incredible hard and relatable, almost heard proudly gonna kill me, and yeah damn.

lyrics:

Just holidays
And barely those holidays
Our good terms
Are not immune to decay 
I tried but im still away
And you’ve been fucking his brains out 
Don’t look at me as if there was a sorry to say

I would care but
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

 Ive never met someone so geared on my failure good job
At least I squeezed some meaning into ur shitty life huh
When I die an early death I hope that u can cope when the hatred in ur heart is now evicted with my pulse

Break the home
Breaks my bones and see my soul snapped too
Im alone most the time ur not restricting anything new
I like getting scary I do I know ur tryna be a boss good for u
What the fuck they turn me down for
 I am never going out more
I guess he wasn’t a regular guy
I hope u choke on ur vomit and die
My messages aids I do not open them
Im high as fuck from this bud its like opium
I don’t wanna live to get by
Ur literally here once and its over after that u fucking idiot do what u want ur done after this u fucking dumb ass u suck I fucking hate u
 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

Im torn apart and I am dirty
If its like this fuck 30
I wanna die right now
Baby im sorry im fucked I can’t talk right now
She lies
She just loves him to death
I dont compare to that hex
I suck the tits off her chest
Times waits
For nobody
Crossed lines
Become common knowledge
Bullshit u were with friends that’s bullshit
I was the culprit before
I feel projection in my point of view
  
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

better_off_nUmb (splashgvng)

7/28/22
prod. @everythingmackk

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

cause i don't wanna force who i am
as i pour another cup, with trembling hands
over half of my life's being made without plans
i get it; if i made a choice, 
i'd surely regret it
but most of all my worries,
i can't fit them in the pensmanship
you simply wouldn't get it
even if you really listening
the center of my soul don't only glow
it's also glistening
my demons start to part as i'm
pouring the nitroglycerin

it only feels like i'm here when i'm
stun-locked in third gear, and a 
dozen million miles away from reality
i hope forever ain't forever
unless it has to be
cause i don't wanna go out in misery
let go, of whatever this meant to me
fuck that
imma go on a killing spree

emma, i'm sorry for everything.

it's my fault you let me go
met in the seventh grade
we went separate roads
cause of some stupid shit i'd say
i just tore up all my clothes
courtesy of missing your face
if i finally break this mold
i'll thank you some day

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

this ain't just a knack
it's a passion
double shame on you 
for thinking all i do is actin'
part of me is straight
the rest is being held captive
living in a cavern where arachnids and bats been
constantly refracting

yeah, but i'm not worried about it
i'm entangled in this string
tryna gnaw my way out it
you had liked a post of mine 
a while back when i doubted
if i was truly good for nothing
based on how low the clouds been...

clouds to crows

clouds to crows [prod. mackk]

this is not a british accent fuck u

produced by yungspoiler and daks9k

originally performed by 9tails

completely non profit

lyrics:

talking up just to talk backwards
actor
i remember when the enemies where not a factor
gotta move different cus of outbursts of my temper
i might be an asshole but the truths what matters
splatter
all my deep down thoughts get shattered
on my new reboks plant matter
and it coned out raw
smoke that spliff then wrote this song

holding in smoke face
blue man group 
loud way too loud
man it smell like poop
but enough about me
tell me more about you
did your friend text back?
did u link that dude?

treat him like a main or a strong number 2
u about to break with the weight on u
put the faith in him but he always falls thru
lately i just hope that im not that dude
u aint really done nothing bad say u (say who?)
i been getting pew pewed every other song
drop
drop bombs and support gonna cease i guess
profit increase so does everybody's needs i guess
vampires when i bleed i guess
when i fuck off now u fuck me i guess
smoke my weed then kiss ur teeth whats next

im sorry friend
could we make amends? 
its the second call 
but ima call again
im on a variety of shit
its only 2pm
bottles concious n spliff
all beside me n the whip

i want decemeber 
there wasnt as many plans
that i felt bad for missing
to really see what i can
do with these hands
do with this brain 
and the subject matter inside
u leave im working
im eager
something i could never hide
something i could never hide
no
no

i get too deep in it
mind overdrive
my thoughts override
as fear overrides my shit
coarse cough got me fucked up
with the blood spit
yuck

some_ missed_ calls_ (yungspoiler x daks9k)

hi<3

shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/branwenmusic v talented prod 

enjoy:)

lyrics:
my necks sore, holding up
weight, from my mental it still brings me down
i cant ignore it, but i cant make it stop
i just cant find a reason to give a fuck

alright, ok, ive had it
waste a new day, damn thats tragic
alright, ok
(alright, ooo)
alright, ok, im not me
i want to leave my body
and really im so sorry, i dont know what to do

my chest sinks, im used to it
i was on the brink, you picked me up, dont mean shit now.
oh you overthink? well so does everyone
now im on the ropes, feel it slip, falling down

i get this feeling makes my head spin
i cant really explain just how its been
im so sorry for the distance
i try my best for everyone who listens

honestly cant show up, nah
too busy in my head, numb
try my best to show love, so
you know im always here
um, i kno that i care, but to me it feels you dont
really understand me

alright, ok

spotify

alright, ok (branwen x splashgvng)

i hate living this way.
lyrics
hate to choose between my sanity, or always being lonely
but both still make me crazy and theyll both just kill me slowly
so what am i to do, just live my life all by myself
or should i end it quick, but i dont want to go to hell

so maybe ill just hide away and stay inside my box
wont let anyone inside and i wont hear it if you knock
if you somehow make it in, ill just guide you back outside
then ill thank you for the visit, i dont need you, said im fine (then i cry)

i know thats no excuse, im just so tired at this point
cause nothing ever helps, like i wont even hit a joint
my younger self would hate me, i dont mean to disappoint
but nothing really changed, its been the same since i was a boy

i hate the way i work,, it always feels like somethings broken
"i wish that i was normal", swear that shit could be my slogan
i wish they understood i try my best, i just feel frozen
i swear it just gets hard now when so much of me has been stolen

i think i told my ex that i was fixed. "it went away"
but the truth is that i feel it still, the emptiness and pain
swear its probably been a year now, said it on this very day
i just hope i make it out alive. but i can only pray

its probably going to kill me
probably going to kill me
probably going to kill me
its probably going to kill me
probably going to kill me
its probably going to kill me
probably going to kill me
probably going to kill me
its probably going to kill me
its probably gonna kill me

BPD pt 2 (prod kyotospeak)

onthefloor

Callapse.. ⁽ᵈᵉᵐᵒ⁾

prod. pink

lyrics:
Let's pretend that I'm alright
I'm anxious little psychopathic fuck
can't sleep at night
all alone the thoughts they've grown
and I ain't putting up no fight
can't conduce the fucking truth up out your mouth but that's alright
~
can't control but my mind grip
gotta let it go the thoughts they flow
ain't gotta fucking trip
lifes a puzzle, mind is muddled
clear it up, I kiss your lips
grip your hips
biting on your neck until you fucking drip

like a puddle, we cuddle until the sundown
ride my shuttle rebuttal, we smoke and comedown
I'm so faded, I'm crossed
intoxicated I'm lost
inebriated what cost?
I'm feeling run down

been stuck in head sometimes
don't leave me for dead, i'm blind
in due time i will find
that, it don't matter what you wanna do
just put you're all into
focus you're mind and I swear you will get it
don't stress the small, stand up tall pay attention
sure you fall, but will you get up? redemption

Let's pretend that I'm alright
I'm anxious little psychopathic fuck
can't sleep at night
all alone the thoughts they've grown
and I ain't putting up no fight
can't conduce the fucking truth up out your mouth but that's alright
~
can't control but my mind grip
gotta let it go the thoughts they flow
ain't gotta fucking trip
lifes a puzzle, mind is muddled
clear it up, I kiss your lips
grip your hips
biting on your neck until you fucking drip

like a puddle, we cuddle until the sundown
ride my shuttle rebuttal, we smoke and comedown
I'm so faded, I'm crossed
intoxicated I'm lost
inebriated what cost?
I'm feeling run down

PanicAttack! [prod. pink]

@sewerperson
prod by @heykaaj + Sharkboi
cover art by @madeillegal
<3
[other platforms link]
https://ditto.fm/love-me-back-lil-hermit-featuring-sewerperson

twitter.com/lilhermitxo
www.instagram.com/lilhermitxo
open.spotify.com/artist/1uh7rgM3mH36ugBw8Q7jmL

Lyrics:

[hook]
i love you
is something wrong with that
i trust you
i always got your back
i want you
but i’m under attack
i love you
but you don’t love me back
-
i wish you’d open up like a program on my desktop
it’s cluttered like my head i wish it’d clear up but it won’t stop
i know love is a big word and with passion it can mean a lot
but my hearts on my sleeve so please don’t break it girl i hope not
you’re playin like it’s xbox, i’m finna rage and start up A
why do you want me to play, you should know i’m good at video games
what is that expression on your face, it’s a special case
i can’t tell girl if you love me if you don’t i’ma go crazy

i’ll block your words like meliodas i’ll deflect it
gotta broken sword tied to my heart and that’s my only weapon
doing anything outside is really really fucking hectic
hermits stay inside up anyway so i can’t fucking stress it 
-
(Sewerperson)
baby i love you but you dont love me back
rollin up this cheese i smoke too much i clutch my cardiac
baby i trust you
so tell me why u dont trust me back
shes in a bad mood
i can tell shes pullin back
red lights
up in her room on most nights
on cold nights
i still wish you could hold me tight
sippin this drink im feelin nice
red flags
bad signs
she just love the spotlight
baby i thought i was more than just a joy ride

black lung
ciggarete buts
scattered on the bedside
think they put some yellow in my red eyes
baby it hurts when i breath
i miss you here next to me
baby i love you but you act like something wrong with me

-

i really hope you guys love this as much as i do <3
huge thank you to miles for working with me :)

LOVE ME BACK (feat. Sewerperson)

Other Platforms <3

LOVE ME BACK (feat. Sewerperson) (prod. KAAJ + Sharkboi)

Debut album out 10/31 on Halloween!
Thanks for listening friends, this was a really fun track to make
<3
Shoutouts
@sewerperson
@sorrow_bringer
@iofmusic

And on a side note THANK YOU FOR 50K on Loveless
You guys are awesome!

*lyrics by request*

(Fearce)
Cant believe my eyes
Look how far we made it
told to never cry
now we just get faded
might see you at my show
too high to even notice you

someday came suddenly
another feeling gone
always time to leave
timing
dont mean a thing
when everything gets lost
it was just a dream
but 
all of its so vague now
can you help me figure out

so many stories i couldnt remember
when all i could think of was falling asleep
you distance yourself from the past and the present
now all that you're left with exists in a dream

but we're so much farther
than the people we used to be

(Sewerperson)
black ash
seeing thru the serpents eye
whip lash
i could barely sleep at night
breaking the walls of my mind
baby i had enough
chained to the pole by her side
baby im giving up
and i never leave
i just fade into the background
they aint let me breathe but i promise you i am now
 ever since i known her she cant help the way she stand out  
baby ill see you in your dreams and i promise you ill stand down
woah
lights on top these buildings offer shelter from the snow
i cant even decide just where the fuck i wanna go
far away from anybody i would ever know
i could feel this tingle in my hands before they glow

The People We Used To Be feat. sewerperson (prod. sorrow bringer)

lyrics:

How come I wish that I was someone else 
I should be more attractive I should sing like an angel 
I would cry for help but I can’t help myself 
No ones validation will save me from this spell

Are you okay? 
You don’t ever let me know 
Are you okay?
I lose myself the more I’m alone 

My one true friend used to be myself 
But now I can’t even stand to fuckin look at myself 
Take a bite of nostalgia put it back on the shelf 
Cheap vodka and weed those teenage smells 
But now a days nothin really helps 
I just wanna go back to when I loved myself 
Life is fuckin me but I don’t kiss and tell 
But the smile on my face say it’s good and well 

I think I wanna kill myself 
Wait, Is that okay to say out loud?  
I would scream and cry for help 
But my life is just a dream where my screams got no sound 

How come I wish that I was someone else 
I should be more attractive I should sing like an angel 
I would cry for help but I can’t help myself 
No ones validation will save me from this spell

Are you okay? 
You don’t ever let me know 
Are you okay?
I lose myself the more I’m alone 

The silence is so deafening 
Self violence will be my reckoning 

Am i lost or am I gone ?
I’m just another sad song 
The moon awakes at my dawn 
The way I live feels wrong 

How come I wish that I was someone else 
I should be more attractive I should sing like an angel 
I would cry for help but I can’t help myself 
No ones validation will save me from this spell

Are you okay? 
You don’t ever let me know 
Are you okay?
I lose myself the more I’m alone

u ok? (prod. xtravulous)

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

BPD pt 2 (prod kyotospeak)

HKFIFTYONE

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