hollow mind. - utopia. (ep, 2025)

released: 06.06.2025

tracklist:
1. intro: utopia. [prod. abxminvtixn]
2. suffercage. [prod. abxminvtixn & trauma]
3. life imitation. [prod. abxminvtixn & trauma]
4. wormsfilled. [prod. abxminvtixn & trauma]
5. beyond the endless fence of mental... [prod. abxminvtixn & trauma]

written by @hollowmindisdead
produced by @audioabomination & @trauma-6-6-6
cover art, m&m by @hollowmindisdead

*special thanks to abxminvtixn & trauma for making this possible.

"...when the happiness feels like it's something away that you can't even lust,
i just rotting in all this utopia while my blood flowing and turning to rust..."

thank you.

utopia.

written by @hollowmindisdead
produced by @audioabomination & @trauma-6-6-6
cover art, m&m by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics: 
yeah, anxiety's piercing on my chest 
i keep on murdering my sence
my shaking hands are holding sharp knifes...

depression feels just like a trance
and im beyond this mental fence 
i jump in front of it to see like...

like my dreams and hopes are crashing off my state.
how they drowning in my blood
and all my lust to see me dead.

i jump and see me as a kid 
that blindly searching for defence
and finding nothing else instead of crippled cold anxiety's hands

(jump) i see my past (jump), i see my blood (jump), i see my path convolves to mess
nobody liked me cuz of sad 
now no-one likes me not depressed

but in the depths of all my nature 
looking like a dying swan 
i keep on dream to see my future 
bright as blood reflects these lamps

and sometimes away of this fence... 
i see my future bright and blessed....
utopic like a dream of mad...
and do i still believe in that?...

yeah, anxiety's piercing on my chest 
i keep on murdering my sence
my shaking hands are holding sharp knifes...

depression feels just like a trance
and im beyond this mental fence 
i jump in front of it to see, like...

my bright future...
getting closer sometimes...
i'll tryna chase it...
to feel a moment of fine...

beyond the endless fence of mental... [prod. abxminvtixn & trauma]

written by @hollowmindisdead
produced by @audioabomination & @trauma-6-6-6
cover art, m&m by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
i cannot see there no difference
between 
light and darkness to me cuz i got my eyes pierced 
with needles of mental unstablesness 
long to my brain so im creeping by touch just to feel

how i trapped 
in my four bleeding walls where i feel like in cage where i root to my knees
cuz I've cried and I've prayed for so long that my feet have worn down to the bone and i can't let me go.

can't let me go out my state  
where i m drowning too long in my pain, my despair and my pus.
and my anxiety like a miscarriage 
that ugly and blind and it's asking the fuck its alive?

Is this life even worth?...
Is this life even worth all this pain and this suffering that we are deserve 
and I would have answered if I had known
bitch i would have answered if I had known


Is this life even worth?...
Is this life even worth all this pain and this suffering that we are deserve? 

disappointing our mother and scaring our friends,
that having fun and observe...
and when the happiness feels like it's something away that you can't even lust 
i just rotting in all this utopia while my blood flowing and turning to rust


suffercage. [prod. abxminvtixn & trauma]

written by @hollowmindisdead
produced by @audioabomination & @trauma-6-6-6
cover art, m&m by @hollowmindisdead



intro: utopia. [prod. abxminvtixn]

written by @hollowmindisdead
produced by @audioabomination & @trauma-6-6-6
cover art, m&m by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics: 
(im trapped inside, im trapped inside, im trapped inside )

im trapped inside...
in all this reckless of my mind 
that left me naked, bleeded dry 
within that night i stepped this side.

i've lost my sight...
(lost my sight...)
lost my attemps to live my life.
im just a pointless bag of flesh i hate 
and cutting with my knives (for all these times x2)

for all these tries to leave this ward
this call of death is my temptation 
signing me to fall apart 

and at my colder blood reflection 
every wound is shining star
i feel that my life imitation 
for too was gone so far

there's not much chance to survive 
nobody fucks with my kind 
don't really think im alive 
cuz all this life imitation 
is like whole my life
(x2)

life imitation. [prod. abxminvtixn & trauma]

written by @hollowmindisdead
produced by @audioabomination & @trauma-6-6-6
cover art, m&m by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics: 
i wish i could carve out all of these worms
only making my every days worthless
i feel they keep on devouring my thoughts 
and i open my scars just to pour them all out of me, bitch.

but they settled into my head, like an old man in an apartment drowning in garbage...
and it hurts me so much when they slide under my woeful skin cuz i thought that it's long off it, bitch.

taking sharpest knife 
i sharp their bodies off me 
off my skull, my freshest wounds, even between my ribs 

when the normal life 
becomes utopian dreams 
you start to get - you nothing more 
than worm infested meat

all these eaters of my happiness making my life state fragile  
it's always feeling like i am an ice and im blurring and flow to the wormhole..

cuz my whole body's replaced by a tangle of these worms that raging 
they are living my life and they fucking up my dreams, they are slowly devouring my thoughts off, bitch

they're twisting inside my throat...
and devastate me dry...
i guess it's only my fault...
im a nest for parasites...