
Imma get the money you just play your role
I ain't makin use of what I know no more
I don't trust myself like why they lean on me
voices in my head I never feel lonely
I don't feel the pressure but the weight on me
I just mind my business but they hate on me
time running out, bleeding with the sky tryna tune it out
still all the doubt, all distilled thoughts I can't live live without
blunt guts and shame, imma split the dutch while we split the blame
it's all the same, it don't really matter how you play the game

I got hella thoughts sayin imma fade away
missin what I'm not, I don't need it anyway
this ain't what I want, I hope they don't notice me
give up what I got just to heal me mentally
Imma spend it just so I don't have no more
been a minute, ain't nothin that I'm waiting for
push to start watch the ashes fallin on the floor
share my heart with the departed wash up on the shore
I don't need it, I don't really need a fix
I don't trust her, but I'm reapin all the benefits
you won't miss me, bc I was never there
bottles in me now I'm actin like I never cared
yeah
dust I'm getting carried by the wind I know
rotting from the inside but it go so slow
Imma get the money you just play your role
I ain't makin use of what I know no more

SCHOLAR.E3 - DUST

take what you need
take the rest of me
been nauseous all week
you've been haunting my dreams

don't tell me you care
you're sittin right there
fuckin around while i rip out my hair

so tell me
was it worth it
i had never meant to be a burden

tell me was it worth it
i don't wanna wake up i don't think there is a purpose

but does there have to be a reason
i don't wanna be here anymore i'm barely breathing

while you're barely bleedin
you're the only reason that i'm drowning in the deep end

so rip out my heart 
tear it apart
if i were to keep it i'd have to restart

if that's what you want
i'll pack and depart
i'll gather my shit and head straight to vermont

to be with the trees
is all that i need
i don't need you here
i just want all the evergreens

and i might fall apart beneath the trees
that overlook the spot we used to meet
i promise that it's everything i need
should have never worn my heart upon my sleeve

and i might fall apart beneath the roses
a deathwish and a pocket full of poems
i promised you but you ain't even notice
i hate myself i'm drowning at my lowest

a pocket full of poems (king theta)

prod @wannakillyourselfwithme

lyrics:

Rip it all apart
Tear me down just to restart
Why can't I just do my part?
I won't make it very far
If you don't wind my clockwork heart
I know sloth is a sin but I'm so tired
I need to take medicine just to feel wired
Don't want to do anything just want to lie here
Just want to lay in the grass think I could die here

We could burn that bridge when we get there
I always try my best but I can't get there
I still remember how we met that winter
I still remember what you said in that whisper
I think I feel like myself when it's cold
What's the point of being rich when you're alone?
Lie in the grass and I look up at the crows
A new trail leaving footprints in the snow
Will you follow me?
Will you walk with me?

"Have you heard of the finger maidens?
Offering guidance and aid to the tarnished
But you I am afraid are maidenless"

Rip it all apart
Tear me down just to restart
Why can't I just do my part?
I won't make it very far
If you don't wind my clockwork heart
I know sloth is a sin but I'm so tired
I need to take medicine just to feel wired
Don't want to do anything just want to lie here
Just want to lay in the grass think I could die here

I tried to tell you you should stay away
You tried to tell me I've been MIA
Why can't you see I'm tryna stay that way?
Why can't you see I'll turn your colors into gray
No matter what you always stay with me
When I fall down you always lay with me
Reach out your hand and catch the falling leaves
Look at the sky and feel the autumn breeze

maiden (locket)

lyrics:
when u go to sleep
do u ever question ur reality?
let go of ur day, 
convince urself that now ur free
burdens in ur life, slow down
register the flashing scenes
time is just perspective,
so i think im gonna take a week,

indulge in my habits tell myself,
im gonna get clean
suck up what i can, 
repress all my fragmented memories.
now im scared, i'm worried 
i'ma end up like my father 
schizophrenic, writing out the truths
inflicted on a martyr
its unbearable
got me on the floor
im feelin' terrible
had to lock the door
to keep the evil from my fragile soul
cant take it no more
i poured my blood out for a cannibal
set myself up for more
im masochistic im an animal

when you go to sleep
do u ever question elements in your reality?
let go of ur day, 
how u convince urself that now ur free?
burdens in ur life, slow down
jus register the flashing scenes

flashing scenes [prod. bmg + shelby ]

Pleading (Open Mouth) w/ Ve'ra (Prod. Rheyr)

Stay the Same

Stay The Same

this is my self-test .

this is just how i feel right now

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