damn man, this is literally a masterpiece

co produced w @speedlmt

lyric

i don't wanna die but i don't wanna try
when your not here w me i get a teary eye
my dreams are lucid, they gonna get you 
how can i prove it, that your the issue 

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

decomposing in the mirror posing 
spooky black my father:3 stop diagnosing 
why do i bother, im controlling, im the victim. forever rolling;

a sob sandwich its kinda adequate
let me swallow it, these my bandages
songs just foru cos i said it is !
of grams not sedatives, dont know what day it is:(
pop another sedative?

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

I DON'T WANNA DIE BUT I DON'T WANNA TRY
WHEN YOUR NOT HERE W ME I GET A TEARY EYE
MY DREAMS ARE LUCID, THEY GONNA GET YOU 
HOW CAN I PROVE IT, THAT YOUR THE ISSUE 
I GOT THESE TISSUES, OH FUCK I MISS U
WILL YOU BE HERE SOON SO I CAN KISS U
I CAN'T STOP SHAKING IM FOREVER BREAKING
I KNOW YOU LIKE THAT, ITS NEVER CHANGING

pine

produced by me
hope you enjoy <3

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lyrics:

And I’m so sick of always fucking up
Always apologize, it’s the last time
Blame it on me, i’m never good enough
Lost my peace, now I lash out

Cant get rid of the taste out my fuckin mouth
Carve out my tongue, said too much, bleeding out
Doesnt matter what I do, it’s way too late
Screaming out and procrastinate

I can’t
Stay here
Mental
Dread and
Pain gets
Stronger
Isolated

I can’t keep it up, nah
Throw me out, leave me to rot
I think it’s easier that way for me
You have no say in this, so just leave me

I dont care what they say
I ignore, most of dms
I don’t know why it’s so hard to
Keep a convo, maybe laugh

Caught myself staring at the ceiling
Everyone pretends they know the feeling
7 years has passed and I’m still healing
You will never know what I’m concealing

Caught myself staring at the ceiling
Everyone pretends they know the feeling
7 years has passed and I’m still healing
You will never know what I’m concealing

blame

stream

prod by me
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lyrics:
u saw me right through
i looked up to u
ur the reason i make songs, how could u
u made me live
but it came to this
oh thanks to all my friends
i’ll never quit

trying to find the love of my life
but it ain’t going to go so well
i act dumb but i know that u lie
everything for u is going so well 
i’m a fucking piece of shit if u know
i mentioned it in a song long ago 
still pissed but i have to let it go
break me down but i’ll grow 

oh stronger and stronger
i’ve been living my life with no father
take my time, im never bothered 
i wish for the worse upon her (x2)

how could i love you
i don’t even like me
why do i wake up
death dosent want me
i’m stuck in my room
they won’t let me leave
one day i’ll kill them all
they don’t believe me (x2)

it’s cuz i’m weak
it’s cuz im a bitch
when pressures on
i throw a fit
but not no more
build up my core
when pressures on
i’ll start a war

arrogant

produced by caves

it all goes wrong when your with me
you know that, your in two d
you know that, i love you babe, i love you more

it all wraps round my..
she cant calm down
my..
it all ends, ends now
cant help it im a tree in the ground

so selfish what i built for you now
do i exist without my pals
ill bandage ill wear it round
have it we're married in hell

it all wraps round my..
she cant calm down
my..
it all ends, ends now
cant help it im a tree in the ground

IT ALL WRAPS ROUND MY..
SHE CANT CALM DOWN
MY..
IT ALL ENDS, ENDS NOW
CANT HELP IT IM A TREE IN THE GROUND

it all went wrong you know that

married in hell

@imgeist

prod hira

i see the color of your eyes 
in every hue of the sky 
fall asleep every night  
to thoughts of just you & i 
no more goodbyes 
took all my pride 
and departed  

oh love just look what you’ve done to me 
hold my heart, it barely beats 
i’m struggling here to breathe 
do u not have sympathy? 
is this not enough? 
i swear i’m just not that tough 
u stab the knife in my gut 
pouring salt on my cuts

oh love just look what you’ve done to me 
stab my heart, it only bleeds 
i’m struggling, can’t you see 
but u don’t have empathy  
i wasn’t enough 
i swear this isn’t called love 
pouring salt on my cuts 
and then expect me to trust

u promised me it wouldnt hurt
im getting sick of all the arguing its back and forth
i know ive said it all before, you know it wouldnt hurt
struggling to find a reason i keep going on
and everytime that i go out i feel like everyone
is always watching watching over me 
but i need something more
i cant believe you really left me just to never call
this could be my last night and ur watching me fall 

dropping, on the way she sees my body laying cold
leave it out to surface, baby leave me on my own
dont ask for my advice ill be responding with a no
please dont let them find me promise you wont let them know

surface w/ i'm geist

prod hira

i might shave her hair off make her go bald
is there something im aware of that i shouldnt know ?
pulling out another piece of me shes sucking my soul
i might leave her with a piece of me all over the floor

i might leave her with some kids dripping off of her jaw
sweating out under the covers while im watching her yawn
and god she loves to play the victim complex and all
shed take a knife to my throat and cut me some more

save it for somebody who cares
i been home for so long i bet you know what im wearing
pissed off with the way that shes swearing
on her life like somebodies caring

after us you’d follow down my path
down my path
to complicate and eradicate
what was left of me
and i was up to see
how it was to be
a self-born enemy
to uncover the seethe
you decided carry

hurt me like a fly on the wall
baby i know youre keeping secrets i dont know you at all
so could you bring another bottle cause im downing em all
i dont wanna be the prey thats leaving blood on the wall

you left me with nothing else but i still wish you the best
only your marks on my skin but im still counting my death
and when the day comes to end and im alone in my bed
i still wish you were here with ur hand on my neck

i might leave her with some kids dripping off of her jaw
sweating out under the covers while im watching her yawn
and god she loves to play the victim complex and all
shed take a knife to my throat and cut me some more

jaw w/ xona

bubbles /
depends, can you go fuck yourself

hira /
i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

is it too much to ask for your time
love my patience is walking the line
save me
its not like youd try
fell too close
breaking my spine

too close i feel like an option
i keep tryna run girl 
run into the forest
i could use some safety
are you tryna hold me?
stop shaking
eyes are getting blurry

i dont trust nobody
but i saw you as family
its getting too warm im struggling to breathe
its blatant im nothing to see

i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

breathe

hi :)
prod. me

lyrics:
say you wont forget me
i've been lost and empty
i don't need the sympathy i jus need a friend i can lean on

empty, lately i been empty
drugs been lookin so tempting, but ill hang on
hang on tight just for you

she wanna talk, but she heating up.. why you wanna talk when you need help?
i think i know a fake when i see one, and i think im gonna break if you be one
u can find me at my place barely breathin
i was always less needed
than them and i can see it
u can try and call it wont reach me

i dont really talk, but you kno that im like that
you know when it comes to me i dont fight back
read into everything you say, your words never lost with me

i know it gets so hard,
but life is separating us
so i wanna hear you
say you wont forget me
i've been lost and empty
i don't need the sympathy i jus need a friend i can lean on

i remember that look on your face, its so distrusted
i know, you didn't want this
but we found our love
right on pavement i found
u stomped ur feet on the ground
im sorry

say you won't forget me

spotify

Been alone for a while i felt helpless 
didn't stop mean to question your intentions
you should've given a part of me lesser
i lost a half when i left your possession

oh i say im fine when im not 
cus i left the best part of me 
2 thousand miles away 
i swear to god when i get free 
i'll fall into ur eyes again 
surrender every enemy 
left in the trenches of war would you lay with me 

don't let me go 
i want more and i've given it all 
to the girl i adore 
im never enough 
no im never enough 
FUCK
ive tried to live it up 
but i feel like im nothing at all 
baby im such a dissapointment 
leave me with the ocean 

take me home where i belong 
i cant take it no more
a part of you evolved with me now i spread ash on the floor 
just wanna see you and im sorry love youre all that i want
ive waited years and now the months are getting harder to trust

trust
to trust
oh love youre all that i want
want
want

oh love youre all that i want

she says bless you everytime i ever open my mouth
and god i miss you theres no words to explain how

take me home where i belong 
i cant take it no more
a part of you evolved with me now i spread ash on the floor

bless you

how am i still alive after all this bullshit
take me down from the ceiling
im holding onto something
i dont have nothing
why dont you ask me how i feel or how i care
running out of time its running bare

my loves not good at all
just be patient when you call
lll sleep forevermore
youd only wake me when youre bored
im drowning through the floor
you only save me when your alone

say that you hate me i wont break
sitting in agony, dont change
say that you love me, its too late
cant even look at my face

how could you do that to somebody who loves you
go and lie 
and say you dont even mean to
i didnt wanna
no i dont wanna leave
you know i wanna
know i wanna believe you

who do you think i am ? 
you where never just friends its all adding up
told me i should watch myself
well maybe you should wash his fragrance off

how did we get so far
just to runaway 
like we never moved at all
tell me where it all went wrong
stop the pain by lining your stomach with alcohol

how could you do that to somebody who loves you
go and lie 
and say you dont even mean to
i didnt wanna
no i dont wanna leave
you know i wanna
know i wanna believe you

forevermore

prod by me :) <3

lyrics -
ur telling me to hold on
i don't really think u see the best in me
'cos i know
if u really want it you'd make it work
oh i can see the end of us
can't believe that the wall was breached
god i don't wanna go
but you've been pushing me out for a while now
oh no

i hide my face when she laughing at it
cant lie, i dont care, cause shes going nowhere
told ur boy if he wanna back it, come out on the street but hes going somewhere
she getting cold now
pulled out, undercover when she come round
whole streets on the floor, what she know now
tears ready on the floor when she go out

breaking loads of bottles again
got a problem when you talk on ya friends
you want to tell me how she loves me
take you to dance
say you want to trust me I can’t relax
taking all you pour out
i don’t want the door down
7 milli foreign with the Roley got me iced out
in my dreams you know I’m having it
i can barely breathe when all these problems keep on happening

my nose red, blood is pouring out fast
i sit down, think i need to relax
she start her month say, "let's go to the bath"
she look at me when i cause her to gag
after i'm done i gotta leave ur house
cus i don't got time for any cuddles now
a kiss goodbye but she pulls me down
she told me she wanna go another round

couldn’t get enough, ignore the other side
I’ll tell it from the front
you speak about love, that’s never been us
these doors stayed shut
keep your facade
laid out-
knowing it was dormant
a few years and I’m back to this torment
is it really that important?
you know it better than me
you couldn’t let it at peace
this whole story was about me
I’ve got you right on your knees
the only thing that I need
is to make you forget at least…

breathe

hiraeth

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