i need sum help (VIDEO IN DESC)

hold the applause
produced by @prodbybrody
featuring @sewerperson
mixed by nine to 5 and sewerperson

lyrics:
both:
so won't you hold the applause
cause its all that i got
i know its not a lot, but it feeds me the strength that i would need to move on

nine to 5:
I did all the things that i said i would
Try to push me to the side but you never could no
I’m breaking through the walls it’s competitive
Now im taking to the bottle like a sedative woah

After all of this time and i still get it wrong
I won’t tell you what you wanted hear no more
Yeah you played me a game tryna get up the score
But i aint finished yet i’m still coming for more

So won’t you hold the applause
Cuz its all that i got
You tore it apart
It was doomed from the start
Fallin for your mirage 

Falling from nothing
But oh its so exciting
To go
To these places i aint been before
You took hold my body sunk it into the floor

going insane, my body is sore
i feel a lot different than i did before
seasons have changed, i'm closing these doors
i'm burning these bridges can't take anymore
so take all i am, i'll do what i can
but nothing will satisfy you in the end
but i understand, it's all gone as planned
you fucked up my head but i'll take what i can

sewerperson:
Seventeen nights in the grip of cold hands
Baby i try do u right while u just doing what u can
Wails heard thru the night from somewhere deep inside the branch
Toss out a flare we can light up the world
Ash floats thru the air as this fire unfurls
Tell me how this shit compare to a night better spent
Watch The banshee touch down on to the charring grasslands

Won’t you hold the applause
Cause its all that I got
I know its not a lot but it feeds me the strength I would need to move on
With her taste on my tongue
And my hand on my heart
I cant be what u need but I swear on my life I will be what u want
With the grace of a wisp
She comes right around and attaches to my hip
She whispers are u scared and I said maybe just a bit
U know I cant lie when u look at me like this
When u look me in my eyes
I know u could see into my soul into my mind
U know I know I could never get away with lying
That’s why its the truth that without u id rather die

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nine to 5 - hold the applause ft. sewerperson (prod. brody)

lights in the dark
feeling sick when you talk
was it easy to know?
is it easy to walk?
i feel weightless
gather dust in the basement

pressed in your clothes
act like nobody knows
that you made it to august to wake up alone
as its breaking
haven't spoke in the days since

i've been cautious and sober
he died in october 
he said that hes fine 
now the lights flicker slowly in bayview
couldn't face that they made you

i could finish early it could get so cold
raining in the summer and it takes me home
felt it more than life and how'd i let you go?
let you go

and the light doesn't know that im still here
but i'd rather take it away
and everythings all so familiar 
and i've not a thing left to say yet
better than watching
better than watching you pretend

Familiar

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lyrics

save me from this hole that im dug in
walls smother, open up the curtains
dont treat me, im unimportant
take me down to the garden
leaves dry, ambers in my veins
and time becomes so complicated
it makes me cry
id love just one more try

youre tryna build me up but
i love just breaking down
i live with my head in the clouds
i need you to pull me down when youre around
ill reveal the scars on my back
im so fucked up my heads gonna explode
and maybe im okay with that
its about time ive had some relief from the plight that was bestowed upon me
for the past few months i dont even feel like me
im tryna burn the bridges ive been getting third degrees
i think im cursed or maybe i just got a new disease
either way i hope and pray that youll still stay with me
keep my hopes up, but my eyes low
and ill try to call you on the iphone but youre never picking up

youre never picking up
like this time is it really done
im still just leaking all my blood
i guess im used to all the cuts
i could never lie to you
everyday i wake up just to try for you
seems like nothing i say is getting through to you
swear to God that ill wait till i break for you
my love dont answer when im calling
i put too much on it often
please just listen when im talking
in my dreams i see us
falling down
i dont know who the hell is gonna try to save me now
oh what id do for one more night
God, what id do for one more time

save me from this hole that im dug in
walls smother, open up the curtains
dont treat me, im unimportant
take me down to the garden
leaves dry, ambers in my veins
and time becomes so complicated
it makes me cry
id love just one more try

i need sum help (VIDEO IN DESC)

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