hiding place

come kiss the back of my hand
and turn away when youre mad
i fucked around and found a girl
this shouldnt happen so fast
and this is not what i planned
i walked away arent you glad
lets talk about me behind my back 
i wanna see who i am

its always some useless bullshit
something that never even bothered me
ask your friends opinion
bet theyre getting really sick of me
fabricating everything get so unhinged with it
and baby they dont even really know the half of it

its not who i am
my silence is what you get
ill runaway to the forest
never to call again
and ill regret what i did
i dont believe in an end
if nobody can compare, then how could you forget

if this was my last life, id give it to you
throw away all my body
and mark it as used
and if i told the truth 
im sort of obssesed with you
but way to scared to lose
anymore than what i do

i cant commit to something youre not sure will last
hold me close and pull your palm along my hand
whisper softly in my ear to tell me that ill be fine
i cannot make a mistake
its only you and i 

keep running your mouth
tell your friends that you know me
i would push it aside but im done being easy
this is not what i wanted 
or why im even here
i really thought you where flawless
but you disgust me dear

after all that weve been through
the solder is used
i cant keep anything together 
losing track of you
and if you want me to 
id do what you want me to
come drag me down from this pier
and fix your attitude

i dont get what you dont understand
your feelings are fine, cause im feeling em back
throwed away my life for a promise, wont last
now im staying awkward and silent and mad
i hope you dont regret all the things that you said
most of em where true but they hurt me no less
i wish you would have known me at my very best
i cant believe i turned out to be such a mess

i dont get what you dont understand
your feelings are fine, cause im feeling em back
throwed away my life for a promise, wont last
now im staying awkward and silent and mad

no less

Can’t say ur not breaking me
It takes all that I have
Just to sleep and then wake again
Barely eat cause I can’t
My body’s not made for this
Cause half of it is urs
Remember when I said
“For this girl that I adore”
Ur nothing but memories
Keep
Pulling me apart
I could never be used to this
It’s only the start
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Cause They’re all memorised
I’m burning through these highs
u don’t even ask how I am
it feels like nothings right
Fuck this u never tried
Try to see thru my eyes
The way I suffer every morning
U don’t ask me nein
“Why u awake so late”
I’m Just talking to friends
U won’t believe a single thing my mouth has ever said

Cause it’s so late
And it’s so dark out
Are you home yet ?
It’s not safe out now

There’s no place
For someone like me
In ur life
So I should focus on being alone
All the time
And babe it’s okay
I promise it’s fine
I’ll be fine
I cannot shake this feeling to die
I should die
How could we say it’s us till we die
How should I know
And I can say this without any lines
With my eyes closed
Cause I mean it
This isn’t a story
I can’t go back to the start
And ur leaving
Moved on while I’m shuffling cards

There’s no place
For someone like me
In ur life
So I should focus on being alone
All the time
And babe it’s okay
I promise it’s fine
I’ll be fine
I cannot shake this feeling to die
I should die

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fill my lungs with nicotine and hate
alot of water running down my face
runaway to a hiding place
and seek some words from someone with your name

i could give a word or two about you
i know thats just never right to do
but every word im speaking out is true
i dont give a lot its more than you

i can take it but you dont give anything
i wish that youd lie to me, come lie to me again
i want you to hide with me, come lay with me again
i want you to fight with, come fight with me again
i want you to break it but weve broken everything
i dont wanna face it but its hard for me to leave
i dont wanna listen, so i wont hear anything
holding onto something i dont care if you dont

maybe this is all that ive got in life
writing songs about it pacing all the time
fighting with myself im pulling hair from the root
maybe itd be if i wouldnt intrude
on life
its yours not mine
i had my time
and blew it right
it goes
its everything around and i swear that it goes
i dont wanna ruin it by doing the most

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hiraeth