this is my favorite song ever of all time

ancient in mind

Soft Spoken (prod. by tennis player)

produced by sleepwater leftquiet and heylog
w @heylog

im losing faith and abilities
i wish i was brave im never at ease
what did you say to me
nothing was made for me
nothing went the way of the willow
ill sit right here and wait by my window

picking leaves for you to see
i hate these trees when i cant breathe
im sick of me i said too much
i hate myself not scared to crush
im not scared to crush
i hate myself
not fair no touch
i did this to myself

come destroy me now i rlly wanna know
i locked inside your arms
i hate the way it goes
im locked inside a farm 
while u remove his coat
ive never had the time 
to let anyone close

heylog:
just a log and a tree standing open in fields
rough times for a being if u don't know how to heal
kill me lover, push below the ground
oh i can't stand it here, not even an ounce
oh you
oh my
come back
to my side
i dont know myself
dont go ill stay and get help

no i dont miss you
hate what u done to me
say that your in love me
200 hundred days
where i would see you
i made a mistake
now i cant see you

fields w/heylog

forsaken foreskin

guitar played by @prod-oc

lyrics:
you hold here
stop it
it hurts 
here stop it
destroy myself
for you
destroy myself
for you
for you
don't don't 
don't don't

forever

produced by sleepwater 

lyrics:
i hate everyone except you
lovers leave is overdue
i let myself   accept you
everything was made for two
i need a girl with hair
down to her shoulders yeah
hurry dont hurl round here
well i  know its cold my dear
we'll never lose hope round here
dont ever give up

 oh yeah, hello, oh yeah, help

pushing my limits no one going to stop it
killing my ex promise you never saw it
bashing our heads against the floor and the faucet
bath tub full of blood limbs in the closet
savour her head tie it up in a forest
its friday tonight but not the thirteenth
take off my mask so you its real
BURY HER BODY AND LET EVERYONE SEE
butcher that witch and go in for the kill
fill up the cask until her blood spill
leave her in a ditch then im going to chill
move on to next she got eliminate

violent

Tens (Bittersweet Memories)

prod hira
ily

How could i say no
her eyes are looking pretty at the floor
im letting myself go i need some more
theres something in the way she makes me talk

i might have to go on my own

it was you that i wanted all along

i dont wanna leave you out on ur own
snakes along her hair she turn my body to stone
i dont wanna stay here out in the cold
the way she stares through me got me collecting my bones

dancing on my own

there must be something in ur eyes love
fuelling a drug
inside my body and its
violent
ive given up
id write a letter
but i cant love
swear im so fucked
i wrote a song like 3 or 4 times
to get it across

and i still dont think you understand
baby pull me closer i could be ur contraband
letting go of all the feelings that ive ever had
used to struggle with myself but now im fucking glad

you should kill me back

(dont let go of me)

how could i say no
her eyes are looking pretty at the floor
im letting myself go i need some more
theres something in the way she makes me talk

i might have to go on my own

it was you that i wanted all along

surrender

bubbles /
depends, can you go fuck yourself

hira /
i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

is it too much to ask for your time
love my patience is walking the line
save me
its not like youd try
fell too close
breaking my spine

too close i feel like an option
i keep tryna run girl 
run into the forest
i could use some safety
are you tryna hold me?
stop shaking
eyes are getting blurry

i dont trust nobody
but i saw you as family
its getting too warm im struggling to breathe
its blatant im nothing to see

i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

breathe

think 
that you know
i could die
and be set in stone love
you dont know me
ur so broken
i see ur eyes roll back 
youve lost it

half my face is in the mud
im getting nauseous i cant breathe well
looking in disgust as if i wasnt meant to sleep yet
turning into anger 
watch my face is going bright red
turning into nothing see my life is getting violent

this is not what i had in mind
youve taken all but the worst in life
but ur ruined
now switching sides
all while ur watching me die

must be a sign
must be a sign
could talk to you for hours i dont have to lie
could be ur life
and you could tell me mine
dont have to be alone for you to watch me die

see my blood runs thick on the cotton-dye
if you never spoke to me id still consider you mine <3
im feeling weak could you check all of my vitals
can tell by my body im getting violent

this is not what i had in mind
youve taken all but the worst in life
but ur ruined
now switching sides
all while ur watching me die

i dont really like where youre pulling me now
i thought id do better, but youre barely proud
i dont really like that youre not calming me down
ive got nowhere to run now
nowhere to go now

you thought its best for me
but i dont need anything but you now
i did whats best for me 
and honestly i need you right here in my house
cant let this run on much further
further ill fall down
dont know how much i can cope fore' i hit you and fall back down

on the pavement 
on the pavement

pavement

im sorry for not posting in awhile, i've been making some stuff im proud of but havent finished them so ive been strugglin to get somethin out that i love. if u still stickin around ily. i have stuff for u this year :)

i dont wanna talk like that
nothing rly said and it's goin right back, right back
pressure weighin on my head, scars on my skin till the lights turn black, turn black
look like a cracked phone screen, nobody rly knows me 
can't talk to anybody
sometimes it gets deep, but it's hardly there
hardly here
im hardly..
i wonder what u thought when u saw me
if u need a friend u can call me
im right here man im sorry im sorry

it was not supposed to be like this
3 o clock and i feel like shit
and im feelin it oh the sky is weighin in
got so much potential, potential that im not weighin in
gotta retry, retry don't watch time go by
everyday that i wait it feel like a lie
everyday feels the same im just fightin time
got so many songs to finish jus gotta fkn try

i dont wanna talk like that
nothing rly said and it's goin right back, right back
pressure weighin on my head, scars on my skin till the lights turn black, turn black
look like a cracked phone screen, nobody rly knows me 
can't talk to anybody
sometimes it gets deep, but it's hardly there
hardly here
im hardly..

hardly (prod. neverforever)

Mix/mastered: @falls-2

Soul find me right into you 
Words don't speak unless they're true
All my shadows are shallow
They dig me to my grave 
And take me up
My only love is written in battle
And when I die alone
I'll lift my cup for no one

Hell is a fine place for two people
I'm in shells 
And I can see that nothing is equal no

Falling fixtures
Keep your mind in pictures
Are you really going to stay with me tonight?

Move it away
Talk with the shame 
Gone with the flame
Movie it away
I can see that you like it but never contain
Move it away
Stop with the games
I can just say
That you're ashamed
Say that you'll never 
Leave me again

Soul find me right into you 
Words don't speak unless they're true

Soul find me right into you 
Words don't speak unless they're true


collecting all my knots (Prod. Drip-133)

DARK PLACES (intro)

This Beat was Produced by Gstunna
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Depths Of The Sea

INSECTS

Can you hear me?
Are you with me?
I'm in feelings
Do you feel me?

I need something
But what's something?
That I'm missing
Will you tell me?

Why you shun me?
Why you shun me?
Now I be breaking down the weed 
By my lonely

Why you shun me?
Why you shun me?
Because all of these bitches
Acting faker than the police

You're like fake pee
Kinda kinky
Damn, the way you're moving
Is so amazing

But you made me
Start to hate me
I had to get up and leave
Before you played me

I don't want to go there
(oh no)
I don't want to go there
(oh no)
Are you with me?
Can you hear me?
Are you with me?
Can you feel me?

Are you with me?
Can you hear me?
Yeah, I know that the reapers near me
But I promise that I'll keep going
Blue faces,
And a new Ford Focus

Are you with me?
Can you hear me?
Yeah, I know that the reapers near me
But I promise that i'll keep going
Cut ties with the lies I've spoken

Are you with me?
Can you feel me?
Are you with me?
Are you near me?
Can you hold me?
Can you show me?
I need someone
To help fix my lonely

(to help fix my lonely)
(to help fix my lonely)

I'll rearrange me
I keep chasing
Everything I wan't , I'll drive fast
No breaking

Wake up in the morning
Then I'm back to blunt facing
Thinking up a plan
So I can get up out the basement 

Everything I am, 
I'm always running through the basics
No one understands
That I've been feeling misplacement

(oooh)

I've been feeling misplacement
Stuck in the basement
I've been feeling misplacement
Stuck in the basement
But I'm gonna change it

Can you hear me?
Are you with me?
I'm in feelings
Do you feel me?

I need something
But what's something?
That I'm missing
Will you tell me?

Why you shun me?
Why you shun me?
Now I be breaking down the weed 
By my lonely

Why you shun me?
Why you shun me?
Because all of these bitches
Acting faker than the police

You're like fake pee
Kinda kinky
Damn, the way you're moving
Is so amazing

But you made me
Start to hate me
I had to get up and leave
Before you played me

I don't want to go there
(oh no)
I don't want to go there
(oh no)
Are you with me?
Can you hear me?
Are you with me?
Can you feel me?

Are you with me?
Can you hear me?
Yeah, I know that the reapers near me
But I promise that I'll keep going
Blue faces,
And a new Ford Focus

Are you with me?
Can you hear me?
Yeah, I know that the reapers near me
But I promise that i'll keep going
Cut ties with the lies I've spoken

Are you with me?
Can you feel me?
Are you with me?
Are you near me?
Can you hold me?
Can you show me?
I need someone
To help fix my lonely

(to help fix my lonely)
(to help fix my lonely)

Do you feel me? (prod. Audio Vibe)

@heylog

lyrics: 
i been doin better
since i removed her number
baby im alone
dont know which one i wanted
i visit ur home
only to get high though
the drive dont feel the same
when it never thunders home
i can hear the train
it remind me that i made it safe
oh how we were close
its a shame we let it go to waste
fighting off n on girl
we werent made for eachother
i wont lose these memories
but oh man i really wanna
oh its a shame
we let it go to waste
baby heal my face
im losing everyday
oh man im done
god ive had enough
i swore it on my mom
i said i wish i was gone

i been doin better
since i went and left her
i still have ur things
including ur sweater
i can give it back?
dont wanna leave a thing behind
cause u just wished me death
i hate u disrespecting mine

i been doing better
since i ever met her
why u wanna talk and shit
dont u see its over?
i cant stand to be friends
id rather call us enemies
ur eyes oh my god
theyre the fucking death of me
i hate that ur happy
i wish u were hanging
from the fucking ceiling
cause you
fucked me up
and i cant get over it
i need some revenge

i wish i never loved her
i shoulda just left her
i was doing fine
until i fucking met her
i shouldve just disposed of u
but i didnt wanna hurt u
this is how i feel
i hope youll understand me soon

better (ft. heylog)

Matthew smith


Faith. forgiveness. truth.

surrender

hiraeth

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