Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @hellahaunted & @sainttomorrow
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


and ive been smoking too much like every day
since fifteen think it's rotting my brain

i got my windows closed but i still hear the rain

i don't like myself anymore

think i've changed

and while you sit there drunk on the side of the pave

do you ever think about those times in the cage

with your friends in the sun oh those times they have changed

now i'm sitting on my own thinking of life on a stage


thinkin of life on a stage

these days i'm alone 

take 3 blunts to the face

spend my days blazed just thinking of life in the states

shoutout jj
i'm tryna record everyday


i think i'm going straight to hell for those two years

if you didnt know im sad you must be new here

cliche dyed hair
i'm a loser

forever screaming on my own at a computer


i'm a loser and I know it
got it tatted on my sleeve just to show how much i own it
stay glued to my computer
writing sad songs and playing first-person shooters


watch me self-destruct

catch me yelling "nerf this"
while i'm rolling up another blunt


i used to do this for fun

now i do this on account of all of my bad luck

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled

i don't even know what i'm fighting for



Listen on Spotify!

Loser w/ sendflowrs (Prod. caves & Saint Tomorrow)

extra stems came from an interpolated sorrow bringer beat! go give him a follow :) @sorrow_bringer

Sonder

Prod. Flowers for You

my entire discography: https://open.spotify.com/user/lukeee117/playlist/2gRn7V9QfxZxFaJJdS00EP?si=vUv0Ie1qQc2dhn8mHtwk0w&dl_branch=1

alright, that's fine w/ skele

prod deadfish <3

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig

lyrics:

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid

I never wanted
to end up like that
alone and aching 
with no one to talk about stuff
that troubles me and I can't
deal it with on my own
I've been to therapy
didn't listen now I'm at the start

I never wanted to feel like a burden oh no
so sick of hearing that I'm better off dead
Don't need your pity, no
I Don't want any meds
I know I'm god damn numb
but pills just won't help

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid
x2

Afraid

lyrics
--------
don't do it for them
do it for yourself maybe
disguising the truth
convincing myself they hate me
are you really there
or am i just talking to myself
i'll do it again
i'll stay up and watch the sunrise
on top of the shed
i wish i could stay here all night 
i don't understand
why is it always just like this

i miss drinking until 6am
with all of my friends
even ones i just met
hey owen i hope that you're listening man
you helped me get outta my bedroom again
i was on the verge of the end of it all
but nobody knew at all
and i wish that i could get stuck in the past
back before we started moving so fast
standing this still is a choice that won't last
and neither will we so i guess it's a wrap
from here i see this so clearly
at the edge of the world still in fear of my feelings

(at the edge of the world still in fear of my feelings x2)

i had everything mapped to a t
but everything here isn't quite as it seems
there's blood everywhere from the heart on my sleeve
a permanent fix yeah i wanted to leave it
all behind me
cauterizing
the thread on my wings so i'm no longer flying
help
i'm trying to climb out this hell
but it's hard to talk when i lack
all the skills that i need to get outta my shell
i'm not scared to jump so just please don't come near me
when i hit the bottom is when they'll start cheering
and now i'm a ghost i don't know if you're hearing this

and now i'm a ghost i don't know if you hear me
and now i'm a ghost oh hello can you hear me

follow 93feetofsmoke

geronimo (prod. 93feetofsmoke)

Lyrics:
@spookybands -
Love of my life, you're proving that dead wrong
Was I ever alive at all
You messed me up I'm too much to fix now
Was I ever good enough

I found you at the crossroads singing to
The devil with your pretty eyes closed, I
Said I'd rather die than love anybody instead of you
And he asked me why, I told him that

I fuck everything up I ever touch
She likes pissing me off, so I pay attention to her
I can't find myself, it's what the devil wanted
She don't like my help, she likes having no emotions

HKFiftyOne -
I don't even know who I am
'Cause I lost myself in you now I can't get it back
I'm just hoping I'm just praying that you'll give me a chance
Yeah but that'll never happen way we currently stand

Do you even know what you mean
To me, you're like a drug and I'm a low down fiend
And I been going through withdrawals, I know you got what I need
And every night I die in bed 'cause I see you when I dream

I know, you're like a thousand miles away but it's alright
My phone, only way that I can reach you, I'm uptight
Alone, it got me crazy I just smoke 'til it sit right
No home, I'm a vagabond, I miss your room tonight

What The Devil Wanted

Spookybands & HKFiftyOne - What The Devil Wanted

lyrics
look at how you all change
looking at me all strange
run your mouth some more and imma show you how my grip range
such a fucking damn shame
none your friends don't know your name
used to light the blunts inside the coupe but now you all lame
pussy on some damn games
memories you don't claim
hope y'all find my body laying cold beneath the doorframe
imma do it my way
beamer on the highway
smokey tint and velvet seats be swerving through the workday

ecstasy switchblades
all of this built rage
autumn on Tuesday
winter on Thursday
drinking the worst days
smoking the good days
thinking the worst ways
sleeping gone get paid

40 oz bottles in the backset
we don't need a taxi
residential. tatted on her ass cheek
fucking on a nasty
oxy on a backstreet
you aint fucking with me unless I got you in the bed sheets

spread sheet 
dead sheets
phasing through the floor
haven't heard a word from that fucker since 4
if you didn't wanna show then learn how to hit ignore
guess I'll pour 2 cups for myself and your whore

bitch made
bitch made you aint winning
this my
this my new beginning
my blood
my blood I've been thinning
2 days
2 night I've been spinning

lame (santana)

prod by tenoji + coupdegrace
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nCQXTzwzQbM

bloodlet (bloodline)

This song is about the lost of my unborn child

Absent part of me

love sick

mixed by @polearm
featuring @sewerperson
produced by @splashgvng and @irby314

tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral
tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral

i think ill be late to the grave at my own damn funeral
say what you say i know i act quite unusual
fake homies fake like they dont know that im on to them
its okay whatever bro cuz 
i was never fond of them
i just copped and popped out to LA
shot the shit and kicked it with my bae
told my brothers theres another way
now we been grinding time to fill the days
we been on the sun in outerspace
stress was melted
felt it drip away
i been on a hella different wave
i been on a hella different wave

sewerperson:
moonlight thru opening in the sun roof
it feel like one of these times where i just have to tell u i
love u
and i dont wait till the morning
and i dont wanna wait anymore like
tell me
how many of these nights u been alone u really happy
everything im feeling come back round to overlap me
i guess i just wanted u to know ion know what id do without ya
i guess i just wanted u to know i still been
selfish
sorry
i cant help it
promise
blacked out
i cant feel if im honest
can u tell me bout ur face cause i forgot it
since i pushed most those memories into my closet

tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral
tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral

selfish! ft. sewerperson (prod. irby)

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

Spookybands & HKFiftyOne - What The Devil Wanted

HKFIFTYONE