Honorable Mention

7/28/22
prod. @everythingmackk

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

cause i don't wanna force who i am
as i pour another cup, with trembling hands
over half of my life's being made without plans
i get it; if i made a choice, 
i'd surely regret it
but most of all my worries,
i can't fit them in the pensmanship
you simply wouldn't get it
even if you really listening
the center of my soul don't only glow
it's also glistening
my demons start to part as i'm
pouring the nitroglycerin

it only feels like i'm here when i'm
stun-locked in third gear, and a 
dozen million miles away from reality
i hope forever ain't forever
unless it has to be
cause i don't wanna go out in misery
let go, of whatever this meant to me
fuck that
imma go on a killing spree

emma, i'm sorry for everything.

it's my fault you let me go
met in the seventh grade
we went separate roads
cause of some stupid shit i'd say
i just tore up all my clothes
courtesy of missing your face
if i finally break this mold
i'll thank you some day

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

this ain't just a knack
it's a passion
double shame on you 
for thinking all i do is actin'
part of me is straight
the rest is being held captive
living in a cavern where arachnids and bats been
constantly refracting

yeah, but i'm not worried about it
i'm entangled in this string
tryna gnaw my way out it
you had liked a post of mine 
a while back when i doubted
if i was truly good for nothing
based on how low the clouds been...

clouds to crows

clouds to crows [prod. mackk]

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

lyrics:

VERSE 1
i aint got no animosity i hope you great
hope you do all of the shit you said you gonna do someday
every time im kneeling down and i bow i my head to pray
throw your name into the mix hoping god’ll keep you safe

despite what you think, im always gon care
you can say what you want but im gon be right there
you can talk all your shit but im going nowhere
and you know where to reach me you ever get scared

think im a russian, sip moscow mule
keep it a hunnid, stay on the move
keep myself busy im going thru it
know you is too, we accustomed to it

they say “HK why you change your voice man?”
ion got no energy, like its not a choice man
i just lay in bed and im missing appointments
do my very best to not be disappointment

HOOK
seen that you good, seen your new man
seen that you happy with shit that you have
im rooting for you and i hope that you glad
keep it a buck im just chasin the bands

i aint got no hate im not tryna replace,
all the things that we shared and things been displaced,
and i dont wanna fight or erase my mistakes,
i just pray that you thrive and you smile every day

VERSE 2
i got so many things to say
i dont sleep, hoping youre okay
leaving my bed sheets in dismay
when i get up, and i start my day

know its so rough, but we movin through
i aint never rest, cause im feeling blue,
and i know that im trash now to your whole crew
but thats shits okay cause im stuck like glue

if they could just feel this pain
coursing through my blackened veins
know they wont think that theyre sane
drown myself outside in the rain

Tattoo

tattoo

Obsessed

lyrics ⬇️ 

thats typical 
wishing for a rainbow by the waterfall
Cuz rn i cant even really think straight
when you look my way i try my best to stand tall
everything i do and everything i say
i think all the things i do just make you frustrate

feelings coming out when i see the lighthouse
which way would you rather see me find out

time out, think i wanna live my life a little more
take pride now in everything i do and what j got in store
ear drums get too loud
i dont hear them walk in
tryna make my parents proud but i dont do it that often

but i would do this another hundred times over again
super cold inside but i need a walk in the wind
I dont wanna try fixing up whats broken for them
need a lullaby so i can go sleep in a tent

Trap door 
get me out this cycle of sin
four walls got me here until i dont give in
or give up
outta luck
used to washing all my cuts
in a rut
oh so what
you got better things above

yea and thats a promise
no tbey dont give a **** bout me
i seen the comments 
yea maybe i do live cheap but i been savin up my money so that i could be free
its not so common but i do know that my people love me

i made a promise then i realized it was too hard to keep
dr pepper and some kettle chips for lunch by the sea
never thought that i could see it where i wanted to be

super beautiful nightgown 
always matched with a sad frown
push on me i wont tap out
lately live in a glass house

Obsessed

HKFIFTYONE

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