Novo e irado: Rock alternativo

lyrics:
coming to terms with dying alone
mindless lobotomy staring at phone
after having a life that is empty at most
brain damaged parasite seeking a host
i have 22 years worth of baggage you see
and nobody can carry such deadweight for me
im expendable   surely im great for the good
but the bad is so bad that it ruins the mood
exploding head syndrome is always a blast
and i bend over backwards and land on my ass
which is always the issue thats holding me back
making excuses for people who treat me like crap
so id stay home from school but now school is at home
so i lay in my bed all day browsing my phone
neurodivergency eating my time
wasting my life being online

down at rock bottom , midlife crisis coming soon
throwing me out from a plane with no parachute
i have no plans for my life and nothing to do
nothing to do
down in the gutter, surrounded by sewage drains
stinking up everything till i relapse again
rock bottom doesn’t feel so different from my bed
so i guess

coming to terms with my spinstery self
is less of a shame spiral more like accept
so i’ll just live as a vampire suck out the fun
of every person who thinks im the one
i dont like to imagine the future at all
but maybe without all the trouble of love
i’d be fine on my own drinking blood from a bag
500 years old and still just as sad
so the futures abhorrent , and the past is a pain
and the present is empty and boring and lame
homemade brain tumor eating my skull
gnawing and gnashing head empty no thoughts
and livings repetitive  lifes just a bust
everythings relative  i am just dust
just the bug you brush of your ear
singing my songs that nobody hears
down at rock bottom , midlife crisis come again
throwing me out from a roof with no working brain
i have no goals for my life and nothing to say 
nothing to say
down in the gutter, surrounded by rusty pipes
falling asleep in the shitwater overnight
from shit i have come and to shit i’ll return thats  fine
thats fine

Rock Bottom

lyrics:

hold me closer
wait until i break
i promise i was fine last week but now i am a mess
and i wish that i was better 
like the people on tv
they go outside and do shit
and they dont have ocd
and i promise i was happy once
or maybe i was not
maybe ive been sad forever 
isnt that fucked up?
i cant say: oh i miss the times where everything was great!
cus there has never been a year where things were just ok
my brain is messy ! it slathers slimey snot
i wish i had a scalpel so i could slice it all up
id sort it into pieces
the good and aaaall the sad
id have like 20% left of things that arent bad
and i think that im annoying or maybe i am not?
but everything i say always sound so fucking lost
i cling onto people
with everything i got
hoping they wont squish me like a tiny nasty bug
cus i lure people in with my patheticness
then i run away cus i dont like myself
i go from being clingy to distant and it sucks
i wish that i was more than a little fucking bug
cus i lure people in with my patheticness
then i run away cus i dont like myself
i go from being clingy to distant and it sucks
i wish that i was more than a little fucking bug...

hold my hand
and then ill go away
ive sucked all of your lifestream out and now you cant escape!
its like i am a vampire
i feel like im a thief
i steal peoples time because of all my needs
and im sorry i cant hear you when you tell me its not real
you tell me that you have no problem being there for me 
cus my mirror tells me differently
it tells me i am fucked
it tells me im manipulating all the ones i love
and i make myself available for everyone to use
and never actually tell anyone if i need them too
cus im better at just wanting things and never speaking up
cus then i can just tell myself that it is all my fault

that i want all the things that i could never get
that i want a little break from my sicky brain
that i need a little hug so i can dissapear
i need a little hug to make me feel like i am here 
x 2

Vampire

lyrics:

so this is the first time i dreamt that you raped me
im used to the nightmares i remember them faintly
i couldn’t breathe cause your body was too heavy
i tapped on your shoulder as to ask you to not break me

i woke up in cold sweats the dreamt lasted weeks
standing on the train station holding back tears
dream became reality and reality too real
so i just laid in silence and waited to not feel

and im pretending to be ok when i know that i am not
i am cutting so much lately everything i see is blood
and i am waiting at the bus stop i am sitting on a chair
everything around me is moving and im barely here

i skip school again today like all the other times where i just choose to lay in bed instead of waking up and doing things and trying hard to reach within to find a tiny piece of me that isn’t too sick to live

living is a curse but i’ve committed to the crime
and i am here and i am breathing i am doing my time
i am sick of all the waiting but i fear what will come next
id like to sit in peace and quiet with a clock that never ticks

and i am tired of my brain and  i am tired of myself
i just laid in bed cus everything inside me is a mess
and nothing ever makes me happy except for slitting my own skin
even though i finally know why its the painfullest of sins

and im pretending to be sleeping when i know that i am not
as to rewrite my own dreams so once i’ve hopefully forgot
cus my brain likes to take good things i have and quickly make them rot
so i dont like to close my eyes cause everything i see is mud

i should just give up today like all the other times where i just choose to lay in bed instead of doing stuff and being happy and having hope for something that maybe will come along out my brain like in this song i realise that i am way more sad than i would ever have known had i just stayed in my bed watching stupid shows and pretending even to myself
cause i dont know how i can fix this shit
i dont know why im still like this
depression is a hole 
and no matter what i do i still sink
i still sink

Sinking

lyrics:

i draw for the most part
survive for the rest
i have a thousand ton of cement hovering above my chest
i have bones meant for cracking
but i know its up to me
to choose the ways i want to skip to pursue the path to lead
and i have lots of things to say to you
and things to say to future me
and all the lives i lead before the year of 2019
im glad you didn’t die at thirteen
im glad i didn’t die too
cus if i did i wouldn’t have been around to eventually meet you

when you meet someone you know is special
brain stems from your brain they  sense it
i became a whole new being
since our first magical meeting
i was born anew of sorts
learned what i am here for

i was so afraid of being
till i learned a human feeling
something I’ve been told is love
something i am thankful for

i paint all the things i like
but i also paint myself
i always hated looking at my face and mirrors was a hell
but now im really fascinated with the fact that i am real
that someone could just reach their hands out
and all my nerves would know to feel
im learning everyday about me
i am learning to give in
and jut accept that things are precious
like my own shield of skin
i want to someday learn to love it
learn to not slice it in two
one day i will learn to love myself the way that i love you

when i meet someone i know is special
brain stems in my brain they sense it 
i became a newborn being
learned that everything is fleeting
in a way that makes me certain
i would like to stay

i was so afraid of being
till i learned a human feeling
something I’ve been told is love
something i am thankful for
something that is always present
stronger than my deep depression
when i sit and talk with you
my whole being is so thankful too

Thankful

lyrics:

i am blood cute cus i eat you
mostly eating myself
i am shitfuck cause im lonely
life is boring as hell
and i speak up
in my nightmares
and everything goes to shit
so im quiet
quiet riot
and i cry for a bit

i am angry when im singing
and i yell all i can
put the creature in my brain cage
into the garbage bin
she’s a wild dog  and she bites me
when i try to stay strong
like when i play my guitar
and i forget where i was… umm

oh  the problems my problems
are becoming my friends
we watch tv eat popcorn have pillow fights to death
i am used to feeling used you feel the same way too i think
i am crushing up my meds to make them into pixie sticks

i am blood girl cus in blood world
we are all alive
check your voicemail
theres a voicemail from me inside
saying  “hey you , do your thing dude! blood girls cheering you on!”
hope yr ok if you’re not hey
maybe write a song

Bloodcute

lyrics: 

whatever i draw whatever i do whatever songs i listen to
im thinking of pain im thinking of death  it feels like a glue it sticks to my head
im seeing a corpse when im out for a smoke
it looks like my face just beaten and broke
i look to the sky ask: is this a joke?
if it is   its not that good

im not in the mood for answering texts
im not in the mood for anything yet
i am writing a song to feel like im real
that this isn’t just a truman show deal

if it was it’d be a horrible show
a feel-bad bummer type of series and yo
im all for some drama but my life is just sad
mostly consists of sleeping


wherever i am wherever i go   whatever i think that i know
is just my brain cells telling me stuff and why should i trust them knowing that all
the things that i deal with boils down to  my brain is a bully and i am the nerd who
always gets picked last  tripping and being laughed at

i am still sick so my voice is fucked up
and i am so tired of this gnarly cough
all i wanna do is make music and sing
but i am too tired to do anything

my whole room smells like a litter box
cus my cat does nothing but shit all day long
can’t crack a window to air the smell 
cus im pretty sure shed jump out killing herself


whenever i think or i use my brain  or im squatting in the shower pulling hair from the drain
i think of my body think of my face and how it is moving how it is shaped
i hate that im real and i hate i exist
i hate being aware of everything
i look to the sky like: got an explanation?
but all i get is static

Whatever

no shade in the shadow of the cross (sufjan stevens cover)

lyrics:

this song won’t write it self instead i yank it out with force
i keep on twisting hoping something gives something like sweet remorse
i dont remember anymore why i now avoid my friends
something just split in me and then i kept on wishing for the end
i had a conflict brewing up, something that felt just like a storm
but now my feelings simmered down and chose to hide and shrivel up
i cannot vocalise my fears i cannot feel when i am mad
i cannot dream about the good i only dream about the bad

hi how are you? i am shit, in fact im getting worse and worse
i want to cry but i feel numb, someone just call the fucking nurse
i keep on hitting what i thought was now the lowest of my low
but then theres something under that, another endless hungry hole
i know you’ll hate me in the end, i feel it come to that at last
i am too needy, im too much, i am like touching broken glass
you cannot care for me enough, and i can’t satisfy my needs
so i will want and i will want and never feel relief
i want to die i want to dig a hole to hide in for a while
i want to sleep until i finally wake up and start to cry
i feel so strung up like a rubberband, two seconds till i pop
but i can’t stop myself from bottling everything up

i am wicked worse and what a curse that is
to be the ever lonely wicked witch
i am so overly involved
but i am still detached
i want to help you but i can’t

I Can't

lyrics:
im 22 soon and time is a line
so i cannot go back  still im too far behind
im like watching everyone move upwards and leave
and im still on the ground floor and can’t move my feet
i am too grown up to ask for ur help
but i am too child like to do it myself
so if i can’t do anything what can i do?
except sleep all day long to not think about all of this 

who 
am i now since you threw me away?
i was a bandaid like i was back then 
im never enough so 
i’ll do what you asked
and i’ll move on
i’ll do my best
to de-attach

and if im 22 soon i cannot be ur kid
and my peers are grown ups 
and i feel like shit
how can anyone grow up 
and just turn out good
if i just had a chance
maybe i could’ve too

theres no future ahead of me
no 5 years from now
if i try to imagine it
i start to cry
i do my best to vision it
but all that i see
is a blank piece of paper
a black empty screen

Time Is A Line

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This track was made by @theguys-spicy-soundclown, with art by @e-twoup and @brugman58.

Track Sources:
Various Contestant clips
Pokemon HeartGold - Vs. Trainer Red (Miror B., Pokemon)
The X-Files - Intro Theme (DAT, Aliens)
Kanye West - Lift Yourself (West's Quest)
Hideki Naganuma - Teknopathetic (MTT, Robotic Vocals)
Hechizeros Band - El Sonidito (DAT, Latin Pop)
Yolanda Be Cool - We Speak No Americano (Bo, Ironic memes)
Notorious B.I.G. - Big Poppa (Sakura, 90s Hip Hop)
Bo Burnham - Left Brain Right Brain (Bo Burnham)
Toby Fox - Another Medium (MTT, Undertale)
Usher ft. Lil Jon - Yeah (Messy Recipe)
Jerry G - Hobart Drive (Messy Recipe)
Chūnibyō Demo Koi ga Shitai! - OP (Sakura, Idol Anime)
Michael Jackson - Beat It (Miror B., Michael Jackson)
Lil Uzi Vert - Money Longer (DAT, Lil Uzi Vert)
Lisa The Joyful - 666 Kill Chop Deluxe (West's Quest, RPGMaker)
Kanye West - Gold Digger (West's Quest)
Toby Fox - CORE (MTT, Undertale)
Lazytown - We Are Number One (Messy Recipe, Lazytown)
Splatoon 2 - Ebb & Flow (Sakura, Virtual Bands)
Green Day - 21 Guns (Trash Mammals, Alt Rock)
Quad City DJ's - Space Jam (West's Quest, RPGMaker)
Soulja Boy - Crank Dat (DAT, Dancing)
Katy Perry - E.T. (DAT, Aliens)
Brad Breeck - Gravity Falls (Trash Mammals, Mysteries)
Bo Burnham - Repeat Stuff (Bo Burnham)
Michael Jackson - Leave Me Alone (Miror B., Michael Jackson)
The Cranberries - Zombie (Sakura, Zombies)
Panic! At The Disco - This Is Gospel (WQ / TM, Religion / Alt Rock)

[GRAND FINALS] Phase 3 - Atop Mt. Silver

Anarquia é igualdade
Você pode tentar dissimular
Mas na verdade 
Lá no fim você só irá encontrar
O preto e o A

Não há um sem o outro
Você pode até achar
Que governar o povo
È alcançar um mundo novo
Mas só a anarquia
Realiza a utopia 

Mas só a anarquia
Realiza a utopia

Só a anarquia realiza utopia

falta pouco nesse estado
um estado para morrer
o corpo se contorse 
e é posto para vender

poluído pelas máquinas
as indústrias querem lucrar
com o suor e a morte
dos operários a trabalhar

um encosto na vida do trabalhador
falta pouco nesse estado
um estado para morrer
com o povo sem comer

Maquina industrial

[Slater's Verse]
Lately I'm dead
I can't stop feelings of dread
Lately I'm done
I can't have no fun
Lately life sucks
It's a cliche, now guess what
Lately life's fun
I'm done, all done

I don't know where I went wrong
And I don't know where I belong
In my head with all my songs
In my head alone all along

I don't know where I went wrong
And I don't know where I belong
In my head with all my songs
In my head alone all along

[Chorus]
Pity party, just for me
A party for one, so let me be
Pity party, you give me plays
I write songs and I'll be okay

Pity party, just for me
A party for onе, so let me be
Pity party, just for mе
Just let me be, just fucking let me be

[Owen's Verse]
My music is stupid
Pumping out stereo putrid
Confused and lost
I got fame but at what cost
I lost my friends and I lost myself
And all for what, she's still on the shelf
Goddamn this business is so lame
I'm going fucking insane

[Chorus]
Pity party, just for me
Pity party, can't you see
You make me feel like a loser
Why am I such a fucking loser to you

Pity party, can't you see
Pity party, just for me
You make me feel like a loser
Why am I such a fucking loser to you



Written by UhOhSlater and Owen Adamcik

Pity Party ft. Owen Adamcik

i'm not sure that i exist
never took any shots, so i never missed
this vacant feeling persists
i can't take living like this
staring at my screen is my only routine
i don't know where i've been since i turned sixteen

no friends to who i can confide
i'm not dead, but i don't feel alive
i never seem to have the time
spending all of my days online
wishing i had someone here to talk to
i've been forgotten by everybody i knew

i'm falling away, further everyday
i got lost trying to find my way
losing my grip on reality
another victim of a self induced tragedy

feel like i'm gonna black out
stuck in this game, i wanna back out
i can't continue without someone to lessen my doubt

Falling

lyrics:
i haven’t felt like myself for so long
i dont know who I’ve become
in the meantime
as the world passes by
I’ve been bedridden almost for a month
caught up cabin feber gone
in the meantime
everybody moving on

i cannot focus and now i am on my own
i am utterly alone   i am left to die again
all my friends all my friends
are so dear but far away  i am cooped up in my bed
dissapearing without trace

the worlds is caving in around my skull
making me forget that i can talk
making me forget how to reach out
making me forget that i am loved

but i can’t sleep in any longer
i can’t stay like this for life im not sick enough 
but sick enough to never be alright
i am wrongly wired  really tired
fighting for my right
to have a little hope that i will someday turn out fine

i haven’t felt happy for so long
i dont know where it has gone
in the meantime
I’ve been sleeping quite a lot
I’ve pretended everything was going fine
so i didn’t have to lie
if somebody asked me  if its gotten worse

i am sloppy with excuses  always covering my ass
i am scared of getting help
cus what if that shit doesn’t last
im on meds but still depressed
and therapy it doesn’t help
so im just tired of the fighting
can i ever catch a break?

i am happy for you happy for you but im so afraid
i am trying i am trying but i want this shit to end
i am lonely i am lonely yet avoiding all my friends
i am scared yes i am scared that i will one day kill myself

In The Meantime (demo)

all i do is sing songs
that nobody can hear
all i do is sing songs
that you dont wanna hear
so why are you here?
holding onto something
with both my arms tied down
im a girl with only bad things
on her mind
so why are you here?
why are you still here?

All I Do

Hello. I am Blood Girl! 
I am a 24 year old nonbinary creature that sings about sadness and bettering

Família de Músicos. Sempre envolvido com a sétima Arte. Música toca na alma.

In The Meantime (demo)

Blood Girl

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