regret

non-profit, shoutout idealism

this song helped start the process of closure for a lot of things for me, I hope you all enjoy it

thanks for listening <3

cacophony [prod. idealism]

Produced by @splashgvng
Featuring @burylilac

LYRICS:

You said you think this town is dying
and I think you're probably right. 
That's one thing we have in common, this place and I. 

And we can still sit by the TV, 
holding hands with the smoke obscuring the screen 
but we could never get back everything we lost 

I feel like everything is falling apart 
and I can't tell if it's entropy or karma 
but I know you deserve to get away from this 
I know you deserve to get away from this 
I know I'm someone that you probably don't miss 

but it was so fucking worth it to see you smile at me 
life's been breaking me down but that's one memory I wanna keep 
so I wish you could stay awhile

'cuz things have been getting darker as of late 
and the shadows grow longer with every day 
and I think I just need someone to tell me it's gonna be okay 

Because it's harder than I thought watching everything I love decay 
and I know the pain you always feel 
every time you're here in the state 
and I know this city's full of ghosts for you, it's better of this way 
we're better off estranged

this city's full of ghosts but I can't help but feeling
the crushing weight, the realization reeling 
that I might share the same fate 

and I don't wanna die alone 
but the closer I get to you 
the colder it will be when this is through

Midwest Entropy w/ Lilac Heart (p. Splashgvng)

prod by meeeee

lyrics: 
staring at my ceiling 
idrk if im livin 
i cant feel shit
baby if you love me then tell me i cant feel it
i dont wanna do this alone
im still healing


hate me or love me
u do what u please
im makin money
i do it with ease
real bad bitch
and she all on her knees
real bad bitch
and she ridin wit me

got no friends 
ya they all switched up
in the back all alone
ya im all fucked up x2


ion got time for lies and bullshit
petty mfs always pulling some hoe shit
if u dont know my name
youll know it
i feel pain but i dont show it


its a lonely road im walking
skeletons up in my closet
life goes fast and i cant pause it

im still healing

Memories

Memories [ft. noxiousnights] [+ Metlast]

;(

Lyrics:

Stared at the ceiling as the walls caved in
Body getting colder as my breaths grow thin 
Blood on the floor and the scars on my skin 
Laid on my bed as I waited for the end 
Stared at the ceiling as the walls caved in
Body getting colder as my breaths grow thin 
Blood on the floor and the scars on my skin 
Laid on my bed as I waited for the end 

I feel so vacant and the colors have faded 
Life is not the same and I just wanna take it
All the time wasted, wish I could escape it,
I just have to face it and I fucking hate it

Stared at the ceiling as the walls caved in
Body getting colder as my breaths grow thin 
Blood on the floor and the scars on my skin 
Laid on my bed as I waited for the end
Stared at the ceiling as the walls caved in
Body getting colder as my breaths grow thin 
Blood on the floor and the scars on my skin 
Laid on my bed as I waited for the end 
Stared at the ceiling as the walls caved in
Body getting colder as my breaths grow thin 
Blood on the floor and the scars on my skin 
Laid on my bed as I waited for the end

caved in (sorrow bringer)

I'm looking at my reflection asking "who it is"
It's hard to answer when they ask me how i feel
I'm scared to make em scared saying how i've been
i've seen death and i stared right in her eyes

I'd point it to my head if you passed me the ak
I'm moving too fast you don't wanna stay on my way
I live life to it's fullest cuz it could be my last day
Life taught me you have to fall in love with the pain

Make sacrifices or you're sacrificing success
I worked more than anyone and they'd talk about coincidence

You will always end up getting what you really want
It's gotta be mine if against my head there's a gun
Most of these people bore me yeah i'm not having fun
Traumas looking for me, i've been on the run

You will always end up getting what you really want
It's gotta be mine if against my head there's a gun
Most of these people bore me, I'm not having fun
My traumas looking for me yeah i've been on the run

Heart's racing with everything you say
I still remember your lyrics about me
But everything is so hard to understand
I know you the best but i still don't get it

I might just ghost em all they won't hear of me again
Stay where you are, i don't really care

You will always end up getting what you really want
It's gotta be mine if against my head there's a gun
Most of these people bore me, i'm not having fun
All my traumas are looking for me, i've been on the run

I didn't hear your voice for so long
So i hope you will hear mine in this song
But i know i'm a lost cause, because

You will always end up getting what you really want
It's gotta be mine if against my head there's a gun
Most of these people bore me, i'm not having fun
All my traumas are looking for me, i've been on the run

On The Run

Sit Still [+ Jody]

1st @northshoremusic | 2nd @soulfadexo | 3rd @noxious-nights | 4th @emptychest | 5th @kuriositylol

Problems w/ The North Shore, emptychest, noxiousnights, soulfade & kuriosity [+ afterlife]

LYRICS

They said I'd figure it out when I graduated high school 
nearly ten years, I still don't know what the fuck to do 
writing songs alone in my room is the only thing I ever learned how to do 

I wasted all my time,
on fairy tales and lies 
so should I draw the line right here
before it's too late? 

I used to pretend my life was a movie 
with credits rolling as chapters closed 
in the back of my parents' car 
with the lake disappearing slowly 
I promised myself I'd remember this feeling 

Now it's 2021 and I'm still here on lockdown,
but life is the virus that caged me, I can't get out 
I can't remember the wind through the wind through the trees 
and the sun at my back, when my mind could just be at peace 

cuz that's all I really need, just some relief from being me

a quiet desperation

TILL IT OUTCOMES

On a journey with no destination. 

Producer /  vocalist  / engineer 
@prodhorosha on twitter

For mixing, mastering, or beats contact me at prodbyhorosha@gmail.com or on Twitter!

Midwest Entropy w/ Lilac Heart (p. Splashgvng)

Horosha