I cant find myself thats what the devil wanted🔥

She likes pissing me off so pay attention to her I cant find myself thats what the devil wanted🙏🏼🔥

when this year's summer vibes really start kicking in, call spooky up again and drop some more heat.

Daily Drops #3

Lyrics:
Had a funeral in my head, no one crying
Thought that I'd reach out, say I'm gone, think I'm dying
Ain't nobody care, that's a lie, I'm denying
I just never talk, got no words, so I'm sighing

Maybe hit the blunt, I could live, and be happy
Then it goes away, and it's done, now I'm mad G
Always wanna float, but I sink, in the vast sea
Baby kiss my neck, on my lap, call me daddy

Ain't nobody care if I'm dying on the low
Say that theyll be there if I ever wanna go
Tryna be okay and thats all I'm tryna show
Never feel okay but I guess that's how it go

I guess thats how it go
x4

Had a funeral in my head, no one crying
Thought that I'd reach out, say I'm gone, think I'm dying
Ain't nobody care, that's a lie, I'm denying
I just never talk, got no words, so I'm sighing

I dont know, I guess I'm giving up
hit the bowl, yeah my mind be kinda fucked
staying low, homie ima keep it a buck
hope that i choke, deep in my sleep, dont give a fuck

Funeral

Funeral (prod splashgvng)

this one is very close to my soul.
Visualizer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RJYHyM0g600

Alone

no one ever taught me how...

Discover Thomas Reid:
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/0dcxj82ddksd6tDDcJgbqo?si=-O1Ii6RgTaKCD8_BdvoQvQ&dl_branch=1
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/us/artist/thomas-reid/1218506790
Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/thomasreidmusic
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thomasreidmusic/

Lyrics:
wake me up when it’s over
i can’t seem to find a way out
wake me up when it’s over
no one ever taught me how

no one ever taught me how to love
no one ever taught me how to think right
i been fighting but i’ve had enough
moving on till i see a blue sky

all night filling up a glass
pouring out, temporary high
feeling lower than i ever have
i can’t take another sleepless night

no i can’t
see a light
life is pulling me under
i’d rather lay here
under the covers
take one step
and i’m back 16
i don’t wanna be me
i don’t wanna be me
(anymore)

wake me up when it’s over
(when it’s over, it’s over)
i can’t seem to find a way out
(when it’s over, it’s gone)
wake me up when it’s over
(when it’s over, it’s over)
no one ever taught me how

no one ever taught me how to fight
i’m taking shots like a punching bag
doubled over in a parking lot
never thought it would get this bad

no ones ever loved me like you do
i’m pretty sure that includes me
i can’t run, i can’t even move
i’m so sorry i’m so disappointing

but i can’t
see a light
life is pulling me under
i’d rather lay here
under the covers
take one step
and i’m back 16
i don’t wanna be me
i don’t wanna be me
(anymore)

wake me up when it’s over
i can’t seem to find a way out
wake me up when it’s over
no one ever taught me how

wake me up when it's over

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lyrics:
yeah, you cut your hair
and i picked up the smokes again
i think we both know how this whole thing ends
i'm still holding on to someone i don't need
if out of sight means out of mind, i'm tearing at the seams, to say the least

my mama's scared 'cause i've run low on dopamine
i'm barely coping

i need a pick-me-up
to save myself from all the hell that you caused
i'll cry for help, but, i ain't getting no response
i'm all alone inside this ghost town that you're haunting
your voice is in the walls, i miss the silence
i need a pick-me-up, i'm dying

in a constant state of disarray
a manic episode inside my head, i can't escape
is it all you could've wanted?
you took every part of me
i'm on the verge of breaking down and falling to my knees

my mama's scared 'cause i've run low on dopamine
i'm barely coping

i need a pick-me-up
to save myself from all the hell that you caused
i'll cry for help, but, i ain't getting no response
i'm all alone inside this ghost town that you're haunting
your voice is in the walls, i miss the silence
i need a pick-me-up, i'm dying

pick me up

fill my head up with all ur lies

See yo address
Feel my hands sweat
See his car outside
Can’t look past it

Do you feel bad yet
Did u forget about me
Wanna watch u cry
I wanna watch him bleed

Verse 1
Think he tough guy huh
He aint gon give you shit
Know you still think of us
Scroll through images

I promised to keep u safe
U said I dont understand
Tell me what I need to change
U slammed the door and broke my hand

dont let me go

Verse 2
Flicking up dirt when im speeding
Nobody saw me leaving
Better hope that dont get even
Hard holding back knowing you were mine

I miss your stare
blonde in your hair
i need to change for the better

Verse 3 (cava)
I wanna see him go down in the dirt
he with you now but i was with you first
never did tell you that this wouldnt hurt
you were the best now i wish you the worst
yuh wish you the worst
you dont deserve any better than that
you wouldnt care if i died in a crash
losing my mind leave that in the past

Bleed 家  w/ cavasoul (lucidbeatz)

Lyrics:
@spookybands -
Love of my life, you're proving that dead wrong
Was I ever alive at all
You messed me up I'm too much to fix now
Was I ever good enough

I found you at the crossroads singing to
The devil with your pretty eyes closed, I
Said I'd rather die than love anybody instead of you
And he asked me why, I told him that

I fuck everything up I ever touch
She likes pissing me off, so I pay attention to her
I can't find myself, it's what the devil wanted
She don't like my help, she likes having no emotions

HKFiftyOne -
I don't even know who I am
'Cause I lost myself in you now I can't get it back
I'm just hoping I'm just praying that you'll give me a chance
Yeah but that'll never happen way we currently stand

Do you even know what you mean
To me, you're like a drug and I'm a low down fiend
And I been going through withdrawals, I know you got what I need
And every night I die in bed 'cause I see you when I dream

I know, you're like a thousand miles away but it's alright
My phone, only way that I can reach you, I'm uptight
Alone, it got me crazy I just smoke 'til it sit right
No home, I'm a vagabond, I miss your room tonight

What The Devil Wanted

Spookybands & HKFiftyOne - What The Devil Wanted

Lyrics:
wake up morning to a bad report
and i just cant be fucked so i just pour a fourth
then i shoot the fifth until my final form
begins to take its shape and im on the floor

and im heaving writhing turning to a beast
and i break my chains and i roam the streets
then im spinning falling faster in my sheets
and im throwing up my guts on my feet

i dont hope i choke on my internal fluid
i just wish the devil would get laid to ruin
we could find some peace and it would all be fluent
it would be just like we aint just been through it

and i hope i never get the past back
burned it up cause im like “pass that”
block it out and ill redact that
keep it dark like its matte black

it doesnt matter all the smoke in the air
never cared if i remembered anything, i was there, like
it doesnt feel the way it used to, like
sewerperson on my bluetooth, like
x2

eyes awake, steady forth
my wounds and pain is not a metaphor
my blackened brain is not a steady course
my frozen heart has stopped keeping score

now im sick from all the toxins
wanna get away but im boxed in
got a safe but never locked it
now i pay the price with no profit

pass the spliff itll be fine
they all say have a great time
fuck these demons gotta face mine
out my mind call me tech n9ne

hold my breath when i drink now
on my way to the sink now
too fucked up on the brink now
blackout cold in the street, blaow

Matte Black

𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜 𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚎𝚍

prod by. @domesticsoul

'tiedyed' ep
10/27

thank you for being here. 
take care

(it's way too damn bright out)
i know
it's always i don't know
idk, idk, i don't..

i feel the worst
reheat the burns
shoot down the birds
show me you hurt
care bout me less
don't feel distressed
don't recollect, proclaim me as dead
i'm recondite in all of their eyes
believe me, i've tried
the fuck would i lie
line after line, tongue's getting dry
water to hydrate
my subconscious, it migrates
fluttered past in the writing
eating less carbohydrates
sleeping less got me dying
note and pens all that i see
in a cold sweat from the sights seen
sights seen..
i don't wanna do no sightseeing, no..

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

rain check;
she told me we should make a reign check
bellow out my frustrations
etching out these elations
now i'm fine, 'till i break, yeah
now i've calmed, feel it in my palms now
a couple scorn clouds
cry a storm out, with no warning
it's important;
you seem to know them 'till you stay foreign
(stay foreign)

so i guess i'll put my trust in the darkness
we talk a lot, bustin' chops over toxins
i hear my thoughts pushing me to be heartless
missin' my shots, wouldn't think i'm a marksman
fuck love, i'm misunderstood
filtering light into words overlooked
i disapprove and rebuke how they're crooked
i just went weak in the knees, now i'm puking

one sunset at a time
another day a new vice
show me you care without dragging your hair
through grease trails and the lice
it must be my mind that's gotten so distant
plenty surround but they always low pitch
or don't get the picture; fragile demeanor
prone to be withered, but never stay with

laugh it off like you always do
no surface shit, up the magnitude
let the ground crack 'till you fall back
from the forecast, as the magma spews
got hot veins and a cold brain
as i fuck up my stability
you can't drown out what's already sunken
i don't want there to be room for me

here we go again
meet another end
reinvent your head like second nature
lose it to a friend, who wasn't quite your friend
people only plead when it's on paper
well how about that
dirty mousepads
unaware of how i got here
did i steer clear, or was i pulled back?

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

downcast (p. domesticsoul)

This song is about the lost of my unborn child

Absent part of me

Industry Circus

prod me <3

lyrics:
she said, 3 facts i, still cry too
i'm losin' faith in my ability to like you
i'm losin' touch with who i was and now i fight you
to be honest we should probably say goodbye soon

and now i'm drunk and i'm peekin at your homescreen
makin sure i'm still there, hopin you'll still hold me
and now you're drunk and you're thinkin bout the old me
where did all the time go, why do i feel lonely?

and now we're drunk and were listenin to cars pass
thinkin bout the good days, will they ever come back
and now we sulk, while we listen for the rain drops
listen for the thunderstorms and hope the fuckin pain stops

this is not a tik tok hit, or a mainstream slap
its the hook verse hook on how my heart collapsed
this is not a dance real slow, if you love me don't go
i've been tryna find some peace down every road we go

why do we fight every evenin
i'm sorry i woke you from sleepin
i'm spillin my guts, so my head don't combust
you're the girl of my dreams you're the one i believe in

i went from holdin you close
to someone you used to know
i remember gettin fucked up
i remember lettin go

she said, 3 facts i, still cry too
i'm losin' faith in my ability to like you
i'm losin' touch with who i was and now i fight you
to be honest we should probably say goodbye soon

and now i'm drunk and i'm peekin at your homescreen
makin sure i'm still there, hopin you'll still hold me
and now you're drunk and you're thinkin bout the old me
where did all the time go, why do i feel lonely?

and now we're drunk and were listenin to cars pass
thinkin bout the good days, will they ever come back
and now we sulk, while we listen for the rain drops
listen for the thunderstorms and hope the fuckin pain stops

homescreen

at least i tried

co prod @hellahaunted

lyrics:

we all know life can be a bitch
i lost my friend that’s how it is
i lost my girl then bought a whip
i thought I’d heal i never did

i still smoke strong and cry allot
i miss my ex it’s hard to stop
i miss her touch the way she walk
i miss those early morning talks

I miss the coffee in the morning
and those bright green eyes
i gave you everything i had
well at least i tried

and i don’t ever feel myself unless you’re by my side
i gave you everything i had before you cut all ties

i was focused on the music
you were tryin not to lose it
i was tryin not to lose you
but the bass slaps and the queues rip

like damn nates really goin in
like damn nates really poppin off
like new fit like every week
match primitive with the polo socks (awe yea)

grape jays in my jansport
got mad stamps in my passport
gon drop sum you won’t ask for
i smoke big gas in my back porch

we all know life can be a bitch
i lost my friend that’s how it is
i lost my girl then bought a whip
i thought I’d heal i never did

i still smoke strong and cry allot
i miss my ex it’s hard to stop
i miss her touch the way she walk
i miss those early morning talks

I miss the coffee in the morning
and those bright green eyes
i gave you everything i had
well at least i tried

and i don’t ever feel myself unless you’re by my side
i gave you everything i had before you cut all ties

you need a song you can rock to
ill give you somethin to scream
our generation’s so fucked up
nobody knows what to think

and i been thinkin on the days when
everything was what it seems
way before i felt grown up
or even knew what that means

we all know life can be a bitch
i lost my friend that’s how it is
i lost my girl then bought a whip
i thought I’d heal i never did

i still smoke strong and cry allot
i miss my ex it’s hard to stop
i miss her touch the way she walk
i miss those early morning talks

I miss the coffee in the morning
and those bright green eyes
i gave you everything i had
well at least i tried

and i don’t ever feel myself unless you’re by my side
i gave you everything i had before you cut all ties

ALIT

Support Venus: https://www.youtube.com/c/venusboy

_____________________________________________________
Lyrics:
missing all the late nights snuggled tight
Had one glimpse upon that face, I know the feelings right
I cannot forget the taste of your tongue
I'm so drunken in love
I think I might know the meaning now
~ (ohhhh)
can't you just feel it now
it's been a year since you apeared a head above the crowd
you're something special
you are simply picture perfect
and I'm sure your embrace will be worth it
to fight through all the sleepless nights
and I remember last december you entered my life
you brought me hope again
and filled me from within
brought love to my life, shine bright girl
~
and I think every single night
I apprciate ya
sorry if i'm distant
you and music are my mediators
so I thought I'd put together a few songs so I can just show
how much I really love you, come together and we just soak
~
In the sunlight
love shine so bright
I'm outta words right now
you're my partner in crime
you're my world, lie down
with you're on my chest
calm my nerves right down
(down)
(down)
(calm my nerves right down)
(down)
(down)
(calm my nerves right down)
In the sunlight
love shine so bright
I'm outta words right now
you're my partner in crime
you're my world, lie down
with you're on my chest
calm my nerves right down
(down)
(down)
(calm my nerves right down)
(down)
(down)
(calm my nerves right down)

5 AM [prod. venus]

[+] used to hold your hand while you're coming down..
* featuring @lilskeleskrrt * produced by @l1lbiscuit *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVr0Jf26AFk

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[hook 2x: @seejayxo]
Used to hold your hand while you're coming down
Pop another *** and I feel it now
I just gotta know why you not around
Wanna let you know what I'm feeling now

[verse 1: @seejayxo]
Baby I could hate you,
But I think I could love you just the same
Holdup, wait a minute, lemme switch my lane
I just gotta get me a Range
I just need some bands in the back of the safe
I got nothing else to say
They was sleeping on me
Now I feel like they awake
Shawty got a lil taste
Now she think she love me, I can see it in her face
Baby I'ma get them bands and I'll spend on you
That's just what I do, I don't know if I'ma lose
I just gotta tell you when I'm thinking of you...
Cuz I'm thinking of your heart beating on mine
I don't even know if this feels right
I just gotta know where it leads right, where it leads right?

[hook 2x: @seejayxo]
Used to hold your hand while you're coming down
Pop another *** and I feel it now
I just gotta know why you not around
Wanna let you know what I'm feeling now

[verse 2: @lilskeleskrrt]
My baby never know when I'm coming down
I've been off a blue but I don't feel it now
I been waiting all day for you to come around
Used to want the love but I don't need it now
So what do you want from me?
I could sit here all day you won't talk to me
Even if I was dying, you wouldn't stop for me
I've been making racks, its not enough for you
You keep wanting more even when all my bands are blue
Caution, stop with all that fuck shit
Cameras flashing the lights off when I walk into the function
Razor round my necklace I'm bound to get reckless
Seejay in the back while I scratch off my checklist
My baby never know when I'm coming down
I've been off a blue but I don't feel it now
I been waiting all day for you to come around
Used to want the love but I don't need it now

Coming Down

+ stream on SPOTIFY

coming down (feat. skele) *MUSIC VID IN DESC*

prod. @l1lbiscuit x @gualabeatz

lyrics
--------
hey you
why you mad at me?
i've been falin' backwards runnin' barefoot through the leaves
i could bite my tongue until i really gotta leave
if the issue isn't settled why you settlin' for me?
hey you
whatchu wanna be?
i remember back when i was sleeping with no sheets
back when we were struggling off 89 a week
when the habits i possessed was partially possessing me
when the root of all my problems disappeared inside the green
and i was acting like i gave a fuck but no one fucked with me
when the busses to the 6 were all i had just to be free
i got a passport for that bitch but but now i travel overseas

yeah it's been a couple years but honestly it's all i see
when i close my eyes & reminisce this shit is just a dream
guess i really overcame a lot & now i've come to see
all the work i've put into it paying off by 23
thought i'd never live to tell but now i'm tellin how it be
when you overcome the obstacles & turn into a g
you could a. run for cover are you ready for the heat?
self destruct until i feel like anyone but me
you could be anything that you desire whatchu seek?
i've been plotting on this shit for years since i was seventeen
never felt like i could do it the depression come in sweeps
i put my headphones on & spit some shit until i fall asleep

back in 2017 i plotted out my death 
tied a noose inside my closet drew a target on my chest
if you think this shits a gimmick you can put it to the test
check my browser history for all the answers be my guest
googled "how to kill myself" but every option involved pain
every forum full of isolated kids that feel the same
saying they would end their lives in hopes of ridding all the shame
it's much easier to talk about when no one knows your name 
it's hilarious how motherfuckers profit off an act
you ain't ever put the blade against your skin and that's a fact
you're bewildered by the concept of a struggle so you cap
yeah my eyes are fixed upon you & i'm ready to attack
guess this is a wrap
fuck you & your homies all the shit you do is whack
this ain't no specific diss it's simply a smack
in the face of all these influencers actin like they sad

music video

barefoot (prod. lil biscuit x guala beatz)

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

Listen to other music together.
(the playlist guy)

Spookybands & HKFiftyOne - What The Devil Wanted

HKFIFTYONE

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