performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

[mental]
i could never hate u
doesnt matter what u do
i know that u hate me
usually i hate me too
tired of complaining
but idk what else to do
tired of explaining
every wrong move i choose

feels like ive lost every reason
nobody else to believe in
think ive got too many secrets
so i keep sleeping and dreaming
that once for a change i could feel something else
and it pains me to stay with the cards ive been dealt
i could keep moving forwards and look for some help
but id rather exist with just u and myself <3

[blxty]
so bby tell me what hits harder den my words
i'm sick n tired of explaining so u first
i still cant find it so i cant tell u my worth
so bby would tell me would u feel the same..
if u were hurt
Like wud it work?
wud u find me useful?
or wud i b like dirt?
and maybe it's just a process
One that i can not process
bang my head n the wall
and u wont tell me i lost it
pls jus tell me i lost it

https://open.spotify.com/album/5dkyRFb1yJPEI0MDEtQi8v?si=7obS22PkQE-X6LH4oxsTHA

after you feat blxty

@prodbytoshi @newgarasu
失われたものを忘れる🎋🎋

ヽ(*ﾟдﾟ)ノ

prbly gna remastr dis soons wher i rec a lot of rvrb '(

https://open.spotify.com/album/6pF9eAcG8AIsqej5UlwO8I?si=2yhUf6V6QtiT-AlsaCSRTg&dl_branch=1

[☂˚]
sry bt its nt workn out tht wayy ;//
n iv bn thinkn ab it lik all dayy
if theres nthn tht i cn do than ok
bt it wont b anythn else but this nw alwys (◎ ◎)ゞ	

pls dnt tll me wht i 4gt (シ_ _)シ	
cz it tuk me sm time 
dnt remind me of wht i lost,, cnt subside 
n i cldnt tell u wht this is all4 y ?
its anothr nite tht i cnt close my eyes  ± _ ±

lately hasnt bn tha same
mb i might b2blame,, 
think theres smthn thts beyond tha frame 🐾🐾
nw its fadn i4gt ur name 

blame blame blame blame 🎋🎋
same same same same ☂˚☂˚
same same same same ☂˚☂˚

tll me wht is wrong i cld nvr stop
n its bn way2long so ofc im lost
mb i shld think 2x ab tha cost 🍓🍓
bt i cldnt live wit known,, i cannot stop

tk me bacc2a time wher i didn deal wit it
bt intha end it is how it is,, guess i gta gt a grip
i dnt wna say tht shtt,, i jus wna b in bliss ##
i dnt think i cn 4gt #.# idk wht all dis is !

⋆｡⋆☂˚｡⋆｡˚*•̩̩͙✩ 🎋🎋⋆｡⋆☂˚｡⋆｡˚*•̩̩͙✩ 🎋🎋⋆｡⋆☂˚｡⋆｡˚*•̩̩͙✩ 🎋🎋

ur name ⋆｡⋆☂˚｡⋆｡˚*•̩̩͙✩ 🎋🎋

song frm last yr @kimzhel

[✮_✮⋰\]
pissd off,, i cnt say tht i want tht 
i can nvr go back cz im runn out of time
cz i dnt wna fl like that ✮⋰✮⋰
by tha grassfields lukn@tha lake thas my lyf

i dnt wna do tht all againxx
flowers in ur hed we turn a mess
whn i reach out u didn tk my handd
green lipstick onmy chest 💋 x

by tha lightpole try2breathe
everythn jus gts2me
tend my wounds i cnt tk heed
let it go need2b free | | | |

brkn glass whts mor2ask
cn u pls gt ovr tht ?
c on ur face right thru ur mask
movn way2way2fast

more or less,, i dnt wnt u2b mad@me
bt its nt my fault u cnt c it 
b it,, treat it,, like its sum u dnt wna c end
anothr ##seedling onmy hed
whts nxt ? in tha grass i lay2restt

i nd2go far awy,, might jus find me by a lake
do it4my only sake,, its not2late liku claim
u bring the worst out of me,, n u make it so hard2breathe
u push me awy,, wnt trust me,, evn tho no1helpd u like me,x,x

green lipstick ✮⋰ ##2022 [kimzhel]

https://soundcloud.com/dethconi2/myl7feisfallingapart original

Prod Gurushawty & Cloudbxy

thank you coni for helping me today you are truly the best big brother figure a girl can ask for 

praise ariel for she is our light

cover of https://soundcloud.com/dethconi2/myl7feisfallingapart

𝐮𝐤𝐧𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐬 𝐚 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝟐 𝐬𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐛𝐭 𝐢 𝐝𝐧𝐭 𝐰𝐧𝐚 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐚𝐛 𝐢𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐚𝐛 𝐢𝐭 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐰𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐛𝐭 𝐢 𝐝𝐧𝐭 𝐰𝐧𝐚 𝐫𝐮𝐧 𝐧 𝐢 𝐝𝐧𝐭 𝐰𝐧𝐚 𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐡 

𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐦𝐲,, 𝐣𝐮𝐬 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐦𝐤 𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐮 𝐤𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐭 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭,, 𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐚 𝐛𝐚𝐝 𝐛𝐚𝐝 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧 𝐧𝐨 𝐲 𝐮 𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐬𝐚𝐲 𝐮 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐝  𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐧 𝐢𝐧 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐚𝐥𝐤 𝐚𝐰𝐲 𝐛𝐭 𝐢 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐡𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐮 𝐬𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐮𝐫 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧,, 𝐢 𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐜 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠

𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐮 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭,, 𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐫𝐲𝐧𝐚 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐨𝐧 𝐛𝐭 𝐢 𝐟𝐥 𝐢𝐭 𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩 𝐩𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐦𝐞 𝐧 𝐩𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭 𝐨𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐜𝐤 𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐮 𝐢𝐟 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛 𝐨𝐫 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐢𝐦𝐚 𝐭𝐥𝐥 𝐮 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐠𝐨𝐭 𝐠𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝟐 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐮𝐫 𝐰𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐮 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢 𝐬𝐚𝐢𝐝 𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐠 (つ﹏◕✿)･ﾟ｡ 𝐢𝐟 𝐢 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐤 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐰𝐥 𝐢𝐟 𝐢𝐭 𝐝𝐨𝐞𝐬𝐧𝐭 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐭 𝐛 𝐫𝐮𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐜𝐮𝐳 𝐢 𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐫𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐢 𝐭𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐮 𝐰𝐞𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨𝐨 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐠𝐨 𝐚𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐧 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐢 𝐜𝐧𝐭 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐲 𝐢𝐭 𝐬𝐚𝐲 𝐢𝐭 𝐬𝐨 𝐬𝐨𝐨𝐧 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐲 𝐬𝐞𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐧𝐞 ;𝐃:𝐃:𝐃 ꧁♥ 𝐩𝐢𝐜𝐧𝐢𝐜 ♥꧂

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i didnt realize i havent posted sum on here 4 alm a yr..

pierce my heart | ( ‸ ；)

inspired by the film hana & alice (￣▽￣)ノ
prod by @tgwog n @litothedon 🌱 ( ´ ∀ ` )ﾉ

hana & alice 。。

prod. latrodectus

i don't need saving
i'll just stay how you made me
you no longer faze me
our fire's burning out
i finally feel like i can breathe

what happened to me?
emotions fading
what does this all mean?
let it go like did i ever mean a thing?
i cannot,
i'm breaking apart i feel it coming
sinking in my bed i can't move
like what did you do?

i don't need saving
i'll just stay how you made me
you no longer faze me
our fire's burning out
i finally feel like i can breathe

IDONTNEEDSAVING

prod me.

lyrics - 

Ghost shadow 

Likes to follow 

Everywhere I go

I think we share our soul

Feel like sam puckett

Real camera action

A diva dancing

With all my demons

Full metal jacket

Thats why im packing

You just a fraction 

Of why im screaming

Feel like a puppet 

More like a shuppet

Im not your puppy

Can u just dump me

Into a ocean

Full of corrosion 

Or put me in a 

Or put me in a oven  

Casting spells like im lil tracy

Ring my bell if you can pay me Some attention like you crazy (Some attention like you crazy)

Show affection for my baby

This next level made me crazy

Tryna reach like its hades


Ok I lied I never loved you 

And that night I kinda drugged you

Every time we fight I fuck you

Salt with verde lime

Tonight I make you mine

We fly into the sky


I think we shared our soul

It gets so hot like coal

Like being bads the goal
 
Im just your average troll

Im living lavish though

I let the chalice go

And lost my balance hoe

The malice coming full

check out my other songs 🎵  >゜))))彡

projection

spotify

b-iz☆(funfriend)

@0rch_id
@mental
@mkne
@1vessel

[blxty]
i'm a nuisance
always crying in my room over some bullshit
how u feel bb i can see right thru it
how u want me even when i'm foolish
make me psycho i think imma lose it

[orchid]
make me syko i'm on my bloodpop bitch
clean the claws and i go back on some brute shit
looking at me copy on my newness
keep your head down looking like a student

step up out the maison in my margielas
i cant really blame u looking at me jealous
i just blew a tabi check on some ma+
i'm not cold anymore in my homme plus

[mental]
i wanna give up lots
i dont give enough thoughts
guess we'll have to pick up
wherever we left off
dont think i'll continue
look at everything u set off
whenever i'm with u
i can feel my heart stop

i dont have the patience for ur lies
goin thru a lot but i been tryin
i got memories back when u were mine
everything u say it reminds

psycho ft. orchid & mental (maknae x 4am)

bonsai planet  ✿ ❀ ! 

ripbonsai@gmail.com 

@i9u  ヽ(*ﾟдﾟ)ノ
@lbp2

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