Lyrics:
All these days I swear I really try my best
I'm so fucking damn exhausted can I get a fucking rest
I'm a mess, I can't float with this weight up in my chest
So I guess I'll end up drowning but at least I'll save the rest

If I could only get a break if I could only get some help
But now I only have the strength to pick you up and leave myself
I'm just tryna make it through, with the hand that I've been dealt
You could take all of my best ones if you think that it would help

Fuck

Cant even finish a song, cant even finish a verse
Cant even get outta bed when I'm dead I know I'll just be dragged to the hearse
Baby you know it's okay, baby you know that some day
Things will be better you're grounded and centered please keep all the words that I say

cant even get outta bed, cant even cant even
cant even live when im dead, cant even cant even
cant even get out my head, cant even cant even
cant even get out my head, cant even get out my head

Try My Best

trymybest

i hate highways (second version) prod. sorrow bringer

prod @sorrow_bringer

 it really does kill me that i'm not able to showcase what i create/put out how i want it to be, but the piece itself matters the most to me. hopefully one day i'll be able to put together like a music video/lyric for a majority of what i put out, but for now, this is all i got. thank you so much for supporting me and music to this point. i really, really appreciate it. more than just that. this is everything to me. thank you for listening. <3

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

brass knuckles mounted on my fists
sweat n grease; let it drip
like a typhlosion, my body is molten
i will not let opportunity slip
it's all for the kid, that i had been
i fucking miss him, but i shouldn't let
adolescence turn to codependence
just how in the fuck did we grow up to this

i'm sorry if you don't like my voice
cause i don't either, i do not have a choice
i take a break for a couple days
then i come back, just to fill the void
i'm so annoyed by every noise
and a breath away from breathing poison
a leap of faith isn't what i'd take
just freefall into clairvoyance

i don't keep track of the shit i accomplish
trying my best to avoid being pompous
now the weight of the world's being pushed on the girl who had given me hope
for the things i had wanted
ain't that some bullshit
honesty lies in between the cracks
of what we deem that is evil
but we can't live without it
can't live without it

oh, it feels like i stall time
when i submerge myself in a foreign pathogen
all feels well, till i cross that path again
flicker the blood off your hands into mine
what an orthodox method of covering crime
i just wanna cry
she just wanna crash
just leave me behind
there's no going back

but, what if i fuck this up again
would you be my only friend
my mentality's kicking the bin
cause honesty lies within sin
with every thought, grows ornery tension
every night i'm a loss, and i'm building retention
stars don't cross if you don't pay attention
my tears don't drop if they're not worth a mention
you cannot feel what i feel.
she's probably not even real
i'm probably not even real
so i'm going in for the kill

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

did it ever happen..

retention [prod. sorrow bringer]

peachy ━☆ *.･｡ﾟ fuck what you thought its really me live your life and find happiness 2023 and on <3

https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead
https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz

lyrics:
impractical use of your head
you kept up your walls, blocking out all your friends
eta; some hours
i'll probably be sober
to realize i still hate myself and grown colder
distain
(exhausted and jaded)
your headspace
(show no relation)
stained gray and faceless

refraining from the actions
that'll probably f*ck me further
i miss not pertaining all this weight
and worrying bout the future
but don't get me wrong,
i love all my friends
i hardly reach out, but they know how it is
just a burnt out soul in a tie-dyed kid
when the colors all fade, then the bl**d dries thin
got chilled-out wind in my lungs
winter has pa**ed, but i can't see the sun
waving away to the ones that i love
that difficulty ain't apparent at all
so inconsiderate, i need a light
so f*cking tired of wasting my time
put their heart inside of mine
(inside of mine)
(i'm out of time)
(f*ck)
(out of time..)
(tiedyed.)

autumndropsdead - tiedyed (nate2timez)

Lyrics:
Are you mad at me?

It's a tragedy
Reality slip through my hands now
Are you mad at me?
Since I left myself in the past now

Fading, I'm fading, this feeling gets numb
In the back of my mind I know what I've become
Yeah just keep pulling strings until I come undone
Don't want to know all I know, I'd just rather be dumb

Weight upon my back 
It's like I'm Atlas, but I shrug though
Seen it all before
So I just do not give a fuck though

Count my days until I'm gone
Life is precious, carry on
One day I'll be so old and gone
Count my losses, move along

It's a tragedy
Reality slip through my hands now
Are you mad at me?
Since I left myself in the past now

Are you mad at me?

Dumb

dumb

somethings not quite right
i felt it all along 
i think im being watched 
i know i dont belong 

they dont want me here 
i know that i should go 
ive already tried too many times
now im here, laying still, at the end of the road

i guess thats life im stuck again
i guess thats life its rough my friend
if it all goes okay, we get to live til we’re dead
i guess thats life, a bitter end 

something’s not quite right 
i think something’s missing 
ive lost my other half
i was never whole but now you see

the pain of wishful thought
the moonlight on the sea 
the crackle of a puff
dream clouds from your lungs, over me 

i guess thats life im stuck again
i guess thats life its rough my friend
if it all goes okay, we get to live til we’re dead
i guess thats life, a bitter end

Something's Not Quite Right

SPOTIFY

somethings not quite right

prod. neverforever x weepings

I watch days march on by
See my friends live their lives
while I'm frozen in place
My passion's left no trace
~
I was once filled with life  
A glimmer in my eyes
But that boy has died
and I've no where to hide

(Do you know how tiny you are?)

I must find myself; but don't know where to look
I followed my heart; but I swallowed the hook

Now I'm being pulled in like every direction I can't make a choice
I been so damn quiet these days I fear that I'm losing my voice
I don't have a purpose; I don't have a path to break through the noise
Now all of the things that used to bring joy have left me devoid

smthn hella different

apathy [prod. neverforever]

HOMERUN

@qawikamri
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
@killedmyself

lyrics:-
Qawi Kamri
Everyone's just sad now
Everyone's just broke now
No one's really different
Everyone's the same now

Xanny just to fit in
Wrist starts to slit nah
You just want a hit
You promised to quit
Don't really believe you
is that even a choice?

9TAILS
like is that even a choice
woah
filter through the noise
when i speak its not my voice
oh polo
pony on the chest
check the goose its on the vest
vvs is on my neck
run a cheque
make it back
get a couple compliments
dripping sauce
when i walk
all this pressure break my neck
break the bank
break a sweat
im not coming over yet
walking home
in the rain
this is good as life'll get

No Divergent. (w 9TAILS) (prod. killedmyself)

Last Nights Sunset Was Amazing

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

somethings not quite right

HKFIFTYONE