Bedtime 4

https://soundcloud.com/seejayxo
https://soundcloud.com/ripkais
https://soundcloud.com/lullabyboy

COMMUNITY, Vol. 1

worse than usual

seejayxo - worse than usual (ft. kais & lullabyboy)

Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @hellahaunted & @sainttomorrow
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


and ive been smoking too much like every day
since fifteen think it's rotting my brain

i got my windows closed but i still hear the rain

i don't like myself anymore

think i've changed

and while you sit there drunk on the side of the pave

do you ever think about those times in the cage

with your friends in the sun oh those times they have changed

now i'm sitting on my own thinking of life on a stage


thinkin of life on a stage

these days i'm alone 

take 3 blunts to the face

spend my days blazed just thinking of life in the states

shoutout jj
i'm tryna record everyday


i think i'm going straight to hell for those two years

if you didnt know im sad you must be new here

cliche dyed hair
i'm a loser

forever screaming on my own at a computer


i'm a loser and I know it
got it tatted on my sleeve just to show how much i own it
stay glued to my computer
writing sad songs and playing first-person shooters


watch me self-destruct

catch me yelling "nerf this"
while i'm rolling up another blunt


i used to do this for fun

now i do this on account of all of my bad luck

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled

i don't even know what i'm fighting for



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Loser w/ sendflowrs (Prod. caves & Saint Tomorrow)

Lyrics: 
feel like I'm wasting all my time oh yeah
time is moving faster than my mind oh yeah
sit alone and think about the life I have left
will I crash and burn or will I rise above the rest
~
filled with uncertainty
what path am I taking to currency?
treacherous roads lead to gold
anxiety taking the wheel with no courtesy
so I take the path filled with mold
these creatures they lurking behind me in bold
i'm fucked in the head and my body is cold
these questions unanswered echo in my dome
~
rewind freeze time
I'm copin with the music, hope it fix my mind
I might be fucking useless but I sure can rhyme
I'm grinding no excuses boy I love the climb
~
feel like I'm wasting all my time oh yeah
time is moving faster than my mind oh yeah
sit alone and think about the life I have left
will I crash and burn or will I rise above the rest
~
I can't get enough love
always wanting more
I'm craving every single touch
body hit the floor right after puffin on that dutch
eating beats for breakfast but ill save her for my lunch
~
nothing in the pockets of my ripped jeans 
reminisce upon the times that she said that she missed me
focused on my own dreams
bleeding out my own seems
I can't seem to find a scene where everybody feels me
out of place I can't erase my actions so I just freeze 
anxiety and the nose bleeds
sobriety is not for me
society got me feelings so fucked up, find happiness by my own means

Time moves on, so should you [prod. yunny goldz]

I could care less on how I dress on the weekend
Maybe I'm depressed under stress off the deep end
Everyone around me seems so basic
I hate that term but that's what they named it

Internet won't connect all these ties that I let
Get frayed give way and finally break
Sorry didn't respond my mistake
Hardly anywhere but my head these days
Give a fuck cuz I know my friends are offline
Outa luck won't forgive me from the sidelines
Highlights all over their front page
I guess I don't care if I'm included really no way

Lately I've been feeling fucking sick of myself
Make me a memory that you felt
No other way to say it
But feelings fade and I hate it
Lately I've been feeling fucking sick of myself
Make me a memory that you felt
No other way to say it
But feelings fade and I hate it

No other way to say it
but friends feel overrated
I guess it's what you make it
Then again in the end I hate to face it
No offense I don't care how you choose to take it
I'll admit past six you can find me pacing
I wanna be alone and I don't know why
Maybe hit me up but I'll say not this time
And that's why I question myself so much
Why do I miss it when I wanna lose touch

Lately I've been feeling fucking sick of myself
Make me a memory that you felt
No other way to say it
But feelings fade and I hate it
Lately I've been feeling fucking sick of myself
Make me a memory that you felt
No other way to say it
But feelings fade and I hate it

Spotify

sorry i didn't reply (prod. IOF)

Prince Hills

On Top

lyrics:
get my guap, with a bop, like a palindrome
back and forth, south and north, but I grind alone
keep it lonely, only brodies digits in my phone

run it up dude, keep it on the down low
ion trust you, prove it to the crowd bro
who is you I ain't heard you till right now tho
you a joke you aint even tokin loud bro

I cant say nothin to nobody
catch me alone im a homebody
I aint be trusting in nobody
name out your mouth get your own hobby

Nobody

nobody

A Thin Line

Lyrics:
dont give up on me im not a quiter
shit gets tough so why you actin, bitter
ima do me show you ima, winner
do my best but you just see a sinner

fuck it ion really care, ima keep doin me
ya my soul is like a vessel, got it pushed out to sea
dont expect you understand cause i know you never seen
the things behind my eyes im writing everything that i be

gettin cash now, shawty on my lap now
baby call her Kayli we could get up out the trap now
gotta keep protection so we pull up with the strap now
never thought id make it but im livin thassa fact now

always thought id die too, i aint gonna lie boo
only way im livin is if you gon stay and ride too
keep me in your mind too, know that im inclined to
never needing nothing more just need you by my side boo

fuck these label rappers i could do this by myself
i aint need no fuckin collabs i aint need no fuckin help, and i aint even gotta sign no shit i put that on the shelf, i just be working every day cause im believing in myself

i said, fuck everybody that say you cant do shit
just put your heart and mind and soul and know that you can do it
i know that shit be gettin hard, i know shit be gettin dark
keep your aim up on your sights and keep your target on the mark

why the fuck werent you there, when i needed you the most
i thought youd always keep me safe, but then you turned into a ghost
you never even said a word when i was gettin diagnosed, and even worse you made me feel like
,,
ugh
whatever

so fuck it ima keep this shit going, ill keep on pushin every day and then before you be know it, im doing everything you doubted and im proud to be show it, uh
know you gave up on me early now i be growin

give a fuck about you say, cause i know i can do it
dont even talk to me bout hell, cause you know i been through it
im gettin better day by day, everytime i review it
i know its difficult sometimes, but im here for you through it

Don't Give Up On Me

dontgiveuponme

VIRGO BABY

Cold

Lyrics:
i ion even wanna pickup my phone, cause i been grindin for a minute but im lost and alone
but i be gettin all this bank i pile it up on my throne, but i ion even know its worth it when i be on my own

i got some checks they comin in they pullin up with the assist ay
puma on my feet i got some ice up on my wrist ay
baby see me ballin cause you know thats how i live ay
keep me in the running cause you know thats how it is

ooh, i know that yall can be feel it, i got a flow you could steal it, send me a beat i could kill it, my verse so cold it be chillin, should be illegal its villain, im on my grind bitch i live it, you ask for guap now i give it, listen

i think i found the one she said we 4lifers, i wanna stay until the morning even after i pipe her, i wanna show her better days and keep her safe from the vipers, she say im skilled with all my words im takin aim im a sniper

ima keep it going and now yall be actin shook
didnt know i had it in me cause you only hear my hooks
im like, i aint ever gettin money by the book
i aint follow all the rules im in the stu so i could cook

i aint got no competition i know yall cant even flow
say its lonely at the top im gettin money on my own
they tell me im your biggest fan and im like i already know
hk, boy, why you gotta be so cold

im gettin better every day, and its all because of you
wouldnt be here where i am, i appreciate you too
i got bars for days and days, got a bedroom with a view
i got bands for all my paper im too fire got the flu

i got these demons in my mind but i aint hearing what they say
i keep on working on my shit im staying busy every day
i got this sadness in my heart but i know we gon be okay
i know that if we give it time i know we'll see some better days

heart break now you sippin on a bud light
come thru promise we gon have a fun night
vampires so we cant be in the sun light
lets dip 'fore you get into a club fight

wrist cold cause you know how i do it, yuh
big crush but you know that i blew it, yuh

4lifers

Zuro1c & Xaviersobased- For The Team (prod. xaviersobased) *Stupidppl Edit*

Chixtape 4

Slow Down (Prod. Tory Lanez x Play Picasso x CoopChardonnay)

produced by the one & only: @yunnygoldz
featuring: @decksmusic & @nevermadeithome

lyrics:

sendflowrs:

it’s been a year since we left and we’re still not fuckin talkin,
left my home at 16, it feels like i’m still runnin 
why am i so upset?
i broke my nose now i’m covered in red,
and will you promise, stay right by my side?
it’s cold out there my love, pls just stay with me tonight 
just put your phone away yeah, i don’t wanna fight
(cus i know that i can’t trust u,
i know that i can’t trust u)

look what you did yeah, look at the mess that you made,
boy i’m good everywhere, each city i’m the thane 
fire up my bow yea the skies are turning grey,
fire up my flow yea best pray for it to rain

(cus i’ve been walking,
on my own,
never delete your number 
out my phone
she loves that fucking powder in her nose,
loves that fuckin powder, loves that fuckin powder, yeah)

decks:

it never even mattered to me
i said it was a problem but i lied thru my teeth
you’re the only one that i wanna see
dont wanna cause a scene, i don’t wanna intervene but

look at the way that u treat me
and deceive me
now im leaving
i don’t wanna be a problem
but you beat me
now im fleeting
and i tweet about it every day but now i need to “let it go”
i wish you could save me but i know you’re not my antidote
and yeah i know that im obsessed with you
or maybe i just like the idea
and i know that i need to get it through
my fuckin skull and get up out of here



nevermadeithome:

Well can you get the fuck out of my brain now 
im fuckin pissed off with you constantly being there 
And everytime that im walking around town 
I swear i see your face on everybodys head 
All your friends, they are fucking dead to me
They all knew, that you cheated 
I hope that your next boyfriend 
Goes out never made it home again 
I think ive just finally got over you 
Get outta my mind girl 
Stop hitting my line girl 
Even though your fine girl 
I dont wanna see you again 
Laying in my bed at night 
I cant see your eyes for the first time 
For the first time in my life 
My life 
My life 
Im upset 
In my life

upset :( w/ decks & nevermadeithome

[+] used to hold your hand while you're coming down..
* featuring @lilskeleskrrt * produced by @l1lbiscuit *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVr0Jf26AFk

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[hook 2x: @seejayxo]
Used to hold your hand while you're coming down
Pop another *** and I feel it now
I just gotta know why you not around
Wanna let you know what I'm feeling now

[verse 1: @seejayxo]
Baby I could hate you,
But I think I could love you just the same
Holdup, wait a minute, lemme switch my lane
I just gotta get me a Range
I just need some bands in the back of the safe
I got nothing else to say
They was sleeping on me
Now I feel like they awake
Shawty got a lil taste
Now she think she love me, I can see it in her face
Baby I'ma get them bands and I'll spend on you
That's just what I do, I don't know if I'ma lose
I just gotta tell you when I'm thinking of you...
Cuz I'm thinking of your heart beating on mine
I don't even know if this feels right
I just gotta know where it leads right, where it leads right?

[hook 2x: @seejayxo]
Used to hold your hand while you're coming down
Pop another *** and I feel it now
I just gotta know why you not around
Wanna let you know what I'm feeling now

[verse 2: @lilskeleskrrt]
My baby never know when I'm coming down
I've been off a blue but I don't feel it now
I been waiting all day for you to come around
Used to want the love but I don't need it now
So what do you want from me?
I could sit here all day you won't talk to me
Even if I was dying, you wouldn't stop for me
I've been making racks, its not enough for you
You keep wanting more even when all my bands are blue
Caution, stop with all that fuck shit
Cameras flashing the lights off when I walk into the function
Razor round my necklace I'm bound to get reckless
Seejay in the back while I scratch off my checklist
My baby never know when I'm coming down
I've been off a blue but I don't feel it now
I been waiting all day for you to come around
Used to want the love but I don't need it now

Coming Down

+ stream on SPOTIFY

coming down (feat. skele) *MUSIC VID IN DESC*

https://soundcloud.com/shinpuru
^ Show him some love

Lyrics:
walking in dark at 2 am without a clue to where I'm going
raining, snowing I don't care
the street lights on these nights will help me repair
the damage you delt, take that belt off I sweared
I was done with this, come back for you baby I'm a masochist
running so damn fast from this
cause baby you the catalyst
alcohol the agonist
pain I cannot manage it.
kiss your glowing lips again
aware that you're a basilisk

now it's 9 am at the station
in my chest I feel no breathe the space is vacant
got no recollection on how I awakened
on this bench said fuck that wench I cannot take this
why I always find myself
downing all the shelf
going 85 inside the residential belt
walking home alone again, I'm talking to myself
I can't find no home until I'm greeted by the 

BLINDING LIGHTS
GLOW SO BRIGHT
I FLY UP HIGH
I TOUCH THE SKY AGAIN
*
coming down
she never come around
I just wander and I ponder If I'm better drowned
leave my body in the lake
I live my life and I'm half baked
and I just wonder If she faked each day she said we're bound

running the in dark at 2 am without a clue to where I'm going
raining, snowing I don't care
the street lights on these nights will help me repair
the damage you delt, as I belt over snares
rip out my hair
everything I came to know was fucking lies
anxious as a mother fucker, rather die
missing every touch and every fucking lie
now I now the truth behind each every line

Street Lights [prod. shinpuru]

LYRICS:
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading  
Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying 

Give me every little bit of your emotion 
Know when it comes to love you're loaded 
I don't wanna run I think you know it 
I told the stars and I think they'll show it

Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying  

Yeah please just hear me out 
I wanna know the things that you think about 
Please please just hear me out 
Run away then back to me I'll be around  
And if wanna walk under city lights 
So close with your hand just next to mine 
Hit me up I know backways even to your heart 
Wanna start again that way
Give me every little bit of your emotion 
Know when it comes to love you're loaded 
I don't wanna run I think you know it 
I told the stars and I think they'll show it

Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying 
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading

4lifers

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