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robots (arey)

Featuring @lilskeleskrrt
Produced by @metlast
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
Still the same scared kid that I was way back then
Know I'd give anything to change how it happened
Still bleeding from the wounds of my past and
Pursuing happiness
But I can't have that

Take another hit to my pride and my passion
Loss after loss like a chain reaction
When everything goes wrong
I need a way out
I can not be trusted to be kind to myself

The drugs don't make it better
They just keep me distracted
From the life I'm supposed to live
And out the one that I'm trapped in
When everything goes wrong
I tend to break down
I can not be trusted to be kind to myself

(skele)
And love I promise that I mean well
All those things I did were fucking my health 
I've never been good at helping out myself
It's getting bad
I prolly need help
I never meant for you to run away 
I just wanted you to feel a bit of my pain 
And when everything goes wrong I hope you'll be here 
Need someone to fix all my fears

Listen on Spotify!

When Everything Goes Wrong w/ skele (Prod. metlast)

-NAVY-
i aint nothing
i aint nothing
do ur talking
i know u like it

u try to stop it
ur fuckin drugs which confinement are u hiding in, i cannot fuckin find it
-Hiraeth-
staring at the ceiling baby all i see is blood
u dont gotta call me now its nearly been a monf
u. aint gotta tell me that u luv me its a front
all my feelings are gone now u said u where done
i dont even wanna text you
i never thought id bean issue
"didnt mean to mistreat u"
my god have a reason

-NAVY-
but it wastes, wastes, wastes
been pullin on ur waist
im in space, space, space
aint nothin like it used to be
erased, reased, rased
im waiting on the day
putta 5 up to my head if u think u can run away
ima end it, end it, i hear voices in my basement

its hard to realize the sounds that fiddle in the distance
but you missed

-Hiraeth-
when i die would you let me grieve 
running out of skin 
nothing left of me
feel the marrow in my bone 
u gotta set me free
my god. 
my god would you let me breathe


-Sleepwater-
i wish u wouldent hurt me
the things u do desert me
so vacant for what concerns me
my bloods in ur vial turn me (into)
a dirty cheating scumbag
i know that i hate myself
i feel like a lost book that turned me down
i guess im just another hand me out

-NAVY-
im vacant, i stare blank, at the floor
theres nothing left, to mourn

-sleepwater-
im just not ur agony
you can lay me down, peacefully
I'm just, not ur agony


I Hear Screams In The Distance ft. hiraeth & sleepwater (prod. uforia)

Featuring @decksmusic
Produced by @shikixo & @jolst
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
I don't talk much
'less I got something to say
Unconsciously
Rotting into my grave
Because my bad ideas and worst mistakes
Are catching up up with me today

Obnoxious
Intrusive thoughts in my brain
I'm not sick
We're all a little bit strange
Like what would I do with all this pain
If not create
So here's to the mess I've made

I admit I've made
A lot of mistakes in my days
But I'm not afraid
To own up to the fact that I could change

For the better
I've been doing my worst
You've got your head in the clouds
While I lay down in the dirt
It's so fucked up
How you made me question my worth
When karma comes back around
You'll get what you deserve

(decks)
Did I deserve this
It's like a boomerang
I'm feeling nervous
Never got a thing to say
It's like I'm locked up
A product of talking down
I'm always washing my hands just to clear my doubts

It's like I never care at all
I'm terrible
You say I'm not responsible
Insufferable
I know I'm just miserable
It's cyclical
I speak with my chest
'cause now I'm wishing the best for the mess I've made

Mess w/ decks (Prod. Shiki XO & Jolst)

tell me where it ends 
tell me where we end 
tell me when I gotta give it back 
lemme like you 
but tell me my cue 
tell me when I gotta stop 
I love you.
I gotta make do.
gotta make do,
I love you.
I gotta make do..
I'm playing it safe cause I don't know what ur intentions are, will you make it go far?
you seem nice 
you seem nice 
I appreciate you for caring 
caring
I appreciate you for caring  
caring.
I love you but I don't wanna hurt you, hurt you
I love this but Imma enjoy it while I can, can

intentions (skellington)

ft @ripkais :)
prod hiraeth + sinxi
ENGALAND

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink
I only did it cause i had to
ur not who I think
and all my friends were tryna warn me
But I’m stupid as shit
i don’t know how id ever trust you
look what u did
i heard ur better off without me
I’ve got nothing to give

tell me what it cost me
im sinking in my body
memories floodin in of how I fkn lost me
I was never really here you can feel it
feel more claustrophobic the lower the ceiling

if you really don’t wanna talk to me don’t talk to me
know the only problem is the fkn honesty
I caught the leakin water drippin from your balcony
words cant fix this
and I just rly wanna stop fearin
the noises in my ceilin
im breathin real heavy
im anxious and im breakin
mistaken for a bad dream
I just want you happy,
but you wanna leave me in the car
body laid out in the backseat

ive had enough of it
let me out
ur turning love into a punishment
u let me drown
i swear were only arguing
she'll come around
i swear its so embarrassing
u let me down

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink

sink ft. kais

produced by heylog

lyrics:
so
is this the end
we won't give up
just yet
so
what's next
i'll wait for you
even if you've met
someone else

you'll miss me
well i'll miss u too
staring at the sky
cus i see you
you need me
and i need u too
i just need to find where u went
i'm lost, unspoken
don't blame me for parting ways i had to cut u off
even when i smiled you just had to wipe it off
escape into the woods where no species exist at all
i might've found safety and that was all i want

so
this where we end?
i can't give up
just yet..
so
what's next
i'll wait for u
but you probly met
someone else

spotify

slip

this is not a british accent fuck u

produced by yungspoiler and daks9k

originally performed by 9tails

completely non profit

lyrics:

talking up just to talk backwards
actor
i remember when the enemies where not a factor
gotta move different cus of outbursts of my temper
i might be an asshole but the truths what matters
splatter
all my deep down thoughts get shattered
on my new reboks plant matter
and it coned out raw
smoke that spliff then wrote this song

holding in smoke face
blue man group 
loud way too loud
man it smell like poop
but enough about me
tell me more about you
did your friend text back?
did u link that dude?

treat him like a main or a strong number 2
u about to break with the weight on u
put the faith in him but he always falls thru
lately i just hope that im not that dude
u aint really done nothing bad say u (say who?)
i been getting pew pewed every other song
drop
drop bombs and support gonna cease i guess
profit increase so does everybody's needs i guess
vampires when i bleed i guess
when i fuck off now u fuck me i guess
smoke my weed then kiss ur teeth whats next

im sorry friend
could we make amends? 
its the second call 
but ima call again
im on a variety of shit
its only 2pm
bottles concious n spliff
all beside me n the whip

i want decemeber 
there wasnt as many plans
that i felt bad for missing
to really see what i can
do with these hands
do with this brain 
and the subject matter inside
u leave im working
im eager
something i could never hide
something i could never hide
no
no

i get too deep in it
mind overdrive
my thoughts override
as fear overrides my shit
coarse cough got me fucked up
with the blood spit
yuck

some_ missed_ calls_ (yungspoiler x daks9k)

guitar by @nevrfall
produced by heylog

lyrics:
rotting my flesh
mold in my lens
i feel corrupt
everything is a mess
i hear noise and groans
my systems broke
i'm deader as dust
takes over my bones

she
eats
slowly at me
i'm like her dessert
my skin is to feast
she
eats
every bit of me
gnawing my flesh
body slowly depletes

thank god i'm all alone don't gotta worry bout a damn thing
she loves makin eye contact with me now i just translate
while both her irises are narrowed by her pupils
caught up in the moment, every single time it's crucial
babe it's crucial
loving you is brutal
i'm willing for another shot to be quadruple
but your approval
it's only your approval
the only person is with me whom you'll be truthful

run from her fast
don't let her grab
or else she'll latch me
and start attacking

(x2)
she
eats
slowly at me
i'm like her dessert
my skin is to feast
she
eats
every bit of me
gnawing my flesh
body slowly depletes

gnaw

produced by heylog

lyrics:
fiending
oh you're always fiending
for something to catch a feeling
no, you don't take it easy
you're grieving
deleting
cause ur not receiving 
the guy who gives you meaning
it just ends up depleting
you need me

my hair is getting longer and mom says i need to cut it off
today i'm gonna pull it back or maybe i should let it fall
or maybe i should let it fall

my hair is getting longer and mom says i need to cut it off
today i'm gonna pull it back or maybe i should let it fall
i'm looking at the pane and see a kid i don't recognize at all
you think i'm in a crisis but this is my life inside a ball
but i am not the one to be crying over some bullsh-
i'm trying to be a man for a girl who is the purist
and i believe that's only achieved through work and purpose
but at the very end of the day it'll be worth it
so what'd you say you come tag along to a journey
i'll be your protector, you won't have to worry
will you believe in me if i focus and try
i'll do what it takes to give you a better life

i assume your brain still has developing to do
no one cares about my feelings and neither do you
only difference i don't post them, you fiend off replies
absorbing it like energy to mentally survive
you're fiending
oh you're always fiending
for something to catch a feeling
no, you don't take it easy
you're grieving
deleting
because you're not receiving
the guy who gives you meaning
it just ends up depleting
you need me
the letters i would write
could form into a book
when turning every page
seem to be overlooked
so when you read the words
imagine you are me
tearing paper
and grinding your teeth

oh i was always there
too bad i ain't here
go cry, well life ain't fair
it's not like i don't care
but oh my, i'm bad at saying no
but i don't wanna be a problem if i'm holding on
oh my, now you wanna complain
baby i'm not gonna put up with that for very long
for long

teeth II

produced by heylog 

lyrics:
I LIKE TO THINK ABOUT YOU WHEN I REST
I LIKE TO THINK WE'LL BE TOGETHER AGAIN
SHE DON'T WANT ME TO LEAVE
NOW SHE'S BEGGING HER DAD FOR ME TO STAY
I THINK ABOUT IT WHEN WE MET
BUT ALL THESE MEMORIES ARE DEAD
I FEEL IT SLOWLY DISSIPATE
I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S TIME TO WALK AWAY
notice how it falls in deeper
deeper
oh, it goes deeper
know that i can't be ur healer
healer
healer
ur healer
EVERYTHING'S ABOUT YOU AND THE REST
BUT I GOT TO GO WITHOUT YOU CAUSE IT'S BEST
I LIKE TO THINK WE'LL CROSS PATHS SOMEWHERE ELSE
I HATE THAT THESE THOUGHTS ARE WHERE I DWELL

notice how i fall in deeper
deeper
oh, i go deeper
baby, i can't be ur healer
healer
healer
ur healer

𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘪𝘵, 𝘪'𝘮 𝘶𝘱𝘴𝘦𝘵
𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘥, 𝘴𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘴
𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘯
𝘪 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘮𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭

i don't say enough prayer
or kneel beside the bed
i ask on some nights
to see you again
i didn't find anything
or see any signs
unless they were right in front of me this whole time
i hate that all of my friends
live so far away
it's very lonely
and it's so cliche
i like thinking of you
i do it a lot
why give attention to something that's forever gone?

I LIKE TO THINK ABOUT YOU WHEN I REST
I LIKE TO THINK WE'LL BE TOGETHER AGAIN
SHE DON'T WANT ME TO LEAVE
NOW SHE'S BEGGING HER DAD FOR ME TO STAY
I THINK ABOUT IT WHEN WE MET
BUT ALL THESE MEMORIES ARE DEAD
I FEEL IT SLOWLY DISSIPATE
I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S TIME TO WALK AWAY

healer

PRODUCED BY @Sinxi 

LYRICS

I crash in the night just a little bit
Black eyes empty space yea I sit with it
Love life ain`t the same when you live with this
Cold eyes empty space yea I sit with it
Take the pain I never had a way out
Wish I stayed I really want to lay down
All the same I'm bored until the next town
All the same I'm bored oh what a let down
Don't need no one else for introductions
Got my blade I'm hanging out inside the dungeons
Might just cut out my liver so I can function
Take out my feelings I don't need no one

Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)

I ran in my mind I never had plans
But your wanted after my hands
Broke the problems at the door
But the problems multiply and they make more
I don't want to love you
I don't want to trust you
I just wanted fate
I don't want to break down everything you say now
I'm not a detective keep me up awake
Leave me on the facetime
Staring at you topless smiling at my face
I don't want to face mine
Can't be fucked dishonest lying next to me

Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)

SPOTIFY

FEELINGS

produced by heylog

lyrics:
let me show you how to act right
if you listened it would define
just the type of person u are
it doesn't matter what you go by
cause you'll always be the same person
and you'll always be one of the worst friends
you always were the one to go
when i thought i could count on u the most

lesson learned, don't hold your grudge
even if it could lose someone
hate to know the truth be told
now everything is overthrown

do u wonder where u come from?
picturing at what you've really done
does it affect the way you see your arch?
do they look at you less than what you are?
cause you've always been the same person
and you've always fought the urge to sin
& goodluck tryna get me back
at 2am it kills you bad

no, you messed with the wrong person
yeah you messed with the wrong
you messed it up on purpose
yeah you messed it up
hopefully lesson learned 
i hope a lesson here was learned
i did what i had to do man
and in all honesty 
you're hurting

continue

oh its not fair anymore
no its not fair anymore
no its not fair anymore

i just cant tell you enough
my thoughts been opening up
i never said it enough 
my heart was filled with your love

i would sacrifice my love just to be on your side
gimme just another day so that i can reside
while youre waiting at the gates, ill find somewhere to hide

i need somewhere to hide
i know youre in the fields looking at me over the light
if theres a chance that you hear me singing into the night
i need to tell you that ill love you till the end of the line

you know i always cared about you
i might sleep in water hang my head whilel i cry
been 2 years now im lost without you
take me to a forest filled with water and pine

its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore

how could you take away my best friend
ive got no one to trust
ill see your face in the end
your words fill my stomach making me who i am
you wouldnt have left me, i know ill see you again

enough

how am i still alive after all this bullshit
take me down from the ceiling
im holding onto something
i dont have nothing
why dont you ask me how i feel or how i care
running out of time its running bare

my loves not good at all
just be patient when you call
lll sleep forevermore
youd only wake me when youre bored
im drowning through the floor
you only save me when your alone

say that you hate me i wont break
sitting in agony, dont change
say that you love me, its too late
cant even look at my face

how could you do that to somebody who loves you
go and lie 
and say you dont even mean to
i didnt wanna
no i dont wanna leave
you know i wanna
know i wanna believe you

who do you think i am ? 
you where never just friends its all adding up
told me i should watch myself
well maybe you should wash his fragrance off

how did we get so far
just to runaway 
like we never moved at all
tell me where it all went wrong
stop the pain by lining your stomach with alcohol

how could you do that to somebody who loves you
go and lie 
and say you dont even mean to
i didnt wanna
no i dont wanna leave
you know i wanna
know i wanna believe you

forevermore

you could get somewhere if you shut your mouth
six shooter spinning lately let me down
in too deep you dont want me now
in too deep you should pull me out

aim for my throat girl
i dont even choke love
give me some more
im a ghost when im inside of you
we rot on the floor
dont stop
gimme it all love
i shouldve know
my friends all told me that youre going out and talking alone

i dont feel much better after all this time
you should let me choke and pretend you tried
you should fill my throat with some morph and wine
so i cant feel a thing i feel like nothing else is going right

stab me to watch me bleed
youve taken all that i am
my friends are leaving me
dont know how long i have left

i shouldve know what youre pulling me for 
dont stop now
i feel like i could do more

is your father not bored
youre dressed like a whore
everytime you go out you fuck 5 or more
alcohol 
theres no alcohol
you swear you get pissed
no you dont at all

and you can try to change me
ur time is wasted 
you might be deluded need a milli to persuade me
my bones are breaking
harvest wasted
drop me in the shit so you can flush me vacant

vacant

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

how could i be worse then i was before
i keep writting songs
and you all want more
every word i say is just getting ignored
but youre wanting more
but youre wanting more

i dont know how i can keep going like this
ive got nothing left ive got nothing to give
can anyone hear me 
are you listening 
does no one relate to the words that i sing

i feel like no ones even trying to help me
not helping

cut my hair dow
worked on myself
why do i still feel like no one

savour my loss
hope youre drowning 
you wont let me out of this hell

cut my arms down to the flesh
ive been alone for
so many years

all these people
want my best
but i cant seem to deliver it

drag me to the top of the bridge
tell me to jump
i wont even hesitate, overthink 
i want it to stop
cause baby youre all that i have
all that ive got
and im dealing with it so bad
im fucking it up
im not unique 
im so replaceable 
and for the last few weeks 
ive been unbearable
i better sort my shit
before you break it off
and though i try so bad
im never safe at all

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

perfect

Produced by navyxower
Written by Heylog & navyxower
Mix and master by Heylog & navyxower

lyrics
-------
its so challenging
you can throw me out, recycle me
I'm mortified
trying everything to keep me in line
I was neglected, but I'm feeling fine
will I be alright
i cant see through the fight!

I'm really a joke
you can see it in my eyes
a lonely little child
nobody by my side

they stay up for a while
night shift, go for a drive
ill wait until the morning to see you both in life

YOU ASK ME IF IM BORED OF YOU!
i tell you its alright
nobody ever missed me, im happy that your mine
ill stay here watch some cartoons
*do nothing with my life*
a lonely little child
just trying to get by

sing me, a lullaby to put me right to sleep
sleep by my side, and ill be happy as can be
a life that's full of trauma, guess healing aint for me
wait until the morning, ill be throwing up you see

she's upset, I know I messed up
in the bed, I slowly get up
look around, this is the last time
in ur room, it's home in my eyes
thunderstorms
travel back
stay the night 
then miss u bad
one hour
till I'm home
the last place I wanna go
seeing you like everyday to not seeing at all
how'd it go from talking every night to not one call
these changes, I don't like them, especially being alone
it'd probably be worse if I didn't learn how to grow

I'm really a joke
you can see it in my eyes
a lonely little child
nobody by my side

they stay up for a while
night shift, go for a drive
ill wait until the morning to see you both in life

sibling w/ heylog

you can go and lie love 
tell me you mean it 
im going round in circles glued to the ceiling 
cus every time you talk to me i feel so diminished 
my heart starts beating i cant breathe for a minute 
i cant speak for a minute 

feel so close to you I
can feel the warmth to your side
im breaking down all the time 
my worlds been frozen in ice 
ur sending chills down my spine 
im finding somewhere to hide
 
say you been so lost 
well baby open it up 
can't relate what you've done 
oh baby i've had enough
im always afraid 
you've taken all that i was
baby please let me run 
im dissolving to dust 

i've been down sleep bet you didn’t notice 
bitch i’ve gone deaf i can barely hear ur shit 
u need to shower, the smell is potent 
balls so big bitch they're floating 
oh god its a shame i
had to see u fumble two guys in the same night 
oh god its a shame i 
went and curved your message at the same time 

don’t you feel stupid cus you look dumb 
whoring  for attention, no one wanted to cum
theres no self worth now the feelings gone 
done it to yourself at least you having some fun 

is this all im worth
i thought i made you mine 
i want mind, 
i wont lie

you could do so much better than me 
oh i 
spend so much time by myself inside
maybe you’ll find me hibernating 
deep in the forest unusual cadence

me

deaf

crumbling everywhere i go to, lately 
breaking down nowadays is something, daily 
i swear i tried but i can't seem to escape this trapped in a maze where every corner's an abyss

it seems like no1's trynna save me 
no helping hands, no calls nor texts
they just leave me to face it
got no support, full of remorse i need you to embrace me 
in ur arms, they sooth the scars and make me just forget this

u didn't care u din't ask
all our love's fading fast 
hit me sudden like a crash 
watch us both turn into ash 

make of my heart a cast
pour hot iron on my chest
watch me fail to catcha breath
as my body slowly melts r 

and i’ll sit alone
my phones on dnd 
but it wouldn’t matter 
no one checks on me 
and they’ll say they care
but don’t listen closely 
they’ll say they care 
when i finally can’t breathe 

friends hit me for a feature 
but they’ve never shared my songs 
and i’ll pretend it’s cool 
cause it’s not worth i’ll play along  
so i may be a narcissist 
please say that it’s okay 
cause if i do not love myself 
then that leaves no one loving me 

i walk alone 
drag broken bones 
they throw their stones 
and go for my throat 
i’ll turn off my phone 
and i’ll keep it closed 
cause i don’t need anyone to know where i’ll go

u didn't care u din't ask
all our love's fading fast 
hit me sudden like a crash 
watch us both turn into ash 

make of my heart a cast
pour hot iron on my chest
watch me fail to catcha breath
as my body slowly melts r

casperrr & geist - cast (pekarot)

Jocelyn Flores REMIX

away from my reach in a land I can’t get to
Give you my all, I hope that’s enough for you
Cause I don’t price myself too highly
I hope this is more than good timing 
After all that I’ve loved
And all that I’ve lost
Passing away from me, I can’t give up
Now
Though it feels like somebody wants me to try
I’m never worth it, overstay my time

I’ve been made to believe 
That everything that I do 
Is not enough, it’s never right
So please forgive me, always apologising 
Over little things, it’s not worth it

Hide your face
In between my arms
And pull me closer
It’s not enough if I can still breathe 
Then fall asleep right next to me

Find myself falling so deep in your eyes
Start to get lost, oh I swear that it’s fine
Cause you don’t want nothing to do with me, right ? 
That’s what I tell myself all of the time

Hold me to let go, and swear it’s an accident 
I wouldn’t notice, I’m not that intelligent 
If you wanna hurt me, it doesn’t take all that much 
Get it over with, I don’t have room to trust
Anybody here except from you
Why should I be giving out when I lose
There’s nothing I’d rather be held by 
Just focus on tracing your hairline 

Hide your face
In between my arms
And pull me closer
It’s not enough if I can still breathe 
Then fall asleep right next to me

next to me

lie to me w/ DecayingAnyways (prod: TNVR)

hold down
Send
More in
Hold out

This is more than a look that I have 
Send men they’re breaking bad 
So sad you’ve done this before
Head down the aisle 12 bore
In hand I’m ready to fight 
He’s not so keen, don’t look right 

Maybe I’d be better alone
So I don’t intrude
Stare at my phone, cause I need you
Hold me like the worlds on my back
I’m counting curls in your hair
And pray to god that it lasts 

I Don’t have to count no sheep
I just look into your eyes
One moment, fast asleep
I’m tryna stay up all night

Maybe this rain is too heavy 
For us to lay in it 
But we’ll sit out on the porch 
Covered in acid and mould 
Maybe my life wasn’t wasted
Now that you’re a part of it
I’ve never done this before
Everything I touch starts to fall 

(Covered in acid and mould)

This is more than a look that I have 
Send men they’re breaking bad 
So sad you’ve done this before
Head down the aisle 12 bore
In hand I’m ready to fight 
He’s not so keen, don’t look right 

I hate this world so much
I feel my body closing in
Though when I conversate with you, I start to feel complete again

Rushing out to tell him that I’ve found a friend
And though I can’t get a reply i know he thinks you’re the best

bore

If you wanna let me go then darling
I don’t mind
Maybe a little I won’t show it you don’t
Have the time
So stop concerning or worrying about
What I hide
Those feelings locked away the key is somewhere, I resided

You cannot force an entry 
No it’s a little bit mean don’t you think
Maybe these walls are meant to stay up 
Surrounding me
If you wanna get past you’ll have to
Kill me
Are we starting again
Without all my friends

I’m running I’m running away
You don’t have to catch me
Nothing but doubt and regret
You won’t ever find me

If you wanna let me go then darling
I don’t mind
Maybe a little I won’t show it you don’t
Have the time
So stop concerning or worrying about
What I hide
Those feelings locked away the key is somewhere, I resided

I wish I slept thru everything 
Woke up to birds singing 
Outside my window pane
Wake up repeat again
Tell death I’m on my way
He’s not too far away
He’ll take me all the same
Select all delete again

If you wanna let me go then darling
I don’t mind
Maybe a little I won’t show it you don’t
Have the time
So stop concerning or worrying about
What I hide
Those feelings locked away the key is somewhere, I resided

slept through everything

Excuse My French

strings by @vayhn

For so long
I’ve cut my heart open
I’ve Been so heavily devoted
But what does it matter now
What does it matter now

Harboured to nothing
I’m drowning you’re not running
Am I not worth saving
Don’t leave me, I’m wasted
I’m rotten
Don’t taste me
I’m falling
You’re waiting
For somebody better than me
How I wish I could have been

Don’t ask no questions
Won’t get no lies
You’ve ruined all we’ve had
Hope that was right

I draw lines running parallel
They never get to cross 
But they know so well
And ones always on the frontline 
Though they never get to touch 
They protect so well
Keep running
I’m surrounded 
Heart open
All this damage
You noticed
Oh you noticed
In truth I’m losing focus 

Don’t stay awake without me
Stretch marks on my skin and I’m hardly
Impressed by myself and my surroundings 
Lowkey kinda scared that you despise me

Maybe it’s all a facade and you’re just tryna keep round
Breathing under water girl you cannot hold me down
Down
Both my feet tied to the ground 
Ground

parallel

I thought that you loved me but you had someone else
And I thought maybe it’s better if i don’t know you too well
I’m stupid, addicted to love when it’s fair
I’d break all of these bones, if I could hold you there 

No better, take all the clothes that you want
Invested, in learning, why you don’t talk to me much
Forget it
I’m falling 
Into the mould that you made
My body malleable I can’t contort it again 

I thought that you loved me but you had someone else
And I thought maybe it’s better if i don’t know you too well
I’m stupid, addicted to love when it’s fair
I’d break all of these bones, if I could hold you there 

I know your smile is proud
Too proud to let me down 
And when you hold me, embrace it
I’m done being scared now
Who lays in the dark
And pass through my arms
I could start to see forever
Never been this far
Hope my hands feel safe
Fingers below your waist 
I’ll be gentle don’t worry
It’s hard cause I’m not
Used to somebody 
Being all that I want

I thought that you loved me but you had someone else
And I thought maybe it’s better if i don’t know you too well
I’m stupid, addicted to love when it’s fair
I’d break all of these bones, if I could hold you there 
There’s birds laughing at me
But don’t know why I’m here
I’ll spend every moment
Looking over this pier
I thought that you loved me
No I guess I was wrong
I’ll stand over the edge 
Wind is coming in strong