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Clean Sheets, dirty walls

Hide Behind My Disguise

This is where the night breaks. Not perfect. Not fixed. Just finally free enough to live. 
We rise together. Not alone.

hope music • recovery anthem • emotional hip hop • rebirth




[Intro – gentle, steady, warm]
Yeah…
I know what the dark feels like.
And I know what it means to outlive it.
If you're hearing this…
You made it too.

[Verse 1]
I carried a heart too heavy to hold,
Learned to go numb before I got old.
Chased quiet in the needle and flame,
Trying to escape what didn’t have a name.

Stayed up through nights that never had ends,
Losing myself and calling it friends.
But even in the deepest part of that night,
Something in me still wanted the light.

[Pre-Chorus]
And I didn’t rise all at once.
I rose slow.
But rising slow…
is still rising.

[Chorus]
Into the sunrise — breathe in the new day.
Let the past fall off like yesterday’s weight.
Yeah, I broke — but breaking opened the door,
And I ain’t who I was anymore.

Into the sunrise — I stand in this light.
I survived every shadow, every fight.
And if you’re here too, you don’t need to explain…
Just breathe with me —
we made it through the flame.

[Instrumental Lift – handpan + flute swell, soft strings]

[Verse 2]
I found peace where the silence lives,
In forgiveness — the hardest gift.
Learned that healing ain’t quick or clean,
It’s learning to love everything you’ve seen.

Float in still water and let it speak,
Even the strong are allowed to be weak.
No shame in the days you needed to cry —
That’s just your soul trying to stay alive.

[Pre-Chorus]
No finish line.
No race to win.
Just the next breath.
Again… and again.

[Chorus]
Into the sunrise — breathe in the new day.
Let the past fall off like yesterday’s weight.
Yeah, I broke — but breaking opened the door,
And I ain’t who I was anymore.

Into the sunrise — I stand in this light.
I survived every shadow, every fight.
And if you’re here too, you don’t need to explain…
Just breathe with me —
we made it through the flame.

[Bridge – spoken, soft]
Hey…
If you’re hearing this…
I’m proud of you.
Not because you're perfect.
But because you’re still here.
That’s enough.
That’s always been enough.

[Final Chorus – repeat x2, wider, “we”]
Into the sunrise — we rise together.
Every tear we cried made us weathered.
We were breaking, but now we’re reborn —
We’re not who we were anymore.

Into the sunrise — hand in hand.
We stand here now, we understand.
If you’re breathing — you’re still becoming.
We rise, we rise —
and we keep on coming home.

[Outro – whispered, warm]
We made it.
Yeah…
We made it.

© 2025 HISson™. All rights reserved.

Into the Sunrise (album version)

Rising softly. Choosing peace instead of chaos. Breath instead of panic. Love instead of fear. 
Healing is a frequency you learn to live in.

high vibration • emotional hip hop • spiritual rap • meditation journey



[Intro – soft, almost spoken]
Yeah…
Energy don’t lie — it just moves.
So I set my frequency to love…
and I let the rest align.

[Verse 1]
I used to wake up inside a storm,
mind racing before the sun was born.
Chasing something I could never hold,
running from a heart I never told.

But I learned to breathe instead of break,
to sit with the waves instead of run from the ache.
Now I let my peace decide the pace,
and the quiet feels like sacred space.

[Pre-Chorus]
Every thought’s a wave I choose,
every word a path I use.
When I speak with grace and truth,
the universe adjusts its tune.

[Chorus]
I vibrate higher — higher than fear.
Love’s my compass, the message is clear.
I thank the sun for another breath,
I dance with life — I don’t fear death.
My heart’s the drum, my soul’s the choir,
Energy pure, my spirit’s fire.
Every moment sacred, wired —
Yeah… I vibrate higher.

[Instrumental Break – handpan + flute + breathing space]

[Verse 2]
I learned peace don’t come from running,
it comes from listening when the hurt is humming.
From letting go of battles I already won,
from laying down the weight I carried for no one.

Gratitude lives in my bloodstream now,
soft steps, slow mornings, I remember how.
When I tune my heart to the quiet inside,
the whole world shifts — the noise steps aside.

[Pre-Chorus]
Every thought’s a wave I choose,
every word a path I use.
I don’t chase — I just align,
what’s meant for me arrives on time.

[Chorus]
I vibrate higher — higher than fear.
Love’s my compass, the message is clear.
I thank the sun for another breath,
I dance with life — I don’t fear death.
My heart’s the drum, my soul’s the choir,
Energy pure, my spirit’s fire.
Every moment sacred, wired —
Yeah… I vibrate higher.

[Bridge – gentle, steady]
Tune your mind, tune your soul,
Let the frequency make you whole.
Gratitude’s the key, love’s the gate —
What you give out, you recreate.

[Final Chorus – repeat x2, “WE” version]
We vibrate higher — higher than fear.
Love is louder, and I feel you near.
We thank the sun for another breath,
We rise with life — we don’t fear death.
Our hearts the drums, our souls the choir,
Energy pure, our spirits fire.
Every moment sacred, wired —
Yeah… we vibrate higher.

© 2025 HISson™. All rights reserved.

Vibrate Higher (album version)

A breath. A pause. A reminder that you are still here. You don’t have to go. You don’t have to run. Stay.

spoken word • grounding • breathing room • meditation moment



Hey…
come here.
Sit with me… just for a minute.


I know what it feels like to be tired…
Not the kind sleep fixes.
The kind that sinks into your bones
and sits in your chest.


I know what it feels like to not want to die…
but not know how to live either.


I’ve been there.
Back against the wall.
Heart heavy.
Hands shaking.
No words.


You’re not weak for feeling this way.
You’re not broken.
You’re not too late.


This is just the part where it hurts.


You don’t have to fix everything today.
You don’t have to pretend you’re okay.

Just stay.

Just breathe with me.


See?
You’re still here.
You made it to this moment.
That means something.


You don’t have to rise fast.
You don’t have to rise strong.

We rise slow.
We rise soft.


But we rise.


Stay with me…
Just a little longer.

© 2025 HISson™. All rights reserved.

Stay With Me (interlude)

I had to let go of the version of me built from pain, pride, and survival.
This is where I learned vulnerability is strength.

healing rap • spiritual awakening • emotional hip hop



Intro (soft):
Yeah…
This is where I finally let go.

Verse 1:
I hit the bottom hard, no warning, no grace,
Head in my hands, tears all over my face.
The fight I was fighting had already been won—
I was holding a battle already done.

I built identities just to feel okay,
But they all collapsed in a single day.
I didn’t “find peace,” I broke apart—
And the breaking was where my healing could start.

Pre-Chorus:
I didn’t rise like a hero out of flames,
I was on the floor whispering my own name.
Something quiet said, “You don’t have to run.”
So I laid the old me down — his work was done.

Chorus:
I let go… and that was enough.
I stopped fighting myself — I woke up.
I let the old me fall to dust,
And I rose from what was left of us.

Let it burn, let it fade, let it fall away—
I didn’t die, I just learned how to stay.
I let go…
Yeah, that was enough.
I let go…
And that was love.

Verse 2:
He was the version of me who kept me alive,
The warrior, the fighter, the one who survived.
But he was so tired from carrying pain,
So I laid him down and I spoke his name.

Not in anger — in gratitude, soft and true,
Said, “Thank you for getting me through.”
But I don’t need to wear that armor anymore—
I can finally walk without bracing for war.

Bridge (spoken, quiet):
I didn’t kill him.
I just let him rest.
The one who was always scared,
always proving,
always holding his breath…

I finally stood up now as myself.

Final Chorus (wider, not louder):
Goodbye ego… that was enough.
I stopped running from myself — I showed up.
I let the old me fall to dust,
And I rose from what was left of us.

Let it burn, let it fade, let it fall away—
I’m still breathing in the light of another day.
Goodbye ego…
Yeah… that was enough.
Goodbye ego…
And it feels like love.

© 2025 HISson™. All rights reserved.

EGO Death (album version)

For everyone who made it out when others didn’t. I kept the tiny orange caps as proof I was still alive. 
This song remembers the ones we lost, and honors them by living.

recovery music • overdose awareness • emotional rap • memorial song


Intro (spoken, calm):
I kept every cap from every hit.
Not to glorify it…
just to remember how close I was to leaving.
No cap.

(Instrumental break – flute soft, handpan low)

Verse 1:
They said I was next — another face on a tee,
Another story that ended at seventeen.
But I woke up shaking on cold concrete,
Somehow still breathing, still on my feet.

Faces fade where laughter used to live,
Rooms get quiet in ways you don’t forgive.
We chased the rush just to feel our blood,
Now I carry what the river took in the flood.

Pre-Chorus:
I can still hear the quiet after ambulance lights,
I can still smell the metal from all of those nights.
If breath was currency, I’d give you mine —
But I guess I’m still here to draw the line.

Chorus:
No cap — I should’ve been gone by now,
But I’m still here somehow.
No cap — I seen too much to lie,
I’ve cried enough tears to drown the sky.

No cap — these scars ain’t shame, they proof,
Every one of them bleeds the truth.
No cap — I'm not proud of where I’ve been,
But I finally learned how to stand again.

(Instrumental break – flute lead + steel handpan forward + airy pads)

Verse 2:
I remember that warmth, that first escape,
How it wrapped around pain like a gentle embrace.
We said “one more,” like a prayer we believed,
Till one more took you, and left me to grieve.

I buried more names than I’ll ever confess,
Grief got heavy, but I wore it like a vest.
If pain was the teacher, I learned every page,
Watching angels fall before they reached old age.

Pre-Chorus:
So now I breathe slow, I talk soft, I stay,
I light a candle for the ones who slipped away.
This life ain’t promised — it’s borrowed flame,
So I say their names. I say their names.

Chorus:
No cap — I should’ve been gone by now,
But I’m still here somehow.
No cap — I don’t take this light for granted,
I was one breath away from where they landed.

No cap — I remember every tear,
Every laugh, every year.
No cap — I’m living for the ones still near,
And the ones not here.

(Instrumental break – softer, no drums, flute carrying emotion)

Bridge (spoken, warm, almost whisper):
If you’re still here…
stay.
One more breath.
One more day.
We don’t heal fast.
We just stay.

Final Chorus (repeat  chorus twice, second time more open and lifted):
No cap — I’m here because of grace,
And I carry their light in my chest every day.
No cap — I’m still learning how to stay,
But I’m staying.
I’m staying.

(Repeat chorus here; second time slightly more open, not louder)

(Stop singing. Spoken outro only.)

Outro (spoken):
We don’t honor them by leaving the same way.
We honor them by living the life they never got to.
So breathe.
Cry if you need to.
But stay.
Because somebody needs your story to stay alive, too.
No cap.

© 2025 HISson™. All rights reserved.

No Cap (album version)

For the version of you that disappeared to survive. 
You are not too far gone. The door is still open. You can come home to yourself.

emotional rap • introspective hip hop • trauma healing


[Intro – soft, breathy]
Hey…
It’s me.
I remember you.

[Verse 1]
You were twelve, maybe thirteen,
Trying to stand tall in shoes that didn’t fit your feet.
World too heavy, heart too loud,
So you learned to disappear in the middle of the crowd.

You didn’t trust nobody, and you had your reasons.
Pain came early and stayed through seasons.
You didn’t get the childhood they said you should’ve had —
But none of that was your fault, kid. None of that.

[Pre-Chorus]
You weren’t broken,
You were surviving.
You weren’t angry,
You were trying.

[Chorus]
Come home, kid… you don’t have to run no more.
Come home, kid… you ain’t living in that war.
I know you’ve been holding every tear behind your eyes,
But you don’t gotta hide… not this time.

Come home, kid…
I’m right here now.
You can set it down.
You can rest now.

[Verse 2]
You took every hit and thought you deserved the blow,
Thought being strong meant you never let it show.
But strength ain’t silence, and pain ain’t shame —
You were just a boy walking through a grown man’s flame.

I see you now — small fists, wild breath,
Trying to stay alive inside your own chest.
You didn’t deserve those nights you cried alone.
You deserved a hand.
So I came back home.

[Pre-Chorus]
You weren’t broken,
You were surviving.
You weren’t angry,
You were trying.

[Chorus]
Come home, kid… you don’t have to run no more.
Come home, kid… you ain’t living in that war.
I know you’ve been holding every tear behind your eyes,
But you don’t gotta hide… not this time.

Come home, kid…
I’m right here now.
You can set it down.
You can rest now.

[Bridge – spoken, close to mic]
Hey…
You kept us alive.
I see that now.
And I’m not leaving you behind again.

[Final Chorus – softer, warm, almost whispered]
Come home, kid…
Come home, kid…
You can rest now.
You can rest now.

© 2025 HISson™. All rights reserved.

Come Home, Kid (album version)

A letter to the one who never gave up on me, even when I was gone.
This is love, regret, and coming home when you finally understand.

emotional r&b • acoustic rap • family healing • forgiveness • mother/son song


[Intro]
Hey mama…
I know it’s been a long time.
But I’m here now.
I promise I’m here now.

[Verse 1]
I was just a kid who swore he knew everything,
Pushed back at every lesson you were trying to bring.
You were fighting for me, but I just saw chains,
So I cursed your name every time you tried to ease my pain.

You did the best you could with what life handed you,
I didn’t see it then — I swear I see it now, I do.
I thought the world owed me something just for breathing,
But it was your love that kept my heart still beating.

[Pre-Chorus]
And I know I can’t undo those years,
The silence, the distance, the anger, the fear.
But I’m trying now, and I want you to hear —
I’m still your son.
I’m still right here.

[Chorus]
Hey mama… I’m sorry for the days I disappeared,
For all the calls I left unanswered, all the love I left in fear.
Hey mama… I know I made you cry more times than I can count,
But you kept the door open even when I shut you out.

Hey mama… I’m trying to be the man you always saw in me,
And I hope one day you’ll look at me and finally feel at peace.
Hey mama… I’m coming home, I swear I am.
I just needed time… to understand.

[Verse 2]
I thought using was easier than facing the shame,
So I pushed you away ‘cause I couldn’t accept that blame.
I know you spent birthdays alone with your phone in your hand,
And it hurts me to know you think you failed, you did the best you can.
You were the light so I could find my way out of those woods.

You were the one person who never walked away even when when you should,
You prayed for me even when I wouldn’t pray for myself,
You held on to hope while I was burning in hell.

[Bridge]
I haven’t seen your face in over ten years now…
But I see you every time I close my eyes.
It hits different now.
I just want to hold you…
And say I’m sorry…
Without breaking down.

[Final Chorus]
Hey mama… I’m sorry for the days I disappeared,
For all the nights you stayed up drowning in your fear.
Hey mama… I’m trying now, I swear I am,
I’m learning how to stand… learning how to be a better man.

Hey mama… you were my shelter even when I ran,
You loved me when I didn’t think I deserved another chance.
Hey mama… I’m coming home, I swear I am.
If you’ll still take my hand…
I’m here now.

[Outro]
I love you.
No excuses.
Just truth.

© 2025 HISson™. All rights reserved.

Hey Mama (album version)

Anonymous is about the last house on the block, the fellowship that carried me when I couldn’t carry myself, and the steps that rebuilt me one truth at a time. It’s the moment the mess becomes the message and you realize you’re finally alive again.



[Verse 1]
I spent years stuck in a storm I thought I could outrun on my own,
Hands shaking, heart breaking, losing battles I never won.
Tried to play my own god, tried to force life to bend,
But every time I took control, I crashed again and again.

Then one night, empty, I stumbled toward a little lit porch,
The last house on the block — didn’t know I’d find a new torch.
People who’d never met me somehow knew my pain,
Like they carried the same ghosts, like they walked through the same rain.

They didn’t judge, didn’t flinch, didn’t ask for a mask,
Just said, “You’re safe here, kid… sit down, exhale, relax.”
And for the first time in my whole damn life,
Being seen didn’t feel like a threat — it felt right.

[Chorus]
I ain’t anonymous no more,
Found truth, found hope, found something worth living for.
From surrender to amends, from the wreckage to peace,
Every moment of honesty brought a brand new release.

I was lost in the dark till the circle pulled me through,
They loved me first till I learned what love could do.
Yeah, the healing hit different when my heart got honest —
Turned a ghost into a man living the promises.

And today I’m not carrying the mess but the message,
Not invisible anymore — my life is my witness.

[Verse 2]
I learned the fight was too big to win alone,
My spirit needed something deeper than what I’d ever known.
A quiet power, gentle and steady enough to lift me out,
The kind that held me upright when I was drowning in doubt.

I handed over the wheel I kept gripping in fear,
Realized control was the lie I’d been worshipping for years.
Then I sifted through the wreckage of my past like a hidden mine,
Found the shadows I buried and the patterns that intertwined.

I spoke the truths I swore would bury me alive,
Felt shame fall away like it finally chose to die.
Saw the traits that chained me to the drought in my soul,
And asked for the strength to release what I couldn’t control.

I faced the ones I wounded, the echoes of every wrong,
Walked through each moment with a heart trying to stay strong.
I learned to look inward daily without the old disguise,
Not to punish myself — just to stop believing my lies.

Found quiet guidance in the morning, clarity in the still,
A whisper telling me to trust the path instead of my will.
And when I stood steady, when I learned what freedom meant,
I reached back for the next soul still stuck in descent.

[Chorus]
I ain’t anonymous no more,
Found truth, found hope, found something worth living for.
From surrender to amends, from the wreckage to peace,
Every moment of honesty brought a brand new release.

I was lost in the dark till the circle pulled me through,
They loved me first till I learned what love could do.
Yeah, the healing hit different when my heart got honest —
Turned a ghost into a man living the promises.

And today I’m not carrying the mess but the message,
Not invisible anymore — my life is my witness.

[Bridge]
They said, “Just keep showing up,
you’ll be amazed before the journey’s even halfway done…”
And damn — they were right,
every promise rising one by one.

And in those hundred eighty-six pages of truth and light,
I found the roadmap I needed to survive the night.
My chest got lighter, my soul stopped trembling,
And the life I thought I’d ruined
suddenly started living.


[Outro]
Now I live in the sunlight of the spirit I denied,
No longer invisible, no longer running to hide.
This circle saved me when I couldn’t save myself —
Anonymous once…
but today I stand felt,
a man who carries the message,
not the mess.

© 2025 HISson™. All rights reserved

Anonymous

Intro:
I kept every cap from every hit —
a reminder of every time I should’ve died.
But I didn’t.
No cap.

Verse 1:
They said I was next, another name on a shirt,
But I woke up breathing in the dirt.
Every friend that I lost, they still talk in my dreams,
Every ghost knows what “one more” means.

I’ve seen eyes fade right in front of me,
Heard silence where laughter used to be.
We chased the rush, it took its toll,
Now I carry what it stole.

Pre-Chorus:
And I still hear the silence after the sirens fade,
Still smell the burn when the veins got played.
If I could trade my breath for one of theirs, I would —
But I guess I’m still here to show you you could.

Chorus:
No cap — I should’ve been gone by now,
But I’m still here somehow.
No cap — I seen too much to lie,
Every tear I’ve shed could drown the sky.

No cap — these scars ain’t shame, they proof,
Every one of ‘em bleeds the truth.
No cap — I ain’t proud of my past,
But I’m finally standing at last.

Verse 2:
I remember the buzz, the rush, the spin,
The first hit that felt like a friend.
You said, “Just one more,” and I said it too,
We said “one more,” till one turned blue.

I buried more names than I can say,
Wrote eulogies in smoke and decay.
If pain’s the teacher, I passed the test,
But the lesson was watching the best laid to rest.


---

Bridge (spoken / half-sung)
This ain’t a song — it’s a confession.
A moment of silence turned lesson.
I kept those caps so I’d never forget —
That I lived through what should’ve been death.

No medals, no applause,
Just another addict who beat the odds.
But every time I look at that pile,
I whisper a prayer and cry for a while.

Final Chorus:
No cap — I should’ve been gone by now,
But I’m still here somehow.
No cap — I seen too much to lie,
Every tear I’ve shed could drown the sky.

No cap — these scars ain’t shame, they proof,
Every one of ‘em bleeds the truth.
No cap — I ain’t proud of my past,
But I’m finally standing at last.

Outro:
If you’re still here...
and you’ve lost somebody — I know that weight.
I’ve watched good souls fade out,
I’ve held hands that went cold before help showed up.

Sometimes I wonder why I made it out when they didn’t.
But maybe... maybe it’s ‘cause I was supposed to say this:
You don’t honor ‘em by dying the same way.
You honor ‘em by living the life they never got to.

So breathe.
Cry if you have to.
But stay.
Because somebody needs your story to keep ‘em alive too.

No cap.

© 2025 HISson™. All rights reserved



No Cap (remix)

My name is Cameron, but the artist in me is HISson.

I didn’t come into music through studios, stages, or a clean path. I came into it through desperation, detox, relapse, recovery, and the long quiet nights where you learn what your mind sounds like when there’s nowhere left to run.

For years, I lived inside addiction.
Heroin. Meth. Numbness. Shame.
I wasn’t chasing a high — I was trying to not feel anything at all. I lost people I loved. I broke myself more times than I can count. I spent nights praying for death I was too afraid to create and mornings pretending I was fine.

But I didn't die.

I woke up — over and over — when I probably shouldn’t have.

At first, that felt like punishment.
Now, I understand it as purpose.

The name HISson is more than a name.
It’s a reminder of who I belong to now — not the dope, not the streets, not the pain — but the source that gave me another chance.
No religion required. Just truth:
I survived something that takes most of us out.

And I didn’t survive to stay silent.

My music is recovery music — not in the sanitized, pretty, rehab brochure way.
This is the real shit:

sleepless withdrawals

shaking hands

apologies that come too late

the guilt that eats you alive

the moment you finally forgive the person you used to be

and the sunrise that follows


I write for:

The ones who never felt “good enough”

The ones fighting a war no one sees

The ones who lost the people they loved to the same thing that almost took them

The ones still here and not sure why


My sound lives somewhere between: acoustic soul // hip hop // spoken word // prayer // confession // hope

Handpan.
Box drum.
Soft flute.
Warm bass.
Breath.
Heart.
Humanity.

I don’t scream to be heard.
I whisper what hurts — because the ones who need it will feel it.

My songs are for rooms with low lights.
Car rides at 2 A.M.
People sitting on bathroom floors holding themselves together.
People staring at the sky wondering if there's something left for them.

If you’re here, listening — I want you to know something:

You are not too late.
You are not broken beyond repair.
You are not alone.

If you’ve relapsed — come back.
If you’ve fallen — get up slow.
If you’re crying — breathe through it.
If you’re tired — rest here a minute.

You don’t have to “deserve” another chance.
You just have to still be breathing.

I’m not here to be famous.
I’m here to be a hand in the dark.

If my voice shakes in a song — it’s because I’m not singing it at you.
I’m singing it with you.

We climb out of this thing together.

Welcome to the music.
Welcome to the sunrise.

– HISson

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