u lied to me and i dont rlly care if u lie to me
just tell me why ur hair makes me cry and weep
your stupid fucking eyes make me die and weak
oh so violently 

oh valarie
i'll eat your heart cus im madly
in love with valarie
tragically your my majesty
but is it so bad to want my soul back
your heart has turned black

not a rock song about hating you

in my bed hit my head cus im all fucked up
cause shes upset wants me dead and she hates my guts
like whats the deal oh for real i really think u suck
sick of it such a bitch like what the fuck

wake up in the morning
california is just such a drag
cause shes so pretty and its so shitty that im such a spaz
im so done this song sucks and im out of luck
youre everywhere and its unfair like what the fuck

what the fuck (a lose truths production)

@octoberlies @webdiary

im turning 29
everythings a waste of timе
when i look at you
you glare at me
with hatred in your eyes
do you want for me to die
while you laugh at my demise?
i'll be in my coffin
with a smile
no flowers by my side

problems on my shelf
better keep it to myself
i got all the hands to help
still theres no one who could help
i got problems
i got issues
i got so much more than that
grab me tissues for my face
and a toaster for my bath

october lies with u - better keep it to myself (cover)

fuck you and your girlfriend

and i swear its alright
ik u dont care ab me
and i hate my friends and i hate myself
and i swear im like nobody nobody else like
you said fuck off 
i just wanna talk
i aint doing well
i just do everything wrong
and i hate this song
fuck

happy national gf day jk i wanna die

lyrics:
@justasecrettt
and baby
i know that im weird
and u dont have to say nothing
im nothing but a fear
and i just want to be something to you, ooo, ooo
i just wanna be smth ooo, ooo, ooo
i just wanna see
if you can see me
i just wanna feel
if you can feel me
so much fucking thoughts i’m not healing
so much blood up in my hair im just bleeding
@holdmetillicry
i just wanna be something
its better than nothing
well can u hear me, or am i sinking?
make me barely breathing
baby is it over yet?
or are u leaving, kill me?

i been in my thoughts i might go m.i.a
and its all starting to correlate, i might slowly decay
was fucked up taking pills like yesterday
fucked up taking pills like yesterday, its like-

(i just wanna be something, its better than nothing)
cry
(i just wanna be something, its better than nothing)
holdmetilli-
cry
FUCK
@claorie1
im just a shoulder to cry on,
just a shoulder to lie on
is that all u rly see me as in ur eyes 
i think i have no value its exhausting
because ive been getting lost, and its everything you taught me
but you know that its not my fault, for everything, 
i get it know its not my fault
why are you writing me letters like its all my fault?
you know its been over for a while, the writings on the wall

you know some things about me, 
how does that change what you think about me? 
and how does that change anything around me?
i was, killing time before you lost and found me

(i'm just a shoulder to cry on, just a shoulder to lie on)
(is that all you really see me as in your eyes)
(i think i have no value its exhausting) 
(because i've been getting lost, and its everything you taught me)

something2u w/ estella + calorie

https://open.spotify.com/album/1FXRoSIYCuIjNHI5hdSyLa?si=_4Xfi9_fQ0ywd0TAwDa9-w
fucked up, wrists cut, baby i cant do this no more
u always out wit ur friends, ur such a mfkn whore
16 pills deep baby not no ecstasy
i fucking hate myself i hate my health and i dont wanna breath
just do it, just fuck with me, i want you,, your wanting me
your wanting me

i hate myself everytime i speak
im needing u know ur needing me
bsfs forever lets do it together

fucked up, wrists cut, baby i cant do this no more
u always out wit ur friends, ur such a mfkn whore
16 pills deep baby not no ecstasy
i fucking hate myself i hate my health and i dont wanna breath
just do it, just fuck with me, i want you,, your wanting me
your wanting me

i hate myself everytime i speak
im needing u know ur needing me
bsfs forever lets do it together

so far gone
so far gone
so far gone
so far gone

(ALL PLATS) so far gone

prod forzen i believe
lyrics below.

and now ur gone, yes ur away
i can feel ur heartbeat right in my face
and another day, it goes unknown
i can feel ur presence in my bones
is that what u said last week?

its another day and im buzzing off the adderall
i just took another pill, idk what's going wrong

its another day and im buzzing off the adderall
i just took another pill, idk what's going wrong

AND I CANT BREATHE OFF THE ECSTASY
AND I JUST SWEAR THAT SMTHINGS GOING WRONG
AND BABY I CANT THINK WHEN IM WITHOUT U
CUZ BABY I SWEAR THAT SOMETHINGS GOING WRONG (IDK WHATS GOING WRONG)
AND BABY ITS LIKE

I JUST WANNA GO FAR AWAY FROM THIS SACRED PLACE
AND I JUST WANNA GO RIGHT INTO UR ARMS
AND BABY

AND NOW UR GONE, YES UR AWAY
I CAN FEEL UR HEARTBEAT RIGHT IN MY FACE

and another day, it goes unknown
i can feel ur presence in my bones
is that what u said last week?
IDK WHATS GOING WRONG

(ALL PLATS) ecstasy

growing up is stupid i'll be 17 forever

over you

https://open.spotify.com/track/4y4zrMZM2yVAXJp6IocFtC?si=4e7542e6ce464a5b

prod me

and i dont even really care
what you have to say
you ghost me everday
and everytime i talk to you
my face just turns blue
cause i forget the oxegyn

i dont care

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i love all 250 of you
estella and calorie my fav
ammo.lol/goth