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w/ @hiraethsry

Lyrics:
don't know if i feel okay
i'm aware of all that you say
i'm burning bridges all day
not my fault you're in the way
don't know where i have been since
you speak to me with no end
sun shines down onto my skin
been a while since i felt like this
you run from all that i am
you take the flame and you end
oh you say that it's nothing but you're offended
without you i'll feel the same
i'll go on about my day
you don't mean anything to me
promises don't mean a thing

don’t remember from yesterday but I’m feeling it now
so confused on what you mean, I can’t tell anyone now
every finger you laid onto me, I’m feeling them more
I wish I could get over this, pass the blade and some
someone that I can take it out on, I can’t deal with it
stop lunging into promises you cannot hold me with
and only when the time is right, will you belong to me
twist and turning in my bed waiting for you to sleep
and sometimes I hold my stomach, like it’s your hand on me
and if I close my eyes and dream it well it just might be

don't know if i feel okay
i'm aware of all that you say
i'm burning bridges all day
not my fault you're in the way
don't know where i have been since
you speak to me with no end
sun shines down onto my skin
been a while since i felt like this
without you i'll feel the same
i'll go on about my day
you don't mean anything to me
promises don't mean a thing

burn

song by evergarden
for a while - evergarden <333
@evergardens

for a while (evergarden cover)

lyrics ⬇️

i talk a lot about you i dont think you think of me
i hate the ridicule i feel like this is hide and seek
switch perspectives for a second maybe you would see
its not really all that perfect in this deep blue sea
i checked my vitals and my heart is beating beautifully 
nevermind the thoughts i had of what it coudlnt be
cuz i dont think too much or at all when i fall asleep
and im so sorry when you call i know you gon hear the beep
and its my fault that i did everything i did to you

but if you didnt jump conclusions i think wed be cool
split my body armor when you uncovered the truth
i drank that that poison every night
didn’t have nun to lose
not much else to do
like now that i can’t fall asleep
ur the only thing in my thoughts I miss all the dreams
it was nice that I escaped my sick reality
but now i gotta go right back to find my inner peace 

i talk a lot about you i dont think you think of me

i checked my vitals and my heart is beating beautifully 

and im so sorry when you call i know you gon hear the beep
and its my fault that i did everything i did to you

but if you didnt jump conclusions i think wed be cool
split my body armor when you uncovered the truth
i drank that that poison every night
didn’t have nun to lose
not much else to do
like now that i can’t fall asleep

now that I can’t fall asleep (secre)

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

i’m glad your cheeks are red, my eyes have turned grey
and i look like a million but i feel like loose change
someone told me ill always get in my way
well if there’s two of me, ill make sure i include him everytime i pray

and with this circumstance, hope you think we should stay together
cause these dreams hurt so much
i miss you so much
and that’s my bad for thinking that i would be better after the mountain trip
i miss myself so much
and then you call my phone
i’m off the medicine
and i’ll sell my songs
so you’ll have a place to live
cause my heart is full
and my brain turned mush
hope you know when i’m gone
that i did all i could

let’s get it started then, while im here i might as well turn up
i’m drinking right off the block at this block party im bouta fuck it up
i’m gliding through this shit i really might just blow up like “Just Cause”
i know i “pour for four” but bae i really think that you’re the one
and i’ll slide
but im scared that it’s the last time
but you stay by my side
and i don’t know why you do that
but i’m glad you’re here tonight

and given the circumstance i hope that we can stick together
cause these dreams hurt so much, i miss you so much
and i guess that’s my bad for thinking that we would be better after the mountain trip
girl i miss us so much
hate being on my phone
i love the medicine
and i’ll sell my songs
so you’ll have a place to live baby
my heart is full
and my brain turned mush
hope you know when i’m gone
that i did all i could

i used to think that people like this were so reckless
now when my friends call me doing drugs i get jealous
my armors chinked with arrows sent here by the marksmen
they blocked out the sun and used my back like its a target
stop it
i been dodging shit like i did back when i fought margit
stars lit
baby come outside and we can stargaze
im out smoking on the balcony come and join me
i wont jump fr

and with this circumstance, hope you think we should stay together
cause these dreams hurt so much
i miss you so much
and that’s my bad for thinking that i would be better after the mountain trip
i miss myself so much
and then you call my phone
i’m off the medicine
and i’ll sell my songs
so you’ll have a place to live
cause my heart is full
and my brain turned mush
hope you know when i’m gone
that i did all i could

loose change (p. under the maple tree)

in order <3 prod nevrfall
@breckenford
@user-642636378
@kiddamo
@notaheroo
@notcursed
@alex-thomas-fox

hurt (w/ brecken, halfhearted, kiddamo, notahero, notcursed, vails) (nevrfall)

Another demoish song lol

Prod: underthemapletree
Mix: me
Voice note: @Rall333

Lyrics: 

lately ive been feeling like myself 
tug of war with my mental health
i dont feel like oh to well
but its fine cause i know i finna dwell

on these thoughts for like oh forever
shit aint happen but never say never
shit aint happen but i feel like a lever
people keep pulling on me like a lever

they say they miss me honestly thats misery
i just think it's history the way they been dissing me
ion even fuck with them i piss on em like pissery
this shit like my message i send it like a missionary

woah-oh

im like a prophet the way im moving off it
pop the ollie rocket i got that like i stocked it 
pop the heelflip on it im moving like an onyx
aint got no wax so i push like bionic
 
yeah i
push like bionicles
robotic flow when i write these chronicles
spit so fire my flow full conical 
99d im hard like im coming close

100 degrees it's hot like im boutta doze off
the way im moving i feel like lara croft
man im sleeping up in the loft
that shit made me fucking cough

yeah it made me so sick
now im pissed off
writing all this so quick
and i feel like i just need to rest now (outside in the sun)
i just need someone to no get pressed now (outside in the sun sun)

in the sun im on a fucking run
im running away from all the problems i face
i love fun
man i miss this shit ion wanna be a disgrace
get the fuck outta my face if you just fill it with hate

it's not like im already busy doing that by myself
i dont need your fucking help

tug of war (under the maple tree)

i can’t help but blank stare
when in your crosshairs
cus “life ain’t fair”
and she didn’t want me there 
when we’re on facetime 
she’s rolls her hazel eyes
cus she don’t care 
she didn’t wanna be there 
in the first place 

don’t promise me - i know you’ll break it
on my knees im begging 
cus i want you there
but you’re somewhere else 
she said “boy that praying won’t save this
when you fall don’t blame the pavement”
okay well fuck you then 
cus i’m good right here 

did you hear that?
she said don’t blame the pavement 
when i fall like that’s hilarious !!!!!!!
baby tell me all your favourites
i’ll put em in a playlist and keep it there with us
you want crazy? i’ll show you crazy
i’ll pull up on your friends and i’ll fucking bury em
i’ll lock you in this plain white room and when we go out they can’t help but stare at us 

i can’t help but blank stare
when in your crosshairs
cus “life ain’t fair”
and she didn’t want me there 
when we’re on face time 
she’s rolls her hazel eyes
cus she don’t care 
she didn’t wanna be there 
in the first place 
x2

blame the pavement (mackk)

Lost In This Rhythm #FAV-2

Live & Die (prod. Dubba-AA) by NBA YoungBoy

I think everyone should play an instrument, you don't have to make a living out of it, just sit down and play.

Beat account: @houcibeats