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S@d Æsthetic Essencials Vol.3

Think on my own

think on my own (prod.by zzzxrian x ProdbyEP

Caro Etern - ON THE OUTSIDE

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Kevin Adler & Lxst Boy - Lucid Dreaming (Prod. by Boyfifty)

featuring @sewerperson
produced by @prodjody

highway (ft. sewerperson)(prod. jody)

Lyrics - 
verse 1:

you're gone in the morning 
and now im living in silence
but i still have your number in my phone
i wish that i could see you again 

you are the reason why 
i still don't understand
and sometimes it gets hard to pretend 
still wish that i could see you again

hook:
you are the reason why 
i still don't understand
and sometimes it gets hard to pretend 
still wish that i could see you again

still wish that i could see you again
still wish that i could see you again

verse 2:

yeah i still remember 
how you looked me in my eyes
how you said you love me 
and how we danced for the whole night 

do you ever think of me
because baby i still think of you 
and everytime you're not with me 
i can't breath
just wanna hold you close to me

you are the reason why 
i still don't understand
and sometimes it gets hard to pretend 
still wish that i could see you again

hook:
you are the reason why 
i still don't understand
and sometimes it gets hard to pretend 
still wish that i could see you again

still wish that i could see you again
still wish that i could see you again

you are the reason why
i still don't understand
and sometimes it gets hard to pretend

wish i could see you again w/LEVI

listen to mæsks music: https://soundcloud.com/maesk337

beat made by https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_161

pekarots yt: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBVicoij06gb6PA2rapkqFg

/lyrics/

(tearsonmygucci)

i need help like i don't know what I'm supposed to do
sit under an overpass breathing fumes
passing street lights down another avenue
if i gotta die i would rather rot with you

back in april we were fighting just like usual
said you hated me oh so casual
held you tight but then you were gone 
if id known that it would be the last i held on

i see faces looking through the window
thoughts are whirling i just wanna be alone
oh solitude is rare cause i still hear you 
in my room 
lead my to my tomb i can't take it

thought i had convinced myself I'm better of
every morning i was better i was moving on
but i saw you in my dreams and i know that
it's never gone away my heart just went numb

all this pressure gonna make my skull cave in
at the end i hope you know that i still never gave in
it's hard to loosen up my grip 
cause i know I'll slip
without you to hold me back from losing it

(mæsk)

I've got this calming view and now I’m picturing ur face
And u now wanna talk, ok let’s talk about this pain
And now I’m sat beside a tree I’m taking all the shade
If u were here right now I know you'd wash it all away


I’ve got things I’ll never mention but it’s haunting me
Clouds are taking shape I swear that they’re taunting me
My head goes down but, swear I’m no different to all these broken leaves
If u were right now I’d view the world so differently

One more time,
The pressures building and it’s heating up
Wasn’t being honest when I said that I was fine
What’s in the past is deep and buried, I know I can’t do much
I’d be content if I could only see u one more time

(tearsonmygucci)

thought i had convinced myself I'm better of
every morning i was better i was moving on
but i saw you in my dreams and i know that
it's never gone away my heart just went numb

all this pressure gonna make my skull cave in
at the end i hope you know that i still never gave in
it's hard to loosen up my grip cause i know I'll slip
without you here to hold me back from losing it

I never gave up on us - ft. mæsk (Pekarot)

cardigan ft KcChalk (irby x jolst)

produced by me
hope you enjoy <3

socials:
www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

discord.gg/hsUwdAJknJ

lyrics:

And I’m so sick of always fucking up
Always apologize, it’s the last time
Blame it on me, i’m never good enough
Lost my peace, now I lash out

Cant get rid of the taste out my fuckin mouth
Carve out my tongue, said too much, bleeding out
Doesnt matter what I do, it’s way too late
Screaming out and procrastinate

I can’t
Stay here
Mental
Dread and
Pain gets
Stronger
Isolated

I can’t keep it up, nah
Throw me out, leave me to rot
I think it’s easier that way for me
You have no say in this, so just leave me

I dont care what they say
I ignore, most of dms
I don’t know why it’s so hard to
Keep a convo, maybe laugh

Caught myself staring at the ceiling
Everyone pretends they know the feeling
7 years has passed and I’m still healing
You will never know what I’m concealing

Caught myself staring at the ceiling
Everyone pretends they know the feeling
7 years has passed and I’m still healing
You will never know what I’m concealing

blame

stream

back to weekly songs soon i promise.
its a new era

prod. sorrowbringer x me <3

lyrics:

try to impress but it comes out fuckin gibberish
torch me to bits as the reputation settles in
mediate the confilct intimidate the cheiftans heir
this human form my disguise and i'm shedding skin
fighting tooth nail claw and i won't let em in
run me out the town i'll come back with an army
we'll tear ur men to bits roast ur offspring with a charring
the grass will dye red by the end of the night here

unless u stop hunting me
i wait here for your concede
i stakeout with 9 slugs in me
i chose truth n i was wrong to
but still i breathe
i've been up all night plus a day and a half
i still worry for my kind now that u lash out like that
it seem clear to me ur people xenophobic
i had trusted u but it's clear to me that is over

my friends won't leave their caves cause of u and it breaks me
so all that i can do is rid ur people from our place here
ur buddy shot me nine times what u gotta say to that
i'm gonna murder all your people i don't care if they our friends
get out my way i got buisness to do on ur village
there's a couple hundred people that i really gotta see
they got appointments to get their heads lopped off at this moment

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try to impress but it comes out fuckin gibberish
torch me to bits as the reputation settles in
mediate the confilct intimidate the cheiftans heir
this human form my disguise and i'm shedding skin
fighting tooth nail claw and i won't let em in
run me out the town i'll come back with an army
we'll tear ur men to bits roast ur offspring with a charring
the grass will dye red by the end of the night here

unless u stop hunting me
i wait here for your concede
i stakeout with 9 slugs in me
i chose truth n i was wrong
but still i breathe

revenge

impatience Ft. sendflowrs

thank u for 300 followers :)

stay disciplined <3 

lyrics 

sittin on top of a tree, hoping i make it out
just tryna get in good habits, then i turn it on and hit the ground
sipin my coffee
please dont make a sound
let me sip my coffee or im jus gon sit around

feel the breeze, brush the leaves, and look at ur hometown
feeling so small, its ok, yeah its allowed
but if u think about it for too long, tommorow will become the now

im on track to 200 songs this year if u round to hundreds
my notes on like a thousand, yet my motivation plumets
i cant tell u why i do this, i cant tell u nothin
but its like every fuckin night, even when im not productive

i still feel there’s hope but i cant tell u when its coming
i jus wanna know, like please give me a sign or something
but you cant rely on an outside source
so put in front your musts and remove all this fuckin “wanting”

like remove all this fuckin wanting 
just do it
like remove all this fuckin wanting 
ooo 
remove all this fuckin wanting 
remove all this fuckin wanting

slow process (drkmnd x no spirit)

Veins

prod. sorrow bringer
artwork done by my gf :)

you broke me down was it worth it?

you broke me down was it worth it?
i’m breaking beneath the surface
waiting for a higher purpose
but i know that’s worthless
i fear not for the end
i know that i’ll be fine
cause i’m the after life 
i know that you’ll still be mine
i’m letting go of the past cause it was flawed by desgin

failed from the fucking beginning 
they were out to get me
but i ended up winning
so i’ll sit back and wait
while you take your place
fucking your lying games
you’re such a fucking waste time for me
now it’s time for you to see

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 
you were to me
i can finally breathe
i was on my knees 
begging for you to leave
my life for good this time
well it seems i finally got what’s mine

nothing can change my mind
nothing can help you now
watch as the blood drips down
from your eyes
while you cry
no surprise 

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 
you were to me
i can finally breathe
i was on my knees 
begging for you to leave
my life for good this time
well it seems i finally got what’s mine

broken beneath the surface (sorrow bringer)

got decent shit all up in my mind right now

jake hill - wake up, but it's less dark (prod zwall)

Prod. & Mixed By
@33marrow

Artwork By
https://www.instagram.com/gloomrot.bc/

Lyrics:

You love me
Alright
I love you

Fly me to fly me to 
Fly me to the moon I’ll dance among the stars 
Fly me to fly me to 
Fly me to the moon I’ll dance among the stars 

Can I fly you to the moon
Can we play among the stars
I’ve been thinking of you lately 
Took control over my heart
You say that you needed space 
Atmosphere was in my arms
When I look up at your face 
The reflection shows the scars 
So I’ll fly you to the moon 
Where we float among the stars
Darkest ocean ever known
But the lights come from a far 
I wish this would never end
I’ve been trying to pretend 
Somethings wrong and it’s within
The reflection seems to win 

Why’d you leave me 
Why’d I say no
Sometimes our mistakes
Open up our souls 
Really lost myself
Yet I didn’t know
All these thoughts all these marks really took a toll and 

Somethin been buggin me but I won’t say it
I’ve got a tendency, feeling so vacant
All of these memories being adjacent
You were the one I shoved in the pavement 

I Pushed you away by hating my self 
Feeling so strange don’t know how it felt
Thought I was good but faltered my health
It wasn’t you I was stuck in my cell

Fly me to fly me to 
Fly me to the moon I’ll dance among the stars 
Fly me to fly me to 
Fly me to the moon I’ll dance among the stars 

You need to forgive yourself
I Can’t

Can I fly you to the moon
can we play among the stars
I’ve been thinking of you lately 
Took control over my heart
You say that you needed space 
atmosphere was in my arms
When I look up at your face 
The reflection shows the scars 
so I’ll fly you to the moon 
Where we float among the stars
Darkest ocean ever known
But the lights come from a far 
I wish this would never end
I’ve been trying to pretend 
Somethings wrong and it’s within
The reflection seems to win

Scargazer (Prod. ³³marrow)

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Artwork / Recorded / Mixed by @illfaith