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CITY/SUBURBS ft. yusuf (prod. siemspark x alexbrazy x aton)

NEVER STOP/WOLK/762

=LYRICS=
crying for a change thatll never come
blacking out the only time that i dont feel the numb
i keep doing all these drugs and know the outcome
im in a vicious fucking cycle i cant out run
having talks with higher beings im the only son

i cant tell the difference now

i cant tell the difference now

sleep when im awake awake when im asleep i turned my own my reality into a fucking a dream
send straight down your spine take a look inside my mind
ticking just like a bomb noboby knows whens the time
Im always on the edge 
closer to flatline
dont care about where i go cause i know ill be just fine

(interlude) bleedingfrommythroat +drugslutt+

The tale of a man not knowing how to love nor receive it, but is willing to do everything in his power to learn...enjoy.

I want to be better..I will be better...I'm trying 
           Can't you see I'm fuckin trying...


Lyrics 


Verse: I walk these empty halls, I hate these screaming walls. I'm alone again. She's loved my rotting heart, as I tore her apart. Please forgive my sins. Guess this is what I deserve...

Hook: I've tried my best to change,  but I'm so fucking tired of breaking her. From this mountain of pain is where my mind shall lay, to protect her and fight this fucking curse.


Shinrai: This fucking curse
I told you that you were the lantern
Guiding me through the forest
But now there's no light in sight
I wander all alone
This hellscape they call love
Now I'll never know
If you made it out
My world is a hell without you
Prophecy told of a story of two
Destined to be together forever


Verse: Maybe I've got it wrong and you've been right all on along, to love me now. Her feelings are too strong so, I can't give up now.

             (so I can't give up now...×2)


Hook: I've tried my best to change, but im so fucking tired of breaking her. From this mountain of pain is where my mind shall lay, to protect her, and fight this fucking curse 

This Love I Do Not Deserve w/ Shinrai

The tale of a man not knowing how to love nor receive it, but is willing to do everything in his power to learn...enjoy.




Ik this cruel world...I will live by its means for now...until it is mines.

Lyrics 

Verse: I've been searching for a while just to figure out what's wrong.  Please tell me why I'm like this, why can't I get along?

What has caused me this hell? Why am I overwhelmed? Will I ever prevail? Or is it up to someone else? 

Please I will do whats right.  I will try to comply. Just believe in the lie. Or surely you will die×2

Hook: What is this fuckin curse that plagues my soul? To where will I run? Oh where will I go? ×2

Verse: I stand here...broken before you, don't stay here...run my darling.×2

Bridge: What has caused me this hell? Why am I overwhelmed? Will I ever prevail? Or is it up to someone else? 

Hook: What is this fuckin curse that plagues my soul? To where will I run? Oh where will I go? ×2


The Curse Of Knowledge

Not Alright; beat produced by XEEZAY BEATS. Vocals done by Ethereal Shadow, Original God &EJT! Check out both of their pages here as both artists are fucking amazing!

Original God:
https://soundcloud.com/original-god/tracks

EJT:
https://soundcloud.com/user-28531486

Mad Design for the album art:
https://www.instagram.com/official_maddesign/

Lyrics:

[Ethereal Shadow]
You say it’s alright
Yeah you say that I am fine
But you never feel the chill
That’s running down my fucking spine
You don’t ever see the shadows
That’re lurking in the light
You don’t ever hear the voices
Screaming in my feeble mind

I am lost
In the corner looking for something
What’s the cost
I’ll find the truth even if it kills me
I am lost
In the corner looking for something
What’s the cost
I’ll find the truth even if it kills me

[Original God]
*missing*

[Ethereal Shadow]
You say it’s alright
Yeah you say that I am fine
But you never feel the chill
That’s running down my fucking spine
You don’t ever see the shadows
That’re lurking in the light
You don’t ever hear the voices
Screaming in my feeble mind

I am lost
In the corner looking for something
What’s the cost
I’ll find the truth even if it kills me
I am lost
In the corner looking for something
What’s the cost
I’ll find 
the truth even if it kills me

[EJT]
*missing*

Not Alright [Ft. Original God & EJT] (Prod. XEEZAY BEATS & brodymckeegan)

Yeah shawty kinda shawty kinda bad but she don’t wanna talk about it 

yeah i’m stacking up my numbers so you know i’m getting clouted 


pull up vision blurry clout goggles always staying clouded 

keep the ganja on me, smoking gas you know 

IM ABOUT IT

SPOUT IT

DRIPPIN LIKE A FOUNTAIN


see me at the top like you climbing up a mountain
 
sippin on some wokk in my cup like i’m drowning 

Fortnite gamer yeah you know that i be crowing 


i just got myself a bag so you’ll never catch me frowning

i be dressing all in black not for business but for clowning 

HAHA

people gettin mad cause they say i’m the one who copy catted  

catered to the game so lemme brag cause now i’m getting clouted

make a couple racks and blowing stacks but we don’t talk about it

drive by tesla i be skrrrtin doin autopilot 



i’m gonna get it again, i’m gonna feed all my friends 

hey yuhh!!

i’m gonna count up my 10s 
i’m gonna skrt in the benz

doing better so better since never making no amends 

i be acting so silly, but really yeah it all depends 

all depends like swinging off a pendulum 
always climbing up all my opps but never mention em

going so insane and ima cut up all they brains 

clownin with the crew and this paint up on my face

CANT SAVE ME!!!

HAHA FREESTYLE

just some thoughts I've been having recently

beat by the vibey af: https://soundcloud.com/xmittens

Lryics:

I Think I’m bout to quit,
I’ll put my rhymes back on the shelf,
lock my songs up in a cell,
and say it's only for my health. 
And if I get retaliation, where demands are being made, 
makin it pretty clear they love my inconsistent dedication; 
I’ll say it’s all okay, fact is that my heart just isn’t in it.
Inefficient with relation to creation or a sentence.

Jumbled mess of thoughts who’ve gone out for greener pastures
Chasing bigger chapters,
turning leaves for finding answers.
And I can’t seem to justify writing songs for vacant fans,
preach to empty concert halls, and get applause from ghastly hands.
And what's the use in even trying?
a couple years and I’m still writhing.
Shoving meaning in my writing
and then pen it when I’m crying?
Yeah, I’m done…

At least for now or maybe longer,
the feeling hasn’t left, so perhaps I ought to ponder;
take my leave from weaving stories
find a love for brewing coffees,
exercise my body,
or reattempt to learn karate.

Finally score a lovely date
I think I have a lot to offer,
when I’m not playing games
I’m super into nerdy culture.

I guess I want adventure,
Not the box I seem to live in.
It’s cozy but I’m nosey 
I need to breathe a little action.

And I think it’s fair to say I tend to struggle with acceptance,
of my flaws and my skills I still weaponize my lemons.
Asking questions out to life, like how you make you make your lemonade?
When I was young I learned from Cave to make them into fruit grenades.

And I’m still throwing fire bombs at anything I want to make,
Stressed out over life and strife that it creates.
I need to change my mindset to be okay with being stable.
Take off nostalgia shades and leave my longing at the table,
but that’s easier said than done when I waltz around my past,
and miss the times I had and the way I used to laugh

So in the interest of it healing I’m saying my farewells for now.
goodbye and adios I hope your life continues well.
Jā ne, dosvidanya but it’s time to close the show,
I’ll see you once again as soon as I can learn to let it go.

I’ve been waiting for the day that I can live my dream.
But now It’s too late so pardon me I just have to let it be.
And maybe one day I’ll be able to retry from scratch, 
but I’m sick of chasing them because they never seem to last.

ooohhh ohhh

Quitting

Lyrics:

LAY DOWN
BREATHING THIN AND
FADING OUT
TUNNEL VISION SETTING IN
WONT TURN MYSELF AWAY FROM YOU
BREAK DOWN
SCREAM AT EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING AROUND
IT HASNT GOTTEN EASIER
JUST LEARNED TO PUT UP WALLS 
WHO KNEW YOUD BE THE ONE THE REAPER'D CHOOSE
IVE HARDLY BEEN SOBER SINCE I GOT THE NEWS
STARTED TO HATE THE WORLD IT DONT MAKE SEANCE
SECLUDE MYSELF FROM ALL MY FRIENDS
FINALLY REALIZE THERES SO MUCH I CAN LOSE
FADE AWAY
BOARDING UP YOUR ROOM PUTTING YOUR THINGS AWAY
KEEP PIECES OF YOU SAFE AND HIDDEN
MY HEAD FEELS LIKE ITS AT WAR
DEATH IS DEATH NO DEATH IS DISSIMILAR
POST TRAUMA ANXIETY IM INSECURE
SOMETIMES THINGS HAPPEN WITHOUT A REASON
I SHUT MYSELF AWAY THIS SEASON
YOULL BE THERE IN MY DREAMS I WONDER 
WELL ALWAYS HAVE THAT ENDLESS SUMMER
THE WAY YOURE LOOKING NOW ISNT THE SAME AS IT WAS THEN
WHO KNEW AT 21 ID LOSE MY FAMILY AND MY FRIEND
I FEEL YOUR HANDS GETTING COLDER
YOUR HEART BEAT GOT SLOWER
IS THIS GETTING OLDER?
FOND MEMORIES OF YOU IN MY MIND
IN OUR HEARTS WE KEEP YOU ALIVE
EVERY TIME I GET DOWN AND SAY FUCK LIFE
YOULL BE IN THERE JUST TO HELP STEER ME RIGHT

Laydown

a sad, low frequency song to conclude the project. goodnight.

This Love I Do Not Deserve w/ Shinrai

CELESTIAL

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