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guitar by @pekarot_161
this is for the OG listeners, I love you all from the bottom of my heart. 

lyrics:

i don’t know where i came from
only where i’ve been 
i could scratch out my eyes
when i’m feeling like this 
i can’t breathe since you left
i got cuts on my fist 
and they hurt (they hurt)
they hurt (they hurt) 

and i know that i’m sad but still smile when we kiss
i got scars on my arm from those nights i gave in 
and then you said forever but now you’re with him
and it burns (it burns)
it burns (it burns) 

but those scars on my arm 
they tell you a story
since 14 years old
they’ve been coming for me
i’m not what you want
so just throw me aside
and i’m old enough now
so i’ll wipe my eyes

and i’m praying to god
that i’ll just get better
i’ll hide in my car 
and sleep on the leather
i love you to death 
from now to december
this ones for the grayfox fans 
love you forever 

and now i’ve learned 
i’ll never be first 
but at least i’ve turned
my life around,
look at me now 
x2

look at me now
look at me now
look at me now
not 100% but i’m still here 
so look at me now 
x4

lookatmenow (pekarot)

Snow In Arcadia Bay

snow in arcadia bay

lyrics

i spend every waking moment trying to pick myself up cause im falling apart
just to get back into it the very next day but you heal my soul up in the dark
id try to do it myself but i wouldnt know where to start
save me from hurting my heart baby
i want you to love me
i want you to touch me
and whenever im blinded by this shit be my ears and my eyes whenever i cant see
i hope that you need me
i hope you can hear me
i hope you can grab me and pick me off my feet
just to knock me down again

and i never rest well, i hope that my healths well
if future repeats itself then i know this wont end well
my mouths on fire sipping in this hotel
oh you know me so well
we cant make this farewell

could we make the last time count
everything you say everything i hear right now
save me from myself would you take it back somehow
you don't need to worry i just need to come back down
look where weve been cause im closer to death
i see you laugh when youre talking to him
you got your movies and i got my friends
but im tasting salt in the water again
hold me down
hold me still
is this the place where we begin

and i never rest well, i hope that my healths well
if future repeats itself then i know this wont end well
my mouths on fire sipping in this hotel
oh you know me so well
we cant make this farewell

i play you the song that saved my life but you scroll on your phone
and i cant give everything up for this career to just die unkown
unwillingly, willingly killing my body so leave me alone
ill just stay at home
i hope you can find me there

health w/ greenwood (p. jacob vallen)

added the intro to the song 
js thought it sounded better

why do I still call you knowing you won't answer

lyrics ⬇️

Cover ur eyes dont look at me if you see me without you
no big surprise i gave you a thousand hours in the rearview
i wasted my time
really thought everything you said was so true
but i wasnt right
ur breaking my spine

they all see me smile still
from the outside it seems like im fine
but right now when i close my eyes
i find out That i crossed the line

im pushing 95 on the backroads
passing street signs i dont see those
got scratched eyes and a runny nose
some feline made me overdose

had one try now im over those
Still some nights 
on the summer roads
see the sunrise
i can see home
but thats not even where i wanna go

(evergarden)

bags under my eyes
i dont think i care enough
too bad i cant fall asleep 
knowing u try to gaslight me 
cross my mind
putting myself first for once
oh its unlike me i think
oh it weighs on me i sink 

she said my songs alright but it sounds unlike me
its just me being honest and its getting too much

i can see home w/ evergarden (yunnygoldz)

nv (prod. scottysplash)

solitude:

everynight im on the same shit, in the studio n i cant miss
i cant blame nobody for this hole im in
im jus gon keep digging till my brain cave in
its been so long but it feel like yesterday when ts tore me up
pour me up, it aint no liqour in my cup es morton grove
think they tried to warn me
but i never been good at listening to what im told
yes or no, are u rly down for forever, lmk



Empathy:

it’s okay, I got me and my friends we all here
we got opps, bitches watch n they hope we dissappear
she feed her hunger with my tears/that’s why I never cry 
oh my gosh let me guess i bet you’ve never lied
you have, you tell yourself that I’m so terrible 
so you don’t feel as bad for some shit that’s unrepairable
I hope that you’re glad, you seen my sister lose her life 
you couldve got with my friends but had my family in line you chose my brother in law, u must wanna see me fall
oh gosh it’s hard to believe
when you look into my nephews eyes
did you see them grieve
did you tell yourself their mom is looking back at me
and that her brothers back at home 
wondering where i could be
he would snap if he found out
and if he dies that’s alright 
we’ll have something to talk about
yea something relatable
two siblings that are dead 
and their life was never full 
i’m not a fool

Empathy - nvrfull ft. solitude (neverforever)

INTENTO - J-THIN ( PROD NZR )

Really Flexing ~ Grab a Røpe *D0PAMINE$HAWTY EXCLUSIVE*

[𝐇𝐎𝐎𝐊: WeepingWolf]
And We all stay inside our room
staying inside to avoid the pain
the only time I left was to go to school
or to see her face in the pouring rain

And my mum thinks I'm a lazy shit
even tho she loves me I ain't good for shit
I'm a product of my father and he's a lazy prick
Guess I don't know how to be my self

Guess I don't know how to take your help
And I push them away
Because I'm too afraid
Of failing.. for the last time

Will you take me for who I am
or will change me for your plan
I'm having dreams of taking xans
I'm paranoid but smoking grams

[𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐄: Sleye @forestafire]
I got no hope I'm so alone need you to know
I get so lost inside my cup
I know it's wrong
but I can't help it need a spirit or a soul
yeah imma steal it from you come next to me close
all of this shit in my head I been sipping it killing it still
I'm sliding my wrist with a pen when I write imma stick with the script
and I wanna live
I never feel anything real
call me you know what the deal
I ain't pick up when it rings
want nobody talking to me

[𝐇𝐎𝐎𝐊: WeepingWolf]
And We all stay inside our room
staying inside to avoid the pain
the only time I left was to go to school
or to see her face in the pouring rain

And my mum thinks I'm a lazy shit
even tho she loves me I ain't good for shit
I'm a product of my father and he's a lazy prick
Guess I don't know how to be my self

Guess I don't know how to take your help
And I push them away
Because I'm too afraid
Of failing.. for the last time

Will you take me for who I am
or will change me for your plan
I'm having dreams of taking xans
I'm paranoid but smoking grams

Avoid The Pain ft. Sleye (Prod By. HKFiftyOne)

super stoked to make this w such a talented artist like @sleyeofficial <3

LYRICS:

[hook: $eejay]
baby give me one last kiss
tired of waking up and always feeling like shit
swear you always hit my phone asking how ive been
and i just say im fine, but i'm feeling like i'm dead (2x)

[verse: sleye]
and i been feeling like i never wanna wake up
another day and all the pain won't go away 
yeah
and i can't read another sentence from the page now
i can't replace it i just struggle for the same 

and every blessing that you ever sent my way
i wish you felt that way today
you really gave up
i can't remember anyway 
and there ain't nothing i can say
i'm stuck asleep it never fade
it's only fake love

and as i lay me down to sleep and close my eyes
i think i'm probably gonna die one day
i know i'm not alright
i need a pill to even fight the pain 
i'm numb and losing touch
and i can't even feel the high it fade away it's not enough

apologize to you i never say the right thing
i broke a promise i could never leave behind me
i understand it's sorta difficult to like me
yeah
i'm on the medicine i only feel it slightly

[hook: $eejay]
baby give me one last kiss
tired of waking up and always feeling like shit
swear you always hit my phone asking how ive been
and i just say im fine, but i'm feeling like i'm dead (2x)

follow sleye

i'm fine ft. sleye (prod. sketchmyname)

soundcloud.com/4evrgone
soundcloud.com/sleyeofficial


i won't ever talk cause you never really care
no
i don't wanna call cause you wouldn't even answer
said you'd hit me up but i never got the message
bet you didn't even send it 

probably set me off like the ringer on my phone
when i see you i get lost 
can't remember where to go
and i gave it all i got still i wasn't even close
but i can't afford the cost if i end up on my own

if i end up on my own
i don't wanna be alone 
said don't let the door hit you when you're going home
but i wanted you to know
i don't wanna be the one
that would get up all my hopes
if it wasn't gonna work out 

now i'm going off but you know i really had it
with you i'm making this a habit
yeah you had me fucked up
bleeding couldn't stop it with a bandage 
cutting really close and i don't know if i can stand it

i won't ever talk cause you never really care
no
i don't wanna call cause you wouldn't even answer
said you'd hit me up but i never got the message
bet you didn't even send it

mixed/mastered by Sleye

On My Own (feat. Sleye)(prod. 4evr)

u suck (prod. deliverthecrush)

Lyrics:
i had too many things to say
i write the same shit every day
im scared while i be on my way
too anxious to know that im gonna be okay

cuz you know im a bad dream
i get lost i dont 'member me
then you call on a memory
but you know it aint meant to be

i just cant breathe you already know
panic inside i pick up my phone
try to type a message cuz im never alone
i dont want them hearing what goes on in my dome

on repeat on the daily now
tryna stay sane but im crazy now
yeah i wish that i was faded now
so i dont have to think of how i hate it now

its late at night and i can not sleep
trapped inside this anxiety
been distressed just to say the least
i still aint know the fuck wrong with me

i just gotta take a breathe and calm down
need sedation and i need it all now
i been clean the plug im bouta call now
this so fucking hard im bouta fall now

i had to many things to say
i write the same shit every day
im scared while i be on my way
too anxious to know that im gonna be okay

cuz you know im a bad dream
i get lost i dont 'member me
then you call on a memory
but you know it aint meant to be

memory (prod vader)

THROW ME AT THE WALL

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

memory (prod vader)

HKFIFTYONE

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