Hey Ma (Bon Iver Cover)

if you have been following for awhile now, you know that we have been in the woods for quite some time. "the woods" was a metaphorical space in my mind that i had placed myself in to cope with my life situation. through a chain of unfortunate events and people who turned on me, i had felt as if i was thrown into a dark woods and no one could hear my cries. 

during this time spent in the woods (a year in real life), i wrote over 30 songs. 6 of them were released. 

an incomplete number. 

today marks the 7th song and the completion of this part of the story.

1. "curse," was all about being wronged by the person who put me in the woods. 
listen to curse,: https://youtu.be/j_zwUDLokNA?si=kJQNtktqeQn0f09L

2. "freckles," is about the guilt of having songs as helpful as this and not being able to release it.
listen to freckles,: https://youtu.be/fd5iChMENng?si=DTXnWLS_JmXp3eOq

3. "pale blue," is about my inability to keep love because i cannot leave the woods.
listen to pale blue,: https://youtu.be/EhKUdTifgmY?si=EQMFbnXuAjdSCrKj

4. "anaphia; (intermission) is about my inability to feel anything while trapped
listen to anaphia; (intermission): https://youtu.be/m6VoSSPrhUg?si=ZeFdhnQlE7XInJ7Q

5. "silence," is about my cry over the trees to you, apologizing for my guilt and silence
listen to silence,: https://youtu.be/zojCxZLs2_4?si=W5nUhRflYGAWOhTL

6.  "good mourning," is my difficulty to function in real life situation while i'm struggling
listen to good mourning,: https://youtu.be/vBgYTQzXwKs?si=C4yoRxnnAZDZp6vy

7. "finale (i CRY out), demo 6" is the end of this other worldly era. in the video for "freckles," there was a poem on the therapists notebook. it reads, 

"follow the stream and leave the voices below." 

the stream that i step into at the end scene in the video represents a way out of the woods that God provided me with. While the stream isn't real, the words my loved ones and fans gave me, are. the stream are the words i follow on the way out of my mental rut. it is where i find my purpose and my sanity. throughout this video you will see scenes from my memory of being in the woods. everything is remembered in this otherworldly yet familiar art. as it is just a world i conjured up in my brain. the cabin you see in the thumbnail represents the passageway out of the woods that i find at the end of this song. 

the entire song was produced and recorded by myself in a cabin in upstate michigan. you can hear the beautiful imperfections of the space as we travel along in this story. i asked friends, family, and fans to send in their voice recordings. i built a compilation of the stream i experienced while it flows to the music i felt.

so now we are out of the woods and have reached the cabin, "somewhere between heaven, hell, and canada..."

fianle (i CRY Out), demo 6

save the story

finale (i CRY Out), demo 6

Fantasy (demo)

prod me

lyrics:

u thought u thought i was gon let u do whatever whatever u want to me
you knew you knew that ur the reason to why i why i began to dissipate

i never laid my hands on u
n i don’t think that i’ll ever do
even if they saw u that way
i would never take that leeway

pull away if
you feel
your body rotting love
pull away if
you need
a body to stop you love

ur staring at me
flashbacks on repeat
had to slow down and breathe
suppress my heartbeat

had u heard it racing
youd instigate the chasing
plenty boys here dazing
they reminisce their baby

u thought u thought i was gon let u do whatever whatever u want to me
you knew you knew that ur the reason to why i why i began to dissipate

i never laid my hands on u
n i don’t think that i’ll ever do
even if they saw u that way
i would never take that leeway

pull away if
you feel
your body rotting love
pull away if
you need
a body to stop you love

stream :)

leeway

thank u all i love u

[Lyrics]
(Verse)
Honestly I'm tired
It's the same things
But I'd rather die than let you go & change things
I know
Time is wasting
And everything's been weighing on me lately
I know

(Hook)
If you're sticking by, how could I let you down
If the choice was mine, I would've kept you around
Turn the blindest eye to everything we know
But it's the end of times, I oughta let you go
If you're sticking by, how could I let you down
If the choice was mine, I would've kept you around
It's a dotted line I wish I never signed
But it's the end of times, I let it pass me by

(Verse)
Do it get lonely down in Auburn
You'll miss the sun if you don't get up in time for it
Heaven sent , Heaven paralyze me
Look into my eyes till the end of time
Said that I'll be fine by the summer time
Wait until that dust settle down
I was out in LA trying to make it off the couch
I done lost so many folks, that's getting hard to count
But I swear it never hurt, you could check the bank account
I'm in last and in first

(Bridge)
I can't be alone
It's hell
I can't be alone
It's hell
I can't be alone
It's hell
(I should've known, that's the way it works)
I can't be alone
It's hell
I can't be alone

(Verse)
I hope
I see you when it's done
I've seen the way it ends
It ends
It always ends
The same
The same
What're you waiting for
What're you waiting for

(Hook)
If you're sticking by, how could I let you down
If the choice was mine, I would've kept you around
Turn the blindest eye to everything we know
But it's the end of times, I oughta let you go
If you're sticking by, how could I let you down
If the choice was mine, I would've kept you around
It's a dotted line I wish I never signed
But it's the end of times, I let it pass me by

END OF TIMES

END OF TIMES (patrick o'neill kbl wishlane)

mfs quit vaping for two days and break out the falsetto

i know you

summer cookie

I’d like some s‘mores cookies
give me some more cookies
when there’s no serotonin
I wanna feel the summer breeze

sweetheart
you’re always there
you’re giving me the best
but i still feel sadness

it’s not that i don’t love you
i’m handling my issue
just hold me close
your love‘s what carries me through

I’d like some s’mores cookies
give me some more cookies
when there’s no serotonin
I wanna feel the summer breeze

I’d like some s’mores cookies
give me some more cookies
when there’s no serotonin
I wanna feel the summer breeze

lalalalala lalalala umm
lalalalala 
I wanna feel the summer breeze

lalalalala lalalala umm
lalalalala 
I wanna feel the summer breeze

summer cookie

July:
Vocals: India Shore
Backing Vocals: Sylvie Chiang, Claire Altendahl
Guitar: Claire Altendahl
Bass: Emma Stacher
Drums: Aleksi Godard
Keys: Aleksi Godard
Lap Steel: Claire Altendahl
Engineered: Claire Hewer, Claire Altendahl, Aleksi Godard
Produced: Claire Altendahl, India Shore
Mixed: Claire Altendahl
Mastered: Claire Altendahl

Bed:
Vocals: India Shore
Backing Vocals: Sylvie Chiang, Claire Altendahl
Guitar: Claire Altendahl
Bass: Emma Stacher
Drums: Aleksi Godard
Engineered: Claire Hewer
Produced: Claire Altendahl, India Shore
Mixed: Aleksi Godard
Mastered: Victoria Seagriff

All Night:
Vocals: India Shore
Backing Vocals: Sylvie Chiang
Guitar: Claire Altendahl
Bass: Emma Stacher
Drums: Aleksi Godard
Keys: Aleksi Godard
Lap Steel: Claire Altendahl
Engineered: Claire Hewer, Claire Altendahl, Aleksi Godard
Produced: Claire Altendahl, India Shore
Mixed: Claire Altendahl
Mastered: Claire Altendahl

Don’t Stop:
Vocals: India Shore
Backing Vocals: Sylvie Chiang
Guitar: Claire Altendahl
Bass: Emma Stacher
Drums: Aleksi Godard
Engineered: Claire Hewer
Produced: Claire Altendahl, India Shore
Mixed: Aleksi Godard
Mastered: Victoria Seagriff

Games:
Vocals: India Shore
Guitar: Claire Altendahl
Lap Steel: Claire Altendahl
Engineered: India Shore, Claire Altendahl
Produced: India Shore
Mixed: India Shore
Mastered: Victoria Seagriff

June Bug:
Vocals: India Shore
Backing Vocals: Sylvie Chiang, Claire Altendahl, India Shore
Guitar: Claire Altendahl
Bass: Emma Stacher
Drums: Aleksi Godard
Keys: Claire Altendahl
Lap Steel: Claire Altendahl
Engineered: Claire Hewer
Produced: Claire Altendahl, India Shore
Mixed: Claire Altendahl
Mastered: Claire Altendahl

Way Up:
Vocals: India Shore
Backing Vocals: India Shore, Claire Altendahl
Guitar: Claire Altendahl
Bass: Emma Stacher
Drums: Aleksi Godard
Lap Steel: Claire Altendahl
Engineered: Aleksi Godard, Claire Hewer
Produced: Claire Altendahl, India Shore
Mixed: Claire Altendahl
Mastered: Claire Altendahl


All songs written by India Shore and Claire Altendahl
Artwork by Annaleah Gregoire
All songs recorded at Wellspring Sound and the Record Co. Boston

summer cookie

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