https://soundcloud.com/itsyungvan
https://soundcloud.com/jolst
https://soundcloud.com/cielx

disappointment (ft. yung van) (prod. jolst)

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lyrics:
woke up in a sweat last night, fuck my life howd i get so cold
I dont even know what I meant when I told u that, I was so fucked up
livin life like volume cant mute this shit howd it get so low
I dont even know who I am anymore so lemme take yo advice and go

fuck off with my bull shit
were too sick to evolve, a straight neucense
we rly gotta look at love in a new sense
not obsessin over shit fuck ur 2 cents
in the middle of the night straight mental
feelin like shinji what am I supposed to do
I hope u kno that my life dont belong to u
I hope u kno that im fighting for the likes of us

and I wouldnt wanna lie to us
I know ive lied but I learned to trust
so trust me, I dont rly do that anymore trust me
lonely
trapped in the back of my mind help me

or dont, I been like this for years I been gone so long
u see thru it, laugh wit me but u think im stupid
oh no, I kno this feelin like its my home
I hate it, think im fine but im fuckin anxious

I see thru the lies in my vision
tough shit, dont be surprised if im missin
exist in my mind like prison
listenin to the thunder im breakin in
to the place that I knew back then
its nostalgic ill pack it in, and
ill remember how i felt back in december

trust me

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trust me (prod. boyfifty x kndey)

@sorrow_bringer 🖤
mixed & mastered by me 💛
[Audio Sample from King's Game]
~~lyrics~~
it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife 
like it wants in my gut

sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck
but i never went in 
cause it wouldn't be enough
colder than the night
wonder if your touch
feels a saint from above throwing up
from above throwing up

hoping i heal, but i'm proof of the damage
everyone i kill's either hungry or manic
refuse any pills that i'm offered, then panic
if i'm really real, would you feel if i vanish?
let's trace back to the start
i ain't got no time here to waste on my heart
if i wanted peace, i believe i would be "anybody"
can't feel defeat when i'm coated in honey

permanently flawed; let me get my head straight
living at the cost; on the brink of being dead weight
no headspace, just silence.
what do you expect when the sky's blaring sirens?
but i knew the consequences all along
i used too much strength tryna grow stronger
the rapture, and endless disaster

take me by the head 
(okay)
leave no evidence 
(nor trace)

the moon is turning red
the air is so condensed 
simple lives and foolish lies
i raise a knife up to my eye
if one should seek, then one shall find
but what if i've already died?

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife
like it wants in my gut

sugar in the spice
fuck i'm outta luck
but i never went in 
cause it wouldn't be enough
colder than the night
wonder if your touch
feels a saint from above throwing up
from above throwing up

𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬...
𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦?
𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦... 𝘢 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦,
𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵?

it'd be hella nice
if i knew what i want
everybody want a chance 
but they stay fucking up
ion wanna talk
think i've had enough
i'm staring at the knife 
like it wants in my gut
like it wants in my gut...

sugar in the spice (sorrow bringer)

die wit me *demo* (prod. yotocapone)

lyrics
Bojack: "I just want to say that, I've loved being here with you this year. You've shown me the type of person I didn't know I wanted to be. Thank you. And I just, I want you to all appreciate this time. And how special it is. And how fast it'll all go away. Please, cherish this."

fuck, i feel like giving up
i wish that i was better but for now i guess im stuck
i been steady on the run
tryna get myself away from me, i feel it in my gut

like i hate myself so much i wanna rip off all my skin
shove a razor in my arm, been therapeutic when i did
want to hurt myself so bad but i been told that its a sin
at least thats what the Christians say when im around, they see my skin

i just have to lay low
i cant even stay stoned
laying on the floor alone
my body getting cold, this must be how i go

i feel like im gonna break
know that i cannot be saved
waiting for the day when things finally feel okay
but i doubt it so i pray

why am i still here
didnt think id see this year
ive run my course for too long i fear
if theres a future, its so unclear

i lied
im not fine
i buried it so deep but now my life is on the line
one time
just give me a sign
i swear i want to stay but it just hurts to be alive

everyones gone, and im still withdrawn
im watching the whole world collapse until dawn
i cant fucking sleep when i sweat in my sheets
cause my stomach is killing, i cant even eat

and now if you relate then im sorry bout that
i want you to smile but i know that you cant
i cant do it either a matter of fact
its just way too much work when youre still not intact

i feel like giving up

im so delusional (prod 6astard)

fucking call me or something

Prod by @cxldblxxd <3

Lyrics:
She been on my mind for a minute
Feel her in my soul and my spirit
Now she in my rhymes and my lyrics
Say she be sad and i feel it

I just wanna save her from herself
Sad girl blowing smoke by herself
In her bedroom being lonely cant you tell ya, Fats'e playing pretty girl you make my heart just melt

I want you in my bed
I just want you out my head
Hear your voice and what you said
Steal my heart i end up dead

You been on my mind for weeks
Got that spark just like i seek
Want you in between my sheets
Wonder if you think of me

Laying in the room with your lights out
Tryna get high is a fight now
Been feeling so numb this my life now
Killing my brain till i pass out

Laying in the room with your lights out
Tryna get high is a fight now
Been feeling so numb this my life now
Killing my brain till i pass out

Cause you dont know what my heart feels
Wake up from the dream nothing real
Cause i been dying in my mind
Might as well just leave cause im out of time


Dont you ever die now
Dont you ever say goodbye now
Spend your days getting high now
Im okay thats a lie now

Nearly every night i stay up and cry
Dont know what id do if you ever die
Why you be so far want you by my side
Why you be so far want you by my side

I want you in my bed
I just want you out my head
Hear your voice and what you said
Steal my heart i end up dead

You been on my mind for weeks
Got that spark just like i seek
Want you in between my sheets
Wonder if you think of me

wantyou (prod. cxld blxxd)

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-beautiful-lyricsl

guitar loop by shiki
extra loop by Dm808god

Beautiful

1 I Could Love U Like I Hate Myself (prod. Kuroime)

[+] stop talking words are useless.
* featuring @trechorboy + @sushisai * prod by @boyfifty *

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[verse 1: seejayxo]
you could take my love and you could throw it out
got me looking at the stars when you not around
thats why i be jaded, fuck what u be sayin
i ain't even playin when i say that i'm make it
i don't feel anymore, eyes hella sore
i got the bag and it's Christian Dior
i'm callin for you, i'm callin for you

[verse: 2 trechor boy]
gas inhalation took me on vacation 
 i never get love i hate the sensation 
a life worth lived makes no sense 
cuz  we all die in da fuckin end like

lemme paraphrase Thoreau, he said
“rather love, money, faith, show me da road”
and i uh, i guess i understand that now
dont vibe with the lies they be tellin u now

[verse 3: suisai]
stop talking words are useless
can never hold up
What did you expect it 
to be different 
Shouldlt even have to convince
but they all look from outside
Walls could cave in at
Any givin moment
it looks like its the time to
Stop wishin for it to get better
And wash that pain away
Pitter patter of rain on the rooftop
i could lay in this bed all day
  And think And listen and look 4
For a sign pls remind me again
what really matters at the end of all this

[chorus: seejayxo + trechor boy]
like i want it all too
fuck it i'll fall through
i thought i loved you
i thought i loved you
like i want it all too
fuck it you'll fall through
i thought you loved me
i thought you loved me

useless

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useless (feat. trechor boy + suisai)

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i feel like giving up

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