same lame excuse [+dercept]

prod. flesh x chris6lair x taurs

lyrics:
i don't like to stand out
i don't understand how
i keep moving on
running circles in the madhouse
treading when it's shallow
scared of my shadow
roam into the fog
no i don't know where 

i've been going
and i know i get lost a lot
but i'm on my way home
if it all goes wrong
would you wanna be safe from harm?
would you lock up
give it all up?

i know i'm not what you thought i'd
be at this point i've become
more myself than i had ever dreamed
so why don't you fuck off
i remember everything you said
i've been screaming at myself to give it up and let it rest
i've been at it so long
when i redirect it won't last long
i reflect what i couldn't get
what i'll pass on

so much on my plate
gotta finish what i started up
throw it all away
if what i made ain't what i wanted to
think i need a break
then i'm lying wide awake
i don't wait, i won't hesitate
i can't pull the brakes

yea i'm stuck
i'm in go mode
i do not know what to do
should i slow down?
not my tempo, let go
but i hold on when it's ice cold
i can't wait to warm up
what a nice goal

redirect (flesh x chris6lair x taurs)

They wanna know what it's like
Hoes never staying the night (the night)
Call 'em a Lyft or an Uber
They couldn't just stay in my life (yeah)
I know that I'll never be right (right)
I can't admit when I'm wrong (wrong)
I couldn't tell you my feelings (feelings)
Fuck it I'll make it a song (make it a song)

They never liked me
They just want a friend around
Boy you shouldn't try me
Know I always stand my ground
Snakes in the grass
In the dirt in my DMS
I don't respond
I pretend like I don't see them
Oppas always spawn
Yeah they coming from the deep end
Water round my neck I'm looking icy
You should peep this
Told her that I lied
When I told that bitch my secret
I lost all my confidence
I knew she wouldn't keep it

Touch my body I can't sleep
I hate the way I feel
Your fingertips feel like lightning
Finally meet appeal

What is it like to be beautiful
That's not a compliment
That is a question
Look in the mirror
I feel apathetic
I'm looking pathetic
And restless
The empty inside it reflects to my outer
I'm not sniffing powder
I still feel devoured by habits I put in my chest since
I gave up on loving anyone
But I still fucking found you (I still found you)
There's just something about you (about you)
There's an aura that surrounds you (that surrounds you)
One that I feel bound to (bound to)

They wanna know what it's like
Hoes never staying the night (the night)
Call 'em a Lyft or an Uber
They couldn't just stay in my life (yeah)
I know that I'll never be right (right)
I can't admit when I'm wrong
I couldn't tell you my feelings (feelings)
Fuck it I'll make it a song (make it a song)

I can't say your name it's too much pressure but I love you
Show you in the car every song that I hold to
Even though it's bad I still think that we can pull through
Come stay at my pad and then I'll fuck you till you can't move
Cover insecurities with feeling up your body
I think you look perfect I think I'm looking too shotty
When we fuck I hurt because you're my Aphrodite
I'm feeling too amateur I think that you should hide me

They wanna know what it's like
Hoes never staying the night
Call 'em a Lyft or an Uber
They couldn't just stay in my life (yeah)
I know that I'll never be right (right)
I can't admit when I'm wrong (wrong)
I couldn't tell you my feelings (feelings)
Fuck it I'll make it a song (make it a song)

What It's Like

produced by melon

all the flaws you seem to see on your skin
just show how beautiful youve always been
shouldent care about what those people think
your soul must be the most beautiful thing

im out looking for you, got green foliage around
i feel rather nervous when im talking to you now
and when i lay awake yeah im thinking about us
if it all goes wrong no i wont give you up

would do it all again, sticking to my path
for you i would change almost everything
you know that, you know that
you know that, you know that

wish that i could do something for you
i can give you space, oh yeaj i would
shouldent carry all of that weight
oh i´ll stick until it changes

would do it all again, sticking to my path
for you i would change almost everything
you know that, you know that
you know that, you know that

path

epic song ft. vails @alex-thomas-fox
prod. @pastencounters

LYRICS

Push me down to broken bricks, ill build back into double
Dust and ashes, crumbled stone, forage thru the ruble

Lone soul, i took action
Lost all, control, 
severed good ties to my faction
I pray i still got home

Took a rotten path back home to where i dwell
Some friends may leave but the real ones are still here to tell
Things will change, time moves forward
Forgive your mistakes, but i wont forgive your words

Wording how i never felt, put me in the wrong
You were one of my best friends, in a second gone
guess one-sided connections, dont last long

Lone soul on another journey
Grab my bag, but i'm not leaving in a hurry
Blood may spill, but my truth will always cure me
I know who i am, fuck the judge and jury

[vails]
And all these thoughts I’m having lately all just seem too Copesthetic 
When I struggle with my mental health they call me so pathetic
 It’s a lot to fuckin handle, 
and it’s hard to face a smile
 I can pretend like I’ve been fine
 but my reflections in denial 
I’ve been a lost cause, a lone wolf in my eyes 
It’s been so hard, way too real to be lies 
I’d swap paper for a bitch but seems that bitches want the paper “Not a hater”, see you later? Thinking twice about it maybe I’m a lost soul

[Blospar]
Lone soul, i took action
Lost all, control, 
severed good ties to my faction
I pray i still got home

Running thru the forest and the trees where my lifeline
Even if i had a portal back i could never find the right time
Or the right life, just to get by, cause in this timeline, im never satisfied

Lone Soul ft. Vails [prod. Past Encounters]

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

i know i'll find another way
to feel like a whole person
i need a thousand extra days
to conjure some encouragement
size me up for now
i think i'm fiending for some sentiment
could you show me how
to make good impressions so no one forgets?

you don't wanna see me when i can't get the words out
i push away the people that i care the most about
i don't even mean the shit that comes out of my mouth
i can't help but feel like everyone is out to get me
wreck me
people love to test me
acting like i'm not worth the dog shit that they stepped in
i really hate all the people who never listen
the ones that talk a lot of shit then just act like a victim
you think i'm flirting, i'm not
i got a head full of thoughts
i'm sweating bullets and i'm starting to develop a cough
i waste away in my room
bite at my skin 'cause of you
i'm better now, but honestly, that shit was just fucking rude
how could you leave it like that?
no care for who you attract
you oughta thank your false god that these teeth can retract
i'll sink them into your knee
destroy support underneath
because i'm going for the jugular, i'm never at ease

i'm never at ease...

stop
wait 'til i'm gone
i know you're aching for something you've lost
preaching to some
get through to none
what is the point of explaining myself
when everyone listens to somebody else?
wasting my breath on the anger you held
it's all my fault and i reap what i sow
you fooled me once now that's twice in a row

knee

https://soundcloud.com/evergardens/remorse original

lyrics:
were u always unsure
did u care for a while
tend to find myself
hoping we reconcile

and now its not urs
see ur losing ur smile
u must feel some remorse
to act so jealous now

ooooo

dont u cry its getting u nowhere
you come to find ur actions have consequences
i know u act under false pretenses

dont u cry its getting u nowhere
you come to find ur actions have consequences
i know u act under false pretenses

were u always unsure
did u care for a while
tend to find myself
hoping we reconcile

and now its not urs
see ur losing ur smile
u must feel some remorse
to act so jealous now

remorse(cover)

guitar by me

lie to my face
if that makes u feel like ur okay
lie to my face
if that makes u feel like u are safe
and all my friends tell me i
got to move on at some point
but god, i cant just
put all this trauma aside
should i even say sorry?
ur the one that hurt me
and then called me crazy
whenever i cried
do i get to be bitter
that u didnt deliver
on expectations i fantasized
i guess ill say
goodbye

expecations

Hey guys sorry it’s been a while, we apologise for the mix all platforms soon tho love you all -AIE <333

lyrics:

we're building sandcastles yours is bigger than mine 
sludge sea salt hands hurting from the ocean breeze high tide 
can you merge your wall with mine 
build a kingdom where we'll hide 
in a pit of sand from your dad when he kicks it down I sigh 

we're building cities in the sand 
I accidentally knock your hand on it 
and it all came crumbling down 
I am no construction man but I can do just what I can 
grab the bucket of sand 
let's get into it 
dust my Jean shorts off and my flannel too 
let's rebuild what we started girl 
don't blame me I'm not perfect for you 
but I'm tryna make it up to you 
but it's really up to you

SandCastles (mackk)

The Forest Floor: Outtakes and Demos from The Naturalist, part V.

𝘕𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 
𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 
𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 
𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦. 

𝘍𝘰𝘳 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦.

Lyrics:

If heaven existed, I know it would appear to me  as a small fishing cabin in the north woods of Wisconsin.

At the table of a kitchen that doubled as a living room, I would watch the rose-gold rays of morning light eagerly cast their fanfare on the front porch, fractals dancing on the ceiling like benevolent shades 

𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴;
𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘮𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘬𝘦;
𝘸𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘱𝘦𝘵; 
𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘧𝘢𝘴𝘵.


Before me and all my friends were fodder being ground up by the lurching wheels of industry, there was my mother milling about the kitchen. 

Before I knew of powerful men that loved money over their own people, there was the steam rising out of my father's coffee cup. 

Before the towers fell, 
before the wars, 
before the plagues ravaged the land, 
I frolicked in that place: 

collecting pinecones, and skipping stones, 
creating a world that's inside my imagination 

𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴;
𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘮𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘬𝘦;
𝘸𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘱𝘦𝘵; 
𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘧𝘢𝘴𝘵.

All these thoughts swirl around in my head, 
as I press on further and further into the wild, 
and now further into my own mind.
Were those memories ever really my own? 
Of a life before the city, when existence was peaceful and struggle so very far away?

Or are they just a fabrication to keep me passive, 
part of a machine which is only interested in my exploitation? 

I'm not sure what the answer is, but as I come to clearing to rest and observe the gentle breeze blowing through the grasses, I realize that it doesn't matter.

This moment, 
this beautiful progression of consciousness from second to second: 
that's enough. 
That's all I need.

Donut Holes / The Clearing

prod by me (dawsin)

lyrics:

@dawsin :
don't care abt what u say
ill take it to my grave
i never thought that you would ever do the same
and i would never let you go

i will try to find,
a piece of myself to finally realize
what you have done
hopefully you get what you deserve

maybe if we broke up
maybe i would stay up
but i could careless
cause i know that we're gonna make up
every single little thing that u ever
did
so ill just leave it here and take my chances to dip

@1m1x :
you thought you could just leave me
left me in the dust now you are my enemy
yea, i could tell you never were a fan of me
all of that for what, cause you wanted to pity me?
𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑-
i- ill break you to your core what fate has in store for you there will be no more
this the end of you, not the end of me
i come back better and im stronger then ill ever be

@dawsin :
i lost my pride,
i've followed death's footsteps
why
why must i suffer
from someone of the likes of you

break me, will you stay for me?
once alone again
stay with me, till the end of times
my friend

pride w/ mix≬

On a journey with no destination. 

Producer /  vocalist  / engineer 
@prodhorosha on twitter

For mixing, mastering, or beats contact me at prodbyhorosha@gmail.com or on Twitter!

Donut Holes / The Clearing

Horosha

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